hey people. cheer up! it's friday! although it's raining today. i hate the fucking rain. ruins everything. *pukes*
so the mongolian bbq outing was postponed until next week. instead, i went with a couple of coworkers to have thai buffet (aroy-dee on saratoga). there were more people there than usual, which is good news for business. and i went overboard on the fried banana dessert. i got four pieces, but only ate three. i guess i was filled up by the pad see ew (yum). you got to pace yourself at a buffet!
so march madness is winding down. 'tis a shame, as it is my favorite sports season of the year, next to the NFL playoffs and super bowl. tomorrow, i'm watching the ucla/lsu game with cindy. as usual, i shall order a sausage + mushroom + jalepeno pizza (cindy's favorite toppings) from domino's and sit back and watch the game. hell, i might even watch the florida/george mason game if i am free.
so my buddy W at work is leaving for china in two weeks. sigh. i'll miss him. i visit his cube at least 4-5 times during the day just to talk to him. he just got a new canon digital rebel xt, and he's all excited about taking pictures with it. good for him! it's nice to see someone bitten by the photography bug, because i haven't taken a picture in well over a year.
well, mia, i haven't ruled out anal sex just yet. i might want to try it some day. but it just doesn't interest me because i don't like any contact with someone's poo. *gross* but if the girl asks for it or is agreeable in trying it, maybe i'll do it. just gotta remember to buy a tube of KY or something to lube it up. :) (by the way, happy birthday, mia!)
anyways, it's been a long week. working longer hours really does a number on me. these days, i've been getting home around 6-6:30, and that means that i suffer through a few episodes of seinfeld/friends (i don't find those shows funny anymore, or maybe it's because i've seen every episode already) before i go upstairs, take a shower, and hit the sack. i don't get as much rest and relaxation time after work. sigh. i wonder how long this will last. maybe if i finish my work early, i can shift back to my more lax hours.
when is daylight savings? is it this weekend? even though i'll get less sleep for one night, i'm glad it'll happen because it makes evenings more enjoyable with the extra hour of light. i hate winter because it gets dark at like 5pm. so depressing to leave work when it's dark.
so i mentioned this before, but there's this new girl from taiwan at our company. she's out here for a year, and she's this meek, skinny girl. she doesn't speak english that well (or, at least, she has an accent and speaks very slowly), and i feel bad for her. bad because she's out here, away from everything's that familiar, living out of a hotel room, and without many friends. so was having a smoke outside when i got back from the thai buffet, so i joined her for a smoke. i dunno. i just like reaching out to people, you know? i hate seeing loneliness in people.
i haven't gotten drunk in (my estimate) two years. i don't know if it's the medication i'm on, but i haven't been able to even catch a buzz no matter how much i drink. ok, i've never gone beyond 3 drinks, but 3 drinks is usually enough to affect me *somehow*. hm. i had three drinks at mike's birthday party last week (one jameson, two shots of tequila), and all it did was make my stomach feel a wee bit queasy. what is wrong with me? i want to get buzzed! i sort of miss it.
ok. anyways. i should go. i'm going to have a smoke now. toodles!
so one of the big taboo's (that i heard ever since i started working) is that you should NEVER do an arithmetic divide in hardware. apparently, the logic is HUGE, and it takes up a lot of gates. well, it looks like we'll be adding in SIX of them in my new design. woo-hoo!
anyways, i did good work today. aside from the divider issue, i've finished coding up this new EEF block. i can't go into details, but it's got a lot of math in it. math is tough; you have to keep track of all the integer and decimal bits, and you pray that you didn't fuck up, because debugging this shit sucks.
i'm craving ramen. heck, i'm craving whatever i can get my hands on. i didn't have lunch today, as this was a basketball day.
i was sad to see lisa tucker get voted off on last night's _AI_. i pretty much like everyone else on the show. well, maybe not paris bennett. and i think ace young is losing his touch. but anyways, there's lots of drama every wednesday night when one more of the finalists get voted off.
i watched a high school basketball game last night. why? because it was the mcdonald's all-american game, and i was trying to scout out the two new recruits the stanford got. they're a pair of 7-foot twins, the lopez brothers. i tried looking for them in the game, but it was mostly guard play, and not much interior offense. oh well. i hope they do wonders for stanford basketball starting next season. we need a good point guard! i don't think mitch johnson is going to cut it.
i am in bad need of a haircut. it's getting all shaggy in the back. horrible!
