man, it's another monday. boo fucking hoo. the good news, though, is that my boss took today off, so i'm going to take off early, most likely after i finish typing this entry.
my dad and brother are in dallas right now. i wish i could go be with them. these days, i really miss seeing my family. it makes me sad because i really didn't appreciate them when we were all together, and now, it seems like those opportunities will be very rare.
oh, i forgot to mention this, but at blockbuster on friday night, there was this hot girl. i mean, her face was ok, but she really showed off her boobs. she had on this white low-cut mini-t, and her breasts would bounce with every step she took. i had to control myself from staring, taking quick glances every now and then.
i was watching tv yesterday, and they were showing _the replacement killers_. and i decided that mira sorvino is pretty attractive. go mira!
i would make for a terrible captive during a war. i would cave in an instant under the threat of torture. i simply can't tolerate pain. an example? plucking my nosehairs. it makes my eyes tear up. and get this: the other day, i plucked out a *white* nose hair. weird, huh?
i haven't been taking dumps regularly. i think it's because i'm eating so little that i have little waste to generate. still, though, i miss being regular, back when i used to look forward to taking a shit. i had a little one yesterday, and i was so ungratifying.
ok, this entry has been less than inspired. i'm tired of thinking of what to write, so i'll just end it here. have a nice day folks!
so let's see here... friday night, a group of us went to southland for dinner. i got the usual $3.25 ground pork with rice. afterwards, leeya, nelson and i went to go pick out a movie at a blockbuster. we came up with _stay_, which i had no idea was about, but when leeya read the synopsys on the back, i thought it would be too scary, so i backed out of the movie and went home.
also, i had major stomach cramps that night. it turned out to be gas. when i got home, i let out this huge, long fart, and that alleviated the pressure in my stomach.
saturday, i got up at 1pm and just watched tv for the next 5 hours or so. i also took a nap in between. for dinner, i met up with some of the guys at red robin in the rivermark. the royal red is a pretty damn good burger. i especially like the fried egg they put in there. everyone else got guinness, but i settled with a $6.49 johnnie walker black on the rocks. someone remind me never to get it at red robin again; the amount i got for that price just wasn't worth it.
afterwards, we went over to mikeC's place and watched an episode of southpark and an episode of macross zero. mike also had _sin city_ on his computer, so i just had to watch carla gugino's topless scene again. damn, she's got some great breasts.
sunday, i got up at 1pm again and went to safeway to do some errands. again, i watched tv the whole afternoon. i did, however, get to see _miami vice_ with alan and ting. i really didn't like it. and one of my biggest complaints is that i couldn't understand what the hell everyone was saying. alan said it was the sound system at the theater, but i dunno. it was all gibberish to me, so trying to follow the plot was almost impossible. oh well.
all in all, a relaxing weekend, although i really need to find something to do during the day.
so last night, at 1am, my phone rings to tell me i've got a new message. it was a text saying, "so am i.. and i really do miss you baby... a lot." wtf? i never text anyone, so this must have been somebody dialing the wrong number. what should i do? is this an important text that should be relayed to the correct recipient? should i call this person and tell him/her what happened? i dunno.
so my favorite girl (allison) got booted off on _so you think you can dance_ last night. i was pretty bummed. the other bottom girl, natalie, has some awesome abs. i thought it was time for donyelle to get voted off. oh well. i'm not really enjoying this season, and it's almost over, so i'll be glad to wash my hands of this series.
i've been taking small dumps here and there. i've had two today, and they were both the size of maybe a doubleshot glass. surprisingly, though, despite their small size, they needed some good pushing to get out. go figure.
i need some shoes that get a lot of air. apparently, i have some airtight shoes, and through the course of the day, my feet get soaked with sweat, especially on the bottom. it's really gross. but the thing is, i've never liked wearing sandals, and i don't like showing my toes either. hm. to combat this problem, i take off my shoes a lot when i know i'll be sitting in my cubicle for a while.
i should go to jamba juice more. i've gone twice this week, and it makes me feel like i'm being healthier. of course, their smoothies are loaded with sugar, so maybe it's all a delusion. but now, they're featuring "all fruit" smoothies, which means they don't put sherbet or frozen yogurt. they claim to be five servings of fruit each, so that can't be bad, right?
so we had our free company lunch today. i think it was catered from buca di beppo. it was very bad. i got all excited when i saw veal and eggplant parmigiana, but they turned out to be nothing but batter. yes, i should be watching what i eat, and deep-fried stuff should be off my list. i'll keep that in mind next time.
so nelson and i are thinking of seeing a 49ers game this season. that should be interesting. the only time i've been to candlestick was for a friend's bachelor party, where watched a giants game back when they played there. i'm not big into watching live sports (i like the comforts of my own house), but it's something that i've never done (watch an NFL game).
ok. it's almot 6. i want to go home. have a great weekend everyone!
so i've seen these commercials featuring kfc's boneless buffalo wings, so today, i decided to go there are check them out. i was sorely disappointed. the chicken was dry, and the batter was way too thick. i also got a chicken snacker for 99 cents, and that sucked as well. all in all, a terrible kfc experience.
so last night, vh1 was showing this "top 100 teen stars" countdown. one of them was phoebe cates. i had forgotten how beautiful she was. she's hapa, right? indeed. hapa's rock. and i need to rent _fast times_ to see the legendary breast scene. i found a picture of some stills of the scene, but i think seeing her take off her red bikini top in action will be worlds better.
