ah, another 4-day workweek. i leave early tomorrow morning for las vegas. fun fun! i am dreading coming back, though, because i have a lot to do when i come back on monday. the big thing looming is this slice-level gate simulation that i'm in charge of. gate sim sucks! but i'll try to sweep it under the rug in my mind while i'm gone. in the meantime, i'll look forward to hanging out with the guys in vegas. it'll be hot!
i had a dream this morning that i was back in high school, and i had to give a speech about tips to do well in ac dec (academic decathlon). i was pretty nervous. i was never good at giving speeches. speech is one of the ten events in ac dec, and i got better at it after doing it for two years. but even so, i was never good at impromptu speeches, you know, where they give you a topic and a minute to think about it, and you have to talk to like two minutes. that was nerve-wracking! i've heard that in a survey, public speaking is the #1 fear among people, and death is #2. ha! people would rather die than have to give the eulogy!
i'm pretty close to buying a GPS. it's very useful. on the drive to cupertino village with J today, i was playing with his garmin nuvi. it's pretty easy and intuitive to use, so i'm thinking about getting a similar model. paul has a nuvi as well, but his is way too high-end. i figure that since i'll be in LA and hawaii in the coming months, a GPS would come in handy.
i wonder how many lap dances i'll get this weekend. like i said, i think i'm not really interested in them anymore. i mean, it's sort of nice to appreciate a hot girl writhing in my lap, but it's getting old. among all the lap dances i've gotten, i've only gotten a woody once, and that was years ago in reno (the girl's name was isa). *shrug* aside from that, my most memorable experience with strippers is actually talking to them. go figure.
i've realized that i have at least two levels of "like" when i like a girl. one is a medium level, but that can be disguised as a higher level if i'm all wrapped up in her. what i mean is that i can inflate that level of like with love goggles. and that's deceiving. but after i get over the girl, the reality of my affection sets in, and i realize that i didn't like her that much in the first place.
the second level, which is much rarer, stays permanently. these apply to girls that i will most likely like for the rest of my life. and that's saying a lot. currently, there are only less than a handful of women that are on this level (most obviously, k1 is an example), and there are some other candidates as well. these candidates are a bit tricky to tell, though, because i'm not sure if i still like them simply because i can't have them. has that happened to you before? i.e., you like a girl because they're hard/impossible to get?
affection is such a tricky thing. i wish it could be more mechanical, like there could be a switch where i could turn on and off who i liked. instead, it's very whimsical, and i can't control it. instead, i like girl i can't get, i dislike girls that i can get, i fall in and out of love unexpectedly, etc. it's all a big mess sometimes. unpredictable!
ok, that's it for me today. i'm off! see you after the weekend, and let's hope i don't come back a fried egg.