last night, i had a dream that my wrist got cut, and i could pull back the skin and see the fat and bones. it was pretty freaky. very vivid at the time. i remember waking up, checking my left wrist, and making sure that it wasn't ripped open. *shiver*
when i was a junior in high school, i ran through a glass door. my knee got all ripped up, and they had to extract all these pieces of glass from there. and then, they cut away a lot of the "meat" to make this big hole to sew up. i was conscious (but obviously on pain-killers) when they were doing this, and i saw fat and stuff bubbling from my knee. very gross. i'm surprised i didn't puke or faint; i'm very queasy when it comes to operations and blood.
they sewed me up with this blue-colored string. what was gross was that when i had to get my stitches out, my knee had already scabbed over, so they had to pick the scabs off to get at the stitches. eww.
i am organizing a mongolian bbq outing tomorrow. very exciting! i haven't had it in maybe 6 months of so? i'm looking forward to it. we overdid it for a while, going practically every week, but now, i'm craving it. i can't wait!
i'm e-mail this friend of mine, and we're talking about anal sex. he's done it before, and i find his report/opinions fascinating. i don't think i'll ever have anal sex in my life, unless i was forced to for some reason. i just don't like the idea of sticking my dong up a pipe where shit comes out. yes, i do like my own turds, but i would never touch them or get them anywhere near my body. blech!
an on that note, i bid you adieu. tomorrow's friday!
howdy folks. i'm feeling much better today, after my panic attack tuesday. i got so hopped up on drugs that i don't even remember watching sportscenter last night. it was like i lay down, and BAM i was asleep. amazing what drugs can do to you.
i realize that i need to take better care of myself. all i had to eat yesterday was a bowl of cereal (crispix). i'm losing weight, which is a good thing, but i'm losing it because of stress, which is a bad thing. i'd been hovering around 175, but i'm now i'm like 170. not bad. ideally, i'd like to be 160, but i don't know how to get there besides starving myself. and yes, i do exercise.
i'm burping up the big mac i had for lunch. i was supposed to have lunch with my friend M, but she bailed because she was busy at work, so instead i had lunch with alan. it's always good to spend time with your best friend. the three of us (alan, ting and i) are going to see stomp in may. i LOVE stomp! tickets were a bit pricey, though (at $72), but i'm mainly worried about finding parking at de anza and getting out. big events always produce a lot of road rage in me (if i'm the driver) when i can't get out easily.
my feet stink. i think it's because i'm wearing ratty shoes. for the last few months, i alternate between my black/white puma avanti's and my green steve madden rascals. they stink, too. i think i need to start adding in more shoes into the rotation or just buy new ones.
do you guys wear deodorant? i don't. there was a time that i used it just because all the other guys were, and i thought it was a "guy" thing. but my pits don't get overly sweaty. ok, let me check. ok, they're a *little* wet, but not enough to warrant using deodorant, i don't think.
one of my biggest fears of becoming a parent is that if the child is mine, chances are, he/she will develop tourette's or OCD or whatever else i have. that bugs me. i don't want anybody to have to endure what i go through. yes, i was teased by my classmates in elementary school and junior high. it sucked. i clearly remember ticcing (i had a screaming tic in 4th grade), and this one girl just gave me the look of, "what the fuck is wrong with you?" bad memories.
i've actually been chipper today. i'm not sure what it is. i got some work done, i resolved one (of two) synthesis issue, etc. i hope days aren't up/down like they have been for the past two days. i can't handle the rollercoaster, especially the dips.
so, does anal sex (on a girl) feel as good as vaginal sex? i've never had anal sex before, and i'm not really interested in it. (as much as i have a fetish with my own poop, i don't really care about someone else's.) i've heard that half of a girl's pelvic nerve endings end in her clitoris, and the other half is in the sphincter. so it must feel good, right? hm.
with regards to porn, i'm not really interested in watching anal sex. i just don't have a personal connection with the experience, since i've never done it myself. but i do have this one video of a girl (who looks like alyssa milano) having anal sex with this guy with a huge dong. that one sort of turns me on. i think it's her reactions and moaning and stuff that do the job for me.
ok, time to do more work. take care, folks!
yeah. you know that means. panic attacks! i'm sitting through one right now, and it fucking sucks. it's work stress (couldn't be anything else, right?), especially since my boss told me yesterday that i need to put in more hours. hm. i think i have a fragile brain.
last night's loss to LSU (women's tourney) was a shame. if we had made our free throws, we would have had a chance at overtime or winning the game outright. and that charging call on candace wigging was a killer.
i took a dump today, and afterwards, i noticed that there were little bubbles of air coming out of the turds. fascinating!