these days, the first thing i do when i get home is take off my clothes. it's been cooling down lately, though, so my urge to go naked isn't as big. however, being naked isn't as fresh and comfortable as you might think. when i lie on my couch when it's hot, my thighs stick together through a layer of sweat. i think it would actually be more comfortable if i wore light pants or something. but still, overall, i like being naked. if only i could find a naked place to smoke; that way, i could go from lounging around my living room straight into the shower with the cigarette break in between.
naked smokes are the best. i had opportunities when i went to japan and had my own hotel room. i also did it when i lived at leghorn by myself; i had the upper apartment, and before my shower, i'd hang out on the balcony smoking without any clothes on. it's sooo relaxing, since it combines two of my most soothing activities, smoking and being naked.
have you ever seen two cats fight? last night, i heard noises that sounded a cross between a baby crying and a whooping fire engine. it turned out to be two cats. and suddenly, they would start screaming and scratching and wrestling with each other. there was fur everywhere! i was totally engrossed in the scene.
so i sold my shares of akamai (AKAM) today. the stock jumped up like $7 when i checked, and i decided to dump it. i got in at like $17, and i sold at $36. not bad, eh? of course, i bought some shares at $70 back during the internet boom, so that cancelled some of my glorious gain.
ok i'm done for today. one more day and the weekend will be here! *huzzah*
i had dim sum today, which felt odd because it was a workweek meal. i guess i'm used to only having dim sum on weekends. we went to saigon (yeah, weird name), one block north of lawrence/101. the food wasn't very good, though, but at least it was cheap ($11/person).
the temperature has dropped today, which is good. plus, it seems they've cranked up the AC at work, so much so that i'm actually a little *too* cold. but i shouldn't complain; it's better to be too cold than to be too hot.
so i got my blood tests in the mail today. my cholesterol level is high. i'm worried. am i gonna get a heart attack or something? i get chest pains once in a while, and i'm worried that they're mini attacks. i should talk to my doctor more about this. when i brought it up during my physical, he didn't seem to think it was a big deal.
so during the previews for _clerks 2_, i was excited to find out that there will be a second installment of _jackass_. that show is brilliant! apparently, though, not everyone think so; my old boss at gfn walked out after 15 minutes.
i have this one porn clip of one girl riding a guy until he spunked inside of her. i love it. in my opinion, that is the best way for a guy to get off. all he has to do is lie there, and she does all the work while he focuses on the pleasure. lovely, just lovely! i've only done it once, and i treasure that moment.
oh! last night, i was finally able to upload the picture of kate beckinsale with her nipples showing through. (not quite safe for work.) i love her breasts. they're a nice size, and her nipples and areolas are a good size. sexy, indeed. i hope this isn't a fake picture, though, because i didn't think kate would agree to have this picture made public.
at C's party on saturday, i made a faux paus. C's younger sister said hi to me, and i was like, "hi... E." yeah, it took me a second to remember her name. and it was very obvious that i had forgotten for that second. they noticed it, too, and i felt very embarrassed. *sigh*
i'm pretty bad with names. usually when i get introduced to someone, it's like the name goes in one ear and goes out the other. i hate that. especially now that i'm getting older and becoming senile, it's only going to get worse.
ok, take care folks! and guys, enjoy that picture of kate! :)
i know (sorta) this woman who has a nice, sexy body. the problem? she's got a bad face. that is just a big fucking shame, isn't it? sigh. bad faces ruin everything. i mean, if you flip the circumstances, and the girl has a nice face and an ok body, that's still much better.
i was so excited when i found a picture of kate beckinsale in a white and wet top. you could see nipplage! i can't seem to ftp it to my server, but i'll put it up as soon as i can. she is quite hot, although for me, it depends a lot on her hair. i don't like her when her hair is curly or frizzy, like it was in the _underworld_ series. but when it's straight, i think she's downright beautiful.
so during the second episode of _how i met your mother_ last night, robin ordered a johnnie walker blue, neat. "neat" means without ice, in case you didn't know. that's how i ordered it, because i didn't want to order a $40 drink that would be watered down with ice. that's right, it cost $40 (i was at the W hotel in SF), and the verdict? still nasty. i just don't like johnnie walker, i guess, even though i do drink it when they don't have jameson, which is my whiskey of choice.
the weather's been cooling down, at least for today. thank goodness. i'll have to make sure the next place i live in has AC.
my company's stock took quite a hit today. it was down like $5, from $20 to somewhere in the $15 range. oh well. its high this year was almost $30, so that's a 50% drop in only a few months. ouch!
i often wonder how friends get to be friends with benefits. you know, friends who have sex. like, how do you bring it up? do you just ask, "hey, do you want to be fuck buddies?" hm. i could certainly use one right now. it would take an extreme amount of courage to ask, and if she turns me down, then how awkward would the situation be?
i bring this up because one of my friends is actually engaged to her fuck buddy. i guess they grew to love each other, and that's a really cool story, although it's not a story you can really tell your kids, hehe.
