man, this has been a really long week for me. despite the fact that i met up with friends three of the four previous nights, my days have really dragged by, and i am so *fucking* glad it's friday.
last night, i met up with some guys and ate at amarin thai on castro street. they don't have pad see ew or pad kee mow! and they call themselves a thai restaurant? phooey.
oh, i had a bowl of cereal before meeting up with jennie and her friend ted when we saw _superbad_ on wednesday night. milk gave me gas. haha. i was brewing all during the movie, but i held in my farts the entire time. my stomach was so uncomfortable! there was all this pressure. after the movie, i rushed to the bathroom, and it was empty when i got there. so i took a leak, and i was gonna rip out a huge fart, but then ted walked in and took a whiz next to me, so i had to hold it in again! *RAAR* :) i finally let out this huge rocker when i got in my car. man, that one felt good.
yeah, cindy, when i said goodbye to you at the wedding, that was post-walk and post-puke. that's why i was so coherent. i am a huge champion of puking after drinking alcohol. i always feel much better after yacking. first, it gets rid of excess alcohol, and second, it just feels great, like a massive catharsis. and, of course, you know that i can hurl on demand, without sticking my finger down my throat or anything. *flex* yay!
paul's hair is funky. for the past couple of months or so, his hair had been parted in the middle. i liked that look. but yesterday, he took a shower and didn't do anything to his hair, and when he showed up at my house before dinner, his hair naturally parted to the side! weird!
so my coworker D told me about the new ang lee movie, _lust, caution_. apparently, it's rated NC-17. so now i'm curious to see it. how much sex is in it? and is it good sex? i checked on moviefone.com, and it doesn't look like it's playing anywhere around my area, so i gotta ask you guys out there whether it's any good. i think it opens today, btw. i can't imagine ang lee directing porn, so i'm guessing it's tasteful sex, but damn, it's still NC-17! *slurp*
how prevalent is salmonella? for lunch, i had the scrambled egg and beef over rice, and you know, the egg isn't fully cooked. i mean, i've this dish dozens of times, and i've never gotten sick. and yeah, people drink raw eggs, right? but one time, when i went to japan, one of the girls i travelled with got salmonella the night before we flew back to the states. man, she was so miserable on the flight, poor girl. so now i'm scared of raw eggs. (though, apparently, not enough to keep me from ordering this dish. it's my favorite non-dim sum cantonese dish.)
i have a cut in my left nostril. i never know how i get these; maybe my nose is too dry? anyways, i pick out the scab every day, which is prolonging the healing process. yeah, it's a problem that i have; i love playing with scabs and insect bites and stuff like that, so that's why my ailments always take longer to heal than normal. although, that gash that i got from the volleyball cord is healing ok, but that's because i have a band-aid on it 24-7, so i can't get at it.
so k3 has gone off to china for a year by now. sometimes i wonder what it would be like had i not fucked up our friendship back in 2001. would i still be chasing her? maybe it's better than we went our separate ways. last i checked, she's one of those free spirits who never settles down, and it's really frustrating chasing one of those types of girls, because ultimately, you can never catch them. anyways, i wish her well, and i do hope our paths cross again somewhere in the future.
ok, i am really itching to get out now. but first, a smoke! have a great weekend, people.
so last night, jennie, her friend ted and i saw _superbad_. i liked it! even though it was a little drawn out and long (clocking in at 114 minutes), it was nice and raunchy. i loved the dialogue (lots of "fuck"'s). one problem, though, was that they forgot about us movie-watchers in the theater, so no one was up there in the projection booth. someone had to go out there and remind the staff to start the movie, so we were sitting there for like 20 minutes past showtime with our thumbs up our asses.
today, i played 3-on-3 full court for the first time. it's tiring! usually, for 3-on-3, we play halfcourt, but this one dude had the crazy idea of wanting to run, so we did full court instead. man, i was really winded. i didn't play very well at all, missing all of my jumpers. i made a few floaters and layups, but that was it.
so it seems like most people are back from hawaii. i'm having dinner tonight with some of the folks, so i'm looking forward to that. although, i'm going to miss _the office_'s season premiere, which is a bit of a bummer because i wanted to catch it in all of its HD glory. instead, i'm going to tape it on my VCR, so the quality is going to really suffer. videotapes look HORRIBLE on my tv.
so yeah, i don't give updates on my dumps every day. to be honest, most of my dumps are the same: they're basically liquid diarrhea. the daily morning routine goes like this: i wake up, take a leak, take my meds, put on my clothes, go out for a smoke, and the cigarette triggers my morning dump. and it just gushes out like a faucet, and ends with bubbles of gas popping left and right. and then, i wipe twice. and yes, i fold my toilet paper, in 1/8ths. and voila! that's the story of my shit. oh, and usually i have to flush twice because there's a lot of floaters and gassy pieces that don't go down on the first try.
so the hawaii trip cost me like $800. hot damn, that's a lot to spend on a wedding (not including the gift). oh wait, i haven't even paid mikeC for the condo rental yet. *RAAR* man, i've spent so much money this summer. i have definitely had negative cash flow these past few months. oh well. i guess i should just shut up and be happy i'm enjoying life, right?
do you guys know of relationships that work out between a religious person and a non-religious person? i've often wondered about that, because my mom really wants me to find a "nice christian girl," and she knows that i am not the least bit religious, even though she tells me to pray and all that. but you would think that religious differences would be a fundamental sticking point in a relationship; i've seen some fail because of that problem, and i would think that eventually, it would cause a huge rift between the two people. hm.
i am craving dim sum. or food in general. on basketball days, i eat breakfast and not lunch (i just don't get hungry after exercising). as usual, i got a sausage and egg mcmuffin and hash browns at mcd's today, although i'm getting sick of that now. oh, and yesterday, i had four meals. after the movie, i was really hungry (since i had cereal for dinner), so i stopped by taco bell and got three items and ate it at midnight. yum. taco bell is sooo good when you're hungry. i mean, it sounds disgusting when i'm not hungry, but when i'm craving food, the thought of a beef meximelt (with fire sauce) just makes me drool.
i wonder how my mom would react if she saw me drunk. my dad's seen me drunk before, during my last night in taiwan a few months ago. he picked me up at 2am after i went drinking with tony and company, after i had had like seven whiskey's. i think i was staggering around a bit, but then again, i wasn't too bad because i had already puked. but at my cousin's wedding (in december), i am debating whether i should drink or not. i mean, i *want* to, but i don't think my mom really approves of alcohol. hm.
ok, i'm going to take off early today. it's been a long week, and i'm so happy that tomorrow's friday. :)
hey peeps. this week is going by really slowly. every wednesday, though, i really look forward to the breakfast that my company gets. today's random discovery is that garlic bagels (with cream cheese) and fruit punch/berry x-factor gatorade produces burps that taste like guava. pretty odd, huh? but yeah, i love my wednesday breakfasts, but the bagels MUST be toasted.
i miss cheng, the young coworker who left last friday. i really felt it today when D and i went off to lunch, and it was just the two of us. the 4th guy, J, is on vacation to vancouver (i think it's for a wedding), so lunch felt really empty. i think i get attached to people really easily or something.
i had a long 2-hour meeting this afternoon. it's interesting, though, because i didn't crave a cigarette the entire time. when i know i can't smoke, i don't get cravings. situations include being in a meeting, on a plane, in a movie, etc. but if i'm in a situation where i know i could be smoking, then i start really wanting a cigarette, like if i'm driving or eating or walking and stuff.
work is going to start getting more hectic. we taped out a chip two weeks ago, so we've been taking it easy as a group. but now, a new project is getting underway, and there's quite a bit of stuff to do, even though it's technically only a next revision of an old chip. i'm actually looking forward to getting down and dirty with work again.
i slept a lot last night. i took my meds before meeting up with alan and ting for dinner last night, so by the time we finished eating (around 8pm), i was already drowsy. so i got home, putzed around a bit, and went to sleep pretty early. i woke up around 9:15am or so, so that meant i got around 11+ hours of sleep! it's been awhile since i've slept that much.
