i killed an ant today. i was having a smoke outside on the steps in the parking lot, and i saw an ant taking a stroll around on the bottom step. i hocked a loogie on it, and i watched it drown in my spit. i didn't really meant for it to die; i thought it would crawl out of it, but it struggled and went the wrong way (deeper into the pool), and eventually, it stopped moving. *sobs* i feel really guilty and sad. i don't like killing things, except for spiders, but that's because i have an unreasonable fear that they'll come in my sleep and bite my schlong. (yes, i am a carnivore, so maybe i'm being a hypocrite.)
my morning song: "theme from an imaginary film" by blur. this song is from a very rare cd that they put out. i found it when i was shopping at the 7-story tower records in shibuya, japan. man, i loved that place. i would spend hours browsing cd's there. hm. did tower records go out of business? but yeah, shibuya was awesome; it's my favorite place in japan. people watching and massive crowds of humans milling about. and cd's are really expensive in japan, too, not to mention how massively strong the yen was when i lived there. back in 1995, the yen was 80 to a dollar, and cd's were over 3,000 yen each, so you do the math.
one of friends wrote me a message telling me about her satisfying dump. i laughed. ah, it's been such a long time (well over a year) since i had one of those. i barely remember the joy i had when i pushed out a meaty log. diarrhea's no fun; there's no pleasure in pissing out your asshole, no sense of accomplishment. the only positive thing about it is that i don't have to worry about clogging up my toilet, which happened more often than you might think. i used to worry when i flushed that my toilet would overflow, something which happened a few times, to my dismay. i have a long, dark stain on my carpet (which is like two yards away from my bathroom) as a painful (and panicky) reminder of what happened a few years ago. i remember how long it took me to scoop water out of the overflowing toilet with a plastic cup as i tried flushing multiple times to get the turd down. (don't worry, i don't drink out of that cup anymore.)
poor ramiele on american idol. she got booted. she's a little munchkin (probably under 5 feet), but she's got a nice face, and i think she'd be actually kinda hot if she were a lot taller. if she were 5'5" or more, i'd do her. she was sobbing after she got cut. once again, the hottie kristy lee cook was in the bottom three. i really think she's out next week, unless vftw gets another triumph.
haha. no, i can't get a tekoki referral from my massage lady. what kind of place do you think i go to? my lady is a traditional chinese medicine doctor who does massage, acupuncture, and herb treatment. no way she knows places where i can get a handjob.
i've given my gf's handjobs before. once, i did it while we were driving back from the gilroy outlets. for some reason which i can't remember, she was wearing a dress with no underwear, so i just slipped my hand in there and started rubbing. one vivid memory was getting a little scared when a semi truck rolled by on the right, and i was afraid that the truck's elevated driver would be able to peer into my car and see what was going on. (and yes, she got off.)
has any guy out there gotten a blowjob while behind the wheel? i think that's dangerous. maybe it's because i read a story (i forget whether it was true or not) about a guy who got into a car accident while receiving head, and the girl broke her neck on the steering wheel and died. there's that one scene from the movie _parenthood_ where the same thing happened (not the death, but the car accident). plus, i think it'd be potentially messy, i.e. spunk splatters all over the pants and car upholstery unless the girl swallows everything immaculately.
hey hey hey! hr girl just replied to me now, and we're on for sunday lunch! woo-hoo! now i have an excuse to get out of the church/gospel singing thing! ironically, i'd say: hallelujah! hahaha. plus, now i'm excited to catch up with hr girl, who i haven't seen in like two years. she's really hot, one of the most attractive girls i know in real life.
i'm actually glad that _the moment of truth_ is over. as addicted to that show as i was, i have to admit that it was getting old. i didn't like the way they hyped up each episode as "this is the most shocking episode EVER" and "watch her DESTROY her marriage" blah blah blah. but still, i couldn't stop watching. i did like the fact that they updated us with what happened to each of the past contestants. and now i have more free time on wednesday nights.
ok, time to finish this entry. i have two long e-mails to write after this.