here's an etiquette question. i was eating alone (again) in the cafeteria, and i'm about 2/3 of the way through when a coworker joins me at the table. so the question is... do i have to stay until he finishes his meal before i can go? you know, so i don't leave him alone? today, that's what i did. i finished my stuff, talked to him for a bit, and said goodbye. i would have tried to stay, but got a massive amount of food.
ok, that's all i have for today. happy tuesday!
hey people. i'm glad to be at work, but the only reason why that is so is because we have AC here. once again, it was blazing hot out there, and the walk from my friend's car to the restaurant during lunch was unbearable. fyi, we went to sushi o sushi, and i don't like the food there. i shall veto the place next time somebody suggests it.
after lunch, we sent to jamba juice and got smoothies. i got the banana berry, not because i like the flavor, but because it has blueberries, which are good for you. but anyway, it was good to sip something cold on such a hot day. and plus, i bumped into some old coworkers (vijay, mark, and murali), so that was nice; it sounds like the company is doing well, so maybe the stock i still have will be worth something someday.
i don't have much facial hair. i can't connect my mustache to my goatee, and overall, i just have a lesser growth than most people. while part of me feels less "manly," i guess it's a good thing because i don't have to shave every day, and i don't have as many areas to shave. i'm all about being lazy. although, i should shave more often, because i let it grow out a bit, and i get razorburn afterwards, especially in that patch below the lips. ouch!
i'm looking forward to tv tonight. mondays are the only nights where i enjoy watching television. what show do i watch? _how i met your mother_. i'm watching the reruns because i only caught the last few episodes of the season, and i think robin (cobie smulders) is really cute. and i like the sexual tension between robin and ted. sexual tension is the best!
these past sweaty nights remind me of hot, sweaty sex. as gross as that may seem to some people, i actually think it's kind of sexy. bodies glistening, writhing together, etc. there's that one ad (i forget what's it's for, maybe beer?) with the sweaty girl dancing? she's wearing black leather pants that are painted onto her ass, and it's just such a turn-on. and plus, she's got ass dimples (you know, dimples in her lower back), which is a major bonus for me. hot!
why do women make so much noise during sex? does it really feel *that* good? i wonder because i'm pretty silent. i mean, it feels good, but not that good for me to be moaning and stuff. hm. i mean, when the girl is extra tight or extra wet, i'll make some noise, but in general, mum's the word. that is, until i blow my wad, of course. :)
ok, that's it for me today. i'm not looking forward to going back to the heat in my apartment.
the subject line is a palindrome, btw. :)
anyways, the big rage this weekend was the heat. everyone was talking about. and it was a real scorcher, too. going outside just made me feel miserable.
so friday night, nelson and i had dinner at the tied house. i got a maker's mark whiskey, but they put in some weird lime cola stuff into it. not very good.
saturday, i got out of bed at 2 even though it was too hot to fall asleep. i didn't do much all day, except get a smog check, where i totally got ripped off. but i was too lazy to fight with the management or drive off to another smoke check station, so i just did it there. and lucky for me, there was a nicely air-conditioned nob hill supermarket nearby, so i just went there and hung out at the frozen meat section.
i tried to take a naked nap, but my place was too hot, so hot that any skin-on-skin contact produced sweaty stickiness.
that night, i went to C's sendoff party in santa clara. she's going to vegas to participate in the main event of the world series of poker. i'm so impressed by that; she must be a really good poker, player, huh? anyways, it was nice to be outside at night when it was cooling down, and i wound up talking to some people i didn't know before.
sunday, nelson and i went to denny's for brunch. we had been previously going to original pancake house, but denny's is much cheaper. afterwards, we hung out in the air conditioned fry's, and then off to mercado for _clerks 2_. i thought the movie was ok, and acting was mediocre, but overall, it was interesting. i guess the only reason why i didn't like it more was because the novelty of kevin smith's raunchy dialogue was lost.
and that was it for my weekend. sleep was miserable, though. it was about 90 degrees in my room when i hit the sack, and that is just unacceptable. ick.
so yeah, i had a physical today. the doctor didn't do too much, though. he just asked me a lot of questions. i did have to drop my pants, while he felt for hernias and for lumps on my testicles. i don't know how i'd feel if i had a woman doctor feeling my gonads. maybe i'd pop a boner?
oh, and no rectal exam. he didn't even ask, and i forgot to bring it up.
and i got my blood drawn, too. first, i told the dude that i had tourette's. he sort of got scared, and this girl volunteered to do the trick while he and another guy held my arms down. i had to look away when they stuck the needle in. it was a thin needle, but it still stung and burned while the blood flowed out of my arm.
by the time i got back to the office, all of the coworkers i usually eat with were gone. so i went to mcd's and got takeout. i ate alone in the downstairs cafeteria. man, eating alone is so sad. i always feel bad when i see someone in a restaurant eating alone. a person should always have dining buddies!
oh! and at the doctor's visit, i got my earwax cleaned out. they put in a few drops in there to loosen the stuff up, and then i got a peroxide wash. it felt good. i loved the bubbling action, followed by the clearing up of my ear canal. i swear i can hear better, too! the only problem was, i wanted to see my wax, but the nurse who was doing the job dispensed of the wax-laden liquid before i could take a look. i know, i'm fixated on my ear wax. is that weird?
i'm tired of the summer reality tv. it seems all the shows that are on nowadays are some sort of talent competition where a person (or more) get voted off. i want some fictional drama or comedy! and what's worse, there's no sports to watch, either. i hate watching baseball, and aside from that, there's nothing. sigh. i can't wait for fall to come.