it's been a busy day today, and some of the things i'm working on (like synthesis of some of my modules) aren't working. the computer craps out, and i'm not sure how to resolve this. no doubt another reason why i'm stressed out. the tools we use are so complicated these days. *shrug*
basketball today was a thriller. for my third game, we were up against a better team, and we won it 7-6. i'm usually not very competitive (at anything), but the win felt really good. some of the guys really like winning, though. one dude slammed his fist into the wall after losing. i'm like, "why?" it's just a game, right? as long as i get good exercise, i'm happy.
i really don't like being medicated all the time. right now, i've got a mixture of five drugs coursing through my veins. luckily, i don't have any major side effects (that i can tell), but the idea that i have to rely on drugs for the rest of my life really bugs me. i guess some of us aren't lucky enough to have healthy brains.
ok. i feel calmer now. i think the xanax is working.
man, it's quiet in the office. it's past 6, and i guess things are winding down here. i don't remember the last time i was in the office this late, and it feels kind of spooky. i feel like i have be quiet. it's like the 24-hour study rooms back in college, where everyone was slaving away reading up on their material. i never studied there; the few times i went inside, i felt like screaming to break the silence.
anyways, i'm gonna go home and rest. it's been a hell of a day, and i hope tomorrow is better.
howdy folks! how was your weekend?
my boss e-mailed me over the weekend and told me that i need to put in more hours at work. i've got a shitload of stuff to do, and i have to be done by the end of april. i know, it's a whole month, so i *feel* like i have a lot of time to finish my stuff, but still, i think i'm underestimating the amount of time it will take.
so he told me to come in earlier and leave later. sigh. i hate being pushed, but given my relatively lax working schedule, i understand that it looks bad to other people that i come in so late and leave so early. oh well. i guess i'll be earning my paycheck for the next month or so.
i haven't been eating much. which explains the light dumpage my ass has been creating. today's turd was not much to write home about: it was just two small floaters. they stunk, though. maybe it was the mountain of ground pork i had last night for dinner. i got the simmered ground pork over rice (zo tzau fan) at southland. only $3.25! can't beat that price, even at queen house, which charges 70 cents more.
so despite telling my boss i'll work later, i want to leave early today. i need to catch up on last week's _OC_, and there's the stanford women's elite 8 game at 6pm. go candace wiggins and brooke smith! they're the two best players on our team.
i recently got in touch with an old high school friend of mine. he was our salutatorian (i was valedictorian, of course, :), and it turns out that he majored in EE during undergrad, but now he's training to become an orthopedic surgeon. sounds like he'll be making big bucks after he finishes his fellowship. he's married (3 years), and his wife just delivered a baby girl. my, how he's grown up. he sent me pictures, too.
i've been drinking liquids like a madman. so far, i've gone through 4 vitasoy's, a can of coke, and almost two bottles of gatorade. i have to go piss every hour. i don't mind (because, well, pissing actually feels good if you really have to go, almost orgasmic), and i like knowing that i'm well-hydrated.
because of the soft shits i've been having, i've been afraid to fart, for fear that i'll accidentally pass a solid through, thus having an "accident."
so how is everybody's NCAA tournament bracket doing? i bet you're all fucked, since all #1 seeds have fallen. and who the hell would have picked george mason (a #11 seed) to go to the final four! ha! that's why i love the tournament: every team has a chance to win (well, if you don't count the 16 vs 1 games).
hits are going way way up today. don't know what i'm doing differently. just more people than usual searching for the perfect ass? ha!
i feel blue today. i don't know what it is, but i think it has a lot to do with it being monday. mondays fucking suck. after i have a nice weekend, i never look forward to the workweek. and especially with my boss's admonishment, it just means that i'll be spending more time at work. sigh. and i've been debugging some serious shit today, and i haven't figured out what's wrong just yet. it's frustrating, sometimes.
i had a moment of clarity during the weekend. i realized that i have good friends. and i love them all. i know i'm missing out big time by not being in a relationship, but friends are the next best thing. so thanks, people.
oh, and i was watching parts of _my best friend's wedding_, and had a couple of thoughts. first, rupert everett is a badass. if i were gay, i'd want a boyfriend like him. and second, i don't think i could ever have a girl be my platonic best friend. just like harry told sally, the sex (or thoughts of it) would get in the way. if i had a female best friend, she'd be hot, and eventually i would want to do her.
ok, time to do some more work. *sigh*
i had a pretty good weekend, except for insomnia on friday and saturday nights. i'm moving off of seroquel, which really helps me sleep well, so without it, i wound up lying in bed until about 3am before i finally fell asleep. and both times, i got out of bed for a seroquel dose. i'm really worried about not being able to get off the drug; i may be dependent on it. *RAAR*
anyways, friday night was mike's 30th birthday bash. it was held at this cool swanky (by swanky, i mean that a shot ot patron was $10) place called fahrenheit lounge in downtown SJ. they played lounge music, and i actually own some of the songs they played! i recognized some thunderball, and some songs from the _hotel costes_ series of cd's.