i am amazed at how many friends some people have. like, i check out their friendster or facebook profiles, and they have like 100+ friends! i mean, are they just acquaintances, or are they real friends? egads! what happens when they get married? are they going to invite them all? holy shit, man. i guess some people are just really social or something. me, i'm a big wallflower when it comes to social gatherings; i've gotten a little better, but i'm still pretty bad, especially when i go to events by myself. i'm a clingy friend.
how long to tetanus shots last? remember that i got slashed by a steel cable yesterday during basketball. i don't want lockjaw! i think my last tetanus shot was like in 2000 or so. how long does it take lockjaw to happen? i'm scared!
did you guys know that last night was the moon festival (tzong chou jie)? at night, i noticed the moon was completely full, and before, at the office, i ate a piece of moon cake that my coworker had. i can't stand the moon cake that has eggs in it (eww), and the interesting thing was that this slice of cake had some watermelon seeds in it.
so some of the hawaii people are making their way back today/tomorrow. paul, leeya and nelson are on a red-eye tonight and arriving at 5am tomorrow morning. crazy. i once did a red-eye to boston from SFO, and boy, did it hurt. in an unmedicated state (this was before i discovered seroquel and xanax), i can't sleep on planes, so by the time i got there, i was totally messed up and drowsy, so after i landed and got to jeremy's house, i slept until 1pm. i felt bad, because they were waiting for me to wake up to go out and do stuff. i hate travelling east.
i am tempted to call up jennie and see if she wants to see _superbad_ tonight. we both expressed interest in this movie when we had dinner last week, and i am itching to go out and do something. although, ting said that she really liked _gossip girl_, and it's on tv tonight on the CW. i checked it out on the web, but i wasn't really drawn to it.
ok, off i go. man. like i said, slow week. at least it's hump day.
so i was woken up at 8am today to the sound of a chainsaw. yup, some gardeners were sawing off some branches of a tree in a neighbor's yard, and it really pissed me off. i finally had enough of it and got out of bed at 8:30. damn gardeners, phooey. i had my morning smoke, took my morning dump, checked e-mail, and watched sportscenter. poor new orleans saints, they just can't get off the ground.
i played basketball today for the first time in two weeks. i got pretty winded. the worst thing was, i helped take down the volleyball nets beforehand, and i sliced open my finger on a frayed steel cable. ouchie! luckily, one of the guys had a band-aid, so i was able to keep the wound from opening up while playing. we only had enough people for 4-on-4, and we lost both games i played. oh well.
so the television season has started, finally. i enjoyed last night's season opener of _how i met your mother_. mandy moore got big! i barely recognized her in the episode, with her big tattooed arms and all that hair. so would it boost your ego if you knew that your schlong was bigger than your ex's new boyfriend's? i think i'd feel better, yeah. for guys, there's definitely a link between ego and penis size. although, it'd be even more awesome if the girl said that you were better in bed.
man, i didn't even realize that summer has ended. it was a good summer that just went by, one of the best i've had. so many weddings, bachelor parties, get-togethers. as geoff would say, good times, man, good times. it's crazy, though, because i was at macy's the other weekend, and they're already selling christmas stuff! and it's only september! what about thanksgiving and halloween?
last friday was my coworker C's last day. he was the 3rd person to inherit my katie holmes poster. i got the poster back in 2000 when i was crazy about katie and the show, _dawson's creek_. when i left the company, i gave it to william, and when he left, he passed it on, and so forth. so now, D is the proud owner of the poster. ah, katie holmes. i rummaged through some of the code i wrote back then, and i even named some of the gates "katieholmes" and "joeypotter." !! ah, television crushes. i got into a huge fight with k2 once, when i bought an issue of _rolling stone_ because katie was on the cover. we didn't talk for like a week because of that fight. what do you think? did i take my obsession too far?
by the way, i did an internet search of katie looking for pictures of her in short hair, and i think it looks good. however, all the pictures i found were with her in this nasty leopard print dress. while i like the hair, i can't get over the ugliness of that dress. ick.
i found out today that my tv is now $300 cheaper on amazon.com (which is where i bought it). my model is the sony bravia XBR2, and it's selling for around $1700 now (free shipping, no tax). the reason is because sony rolled out the next generation of the XBR's, and there's the XBR4 and XBR5 (which is like $3000). but i guess you can't keep up with technology, so whatever you buy will eventually be obsolete anyway. but yeah, i'm happy with my tv; football and other HD programming is beautiful! :)
ok, i'm hitting a major writer's block episode, so i'm just going to stop here. it's almost time to go anyway. have a nice day everyone!
so yeah, at the wedding i was totally drunk from my 5 drinks (3 of them being long island's). so from what i can remember, grace took me out on a brief walk outside the hotel to sober me up, although i didn't think that i looked that obviously plastered. halfway through, she held my hand. of course, we're platonic friends, but i remembered thinking, "this is nice." it's been a while since i've held hands with a girl, so this felt completely new and very comforting. :)
when geoff, pak and i arrived at the condo thursday afternoon, the guys who were already there were watching a DVD, _DOA_. you know, the movie based on the _dead or alive_ fighting video game. one of the girls in the movie, holly valance, was totally HOTT! she's a blonde, which i usually don't like, but man, she had a really nice face, and a kicking body to boot. go look her up on IMDB. i'd totally do her. it especially helped that she had short hair in the movie, and in one of the scenes, she was topless while fighting off the bad guys.
there's this one girl at the company who always wears purple. i mean, every single fucking day, she's wearing a purple top and purple shoes. hence, i call her "purple girl." i get annoyed, though; it's like, "wear another fucking color, would ya?" hrmph. yeah, i'm being catty, but really, i'd like to see her closet and see how many purple items she has in there.
so the television season for me starts tonight! yup, _how i met your mother_ kicks off its new season today at 8. what's different is that i won't be naked upstairs (post-shower) in my bedroom watching it on my small tv. since i have an HDTV now, i'm going to alter my schedule and watch it downstairs and take my nightly shower after the show. i bet cobie smulders looks even better in hi-def, hehe.
my cowboys are 3-0! i got back home just in time to watch some of the interviews after the game, and when i saw the score, i let out a whoop. we beat the vaunted bears defense! apparently, the score was only 3-3 at the half, so we couldn't get going the first two periods, but man, we really let them have it the second half of the game. tony romo did good. *huzzah*
so i didn't take a dump in hawaii for 48 hours. my last dump before leaving was at 6am on thursday, and i didn't take a shit until around 3pm on saturday. i was really worried about it, too, that i would have diarrhea while driving to the volcano or something. and what's weird is the dump that i did have was solid; yup, i excreted three little logs. strange, huh? and once i got back to the mainland, this morning i had diarrhea once again. i wonder what it was about hawaii that gave me solid turds. *ponder*
food in hawaii is expensive. i think i spent around $140 for the 2-3 days that i was there. of course, i guess i'm not surprised, since hawaii is a very touristy place. and the only other purchase i made was that hawaiian shirt at hilo haddie. my credit card stopped working at that store, though, even though it worked a few minutes before at the starbuck's. i made a call to BofA, and my account checked out fine, so i wonder what happened. anyways, i ordered a replacement card, so it should be on its way.
i don't know when i'll ever wear flip-flops again. i wore them all throughout saturday, and it just wasn't comfortable. i didn't like the feeling of something between my toes. and plus, like i said, i'm used to wearing socks. so those and my hawaiian shirt will be reserved for "hawaiian" occasions, just in case someone throws a luau-themed bbq or something.
man, my asshole itches.
ok, that's it for me today. with the bowling gang still in hawaii, i wonder who i can eat dinner with tonight.
thursday morning, i woke up at 5:50am when it was still dark. ouch! alan picked me up at 6:30, and he dropped me off at SFO. my pack of cigarettes set off the metal detector twice (i didn't think that the foil was made of metal), so i had to be patted down. i waited for geoff and pak, and we had breakfast. i had whiskey at 8am! haha. never did that before.
our flight was delayed by over THREE hours (crew rest and mechanical failure). i took some xanax, so i was knocked out for a bit on the plane. they showed _ocean's thirteen_, and i was interested in seeing that, but i was just too sleepy to watch it.