my company hired a girl. she's on my floor, and i think i've only seen her once. i didn't get a good look, but nothing stood out except for the fact that she wears glasses, which is a plus in my book.
ok, i've run out of things to say. off for a smoke and then i'll be going home. bye!
so today, we left early for lunch to go to banana leaf in milpitas. we had a half an hour wait (at least) in the blazing sun just to get seated. and honestly, i didn't think the wait was worth it. i got the chow kueh teow (one of my favorite malaysian dishes), and it was only ok. so why is this place so busy? i don't get it.
so last night, after i fell asleep, around 1:30am or so, i woke up with this raging boner. it was so hard it almost hurt. so decided that i would relieve myself by flushing the pipes. however, after like 20 minutes or so, i couldn't get myself off so i decided to quit and go back asleep. so that explains why i am sexually frustrated today.
speaking of which, what does blue balls feel like? i've never had them, and i'm curious. it doesn't sound fun, though, although it seems easy to fix; a simple wank session should do the job, right?
my tics are horrible today. especially at banana leaf. heat really makes my tics bad, because i'm all uncomfortable and stuff. but anyways, my current condition depresses me. i thought i was in an upswing just a few weeks ago, but now it seems like i'm in another tourette's rut. you should seen some of the "you're a freak" looks i got during lunch from the women at the next table. sigh.
so i have my physical tomorrow. i'm worried about the blood drawing. and i'll have to hold in my tics, too, which will be tough. can you imagine the bloody mess that will happen if i twitch violently while a big fat needle is stuck in my arm? *shivers*
ok, that's it. i know, my posts are getting shorter, but i just feel like shit in the afternoons. gonna go home and rest now.
happy wednesday, people!
i was watching _sex and the city_ last night, and there was one thing i didn't get. how come most times during post-coitus, the women are still wearing something? i mean, for me, one demand i have before sex is that we get naked. that's the normal operation for most couples, is it not? yet, on tv, the women seem to have sex without taking off their nighties or what not. yes, i know part of it is due to censorship, but i just think it's very unrealistic.
also, in the episode, carrie was dating aidan. i think he's too tall for her. the height differential was over a foot, and i think that's too much. he literally had to hunch over and bend his neck way over just to kiss her. it looked very awkward. that's why i'd like to date a girl who's relatively tall.
i have the runs. it sucks. i had a good solid dump yesterday morning, but twice later in the day, i had two bouts of diarrhea. and for fear of soiling my sheets at night, i wore boxers to bed. it was very uncomfortable, not sleeping naked. and this morning, i had a very squishy dump as well. hm. i wonder what's wrong with me; maybe i have a stomache virus or something.
is it weird that i'm a guy and i like watching _SatC_? i noticed last night that their advertisements targeted women. there were ads for vagisil (what *is* that for, anyway?) and this female sex-enhancer pill (what does this do?). it's quite unlike espn, for example, where there are a lot of beer and car ads. hm.
so i played one game of basketball game today. normally, it's just us employees at Z who play, but every tuesday, there are a bunch of other people who join us. they're good, and i was sort of intimidated. so after one game, i left. sigh. i should let their skills intimidate me; i should just play for the exercise. oh well. i'll see how it is on thursday.
i took another great dump today. there was a lot of it. and i don't know why i'm so fixated on good dumps of late, but i am. may i *would* enjoy anal sex? heh.
so here's a little riddle for you guys that i came up with. what do these words have in common?
sequoia
subpoenaing
pandemonium
so i'm pretty much done with my work here. i'm very bored, and my boss even told me to go home early today. sitting here at my desk is very painful, sort of like flying in a plane with nothing to do. it's not that i want to work, but i'm just saying... it's hard to pass time when you don't have anything to do. there are only so many websites that i can browse.
back during my internship in japan, i would browse the web for five hours a day. (they didn't give me much to do there.) i can't fathom that. five hours? these days, i don't surf much. aside from my blog reading in the morning, i just go to espn during the day every hour or so. someone recommend me some interesting sites to read.
i'm disappointed in how little i know about world news. or rather, how little i care about what's going on. i checked msnbc today, and i skimmed the headlines. nothing interested me, and i wound up reading an article about american idol. i mean, i used to read _time_ magazine cover to cover every week. not that i want to start that up again, but i'm just saying, i've become very apathetic about what goes on outside my little bubble.
ok, going home early today. woo-hoo! i think it may be time for a naked time nap. :)
man, today was a lazy day. my tics have been acting up lately, so i'm getting massage at 5:30 to alleviate some of the tightness in my neck. it should be great. and plus, i get to leave work a little early, so that's a bonus.
so pending laziness and lethargy, i plan on resuming my basketball playing tomorrow. i haven't exercised in a couple of months, so we'll see how badly i suck wind after a game or two. this upcoming physical on friday is scaring me; i'm afraid that my cholesterol will be superhigh or my smoking will have permanently damaged my lungs or something. we'll see.
i had an amazing dream last night. i got to make out with a girl! and plus, i distinctly remembering touching her right breast. ah, boobs. i miss them. i can't remember who i was fooling around with, though; the memories i make in my dreams fade away very quickly, but i think it was my piano teacher back when i was in high school.