mike's gf had us play some games that centered around mike. she kept score, and in the end, i won! yup, i got two AMC movie passes. i think i'll use them to go see _inside man_ next weekend. but yeah, she paid for all the food, which must have been a ton of money (given the swankiness). very generous, and i was impressed with that as well as all the effort she put into the games.
saturday, i had lunch with the taiko peeps at sushi house. afterwards, i went home, took a nap, and watched one of the elite 8 (UCLA/memphis) games. that was such an ugly affair, with lots of missed shots, and UCLA missing like 20 free throws. they could have won in a blowout if they could have made their foul shots.
for dinner, i went over to alan's place. they have a puppy (rylie), and jay and margaret brought over their dog (coco), and we just let them loose and watched what happened. the dogs played, rather roughly, and it was very entertaining to watch. we ordered pizza from premier pizza in the rivermark, and it was surprisingly good; the last (the only) time i went there, i thought the pizza was not good at all.
sunday, i watched the 12:45 showing of _ultraviolet_ with alan at mercado. it was definitely one of the worst movies i have ever seen, and btw, it got a 9% rating at rottentomatoes.com. yup. it only ran for 84 minutes, but still, i found myself looking at my watch only half an hour into the movie. pretty horrible plot and acting.
i went home, tried to take a nap, and watched some more of the NCAA tourney. i can't believe george mason beat uconn. i just hope that wasn't a fluke, because i want to see competitive games in the final four.
for dinner, i met up with paul, nelson, leeya, and mikeC at southland taste in cupertino village. afterwards, it was pearl tea at ten ren, which i don't go to enough. i like their stuff; like nelson said, it's actually got tea, and you can definitely taste it.
so all in all, a decent weekend. i'm just worried about the dependence on the seroquel. i haven't been able to fall asleep without it.
MAN. what a night last night for basketball! the UCLA/gonzaga game went down to the wire, and so did the texas/WVU game! and even on the NBA side, the mavericks/warriors game was crazy as well. i have a friend who detests basketball, but i bet if he watched those three endings, he'd change his mind.
and you wanna know the best part of it? right after the games ended, my cell phone rang. i saw that it was cindy, and i immediately knew that she was going to talk to me about the games. she's my basketball-watching buddy, and i was very touched that she thought of me. i, too, wanted to vent (in a good way) about the games.
anyways, it's friday, and i am unusally chipper. i can't wait to get out of the office! but back to my chipper-ness, i think it's the fact that i am weaning myself off the seroquel. i usually take 200mg in the morning, and that makes me hella sedated for the next three hours of so. so without the seroquel, i feel full of energy. :)
i am worried, however, that stopping seroquel will make it hard to sleep. i take 100mg at night, and it helps me feel drowsy, which in terms helps me fall asleep more easily. i don't want to be dependent on the drug, though. fyi, my psych decided to take me off the drug and start me on a new one, depakote. i don't think that at this point, i can name all the meds i've taken in my life. and all because of this fucking tourette's. *pukes*
happy birthday mike! he's turning the big 3-0 today, and we're celebrating with a big dinner bash tonight.
i don't have many plans for the weekend, though. i have a taiko lunch tomorrow at sushi house. i'm not fond of sushi house, but gombei is closed, and we always eat japanese when the taiko folks congregate. and i'll probably watch a lot of the NCAA tournament. it's crunch time, baby!
so i've been assigned this new EEF block at work. it's sort of complicated (it's a huge digital arithmetic block, and i am struggling to figure out how many bits to use here and there for the results, etc.), but my boss tells me that i should feel lucky to get such an "interesting" block to design. ick. these days, it just all adds up to more work, and, as you know, i have a bad attitude about working hard. either way, i'll get it done, i suppose.
my friend J is getting surgery done as i type this. i am concerned for him. but anyways, J, good luck on your surgery, and i hope you get well soon!
surgery is a really scary topic. it means that something in your body is so wrong that it requires a doctor to cut you up and fix stuff. that's pretty serious shit. the only time i've been out was when they took out my wisdom teeth. i've been lucky enough (knock on wood) to not require going under the knife. which reminds me, i need to stop smoking. (i wonder if the nicotine patches i bought a few years ago are still good. do they expire? they must, right?)
