because of my increasing tics of late, i've been smoking more. i'm averaging two more a day in the past few days. ugh. i got a massage yesterday, and the soreness in my left neck/shoulder area felt a bit better afterwards, but today, it's all messed up again. phooey. the downward spiral continues, and when it gets like this, it's hard to stop. :(
i got in trouble for going home after basketball to watch the stanford/cornell game. my boss called me when i was at home, and i ignored it. when i came back to the office, he had a little talk with me. he said that it was probably ok that i watched the game, but that i should have told him where i was. *hangs head* i likened this game to france playing in the world cup (he's french, and he's a soccer fanatic). he smiled. but still, yeah, my bad. good game, though. i was very pleased.
so one of my mom's friend's daughters found me on facebook. funny, i was just thinking about her (and her older sister) a few weeks ago. she's tall, has a nice face (great eyebrows, you know how i have an eyebrow fetish), and we were friends back in the day. the interesting thing is that she's cousins with john and walter. small world. so these must be the cousins that john talks about when he says he knows some family in richardson, texas. i went skiing one time with these two girls one year back in college, and i vividly remember that it was the best i've ever skiied in my life. i guess i was enjoying the company, so my mind was taken off of "the fear."
i'm starting to really like the mcskillet burrito from mcd's. i got one this morning for breakfast, and it was damn tasty. the only problem with mcdonald's is that they stop serving breakfast at 10:30, and i don't always get there in time, so i have to settle for jack in the box, which serves breakfast 24-7. but yeah, the burrito is good. sausage, eggs, cheese and potatoes. yum.
i am getting heartburn-like symptoms from dr pepper these days. i'm not sure if it's the "pepper" from the drink, but it sort of burns my esophagus. it doesn't stop me from drinking it, but sometimes i have to wash it down with gatorade to reduce the hot sensation in my chest. ugh. i really have to cut down on my soda consumption.
so kristy lee cook made it into the top 10 on _american idol_. once again, she was in the bottom two. i'm glad that amanda got booted off, because she has no versatility. she just shouts in her rocker style; i don't think she can sing, especially if she chose a ballad like simon suggested. she was a cool girl, though. when she said "cool chick" on the show on tuesday night, i thought she said "cool shit," and i was shocked. haha. oh well, on to the top 10!
i was strangely disturbed by last night's _south park_. the whole sacrifice theme with britney spears had me spooked. and them having britney blowing her head off and still being alive was a bit grotesque as well. i dunno. after watching the episode, i had this creepy feeling in my stomach, and i had to take a shower to shake it off. i didn't laugh the entire time, i was so uncomfortable. not one of their better episodes.
so today is the vernal equinox: exactly 12 hours of day and 12 hours of night. i'm really liking this early daylight savings thing, so we get more daylight at night time. spring is officially here, and flowers are blooming and birds are chirping. outside the office, we've got blossoming trees, and it smells wonderful. i'm hoping we have a mild summer; last summer was great, and i only remember one night where it was really hot in my bedroom.
so on last night's _the moment of truth_, the contestant's mom still thought that she was still a virgin. how old fashioned could you be? i mean, the contestant was this rather attractive woman who was a model and a hostess at a restaurant, and her boyfriend was this kind of slimy guy, and you just *knew* that they must have had a lot of sex. damn. her mom must be so naive.
i wonder what my parents think of my sex life and when they figured out that i had become sexually active. i remember freshman year, when k1 asked me in front of my mom to come to her house for thanksgiving hot pot, my mom said no. (my uncle convinced her to let me go.) over winter break, i brought home pictures of her, and my mom was very upset about that. we didn't get together until february of the following year, and i had pictures of her sitting on my bed and stuff.
my parents must have figured it out my senior year, when they came over to my dorm in the morning, and my girlfriend of that time was already there to greet them. i mean, that's sort of obvious that she stayed over, right? still, though, even to this day, my mom gets sort of ancy when i tell her i'm staying with a female friend, even though we're not dating or anything. oh well. both my mom and dad have seen my blog at some point, so they better have a clue now.
ok, that's it for today. gonna go home and catch up on some more NCAA tourney games. (plus, the mavs and celtics are playing right now as well. i think i've given up on the mavericks this season.)