speaking of amazing, i had the best dump today in a very long time. it was long, thick, and it felt really good coming out. i looked back in the toilet, and it indeed was a log. i wish i had a digital scale so i could see exactly much it weighed.
over the weekend, i saw some movies on tv that i hadn't seen in a while. saturday afternoon, spike tv was showing _fist of legend_, one of my favorite jet li movies. the fights were amazing, and i enjoyed watching it again, despite the bad dubbing. and sunday night, i watched _face off_, which i think was one of john woo's better american works. ah, bullet ballets...
it's interesting how my qualification on porn (for wanking purposes) has gotten much more demanding. back when i was a kid, i could blow my wad just by looking at a low-quality vcr freeze-frame of some woman's breasts. but these days, it's gotta be high quality. magazines don't work for me (i need real-time action), and for videos, the sex has got to be good. certain positions don't do it for me, for example. i've become a porn snob!
ok, i've run out of things to say. t-minus 26 minutes until my massage! *huzzah*
man, i need to do more over the weekends. i don't know what i want to do, but it should be *something* instead of nothing.
friday night, nelson and i had dinner at spice islands in downtown mountain view. i like what we ordered there, but i wasn't really hungry. we grabbed roasted barley pearl milk tea at tea era and just chilled along the street. nelson remarked how it was very "euro." i like people watching, so i was content to just sit there and chat a little bit.
saturday was the worst. i didn't see a human soul except for the guy at the taco bell drive-thru window. i got (among other things) the spicy chicken cruncy wrap supreme. i think it's the last time i'll get it; they don't put enough chicken in there, and it's not as tasty as i remembered it to be. but otherwise, i did nothing all day, except watch tv. it was pretty depressing, actually.
sunday, a group of us went to the stacks in menlo park. we only waited for about half an hour, which is good considering it's stacks. i think it's time to let go of this place. i used to rave about it, but now, it's just not as good anymore. i don't know what changed, but i wasn't as happy about my meal (bacon and avocado omelet) as i used to be.
there was an arts fair along santa cruz street, so afterwards, we just walked around and looked at the booths. but then, it got too hot, so we went home.
after nelson dropped me off, i took care of some errands afterwards (getting my meds and buying cigarettes) and went home for a naked nap. it was just too hot to be wearing clothes.
later on, i met up with alan and ting at hanamaru in sunnyvale for some japanese food. i got a beer and had some sushi, while alan prodded me to try to get me to start running. but yeah, dinner was fun, although i wish we could hang out more.
and that was it. a pretty lazy weekend, and now it's monday. *blech*
hey peeps. tgif! i had lunch with mia today at southland taste. they raised the price of my ground pork rice from $3.25 to $4.25. even so, it's still cheap and good.
anyways, mia mentioned how i get quiet in a group setting. she's right. i blame it on my tourette's. when we go out (for dinners usually), i've already been fighting my tourette's for the whole day, so i'm pretty much mentally exhausted. and plus, my medication makes my brain sedated, so i simply have nothing to say. so that's the gist on why i don't talk much. and besides, i prefer one-on-one conversations anyway.
i've got a reverse watch tan on my right arm. it's weird. it's like the part of my forearm that was covered watch is the part that's gotten darker. odd, huh?
so i'm at good weight now. my scale in the mornings reads 165, and i'm happy with that number. so i'm going to try to go to maintenance phase, which means eating dinner from time to time. last night, i went to taqueria la bamba with alan, and i got a carnita quesadilla.
alan and ting are seriously considering having their wedding in hawaii. which means travel. i know it's a beautiful place to have a wedding, but i don't know if i'll enjoy it. i don't snorkel or scuba dive (i'm pretty averse to all aquative exercises), i don't like the beach, etc. i'll go for hikes, i suppose. oh well.
my parents are getting tech-savvy! they both just added me on to their yahoo IM buddy list. i hope they don't chat with me too much, because i have work to do and stuff. and it's sort of eerie, because it feels like they can spy on me or something.
i need to make a trek out to downtown palo alto (mac's smoke shop) to buy some lighter fluid for my zippo's. i've been lazy about it, so i've been using a regular lighter to light up my cigarettes. my current yellow one is almost out of fluid, so yesterday, i bought a new one. it's really ugly. it's got this black/white checkerboard pattern on it, and it's also got a picture of a hemp leaf. you know, marijuana leaf. makes me seem like i'm a pothead or something.
anyways, not much to report on this much-appreciated friday. i don't have any particular plans, but anyways, it'll be nice to chill. have a good weekend, everyone!
man, i am beat today. i was pretty productive, and i just got out of an hour-long meeting where the project manager bitched out of my friends. it wasn't fun listening to that happen. i was hoping he wouldn't start crying or something.
anyways, i had mongolian bbq today for the first time in many months. one of my coworkers is leaving (moving to canada), and i wanted to take him there as a finall hurrah. at first, the food tasted good, but then it got old. and i added too much spice (chili paste). so i'm all mongolian-ed out.
i'm a fan of straight hair. i was reminded of this fact when i was watching _so you think you can dance_ last night. one of the girls, allison, has a nice face, but i didn't find her totally attractive because she had long wavy hair. it just looked messy. if she straighted it out, she would look much better, imho.