i looked up my previous company's website today (gfn), and i saw that they hired a new CEO. i wonder what happened to the last one. did he get the axe? why? *ponder*
following that train of thought, my best friend K from high school is now a CEO of a startup. i'm so impressed! he just closed a round of funding, and that is also impressive. i have no idea what it takes to go in front of VC's and sell a company. it's a totally different (and absent, in my case) skillset. anyways, i hope his company does well.
ok, that's it for this week. have a great weekend, folks!
hey folks. i'm updating early today because i've got a shitload of meetings (2 to 4:30) planned, and i am getting a massage at 5:30.
so kevin covais is out of american idol. that doesn't surprise me, because there was no fucking way that he would win the whole thing. i don't particularly like the way he sings (his vibrato is sort of annoying), and speaking of vibratos, i also don't like the way elliott yamin does his, either. oh well. maybe it's just me.
so the sweet sixteen of the men's NCAA tournament is set for today. i wish i had tickets to the oakland region. UCLA vs. gonzaga is a good matchup, and i plan on watching that game tonight. i'm rooting for UCLA, of course; even though i hate them when they play stanford, they're a pac-10 team, and i root for all of them when they're in the tourney.
so there's news that the stanford tree (our mascot) is banned for the rest of the postseason. the old tree of this year (a girl) was kicked out due to being totally drunk at the cal game. her blood alcohol level was about twice the legal limit. geez, silly tree.
oh, and my cowboys signed mike vanderjagt. i hope that solves our kicking problems. i think the cowboys usually sign some no-name kicker for a minimum wage salary, and they've sucked in the recent past. vanderjagt is one of the best kickers out there, although he's probably most remembered for missing the 46-or-so-yarder at the end of the game in the indianapolis game vs. the steelers this past season.
i wiped my ass three times during today's dump, and i think there was still some shit left. i just got lazy, i guess. i could have wiped more. i'm not fond of wet, sticky shits. i'd rather launch a dry log.
so what's the advance word on the movie _inside man_? it looks interesting. it's got a good cast (denzel, jodie foster, clive owen), and it'd directed by spike lee. i like crime thrillers, so i'm interested in seeing the movie. maybe i'll call up alan and see if he wants to watch it.
i have fantasies these days about joining a masturbation club. i saw a bit on these clubs years ago on hbo's _real sex_ series. it seemed pretty cool, and kind of intimate. although, realistically speaking, i don't know if i can get off by a foreign handjob. i would start sorrying that their hands/forearms would cramp up from taking so damn long to blow my wad. in all things related to sex, i usually get myself off by doing the work myself. if other people do the work, i find it very hard to spunk.
so i'm pretty cross with my company these days. we're supposed to be done with coding, but suddenly, the architect decides that we need to add in this new feature that involves my block. *RAAR* i thought i was done already! and now i have to rush to code up this new thing and make it work? phooey. *pukes*
so while waiting for sportscenter to start, last night i checked out fox's new reality gameshow, _unanimous_. it looked kind of lame, but i was curious to see how it worked. basically, 9 people are sent into an underground bunker, sequestered from society, and they have to unanimously vote to give 1.5 million dollars to someone.
like one of the contestants thought, wouldn't the best way to do this would be to vote for someone and make them promise to split the money evenly? that way everybody wins, and everybody gets to go home. otherwise, why the hell would you vote to give one person the money and get zilch for yourself? seems simple to me.
ok, time to do work. take it easy, folks!
ah, so it's hump day. i'm feeling a little better about my work today; i wrote a test, and i've been debugging it. yes, i had some bugs, more like errors due to negligence and brainfarting during my massive coding days. it was hard to keep track of all the changes i was making.
so i saw my psych today. i'm getting off of seroquel, although that might affect my sleeping. some people take seroquel to help them to sleep, so i'm a little worried that i've grown dependent on the med, and i'll have a tough time falling asleep without the drug. and i'm starting on a new med. geez, i'm a real-life living breathing chemistry experiment!
so last night's american idol. yup. taylor hicks's song was lame. i mean, i liked his energy and all, but the song just sucked. it didn't show off taylor's range or anything. i hope he doesn't get voted off. i thought the best song/performance was done by chris daughtry. but he's fucked if he ever gets out of his rocker mentality. like salsa or jazz, for instance.
i'm getting a massage tomorrow. i'm excited. i've been ticcing harder than usual (which partially explains why i've been smoking more lately), and my neck and left shoulder really hurt. it's like waking up with a stiff neck, but 24 hours a day.