we missed our connecting flight from honolulu to kona, so we took the next flight. geoff got an awesome 75% discount on a minivan because the lady at the counter asked if he was in the military, so that was great because we got good use out of a bigger car.
we stayed in a swank 3-bedroom brand new condo with 7 people total, and everybody got beds. for dinner, we met up with the bride and groom-to-be (plus greg and cheryl) at cafe pesto. i got this pizza, but i didn't like it. and yes, i had whiskey, at $9 a pop. (later, i found out it was a 12-year glenlivet.)
friday, 5 of us went to volcanoes national park. on the way, we stopped at hilo haddie to get some hawaiian shirts. i bought a subdued one for $30. and then, we stopped by two beaches. one was black rock, and the other one was black sand. neither were that impressive. the volcano was 100+ miles away, so it took us quite some time to get there. luckily, i brought my iPod, so basically, during the whole time were there, i was the DJ.
the weather at the park was cold, windy, and rainy. boo. i didn't bring a jacket, so i was pretty miserable. there were times when i couldn't see because my glasses were all wet. haha. we stopped by some crater vista points, walked through a lava tube, etc. there was one hike, but i didn't go because i was wet and soggy, so i just stayed in the van and called up alan and john and smoked.
after driving back, we met up with john and grace and ate at the kona brewing company (pizza again). luckily, the pizza was better this time. they didn't have whiskey, though, so i just got a coke while everyone else ordered beer.
the next day, we went to another beach. to get there, we had to navigate the van over a mile on this horrible rocky road. i was petrified that the van would break an axle or pop a tire. luckily, neither happened. everyone went swimming in the ocean, but since i wore jeans (i didn't even bring swim trunks), i just sat on a bench and called some friends up. there was this hot girl in a string bikini that kept sliding down and a bottom that showed some ass crack. :)
then, it was off to the wedding! the ceremony was good, but the problem was that the sound system had all this static, so it was hard to hear the officiant. there was an open bar during the reception, so i had a whiskey, a shot of horribel tequila (jose cuervo especial), and THREE long islands. needless to say, i was pretty drunk. during dinner, grace took my arm and led me on a walk to sober me up. i apparently walked into a door, but i don't even remember it. after we came back, i promptly went off to the bathroom to puke, and i felt much better after that.
i enjoyed the speeches (paul lost his speech, so was up all night rewriting it), and there were all these cool details like the bride's shoes, the secondary wedding donut cake, the table markers, etc., so overall, it was great wedding. congratulations to christi and mike!
the entire sunday was spent travelling, which really sucked. geoff, pak and i left at 7am, and we arrived at SFO at 8pm. ick. alan picked me up, and when i got home, i just unpacked and went to bed. i hate travelling eastward. but anyways, it was a good trip, and now i'm at work again. *pukes*
so here's my 2007 mix playlist:
1. "never my love" - the association
2. "body movin'" - beastie boys
3. "just the way you are" - billy joel
4. "joey" - concrete blonde
5. "a letter to elise" - the cure
6. "counting blue cars (acoustic)" - dishwalla
7. "not ready to make nice" - dixie chicks
8. "big girls don't cry" - fergie
9. "i'll fly with you" - gigi d'agostino
10. "flake (acoustic)" - jack johnson
11. "light from a dead star" - lush
12. "blindfold" - morcheeba
13. "what do you want from me?" - monaco
14. "this i promise you" - n'sync
15. "don't look back in anger" - oasis
16. "the ditty" - paperboy
17. "home and dry" - pet shop boys
18. "fear" - sarah mclachlan
19. "interstate love song" - stone temple pilots
today was C's farewell lunch. his last day is actually friday, but since i'm leaving for hawaii tomorrow, i personally requested that his lunch be today. (yes, i have sway, haha.) we went to spice islands, which was also my suggestion, but my chow kueh teow was less than satisfactory. but i did have a jameson on the rocks, and that was good; i have been craving whiskey for a while now. people were a bit surprised that i was drinking alcohol during work hours, but i told them that one drink was fine.
i had dinner last night with jennie. i hadn't seen her in a few months, so it was good catching up with her. the interesting thing about her and me is that we've both seen pictures of each other naked. (remember that weight loss bet a few years ago?) but that doesn't make things weird between us at all. i just think that she has a hot body, that's all, hehe. she recommended me a whiskey bar in the city, and since her drink is vodka, i told her about voda, this vodka bar up in SF.
when i went up to bed last night, i turned on my halogen lamp, and it started smoking again. so i quickly turned it off, let it cool down, and i fished out the charred carcass of the moth that got fried the night before. poor thing, it never knew what hit it. the wings were still intact, but where its head was supposed to be was replaced by a black powdery lump. ick.
i saw the video for nickelback's "rockstar" this morning on VH1. i liked it. it's basically back-to-back 2-second clips of various people lip-syncing to the song. most of the people are famous, i think. people like grant hill, dale earnhardt jr., kid rock, etc. and one of the girls is really hot! i don't know who she is, though. i love looking at hot women; this one was brunette (i prefer dark hair over blondes, generally speaking). i don't like any of nickelback's other songs, but this one was pretty decent, mostly because i enjoyed the video; it's sort of weird how a good video can make you like a song more.
i was corresponding with feline on facebook, and she mentioned how she found me many years back on my geocities journal. she read my entry about when i found out k1 was engaged, and this afternoon, i went back and read that entry. man, i was so raw and emotional. i don't think i've been like that since then. feline mentioned how she found my blog on track15 later, and how she thought i was more "mellow" and "mature." hopefully, that's true. although, part of me liked that raw emotion; it made life more dynamic and interesting. you know, higher ups and lower downs and stuff. more of a roller coaster. ah, the tortured soul of youth! life was certainly more memorable back then.
ok, i'm taking off now. off to hawaii for the next 4 days. wish me a safe and fun journey, and i'll see you guys next monday!
man. i'm sad. C (not my lunch buddy, but another coworker) just tracked me down just to tell me that he's leaving the company. he's been here for a long time, and he has no more financial interest in the company (no more stock options), so it was time that he struck out to seek his fortune at a startup. so i don't blame him. i will certainly miss him. :(
re: the toilet. trust me, i did my best to flush the toilet paper down. i flushed THREE times, and i held the lever down all the way during all three flushes. but the water just didn't go down! the owner of the house IM'ed me today, and he told me that his roommate has been complaining about the toilet as well. so i guess it needs some repair or something.
i've taken three spicy dumps today. it burns! last night, paul, nelson and i had dinner at pizza chicago. we got the usual: the great chicago fire. this pizza has sport peppers all over it, so i guess that's why my shits have been spicy. on mondays, pizza chicago offers at 25% discount on the entire tab, so our dinner was only $7 (with tax and tip) each. cheap!
last night, when i went upstairs to my bedroom, i spied a huge moth flying around my bedroom. i chased it for a while, but then, it flew straight into my halogen lamp. ZAP! it instantly burned to death, and then, the light bulb started smoking. and then, there was this really foul smell of charred flesh. i immediately turned off the lamp, and i tilted it over to take a look. the moth's head was completely fried off. eww. i opened my windows and doors to air out the place; after i took my shower, my room still smelled horrible. yuck. luckily, the nasty air occupied the top level of the air, and my bed is low to the ground, so when i went to bed, i couldn't smell it.
did they stop making halogen lamps? i haven't seen one in the stores in the last couple of years. i guess they're fire hazards, huh? i've heard many stories of drapes and stuff catching on fire.
so one of my online (female) friends also sleeps naked! that's so cool. i asked her if she shaves her pubes. one of my ex's did that once, and i was so turned on; i just couldn't stop thinking about it. i guess i watch too much porn or something, but i just think shaved vadges look clean and sleek. and plus, pubes don't get in your teeth when you're chowing box. i have long pubes myself (like 2 inches or so), and i've always been meaning to give them a trim, but i'm just afraid of putting something with sharp teeth near my goods, you know?
i'm still drinking one V8 a day; i've been doing this for over a week now. i still can't brace myself for the jolt of the nastiness upon that first sip. it's just so gross! but i'm going to keep doing this because i don't eat vegetables on a daily basis. is there a better version of V8 around? like that "splash" variety?