i'm sleeping well these days. but i'm a little worried about tonight because it's been blazing hot today. heat makes me very uncomfortable in bed, and i don't get to snuggle among my cool pillows and blankets. we'll see how i do when i hit the sack tonight.
have you ever mistaken horniness for true feelings for someone? i have. there have been times where i think i really love a girl, but after sex, those feelings just melt away, and i find myself ambivalent about her. yes, it's a bad situation to be in, and it can prolong relationships that should be over already. oh well. at least i got sex, right?
anyways, not much to write about today. i need to drop by the pharmacy to get some drugs, and then i'm meeting up with alan for some burritos. i spend a lot of money on medication; if i didn't have medical insurance, then i'd be really screwed. even then, i spend like $100 a month of drugs. sigh. the life of a guy with a chronic disease/disorder.
ok, i'm off!
man, it's been yet another frustrating day of debugging. oh well, i know i complain about it a lot, so i'll spare you the whining.
so i finally got off my ass and scheduled a physical exam. i'm impressed i'm still in the hospital's records, since the last time i went in was like six years ago. the reason why i finally did it was because i saw my psych today, and he requested i get a blood test to see if the depakote medication i'm taking is screwing up my liver.
i'm not looking forward to the prostate exam, although i am weirdly curious about it because this will be the first time i will have something inserted in my anus. and since the prostate is supposed to be the male g-spot, i wonder if it'll feel good. hehe.
what i'm *not* looking for is the blood drawing. i hate needles, and the ones they use for drawing blood are fucking scary. and i know they'll be getting a lot of my blood, because the last time i went, they drew *six* vials. *shivers*
my boss just e-mailed me. i was proud that i finished some of my tasks, so i thought i'd send out a report of what i accomplished. however, my boss wrote back that what i am doing this week should have been done last week, and i have until the end of the week to do all these new tasks. that just shot down my happiness. and i am now stressed out because there's no way i'll be able to finish my stuff before the weekend.
ann, i don't know the name of the potsticker place. but it's not in the huge main building of the 99 ranch plaza. it's in the middle of the parking lot, on one of the two islands.
there's a link on espn.com of a video of a guy doing a 720 degree dunk. that's amazing! i can't view it because i don't have macromedia flash 8 installed, but i definitely want to see it. maybe the next time i reboot, i'll install the new software.
i have a bad habit of staring at a woman's cleavage. it's tantalizing to me, and i can't help taking peeks from now and then. i'm positive the women notice, because how else can you not know that a guy's not looking at your face and at your breasts instead? but i just can't help it. maybe i need to be smacked or something.
it's interesting to see how standards have changed on tv. it used to be that you couldn't say "ass" or "bitch," but how you hear it everywhere. and, i was watching _sex and the city_ on tbs last night, and they used "blowjob." wow! my, we have gone far. and i like it.
ok, that's it for me today. going back to the hell that is debugging.
hey people. it's another lazy day at the office, although i have 3 tests to debug. these tests are frustrating because they take hours to finish, and in the meantime, i can't tell what's going wrong.
so i still know how to solve a rubik's cube. i hadn't touched one in many months, and all the moves were slipping away from my memory. but yesterday, i went to W's cubicle, messed up his rubik's cube, and i was able to finish it. *relief*
i mention this because my memory is failing me these days. i can't remember songs, actor's names, random facts that used to pop into my mind easily. but these days, i struggle with my brain. i don't know if it's all the meds i take or if i'm just getting old. man, i used to be so sharp in high school and early college. i have to admit, i was smart. but these days? not so much. my mind's gotten all lazy on me.
i see my psych tomorrow. i wonder why i go to him, when all he does is give me drugs. he doesn't do much in the way of solving my problems, instead, he just treats my symptoms. but then again, there's no cure for tourette's, except for that dude who got a brain implant. sigh. TS is a bitch.
but i have to remember to keep things in perspective. a lot of people suffer far worse than me, and i need to be aware of that. ESPN is doing a 10-day piece on kids with serious or terminal illnesses, and that's just sad. kids should be happy. during the first one, they featured this kid named charlie pena who suffered from sickle cell anemia. it almost made me cry, and i admit i almost teared up when i heard about his story.
i haven't cried in almost a decade. i wonder if there's something wrong with me. i'm too stoic, and i don't let my feelings out. plus, i don't even remember the last time i was truly happy. hm. i need to think about that a bit.
speaking of stuff i haven't done in a while, i haven't puked in a long time. i used to puke pretty often. i just sorta liked it, its cleansing feeling. i think i was just stressed or something, and puking gave me relief. the last time i puked was about 2 years ago, when i did it right outside my house in the plants. our neighbors complained because they had a dog, and it would eat up the puke and track it all over their floor. i was pretty embarrassed about that, and i got a tongue lashing from my neighbor.
anyways, that's it for today. i have 40 minutes to kill before i go home.
yo, whassup. i'm bummed that it's monday, especially since last week was only a three-day workweek. facing five days of working seems like a daunting task now.
for lunch, C, J and i went to milpitas for lunch. i love long lunches, especially since i've freed up a bit at work. we went to this place in milpitas square called "chez mayflower." i didn't remember it being there, so maybe it's new? anyways, i ordered my favorite cantonese dish, beef and egg over rice. the egg isn't well-done or anything; it's all slippery and stuff. could be a source for salmonella, i'm sure, but i've never gotten sick eating it.