i had lunch with alan today. baja fresh. i like their burritos, but they don't wrap them in foil, so the bottom eventually falls out, and you get this big old mess. i also bumped into old vivace networks coworkers, chi-kai and amir. it was good seeing them. ah, the grand old days of the dot com boom. what still impresses me to date is the fact that i thought most of the vivace people were fucking brilliant. it's hard to see that much talent concentrated in one company these days.
so how often do you guys shave? i get a decent amount of growth after 3 days, and the problem is, when i shave facial hairs that are that long, i get skin irritation, and sometimes even blood comes out of my pores. it hurts! it burns! so maybe i should shave more often? hm.
i don't get why bukkake is so popular. (well, popular relative to other sexual oddities) i mean, what is the draw to a woman who is willing to take multiple guys popping their spunk on her face? i read somewhere that it's a degradation of women thing, but it just doesn't interest me. i don't like porn where the guy pulls out and blows his wad on a girl's face or in a girl's mouth. better ideas include coming inside the woman's vadge or getting a spooge-laced blowjob. and it feels better than manual gratification, too.
hm. i haven't taken a dump today. irregularity bothers me.
i haven't been very fashionable these days. lately, for the past few months, i just throw on a t-shirt and cover it up with a jacket or a sweatshirt, zipped all the way to the top. maybe one of these days, i'll wear nothing underneath my outer layer and see if people notice. ha!
i think i need new shoes. or bring back some old shoes into the rotation. these days, i switch off between my green steve madden's and my black/white puma avanti's. both are getting ratty and smelly, which is not flattering to my feet.
i need some lovin'.
alan asked me today if i've noticed that i'm getting older. i said no, except for one thing. on friendster's main page, they list four single women in the area, along with their ages and location. i've noticed that ever since i turned 30, the ages of the women have gone up. i get 33-35 year olds, and i never used to get those before my 30th birthday. sigh. so i guess i *am* getting old. ick.
ok, back to debugging. ciao!
hey people. i have an itchy sphincter. i took a dump a while ago, and now, my asshole itches like crazy. normally, i'd scratch it, but because of my trip to the bathroom, i don't want to get shit on my fingers. maybe i should go back there, unzip my pants, and wipe it hard a few times more.
so tonight is another two-hour session of AI. i heard on the radio that the theme is music from the 50's. i think that spells danger for rocker chris daughtry. he was lucky last week (stevie wonder night) by finding "higher ground," which was sung more similar to the way the red hot chili peppers did it.
i scored ZERO points today during basketball. i suck. i tried making one jumper, and i got it swatted back in my face. sigh. i think i need to change the way i shoot so it's not so easy to get blocked. oh well.
i'm hungry. last night, i was already hungry, and i kept thinking about whether i should get up early and grab a breakfast sandwich or two at mcd's. but in the end, i couldn't get up early enough (mcd's serves breakfast foods until 10:30am), so i just let it pass. and since i skipped lunch, i am completely FAMISHED.
so i finally filled out my class page for my stanford 10th reunion. it turns out that i didn't run out of things to say, which i was worried about since my life hasn't really changed in the past 5 years. it's so cool... i did a paperless submission of e-mail. i love the way technology makes our lives easier.
i'm still thinking about the bhindi (okra) masala i had the other day. that's one of my two favorite indian dishes, the other being chicken makhani (butter). i gotta go back there one of these days. oh, btw, the place i went to is called "hyderabad house," and it's on 448 university ave in downtown palo alto. i highly recommend the bhindi masala, and i also want to try the bengan bartha (eggplant) there, too. indian vegetarian food is so fucking awesome.
i should get tivo. right now, i'm missing southpark. i think the new season starts tomorrow, and it's at 10pm, which is past my bedtime. i guess i could tape it, but i'm getting tired of setting up my vcr's timer. i could also download the episodes, i suppose, but i'm too lazy to look for it. what do people use? bit torrent?
last night, i got caught up on the OC. i can't believe marissa is thinking about getting together with volcheck (however you spell his name). he's mean, and he looks like a punk. oh well. i don't care about marissa's character anyway (i think mischa barton is a horrible actress).
so i have enough saved up to buy a house. the problem is looking and moving. i LOVE where i live with now; it's about 1.5 miles from downtown castro, and it's got easy access to the 237, 85, and 101 highways. maybe i'll ask my landlady whether the owners are willing to sell me the place. that would be perfect.
i see my psych tomorrow. my tics are still pretty bad, and i don't know what else to do. obviously, the current medications are not working for me, but i've already taken everything that's out there for my tics. do i even have other options? ick.
wikipedia is amazing. they have an entry for just about anything imaginable. for fun, i just looked up "bukkake," and yep, they've got an entry for that, too. i can't say that bukkake interests me, though. masturbating onto a girl's face doesn't turn me on.