i think i've gotten off of xanax, as far as it being a sleep aid. usually, i take seroquel at 7:30, and it takes several hours to kick in and make me drowsy. but if i get home late, i take 0.5mg of xanax on top of the seroquel as an added punch to knock me out to make me fall asleep more quickly. well, lately, i haven't been doing that, but i've still been able to fall asleep within half an hour of going to bed. yay! i'm trying to limit the number of medications i take. i've heard that people abuse xanax, so i'm being cautious with how often i take that drug. (i will still use it if i get akathesia or panic attacks, which don't happen that frequently. *knocks on wood *)
so i'm glad that i don't have to lug a suit all the way to hawaii. i'm just going to pack a duffel bag with khakis and a ben sherman short-sleeve buttondown as my wedding outfit. and of course, my $45 reef flip-flops. i still haven't broken them in yet, and paul tells me that they're going to hurt my feet. uh oh! i'm just not used to going out without socks on. i think i'm only going to wear these flip-flops once in my life. and i really hope the airport security people don't confiscate them because they think i'm smuggling liquids or gels in the soles.
ok, time for my 6pm smoke.
so the other day, i was outside a friend's house having a smoke, and i felt this sudden urge to take a dump. so i rushed back inside, and i had this massive, explosive, watery diarrhea dump. when i flushed, the brown water went through fine, but the toilet paper wouldn't go down. i flushed a few more times, but still, the same thing happened. so what i did was, i fished out the toilet paper with my BARE HANDS, and threw the wet, shitty, stringy toilet paper into the trash. eww, gross. i washed my hands for a long time after that.
i had pho for the first time in months today. i got a small bowl at pho nam today, but i put in the same amount of sriracha that i usually put in a large bowl. needless to say, it was pretty damn spicy. i liked it, but my tongue was on fire afterwards. i picked most of the lunch destinations last week, but since this is C's last week at the office, i'm going to defer all lunchtime decisions to him. it's only fair. he rented a nissan titan for the week (as his truck gets finished at the body shop), and man, that truck is HUGE. he got gas after lunch, and it cost him over $50 just to fill up 3/4 of his tank!
i am starting to regret not staying in hawaii for longer. basically, i'm flying in on thursday, hanging out/hiking on friday, going to the wedding on saturday, and flying back first thing in the morning on sunday. drat. i mean, there's not much i want to do there, but i'd like to hang out with the bowling gang more, you know? hm. oh well. at least when i get back, the tv season will have started, kicking off with _how i met your mother_ on monday night. i can't wait to see cobie smulders in HD. she's hot!
my xanga account username is "superfelch." don't know what felching is? go look it up! haha. yeah, i couldn't come up with a clever username, so i was just sitting there, my mind drawing a blank, but then, "superfelch" just popped up in my brain, so i just went with it. but no, i don't blog on xanga, so don't get your hopes up; i just have an account so can comment on my other friends' xanga's.
so grace's mom made turnip cake (lwo bwo gao) over the weekend. i've been wanting to try her stuff out since the beginning of the year. i think grace leaves for hawaii tomorrow, so i'm trying to contact her and see if i can try some tonight. turnip cake is my favorite dim sum dish, followed closely by leek dumplings. yummy shit, man, yummy shit.
we have this long MPEG chip-level test that takes around two weeks to run. it was about halfway done when our company decided to test out its UPS system over the weekend by powering down all of its servers. FUCK! so we had to restart the test today. grrr. what bad timing.
so what happens when somebody tells you that their marriage is dissolving and they're separated? what do you say? the last time that happened to me, i just gave a frown and said, "i'm sorry." i mean, naturally, i wanted to know what happened and everything, but i didn't want to seem like i was prying. i don't like seeing marriages fail, being a closet romantic and all. i know divorces do happen to people, but i just never expect it to happen to any of *my* friends.
i've realized that i really don't mind driving when there is good music. i've been thoroughly enjoying the "2007 mix" CD that i made last week. all the songs are good (of course!), and it makes time go by really quickly when i'm in the car. it sure beats listening to the radio when nothing good's on. it reminds me of back when we used to go clubbing, and i would drive home at 2am with alan, ting and peter sleeping in the car and i would be listening to my lounge music mixes. good music rocks!
ok. time to wrap this up and head out for a cig.
friday night, i had dinner with adam and rae at korea tofu house in cupertino village. i had never been there before, so i was open to try it out. i was a bit skeptical about a korean place in the middle of a chinese complex, though. i got the kimchee tofu soup, and it was actually decent. however, the small plates were a bit bland, especially the chap jae. adam showed me some pictures from his trip to burning man, and i was amazed at some of the art displays; some of them were huge!
saturday, i drove up to the city to meet up with kevin (my best friend from high school), cindy (my stanford basketball watching buddy), and eunice (cindy's sister) in the mission. the story goes, kevin, cindy and i meet up once a year in the city to have brunch, so this was our annual outing. we ate at this place called boogaloos, and the food wasn't bad, despite the fact that they served me half a plate of black beans (i HATE black beans). i got the chorizo quesadilla, and it pretty good. we caught up, and afterwards, we walked back to cindy and eunice's place a few blocks over on dolores.
afterwards, i drove to oakland to meet up with shoji (who was in town; he was performing at yoshi's over the weekend), barden, susan, and ray. ah, taiko reunion! this was the first time that i relied solely on GPS, as i had no clue how to get from the mission to oakland. it did mess up, though, and i took me in circles around the octavia/market intersection. but after i made a fix in the route, it got me over the bay bridge intact, and then from 80/780/580, etc. all the way to piedmont safely. we chatted for over an hour, and it was nice seeing shoji again.
afterwards, i drove home, and soon after, i had dinner with john, mikeC, and nelson at krung thai. of course, i ordered the joon pad poo (medium spicy, no onions), but i was disappointed that it was a bit sweet. afterwards, we headed over to john/greg/cheryl's place, and we watched and episode of _tuna wrangler_ and _human weapon_. i never watch discovery channel and history channel, so i found those shows pretty interesting. and after that, i went home and went to sleep. i drove over 100 miles that day!
sunday, it was all about football. i woke up at 10 and watched the niners game, and then, the raiders game. although, i did grab some taco bell for lunch, took a nap, and talked to stef for 45 minutes in between all that football action. and then, for the nightcap sunday night football game (pats vs. chargers), i went to adam's house and checked out his 50" plasma tv that he bought from eric. he had a bunch of guys over (mostly chargers fans), but alas, the chargers lost pretty badly.
i think i'm football'ed out, hehe. but, i did keep tabs on the cowboys/dolphins game on the sports ticker, and they won! yippee! the 'boys are now 2-0, and they look good. i just hope we stay healthy, and i think we have a good chance at doing well. *fingers crossed*
at 4am today, i had to take a leak, and bad. but i was sporting a massive woody at the same time. usually, when this happens, i just stand there for a few seconds, thinking about something non-sexual like baseball, and my boner just naturally goes away. but this time, the blood just wouldn't drain. so i decided i would just try taking a piss anyway. man, i had to lean forward all the way so my head was buried in my knees, and i *still* had to press my schlong down to the point where i thought it would break off. and even then, all i could get out of it was a slow trickle. haha!
i also had dream this morning about rachael ray, except that she was a super-deformed anime character. "super-deformed" is a term used when normal human-proportioned anime figures are shrunk down to child-like heights, and their heads get bigger and their eyes are all huge (even bigger than normal anime-style). it was a bit cute, and a bit spooky, seeing rachael ray like that. i don't really watch her shows, so i was a bit puzzled why she popped up in my dreams.
so last night, after i got home, i was suddenly inspired to create a mix cd. so i went through my music collection, picking out choice songs that i loved. i wound up with 100 minutes worth of music, so it took me a while to whittle it down to 80 minutes; i had to let go of a few songs i loved (dido's "hunter" was one of them), but in the end, i wound up with a cd that i won't get tired of for a long time. it's good driving music, and it's an eclectic mix of stuff. when i went to dinner last night, paul was in my car, and he went through it. some of the songs he liked (especially an acoustic version of dishwalla's "counting blue cars"), and some of them, he was like, "really?" (like n'sync's "this i promise you"). but anyways, many of the songs are tracks that i was obsessed with at some point or another in my life.
