man, i am beat today. i can tell my stress level is going up because i feel this nervous energy coursing through me. at lunch, i was fidgeting the whole time, and i had to go have a smoke after i ordered my food to calm myself down. i was able to finish my coding stuff today, so tomorrow i'll start tackling the ECO from hell. in the meantime, i've got a gazillion little things that people are asking me to do. i can't multitask! arrrgh.
so i spoke too soon about my solid dumps. they've become liquid and soft again. like this morning, after i got out of bed, the moment i relaxed my nether-regions to take a leak, some turds came out as well. does that happen to you? like, you can't control which hole opens or closes, and they both let loose? maybe i need to toughen up my kegel muscles by doing some exercises. but sometimes, when i'm trying to take a leak at a urinal, i can feel some shit come out, and i have to zip up and hurry to a stall before i take a dump in my pants. ha!
i am very grateful that milk now comes with those plastic spouts. it keeps it fresh much longer than the old cardboard spouts. yesterday, (june 12th), milk that was supposed to be sold by june 2nd was still fresh. this is good because i go through my milk pretty slowly, because i don't eat cereal every day. on a similar note, have you ever bought "extra rich" milk? i don't know if they still sell that, especially with more health conscious consumers these days. it tastes good, like it says, very rich. of course, it goes bad in like 4 days or something ridiculous like that. but yeah, it's good. and japanese milk tastes good, too. there's something about those japanese cows, i tell you. they've got flavor!
i'm not really looking forward to watching a full two hours of _so you think you can dance_ tonight. that's a long time! the only thing i'm interested in seeing is cool hip hop dance routines and lauren gottlieb. unfortunately, the picture they have of her on the offical site is a really bad one. trust me, she's cuter than that. i just hope she doesn't get paired up with a guy who sucks and winds up being in jeopardy of getting voted off.
i'm getting sick of yuk ge jang. i had it today at corner place. maybe it was the stress, but i just couldn't enjoy it. man, work is really starting to bother me, can you tell? i'm starting to think about it while i'm outside the office, and that is a really bad sign. when i first started working, i took it home with me all the time. i dreamt about it, thought about it in the shower, etc. it was really bad. i mean, i worked hard and did a great job and made a reputation for myself as being a really good engineer, but in the end, i paid a dear price for it when my tourette's got really bad, and i had a nervous breakdown. it's not worth it, letting your job rule you world.
we have a new hire, D. he's from cal, and he's 22 years old. young blood! he seems cool, and he plays basketball, so tomorrow i'm going to take him and introduce him to the bball guys. it's funny. even though i'm almost a decade older than him, i still associate myself with the likes of him and the younger crowd at the company. when his boss A was introducing him to people yesterday, A told him about me, "don't take this guy lightly, even though he dresses like THIS, he's a senior guy." haha! yeah, i still wear jeans and a t-shirt, even though all the other older guys wear nice pants and buttondowns and the like.
ok, i'm bushed. gonna head out soon.