ok, that's it for today. have a good tuesday!
hey folks. man, i'm sleepy. we (three of us) went to hc dumpling today. yummy shit, that is. i kept burping up the shao long bao, and it reminded of what wonderful flavor they have. ah, the juiciness! plus, we had a coupon for one free order, to we only paid $12 each after tax and tip.
the weather sure has been weird lately. this weekend, the sky was blue, and the temperature was nice, but one day after (today), it's raining and cold. it's pretty amazing how the weather can change so quickly.
oh! today's dump was AMAZING. it was over TWO FEET LONG! the first section was sort of thick, but after that, it was just this long stringy turd. and it floated too. i wiped my ass thrice this time. i just couldn't get my sphincter feeling clean again.
i've been trying to remember to brush my tongue these days, but i usually forget and rinse before doing it. i need someone bold enough to stick their nose in my mouth to tell me if my tongue stinks. chances are, it does.
oh, the place where nelson and i went to was the firehouse grill and brewery. just to let you all know. we both decided that we wouldn't go back again. it'd be a cool place to watch sports, though; they have these flat panel tv's all over the place. but the dinner are too expensive for what they are; better next time to order some bar food or something and share it amongst a lot of people.
it just thundered! i haven't heard thunder in YEARS. kind of cool.
so terrell owens is now a dallas cowboy. i don't know how i feel about that; i'm still miffed at mr. owens for celebrating on the midfield star at texas stadium back when he was a 49er. what a fucking prick! hehe. i hope bill parcells can control him and make him a productive (and more importantly, well-behaved) wide receiver.
this past week or so, i've been smoking more than usual. i'm averaging about 11-12 a day, and that's bothering me. i think my tics are acting up, and i smoke to counteract the panic and anxiety that i have over them. hm. anyways, wednesday is my psych appointment, and maybe i'll have to adjust my meds.
so stanford's run in the postseason is over. they lost in the first round of the NIT last friday. but i still have stanford basketball to watch! the women are playing tonight against florida state in the 2nd round of ncaa tourney. go cardinal!
so some big news yesterday was that this female player (candace parker from tennessee) dunked twice during a game. is it that hard for a tall girl to dunk? candace was 6'4", and i figure that anybody that height or taller should easily be able to drunk the ball. so how come it doesn't happen that often? apparently, there have only been four women who've ever dunked in an official women's basketball game.
birthday presents are harder and harder to buy for my friends. i mean, around the age of 30 or so, most of us have enough money to buy what we want. and the older age also means that we've accumulated more cool stuff. so what to get someone who already has everything? it's a toughie.
i think that i am going to institute a "no gift giving" for my own birthday. i mean, i know that i'm a hard person to shop for. one, i don't have any hobbies or interests anymore, and two, whatever i want, i have already gotten for myself. i think i'll be happy with just having a nice dinner with my friends and them paying for me. that's good enough.
ok, i've got some debugging to do. take it easy!
so let's see here... friday night, i met up with alan and ting at sneha, or what formerly used to be sneha. i think the name is now "grand indian buffet," but the food is the same, except they now have this noodle dish that i didn't try.
saturday, nelson and i went to the original pancake house (de anza and 85) for some breakfast food. i've decided that their omelettes aren't good, so i just got scrambled eggs, two sausage patties, and three pancakes, all for $10 with tax and tip included. now bad, although stacks has way better food.
afterwards, we headed over to paul and leeya's place to hang out. their pug puppy, spike, has grown a lot since i last saw him. he's a menace, man. he kept on attacking my shoes, and i think he tore a bit of the lining out. part of my shoes were stained with his saliva.
after about an hour, nelson, mikeC and i went to shoreline to catch _v for vendetta_. i thought the movie was crap, and i found myself looking at my watch and hoping the movie would end. i love natalie portman, but there was nothing compelling about the movie. it was just a bore.
then, i drove to alan and ting's place and got ready for dinner at red robin. it was 3 couples and me, but i didn't mind. i really wanted to drink, so i got a johnnie walker black label on the rocks. but man, ordering alcohol really pushes up your bill. my little dinky whiskey cost mf $6!
after dinner, we went back to alan's place to play with their border terrier puppy, rylie. she was really hyper and stuff, and she bit me and left a tooth mark on my hand. i left around 10pm, and went home to catch the results of the ncaa tournament games. go ucla!