i really have to credit my early wakeup time for my reacquaintance with my music collection. unfortunately, though, i think i'm starting to revert back to my old schedule. i've been getting up later and later. for example, today, i got out of bed at 9:40. (recall that a few weeks ago, i had been getting up at 8-8:30.) so i think i'm getting lazy again. oh well, it was interesting while it lasted.
so C's last day here at the company is next friday. i'm gonna miss him. he's been a good friend and lunch buddy. i never worked with him, so i can't call him a good co-worker, but from what i can tell, he's done some good work here. he's just a baby, though (he's 21), so he hasn't learned how to slack off. fyi, he's going to UCLA to get a ph.d. i tried briefly to persuade him not to get one, telling him that industry experience was better than an advanced degree, but i gave up pretty quickly. i was just being selfish by wanting him to stay, hehe.
my mom turned 58 yesterday (taiwan time). she didn't even remember until i skype'd her to say happy birthday. sigh. my parents are getting old. i miss them, too. i'm going to see them in december when my cousin gets married in LA. that's the 6th and last wedding i'll be going to this year; it's going to be a huge family reunion on my dad's side. i wonder if i'm going to drink in front of my parents; my guess is probably not, and plus i won't have any peers to celebrate with, which is why i'm not really looking forward to the event.
i've been spending more money lately, eating out and buying stuff, etc. one of my credit card (i have two cards) bills came in today, and it was more than one of my paychecks. ouch! of course, it was for my TV and two wedding gifts, among other things, so it made sense that it was so much. man weddings cost a lot of money, especially since the previous and next one are destination weddings. hotels, travel, plane tickets, food, etc. it all adds up!
i'm having brunch with cindy and kevin tomorrow morning in the city. man, it's been awhile since i've been to SF. i can tell it's been a long time because i'm sort of afraid of driving there. for a while, i went there often enough to not be worried about getting lost or finding parking, i.e. i was comfortable and familiar. but now, it's been well over a year since i last visited the place. lucky i have GPS now! but yeah, it'll be cool to catch up with kevin, especially. he was my best friend in high school, and we do this brunch thing once a year.
ok, time to finish my V8 and go out for a smoke. healthy drink and cancer stick! have a STUPENDOUS weekend folks!
so that fergie song is now my favorite song; it has officially replaced "not ready to make nice" as of yesterday. i bought it on iTunes last night, and i've listened to it like 4 times since then. yes, i am in danger of everexposure, and i even dreamt about it. and today, i can't get it out of my brain. this morning, i also bought elliot yamin's "wait for you," which i think is a pretty good track. i never liked him i on _american idol_, mainly because his vibrato was too fast and irritated me, but it's fine in this song.
so i just took a leak, and the guy in the next urinal did not flush when he finished peeing. that really bugs me. he looked over at me a few times, shook his schlong, and walked away. i forgot if he washed his hands or not, but damn, what's the problem with flushing? was he afraid of getting germs from the flush lever? geez. i wanted to yell at him.
we went to straits in santana row for lunch today. my last experience there was horrible, so i decided to play it safe and get the chow kway teow (that's how they spell it there) today, without sprouts. not only did they give me sprouts, but the dish was bad as well. not only was it expensive for what it was ($12), it just didn't taste good. i've been to straits 3 times in my life, and i've never had a good experience there. i wanted to get a whiskey there, too, but i decided not to after figuring that they would overcharge me. they did have jameson, though.
so this time next week, i'll be in hawaii for the first time. i'm looking forward to being with friends and attending mike's wedding. but hawaii? the location and destination doesn't excite me. i'm not a water or beach person, and i've already hiked a couple of volcanoes (while in western japan) before. and the plane ride is gonna suck. i hope my tourette's will be in good form, and i'm debating whether i should pull a taiwan and knock myself out with drugs beforehand. hopefully geoff and pak will sit near me, so i have people around me that won't be freaked out by my tics.
i got a haircut yesterday. it was bad. i look like i'm going to join the marine corps or something. my sides and back look completely shaved (with a number one), and my top is really short. i'm not sure if gel can fix it. ugh. next time, i must remember to tell the person to not go so high up on my head. hopefully a week's time will let the top grow out a bit so it'll be workable.
after my haircut, i went home, showered, and met up with peter, alan and ting for dinner at queen house. pork and leek dumplings! ah, another craving satisfied. i was nice seeing all of them again. they made fun of my hair. :) afterwards, we went to tea era, and i tried their new hazelnut milk tea. don't get it; it was gross. normally, i love hazelnut (nutella, hazelnut lattes, nocciola gelato), but this just tasted really thick, and the texture had some grittiness to it. ick.
last night, i saw the south park episode featuring the dog whisperer (cesar millan), who was brought in to make cartman better behaved. it was fucking hilarious. it helped that i had seen an episode or two of the real dog whisperer before. man, i couldn't stop laughing. and the episode before that was pretty good, too (the one where cartman starts a religious band, faith+1). i love south park; cartman's definitely my favorite character.
nowadays, after i take my morning dump at home, i always have to flush twice. my dumps consist of all these little pieces, and they never all go down the first time. it's really annoying. the initial flushing action jolts the pieces, so that some of them float upwards, and after the water goes down, some of the turds near the surface come back up. so i have to wait for the water to fill the tank, and then i flush again. *RAAR* i guess i'm resigned to it now, but that extra minute of waiting is a big nuisance.
it's been around a year since i've had a solid dump. i've forgotten what a log feels like. i vaguely remember the fact that emotionally, i felt satisfying, but with it came a fear of clogging up the toilet if i took a shit at home. man, those were the days.
ok, time to find the static timing guy again. we're in our final push to get this chip taped out. timing analysis is so boring!
so i got my second and third food cravings satisfied last night and today for lunch. last night, it was sushi, so paul, mikeC and i went to miyake (in cupertino). the service was terribly slow (hence a small tip), and plus, they didn't serve chelsea rolls anymore! so i got a google roll, palo alto roll, and a cali roll. it was fine, although the other two guys didn't really enjoy their dinners. paul noted that the wasabi was a bit brown.
today, C, D, and i went to arby's, my other craving. i got two beef 'n cheddars, and i was stuffed, especially so since i had a bagel for breakfast two hours before.
since we had a quick lunch, we went to valley fair afterwards to do some shopping. i made my standard stop at club monaco, and i spied this blue striped shirt with a white collar and white cuffs. i immediately wanted it. then, C noted that it was $99, so i hesitated a bit, but then, within 5 seconds, i decided to buy it. it was a "slim fit" shirt, so i tried it to just to make sure it fit me, and then i went up and paid for it. it's the most expensive shirt i've ever gotten. but it's fucking beautiful. now i just gotta find an occasion to wear it. long live impulse buying!
i stopped by the MTV VMA website to check up on some of the performances. i saw the kid rock/tommy lee scuffle. what punks. pamela anderson isn't hot enough to be worth that kind of bad blood. (in fact, she's a dog in my book.) and i saw the britney spears opening performance. my, how the mighty have fallen. first, she looked really chunky and thick. and her dancing was amateurish. and the song sucked. all in all, it was a really horrible comeback. i rate it one flaccid schlong. ick.
i am getting up later these days. so i'm wondering if my "early phase" is slowly winding down. these past two mornings, i've been getting up around 9:20am or so, compared to 8-8:30 last week. this is still much earlier than my usual 10:40 start time that i had been sustaining for the past few years, though. and for whatever reason, _dawson's creek_ isn't being shown on TBS anymore. fie! so now i'm just watching _sportscenter_ and getting caught up the previous day's sporting news. man, the new england patriots are in some deep shit.
man, i am really digging that fergie song. i think i'm going to buy it on iTunes soon. of course, once i do that, i'll like it less because it'll be too accessible. that's what happened to the dixie chick's "not ready to make nice." i used to *love* that song, but once nelson downloaded it and e-mailed it to me, i stopped liking it so much. funny how the psychology of want works that way. once something's yours, you love it less. it works for women, too. (at least for me, it did.)