what's the most you've ever paid for a pair of jeans? i think for me, it was around $80 or so, back when girbaud (sp?) was popular. however, since i don't really care about how the jeans accentuate my ass or anything, these days, a simple pair of gap jeans suits me just fine. that's like $40 or so. i'm just asking because i recently heard that one girl got a pair for like $190! that's rather exorbitant, if you ask me. but hey, if they fit you like a dream, then go for it.
are there people who actually enjoy running? i find it a terrible, tortuous activity. i gain no sense of accomplishment or joy from doing it. alan has been asking me if i want to run a 5K race sometime. and while i'm sure that i could easily train and do it, i simply have no desire to do so.
i am a lazy ass. i see some friends of mine who have run marathons or completed triathlons, and i say, "wow." i need to get off my ass and play some tennis and basketball, which are sports that i semi-enjoy. motivation! i need some!
do you guys remember biore pore perfect strips? i could use some of those. in fact, i have a small pack of them at home, but they're like 5 years old. do they go bad? i'm rubbing my nose right now, and my fingers are getting all greasy and stuff. and i can squeeze out little white oil squiggles. ick.
in the past 3-4 nights, i've dreamt of past women in my life (namely, k1 and k3). i don't know why they keep popping into my dreams. in some way, i like it, because it's like they're part of my life again, but then again, they are so *not* a part of my real life. sigh. i miss them both, and i feel even worse about it because i'm the reason why they don't talk to me anymore.
ok. that's it for today. gonna have my 5pm smoke now.
man, i really wasted my weekend, except for friday night.
friday night, we had a 15-person dinner in union city for geoff and leeya's birthdays. we were supposed to go to texas roadhouse, but they said the wait was 2.5-3 hours. so we changed our plans to the nearby tony roma's. but some of the people who came insisted that texas roadhouse was worth the wait, so we changed our minds again.
greg, cheryl and i hit the bar while everyone else went to borders books. i actually had a good time chatting with the other two while drinking my jameson. (i had three whiskey's that night: two jameson's and one maker's mark, and it gave me a headache and no buzz.) but after 2.5 hours, they still couldn't set us all, so in the end, we all got split up despite having waited so long. we raised a big stink about it.
but the food was really good. the ribs were fall-off-the-bone tender, and the green beans weren't bad either. i normally don't get ribs because they're messy, but i got to eat them without using my hands, they were so tender. we got out of dinner at around 11pm, and headed to tap ex for some pearl tea drinks. we stayed there until closing at midnight.
and that was pretty much it as far as social activities. saturday and sunday, i stayed home all day (got in some naked time on sunday afternoon during the world cup), except for some quick dinner with friends. i had togo's with alan and ting on saturday, hoping to catch _pirates_ (but it was sold out). and i had pho with nelson on sunday.
sunday, i tried the spicy chicken crunch wrap supreme at taco bell for a late lunch, and it was decent. it was soggier than i imagined, but it was still sorta tasty. i don't know if i'll get it again, though; i think once is enough.
howdy! tgif! i had a light day today, which was good, although it did get pretty boring. it seems the test that has been bugging us has finally been resolved. and the thing i was looking at yesterday (which made me very upset) had been resolved as well. and plus, my boss is happy today, which translates to less pressure on me.
i wore my pristine freshly-washed ben sherman t-shirt to work today. it's white with black sleeves. and i soiled it. badly. first, the quesadilla i got at la bamba exploded with carnitas drippings, and then i ticced while drinking RED gatorade. so now there are splotches all over the shirt. it looks really bad, making me look like a slob. i think i'm going to stick with all dark shirts from now on.
happy birthdays to leeya and geoff! we're celebrating their milestones at this bbq place in union city. i checked out their website, and they're a public company! hm. i hope they're good; growing up in texas, it's hard to find anything out here that can match the quality of what i can find back home.
so apparently roger ebert is in the hospital. i hope he's doing ok. every friday, i go to his site to check out the latest reviews, but today, there were no updates. i wanted to see if _pirates_ was any good. i love keira knightley, but i didn't like her in the last pirates movie. i think she's much better in a modern look, like in _bend it like beckham_. hot!
so my 10th year stanford reunion is this october. i went onto the website today to check if i knew anybody who was attending. and i shamefully admit, the first person i looked for was k1. *hides* i know, i know, i should stop being fixated upon her, but man, this whole "first love" thing really did a number on me. (fyi, she was not listed as attending.)
it's not like i want to be with her or anything, but i just feel really bad about the way things ended. or rather, i regret how i treated her in the aftermath. i was young, i was stupid, so i did some rather egregious things. and i just want to make things right so we can be friends. but i don't think that will ever happen, so that's why i'm bummed out about the whole thing.
i really need to get a physical. lately, i've been getting chest pains. they're sort of burning, throbbing types of pains, and i wonder if they're like mini heart attacks. they don't feel good, that's for sure. and plus, with my shitty diet, i really need to get my cholesterol checked. but man, i am totally afraid of needles, especially those big fat ones that they use to draw blood. eek!
ok, i'm tired of blogging. have a great weekend folks!
hey people. i am utterly frustrated with work today. basically, a test failed, and i was assigned to debug it, even though i had no clue where to look. this block is one of the legacy ones designed back in 1998 or so, and all the original designers have left the company. sigh. i HATE legacy upkeep.
