howdy people. i just spent the entire afternoon debugging this strange behavior in the test. it turns out that this for() loop in the C code was overwriting one of my things in the memory. stupid mistake that caused a few hours of headbanging.
the other night, i had this intense fantasy about being handcuffed to the bed. hehe. i own a set of police-issue handcuffs, but i've never used it during sex. for best results, i should get another (so each hand can be tied to the bedpost or something), and then i have to get a bed with bedposts. :) oh, and after that, a girl to try it on. ha!
yeah, handcuffs are kinky. and so are blindfolds. i've been blindfolded before, and it just heightens all the other sensations. it's pretty cool!
but that's it as far as sex toys that i'll use, i think (unless someone enlightens me to new ideas). i'm not a big fan of dildos, because why put something in the girl when you can put your own schlong in? and ben -a balls? nobody's sticking something in my ass! :)
speaking of ass, i always take a larger dump than i think. like this morning, i thought i ejected a small turd, but when i looked back at the tank, it was a full 7 to 8 inches of stuff. man, how deceptive the sphincter is!
so _alias_ is back on this week, after many months of hiatus. i'm not sure how i feel about the show. i mean, i don't like it, and i don't like seeing a pregnant sydney bristow (how can she still go on dangerous missions?), but i feel this compulsion to see it through after i got hooked on it early when it first started. i do like the new rachel girl, though. for a blonde, she's pretty hot! especially when she wears glasses. *drools*
i've been ticcing more than usual these days. i'm not sure what's going on. but one thing i do know is that the depakote that i'm on isn't doing squat. *RAAR* i'm kind of feeling tingly right now, sort of like how the beginning of a panic attack feels. hm. i hope it doesn't develop into something more serious tonight.
the worst panic attack i ever had was when i went to see _serenity_ with alan, ting and jan at the metreon. i had to sit through the entire movie feeling like i was about to explode out of my clothes. it was *very* excrutiating. and after that, i had to drive jan home and drive back from the city down south. man, that was some fucked up shit!
sigh. poor me. me and my jacked up brain.
anyways, after many e-mails and a phone message, i finally heard from hr girl. i was glad she was still alive; previously, i thought she was in the hospital or something, or that she had cut me out of her life. but she's there, working 60-80 hour weeks or some insane shit like that. i can't imagine working that hard. with my tics and low stamina for work, i wouldn't be able to survive that kind of grind.
ok, my tics are really starting to get to me. time to sign off.
man, i had a pretty uneventful weekend. part of it was due to my laziness, esp. on saturday.
friday night, paul, leeya, john and i went to southland. leeya really likes this place, so we've been going there pretty often, i.e. once a week. poor leeya, though, was sick. i felt bad for her, even though she seemed to enjoy her beef noodle soup (extra spicy, too!). i got my usual $3.25 ground pork over rice. and we hit fantasia after that.
that night, i had a bout of extreme insomnia. i lay in bed for FIVE hours, from 9pm to 2am. i still slept 12 hours, which meant that lunch plans were out when i woke up at 2pm. so i just watched a lot of tv, and i met up with geoff, nelson and paul at pizza chicago for dinner.
we got the great chicago fire (one of my favorites, but no cilantro), and a new pizza called the eddie gaedel. this one had shrimp on it. interesting taste with the shrimp, but i probably wouldn't order it again. and we all got beer! haha. i think i'm getting this group to drink a bit more. but yeah, my stomach must've shrunk, because after only 4 slices (half of a large pizza), i was absolutely stuffed. we still made it out to tapioca express, though.
saturday, i went to downtown palo alto to meet up with dj at hyderabad house. their okra is awesome, and that's why i chose the place. we also got butter chicken (makhani), but i've had better at other places (like banjara, if it still exists).
and that was it for the weekend. yup, it ended at sunday lunch for me. i was waiting for alan and jay and company for dinner, when they came back from their puppy expedition in santa cruz, but nobody called me back. so after waiting until 8:30, i just called it a night and went to bed without breakfast. i know, poor me. i was starving, too! i should've at least had a bowl of cereal before i went up.
so yeah, that was it. pretty unsatisfying weekend.