my brain, engineeringly-speaking, has become mush. i haven't done true design work since my last job, and i can tell that i'm nowhere as sharp as i used to be. i asked myself a simple question on the drive home the other day (design a circuit that generates a pulse upon a rising edge of a signal), and i couldn't do it on the first try. i mean, that is a question that a guy out of college can do in his sleep! ugh. if i ever need to look for another job, i think i'm royally fucked.
ok, i gotta to do some timing analysis work now. but before i go, 69 points to the first person who can tell me what this blog entry's title has to do with this post!
so i remember when madonna's video for "justify my love" came out, it created all this buzz for being pornographic and stuff. MTV banned it, blah blah blah. well, today, i finally saw it on youtube, and i was sorely disappointed. all it showed was a few flashes of boobs! and ugly ones at that! *snore* lame, dude, just lame. my schlong didn't even budge.
i've been pretty hungry lately. my appetite has gotten bigger, no doubt due to the fact that i'm up more hours than normal. last night, i went to my friend's 50th birthday party, and all i had was a bowl of cereal. after eating some cake and a bowl of chicken salad, i grabbed some taco bell on the way home at like 11am. needless to say, i'm gaining weight. i'm around 160+ now, and my belly is getting bigger.
don't get jack in the box's hash browns. they've changed it from a mcdonald's-like patty to three small rectangles, sort of like large tater tots. now, i LOVE tater tots, but these are disgusting. i was pretty disappointed when i got them today, but at least my sausage croissant was pretty good.
my team won both our games today during bball. the first one, we were down 1-4, and we stormed back to win 7-6. i was very proud of the way we rallied. *huzzah* i made a jumper and sneaked into the paint for a few easy layups. i'm a bit hesitant to go in because i'm afraid of getting injured, though, so i'm not sure how often i'll keep doing that.
yesterday was k2's birthday. i wrote her a brief message, and she responded today. she was civil, so i'm glad for that. i'm not sure if we'll ever be friends again, but at least i know that we don't hate each other, so that's good. it's just weird sometimes, when i think about it, how two people who used to be so close can be so distant now. oh well, i guess that's how life is sometimes. if we never stop being close, then there's no way that we can ever find closure and move on, right?
i'm craving food right now. and what am i craving at this moment? dumplings (as usual), and arby's. maybe i'll make a push for arby's for lunch tomorrow with my coworkers. beef 'n cheddar and a french dip! yum.
ok, i have severe writer's block at this moment. gonna end this entry prematurely and go for a smoke. take it easy, and see you tomorrow!
man, i had an amazing lunch. i had been craving mongolian bbq for weeks, and we finally went today. i made the perfect bowl: a heaping mound of freshly-dumped noodles, pork, jalapenos, broccoli, and white onions. i added three ladles of soy sauce, two of garlic, and two of chili paste. and then i had four egg rolls. delicioso! the only problem was that i was so stuffed that when i got back, i had such horrible food coma that i passed out in my cube for about an hour. :) oh, and it's expensive now ($12 total, without tipping the food makers). i probably won't go back for a month; i've had my fill.
actually, i've been getting food coma a lot lately. i think it's because i'm getting up early, so by the time lunch ends, i've been awake for a longer period of time, thus being susceptible to tiredness. before my early-rising spell, i had been pretty good about not taking naps and stuff, but throughout the past week (including weekends), i have been falling asleep after lunch.
today is a friend's 50-year-old birthday. it's hard to imagine that i have a friend that old, but she's one of my taiko friends. she joined as a faculty member at stanford, so that's why she's significantly older than me. i consider her a peer, and not someone of an older generation. some of my other taiko peeps are planning on infiltrating her house and surprising her, and i might join along, depending on whether i have dinner plans.
sometimes i wonder if i should be a mentor to some of my younger coworkers. i mean, they're the ones that i hang out with here at the office, and they're the ones that i go to lunch with. i rarely think about the fact that i'm like 5-8 years old than them, because it doesn't feel like it. but the thing is, if i really was their mentor, i would tell them to leave my company and get a job at a better company. there's not much "cool" work here. it's mostly taking care of other people's stuff; if i were then, i'd join a startup and work on writing new code and potentially strike it big and all that. the jobs here are sort of dead ends, as far as career and skill advancement go.
this morning, for whatever reason, TBS wasn't airing _dawson's creek_ at 9. so i was flipping through the channels, and i landed on VH1 showing a video of fergie's _big girls don't cry_. that's a pretty song! regarding fergie, i don't think she has an attractive face, but i recall seeing her washboard abs during a black eyed peas video once. damn, that was hot. girls with abs are a turn-on. i don't need six-packs, though; just some definition, especially along the sides.
sometimes, when i really think about, cubicle life really seems absurd to me. it's like an _office space_ moment. i mean, what the hell, we sit in a little open box in front of a computer, and we just stare at a screen and type. what the fuck? are we chickens, laying "code" eggs? hrmph. speaking of work, i guess i'm the default choice to implementing this new important feature in the next rev of our chip. and we need to finish it soon. (as usual, silicon valley hardware deadlines are absurdly aggressive. *sigh*)
i forgot how excited i was about my cowboys. before i went to strike, i watched it (in HD!) at home. i actually jumped up and cheered when the 'boys scored. hehe. and at strike, i kept missing the plays when the cowboys scored because i was talking to tim and the girls. i would glance over at the screen and find out that they had just scored a touchdown. then, i would watch the replay, but that, of course, is never as exciting as watching it live. oh well.
what percentage of guys do you think have a porn stash? after i got my new tv and reconnected my dvd player, i'm (very) slowly rediscovering mine. i've noticed, though, that some of my dvd's have rotted or something. they get stuck at a certain point, and the dvd player just chokes and stops. is dvd rot something that happens frequently? i've heard of laserdisc rot before, but i didn't think that kind of stuff happened to dvd's.
one of my friends dated three "jen"'s in a row. that's just nuts. i also know of another friend who dated three "ed"'s in a row as well. at least you don't have to worry about screaming the wrong name during sex. i worry about that sometimes. i've had these moments when i meet a girl, and i actually have to pause for a few seconds while i try to remember their name. if that ever happened to a future girlfriend, i'd be in the doghouse for sure. and if i actually said the wrong name? ouchie! i'd be fucked, and not the sexual kind.
ok, c'est tout!
friday night, it was nelson's birthday celebration. we met up at mayflower in milpitas for dinner and occupied two tables. we ordered an assortment or dishes, and one of them was peking duck. i didn't to eat as much duck skin as i wanted, but at the end, christi snagged me a final piece from the other table. yum!
afterwards, we went back to nelson's place and proceeded to get him pretty drunk. at first, it was pretty slow going; at 11:30, he had only had two shots. so i pushed the tempo up a bit, forcing more tequila and vodka (chilled grey goose) into nelson's system. by the end of the night, nelson had like 9-10 shots, and he was pretty fucked up, i think. i had like 6, and i was just a little bit buzzed.
there were a few "creative" drinks, and the one that took the cake was a mixture of kahlua, 100 proof peppermint schnapps, half a marshmallow, and some whipped cream. yeah. disgusting. nelson said it was completely nasty, hehe.
i went home around 2am, puked, and then called my mom using skype and chatted for a while. i wound up falling asleep around 3am. i smoked 18 cigarettes that day. yeah, almost a full pack.
saturday, it was all about mikeT's bachelor party. we met at la bamba for lunch (carnitas quesadilla, extra cheese), and then we went to LQ for some lasertag. i'm horrible at that game. there were 14 of us, and we were mixed in with all these little kids. i'm a terrible aim, and i lost all these face off's. by the second (of three) games, i lost all desire to play, and i actually got a NEGATIVE score! haha.
afterwards, i went home and took a nap. then, i went over to paul's house at 7pm, helped pick up five pizza's, ate, and then played poker (no-limit texas hold'em) with 9 other guys. i was pleased to win a few hands (my best hand was a king-high straight), but eventually lost when i went all-in with a two pair to a three-of-a-kind.
for a while, we turned on some porn, and i was watching some artsy black and white lesbian porn. it wasn't very interesting, but it felt a bit weird having porn on with a bunch of people around. porn is usually a private thing, you know? but anyways, after people dropped out of poker, we started playing the Wii. i finally went home around 1:30 and fell asleep around 2am.