i went to taxi's for lunch. i got a mushroom swiss burger, and it wasn't very good. very big, but not very good. and it turned out to be a mess, too (too much beef drippage), which i hate. i'm a dainty eater. when i eat a chicken drumstick, i actually wrap the bottom of it with a napkin so my fingers stay clean.
there is absolutely nothing good on tv these days. i'm not really interested in reality tv, and besides those shows, the rest are just reruns from the season. can anyone recommend me some good shows that are in rerun?
so ann, the potsticker place i was talking about is on one of those islands in the parking lot. i think they still have the "grand opening" sign up, and i think the chinese name for the place means something like, "small yet big." i don't recommend the potstickers, though.
so i'm discovering little holes in some of my t-shirts. what causes that? is it cotton-eating bugs that hide in my stack of t-shirts? or is it just wear and tear? i found two of them in one of my favorite t-shirts yesterday, and i was very sad. sigh. nothing lasts forever, i suppose.
so after like five days of not shitting, i finally had a small dump today. i looked back at the toilet with disappointment. it felt much bigger than it really was, and i took quite a bit of pushing, too. i had to lean back (i find that it helps my push harder) a few times on the toilet. i long for those days of regularity and nice looking turds!
i'm impressed with my work buddy W. he's taking mandaring classes, and he's going to sign up for golf and swimming classes if he can get in. so proactive! me, i just languish on the couch when i'm not working. yes, i'm a lazy ass.
many years ago, when i had hbo, i remember watching this show called "real sex." it documented the various things that people did for sexual pleasure. and one of them was masturbation parties, where people would go, undress, and wank each other off. i thought it was a really cool and titillating idea. i wonder if there are any of those parties in the bay area.
anyways, that's my idea of wonderment for the day. gonna head home soon.
hey people. the bad news is that i'm back working again. the good news is that i only have to work for three days before having another weekend. hooray for short workweeks! *huzzah*
have you heard of realdolls? they're basically real, lifesize, expensive dolls that you can buy to be your companion. i assume that you can have sex with them, so then i have a question: how realistic is the vagina built? does it feel right? i feel sort of sad towards people who buy them, but then again, whatever floats your boat, man. at least you get to have sex, albeit with a lifeless being.
so congrats to my friends D&C for the birth of their baby boy! man, i feel way behind schedule regarding this whole startin-a-family thing. anyways, though, i'm happy for them. the baby is a hapa, which most likely means that he'll be good looking.
at home, i drink only dr pepper, odwalla superfood, and gatorade. so over the weekend, i went to safeway, looking for my favorite cool blue gatorade, but they were out of it. so i got an 8-pack of berry-flavored gatorade "rain." it sucks. don't get it. there's only a mild hint of flavor, which makes the drink very bland and not very refreshing.
getting up this morning really hurt. over the past 5 days, i averaged getting up around 1pm, which is the usual weekend time for me. so that means i got 4 hours less sleep. i also had two late nights of the long weekend, which meant getting home around 1-1:30am. thank goodness there are sportscenter reruns at 2am, or else there would be nothing on tv to lull me to sleep.
and come to think of it, i didn't take a dump over the entire long weekend. i must have, right? but i can't remember if i did or not. you'd think that i would have had at least one dump after that country friend steak i ate at chili's, but no.
anyways, that's it for me today. gonna leave just a tad early and get a long-awaited and badly-needed haircut. ciao!
i had a restful, peaceful weekend for the most part. you know, just spending time by myself and chilling.
so it turns out i never went to gary danko. jay and margaret dropped out last minute because they were behind in packing up their house. i was putting on my suit when i found out it was cancelled. alan and ting still went, though, but i didn't want to be a third wheel. and plus, the whole point of going was to hang out with jay during his last days in the bay area.
so friday, i just had dinner with nelson at gionvanni's. he didn't particularly like the pizza there. afterwards, we went to paul's house and watched _underworld: revolutions_. it was a bloody movie! and i didn't think kate beckinsale was as attractive as i remembered her to be, although the gratuitous love scene was pretty nice to watch.
afterwards, i headed over to alan and ting's place to wait for jay and margaret for last goodbye's. but they were still doing last minute chores at their house, so i just drove over and paid my last respects. bye bye, jay and margaret!
saturday, i spent the whole day by myself, aside from driving to jack in the box for some breakfast.
sunday, i stopped by greg and cheryl's bbq in las palmas park in sunnyvale. i hung around for a bit, got sunburnt (my knees again!), and went home. for dinner, i met alan and ting at tomatina's, and we watched _superman returns_ at AMC mercado. i thought the movie was rather boring, but i thought kate bosworth was cute, although her character had no personality.
monday, i had dinner with nelson at chili's. he was craving american food, so we both got the country fried steak. awesome meal. for $10.29, it was a feast! we headed over to mikeC's place afterwards, where i watched a little tv with them and left.
tuesday, i watched the end to the world cup game (italy def. germany), a lot of espn stuff, and had dinner with paul, leeya and mikeC at southland taste. afterwards, we grabbed pearl drinks at verde, and i went home early. i didn't feel like watching fireworks because they were launching them so late (9:30), so i just went home and called it a weekend.
so overall, rather boring, but i feel well-rested. and that's a good thing, no?