sunday, we had dim sum at dynasty. i ate so much that i had major food coma and went home and crashed again. i watched some football when i woke up. then, alan came over (he's back from his honeymoon with ting from costa rica) to pick up some wedding gifts that were shipped to my house. i showed him some HD football, and he was impressed. then, i watched the cowboys/giants game for a bit.
then, i headed off to strike (this swanky bowling alley/bar) in vallco to meet up with tim and company. i got there early to catch up on the cowboys game and drank some whiskey while i waited for them to arrive. when everyone got there, we ordered dinner, and ate and chatted while i kept on looking over at the big screen to check out the football action. dallas won, 45-35. so much for wade phillip's vaunted defense.
i bowled a 150 and a 119. it was fun, talking to some of the new people that tim brought. i had a good time, and we wound up staying until like 10:45ish.
so yeah, i stayed up later than usual all three nights. i guess that's a good sign that i'm being socially active. hooray for that! haha. i took xanax to help me fall asleep all three nights, though, and that's one thing that i don't like. i think the next time i sleep late, i'm going to skip the medication and see if i can fall asleep with seroquel alone. i don't like taking too many meds. but at any rate, it was a really good weekend. :)
a "sweaty mexican lumberjack" is a drink that i had at jay's wedding a few years back. from what i can remember, it had rum, some other alcohol, and a splash of tabasco sauce. spicy! if i had my way with nelson (his birthday was yesterday, and his party is tonight), that would be the "creative" drink i would give him.
this whole thing about "creative" drinks has to do with the fact that for other people's birthdays, nelson has whipped up his own concoctions for them to imbibe. and some of them have been quite nasty, i've heard. i think one of them involved vodka and a marshmallow. haha!
ah, friday. today was a good day. i got some good correspondences going, so i'm pleased. i like having people to e-mail. for a while there, i had no one to talk to on that front, and it made me feel sort of empty. but now, i'm e-mailing several people, and it's like having penpals again. (back between graduating high school and starting college, i had two e-mail penpals. funny thing, they were both female hapa's.) e-mail can be much deeper than IM (usually), so there's more room for in-depth exploration and discussion.
yuck. V8 tastes like cold, watery, salty marinara sauce. now, usually, i love marinara sauce, but not like this. :( but i'm gonna continue drinking it. gotta have my vegetables one way or another.
my legs are in bad shape. my calves were sore from the hike earlier in the week. and now, my left foot's arches hurt, and my right knee's acting up. i'm an invalid! maybe i'll have to take a break from basketball next week to heal up.
so for the second day in a row, i watched _dawson's creek_ before going into work. i felt sad that joey came in between the friendship of dawson and pacey. among my guy friends, we've been fortunate that a girl has never come between us. i guess it's good that we have different tastes in women, or that there have been enough women that we don't end up liking the same girl. i do wonder, though, what would happen if one of my good friends and i liked the same woman. would one of us be a man and step aside? would the one who liked the girl first get dibs? would the girl choose? what are the rules in this situation?
i don't think i'm going to continue watching _dawson's_ for that long, though. the show gets pretty bad soon thereafter. i wish i had known about it earlier; i remember really liking the part when joey and pacey first get together. ah, sexual tension! i LOVE sexual tension. you know, where the sparks fly, and all that buildup to the first kiss. you can never recreate that magic before the first kiss, when that tension is finally dissolved with the initial touching of the lips. *sigh* i will always remember all of my first kisses. funny, though, but i don't remember all of my first sexual encounters.
is it ever possible to unconditionally love someone who is not a part of your blood family? i know that you can love your child like that, but what about your mate? i mean, there is always something that a girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse can do that will make you break up, right? so does that mean that the love is conditional? my friend alex used the word "unconditional love" in his e-mail to me today to describe a partner, and i have never believed that that term can be applied as such. hm.
one of my indian coworkers got engaged recently. it was an arranged marriage by his parents. so apparently, he never met his future wife until he went back to india a few weeks ago. amazing! i don't know if i could do that. i know it's a part of his culture, and i have read that these marriages have a higher success rate than western "free will" marriages, but still, the concept of not having a choice of a spouse is so foreign to me. of course, you could grow to love your spouse, but for me, i have to love my wife before i marry her. but anyways, good luck and congratulations, S!
ok, i'm off. gotta go back home to grab my chair before heading off to nelson's birthday dinner.
so i'm drinking V8 right now. you know, to get some vegetables in my system. each can is supposedly two servings of veggies, but man, this is some disgusting shit. and it's high in sodium, too. but i'm going to try drinking at least one can a day; otherwise, there are some days when i don't get any vegetables in my diet at all.
so i discovered today that TBS airs episodes of _dawson's creek_ in the mornings! ah, i think i've figured out what i'm going to do before i go into work. right now, they're at the place where pacey and joey have just hooked up and have come back after their summer sailing getaway. the show kind of goes downhill after this (especially when they leave capeside to go to college), but still, it's a fond blast from the past for me, and i just love ogling katie holmes. it's hard to imagine that she's with tom cruise right now, though. ick.
this particular episode that i saw today also had emotional substance for me because it was the one i showed jo-ann years back. jo-ann was this girl from taiko that i was in love with in 2000 or so. i got her hooked on _dawson's creek_, and she came over to watch this episode when i lived in paul's house seven years ago. i remember she got all teary-eyed at the end when pacey and joey made up, and i distinctly remember wanting to kiss her when i saw her all misty-eyed and vulnerable. ah, the memories!
ok, so i finally stepped away from that picture of me in the green abercrombie & fitch jersey and blue oakley's on my facebook profile. i use that picture of me everywhere because i like my smile. but, the pic is like 5 years old, and it's my old hair, so i felt like it wasn't representative of me now, and plus, i was getting shit for it from my friends. so i finally changed it to a photo of me taken by adam last month at tim's bbq. so find me on facebook and check it out!
so football season finally gets underway tonight. i'm excited. i think my cowboys have a good chance of making the playoffs this year again, but i'm worried about terry glenn, our #2 receiver. i know he's on the roster, but i haven't seen him play yet. i think he's injured or something. we were 2-2 in the preseason, but i don't think that means much. as long as tony romo is consistent, i think we've got a chance in every game. after all, we did end indianapolis's win streak last year. go 'boys!
i don't like the look of the new iPod nano. it's too fat. i understand the need for a larger screen to watch videos and stuff, but i really liked the sleekness of the old one. i was waiting for them to come out with a 16GB version of it so i could put my whole music collection on it. oh well, too bad.
i drank milk last night for the first time in several weeks. needless to say, i got major poot-age and a bad stomachache, which resulted in a major sludge-dump. i was doubled over in pain sitting on the toilet, and then it all just came out. ouch! and it smelled really bad. my dumps usually don't have much of an odor because it all just falls right to the bottom, but this time, the sludge was all floaty and stuff. pee-ew!
remind me to not get jack in box's sampler trio ever again. i mean, two of three items (jalepeno poppers and mozzarella sticks) are good, but the bulk of it is the spicy chicken nuggets, and those are neither spicy nor good. yuck. you know what i really miss from the box? their pizza pockets. when i was a teenager, they used to carry them, and they were sooo good. this was like over 15 years ago, and their menu has drastically changed since then. oh well.
ok, that's it for me today. i'm leaving early to get my semi-weekly massage. yay!
so i was on youtube today looking at guitar hero videos, and i got the random idea of popping in k1's name. and lo and behold, some fan had created a video montage of her from her tv footage. now you know when you're a celebrity when that happens! and plus, i read in the comments that she's pregnant. wow. no wonder she wasn't on tv when i was in taiwan. i wish her all the best. yeah, i know, i'm still a bit of a stalker as far as k1's concerned, and it's sort of ironic, because in her breakup letter to me, she ended it with something like, "in some sort of way, i'll be following you," but in reality, *i* am the one that's following her.
i had this really fucked up dream this morning. basically, i was riding in the car with these people, and they turned out to be this cult. they showed this gang sign to each other, and then they abducted me and told me i had two choices: to get this surgery on my face, or on my body. and this surgery would make me very pretty (according to them), but it would also leave nipples all over that region. it was really gross! luckily, i woke up before i got the surgery, but man, it was really messed up.
so the past two days, i've been catching up on sportscenter in the mornings. the routine has been to get up at 8am, have my morning smoke, check my e-mail, and then turn on espn and watch it until i decide to leave for work at 9:30. yeah, i'm getting up even earlier now. i'm still getting a solid 9-10 hours of sleep at night, though, so i'm not alarmed or anything.
for some odd reason, i find amy smart attractive. it's "odd" because i'm usually not attracted to blondes, and amy's face isn't that pretty to begin with (she looks like a cat). but i saw her in a few episodes of _scrubs_ last night, and i was drawn to her. so i did a google image search of her today, and i found topless photos of her! she has some nice perky breasts. tasty!
because i've been getting up earlier, i've been eating breakfast lately. i guess that's a good thing, huh? yesterday, i had mcdonald's, and today i had a toasted garlic bagel with cream cheese (yum). hm. i guess neither of those are that healthy. but yeah, i get hungry in the mornings. and today, by the time lunch rolled around, i was starving as well. we went to corner place today; i had the yuk ge jang with ramen, no onions. pretty good shit. and now, i'm craving mongolian bbq. i'll vote for that next week.
i wonder what's it like to have that disorder where you have to have an orgasm over and over again. i heard about that on tv a few months ago, and it was also featured on some episode of _grey's anatomy_. it sounds awful, having to masturbate for the sake of simple relief, and not for enjoyment. your genitalia would get so raw! what's the most times you've had sex in one day? i think my number is 6, and by the end of it, even though i still liked it, i think my body parts were all sore and petered out. and i probably had no spunk left in my tanks, either.
after i have enough kids, i think i would consider a vasectomy. that would seem like the best way for birth control. what do you guys think? i mean, before kids and stuff, i would want my girl to be on the pill or something. so after that, it's only fair for the guy to step up and do his fair share, right?
ok, i gotta respond to some e-mails. bye!
man, i am really looking forward to having dinner tonight. no, i'm not meeting up with anyone or anything. i'm having leftovers! i'm eating the "knife-cut noodles" (dau shau mein) i got from darda seafood last thursday with ben. they're really good, and i'm so excited about eating them. i hope they haven't gone bad or anything; i'll be really disappointed and sad if they're spoiled.
it seems like there's something going on every weekend for the past couple of months. i like it. this weekend, there's nelson's birthday celebration and mikeT's bachelor party. whee! i'm happy that there's no driving involved this time around; the past two weekends have involved 8-10 hours of driving, and my ass and lower back have been sore from all that sitting around.
so did you guys hear about that michigan football game? they got beaten by a division I-AA school (appalachian (sp?) state), and they fell from being ranked #5 to out of the top 25. crazy shit, man. it's probably one of the greatest upsets in college (or sports in general) history. people are calling for head coach lloyd carr's job. nuts.
so during camping, greg asked me if i was a boob man or an ass man. without hesitation, i told him that first and foremost, i am a face man. for some reason, this drew some applause from the women, hehe. but then, i told him that i am next a boob man. i definitely like a good chest, although, recently, i have grown to appreciate a nice ass. i especially like ass dimples, you know, those two indentations on either side of the spine above the butt. those are really sexy. but yeah, you can't beat a nice set of breasts with some nice nipples and areolas. perky! i also like those ripples between the breasts when a girl's wearing a tight t-shirt.
my calves are totally sore from the hike. i didn't expected this, because during that hike (1+ mile, straight up), it was my quads that were totally burning. i didn't even the stairs when i got to work this morning; i headed straight for the elevators, even though this was the long way up. during basketball today, i just took it easy, only playing 2.5 games (that 0.5 was for a shortened 3-on-3 game).
i think i'm a gossip. which annoys me, because i don't like gossipers. but today, i noticed that a friend of mine had changed her friendster profile, and i noticed that she's now single. (i don't remember if she had listed herself as single before.) but that led me to believe that she had broken up with her boyfriend. (i checked his profile, too, and it listed him as being single as well.) anyways, i left her a message on her cell phone, so i hope i find out the truth soon. anyways, the first instinct i had was to tell someone about it. geesh. i don't like the fact that i enjoy spreading rumors without substantiating them first. maybe i should work for the national enquirer or something.
the grossest thing about not taking a shower for three days was my fingernails. i got all sorts of shit underneath them. ick. i mean, i could have taken a shower easily, but i just got lazy. but man, our campsite was right next to the shower rooms! yeah, that's how much of a sloth i am. sigh. but man, that shower i took last night was so refreshing. i felt reborn again.
i am beat today. last night, i fell asleep so fast that i don't even recall a single story from sportscenter. then, after getting out of bed at 8am, i passed out on the futon before going to work. and after coming back from basketball, i took yet another nap in my cube for about half an hour. i don't know what it is. maybe i just didn't have restful sleeping during camping. hopefully i'll be ok after tonight and henceforth.
another weird thing about camping is that i kept on having bloody booger chunks in my nose. i mean, i didn't have bloody noses or anything, but i kept on picking out red and black pieces of gunk out of my nostrils. maybe it was the dry air? hm. i dunno.
ok, time to finish up my stuff here, and then it's off to eat my leftovers!
friday night, a few of us grabbed a quick bite at in n out before going home to pack. i got up the next day at 8am and headed over to nelson's at 9 to load up. jen came later, and then, we went to paul's house to pack some more stuff into his car. then, it was off to tahoe!
we stopped at burger king for a quick lunch, and then arrived first at the campgrounds at emerald bay state park. we took a short hike up to the top to get a nice view of the lake, and then went down to the water. we waited for a bit for the rest of the guys to trickle in (all in all, we had six cars).
for dinner, we cooked fajitas. the theme for most of the trip was food. we ate very well, and that was pretty cool. after nightfall, we cooked smores and just chatted. it got chilly, so i threw on my paul frank sweatshirt. i had some whiskey (john's bottle of bushmills) and smoked half of the cigar that grace gave me for my birthday last year, and went to bed around 10:30 or so. for some odd reason, i kept on sneezing and had a runny nose, but by the morning, i was fine. maybe i caught a 12-hour cold or something. it was my first time sleeping in a tent.
the next morning, we had breakfast (scrambled eggs, sausage and bacon), and we hung out for a bit before embarking on a hike. the hike wasn't long (just over a mile), but it was straight up. my calves are still sore today. at the end of the hike was a beautiful lake, and john and mikeC set up fishing lines. john caught a brown trout. the rest of just enjoyed the view and ate our sandwiches. i, of course, smoked. no, i did not throw my butts on the ground, and instead, i kept them in a plastic bag. i was very conscious about not littering, and during the whole trip, i properly disposed of all my cigarette butts in trash receptacles.
after getting back, a few of us hiked down to the water to check on the crawfish traps that we laid out. we took some of the dogs down, and we had fun with them, throwing them in the water and watching them swim to shore. for dinner, we had chili, fried chicken (yum!), cornbread, and vegetables. i passed out for a bit, and nearly avoided john pouring whiskey into my open mouth, hehe. i took my medication early, and went to bed around 10 and fell asleep very soundly.
in the middle of the night, i heard this woman screaming profanities. we came to the conclusion that she broke up with her boyfriend. too bad for them. that must have been a horrible ride home. the next morning, we had breakfast and left at around 11. to avoid traffic, we took the "scenic" route home on the 88 but still hit some traffic on the 205.
after getting back around 4:30 or so, i headed straight to the taiko bbq. all the guests had left by then (the bbq started at noon), but the hosts and barden were still there. i helped them pack up, and then we headed to hiroshi and joy's place and played guitar hero II. it was my first time, and i found it a bit frustrating, especially on medium level. my pinky finger just wasn't cooperating. i bombed out on "sweet child of mine." susan and ray brought back over a dozen carne asada soft tacos, and they were delish. after that, i went home and crashed.
so how was my 3rd time camping? it was fun, the company was great, but i really missed my bed. i didn't take a shower the entire time (although we were right next to some coin-op showers, and i felt dirty. i would definitely do it again, although once a year seems just about right. thanks to greg for inviting me!