sunday, i got up around noon, picked up my drugs (haldol), and headed over to downtown palo alto. i met up with dj for lunch at what used to be marigold, the indian restaurant. it's now another indian food place, but less fancy. however, thier bhinda masala (okra) was THE BOMB. so fucking good, and it reminded me of how much i love okra. i also ordered this lamb vindaloo, which was supremely spicy. the only downside of the lunch was that i spilled some vindaloo sauce on my wonderful baby blue puma jacket.
afterwards, i went home, took a 3 hour nap, and then went with nelson to this brewery/restaurant in downtown sunnyvale. it was called fire-something. the food was pretty pricey; i got a mushroom carbonara for $13.99, and a pint of their pale ale for $4. man, i'm spending a lot of money on food and alcohol these days.
anyways, so that was my weekend. it was pretty hectic on saturday, but relaxing on sunday. and that's a good way to go. :)
so last night, i met up with some people for pearl tea at a faraway tapioca express. (it was near montague/capitol.) now that might not sound very exciting, but it meant that i got to attend a social event during the workweek. now those are very rare for me, and i had a good time. i should do this more often.
i didn't eat lunch nor dinner yesterday, but i wasn't hungry. and i realized it was because of the six scoops of ice cream i had in the afternoon. and guess what? i lost a few pounds this morning! *huzzah* maybe ice cream snacks are the way to go. haha.
so it's friday! *cheer* i have no plans, but i'll most likely be watching a lot of college basketball over the weekend. there were some major upsets, and i love watching the small, lower-seeded teams beat the big schools. (as long as the losers aren't pac-10 teams) this year, i am rooting for the four pac-10 teams and gonzaga. adam morrison is a beast.
because i didn't eat much yesterday, my morning dump today was very small. it felt like a pellet, but looking down into bowl afterwards, it turned out to be a thin, 6-inch turd. and it smelled horrible, even though it was submerged in the water. and now my asshole itches. i'd scratch it, but i don't want to get shit residue on my fingers.
three of us went to joy luck place in cupertino village for lunch today. we got there at like 12:30 or so, and it took us about 20 minutes to find parking. what the fuck is up with that place? i bet it's because everyone goes there alone to meet up with people, so there's close to a 1:1 ratio of cars to people. they need to build a parking structure or something. it was horrible, reminding me of that time i went to santana row on a friday night and had to park in the residential section.
*yawn*
i've been busy debugging stuff lately. my portion of the design is kind of complex, so programming it is a little tricky. i've been working with the guy across the aisle from me, and he has impressed me; it's really hard working, very resourceful, and overall a very good engineer. *applause*
i like working with competent people.
anyways, i'm looking forward to getting out of here. fridays are always happy times.
i want to find out more about tantric sex. from what little i know about it, they teach ways to extend your orgasm. i think it has something to do with separating the orgasm part of the event from the ejaculating part. by preventing the latter, the time of orgasm can be lengthened. but i don't know for sure what it's all about, but if it makes sex better, then i'm all for it! :)
ok, that's it for today. have a good weekend, folks!
man, i was hungry today. as usual, i skipped lunch to go play basketball, and about an hour after i came back, i was FAMISHED. i had a meeting from 2-3pm, so i was contemplating getting a snickers bar. but then the e-mail came. ice cream downstairs! i ate *six* scoops. so now i'm happy. :)
i really like pralines and cream. i like the caramel swirls, and the crunchy walnuts or pecans or whatever those nuts are. yum! i also enjoyed the cookie dough ice cream. fyi, our company gets its ice cream from baskin robbins.
so last night, on AI, melissa mcghee was voted off. i didn't really care for her; i don't think she's very attractive. so now, every week is going to get dramatic for me, as i like all of the remaining 11 singers. my favorite, or course, is taylor hicks. people think he has tourette's, and if he does have it, then that's one more reason for me to like him. he's my people!
my dump today stunk like a mofo. it was a floater, so part of it was sticking out of the water, which caused it to smell awful. i'm curious as so what makes my dumps float. i know it has something to do with the moisture in the turd, but how do i control that? and as an aside, sometimes, i see my turds eject little bubbles of air when they're below the waterline. it fascinates me.
back to AI. i have mentioned before that i think katharine mcphee is pretty hot. now that she's in the final 12, she (and the others) get access to stylists and stuff for their wardrobe and makeup. so on tuesday, she had this blue eyeshadow on. i hated it. i don't like girls who wear makeup. i've been fortunate to have dated girls who didn't need makeup, so that's good. the natural look is the best, imho.
so the NCAA tournament is underway. in the past few years, i've been in a position to watch all the coverage on the first thursday and friday. one time, i was clinically depressed, and i happened to take off work during the first week of the tournament. another time, i was in new york, stranded in stef's apartment, so all i did was watch basketball. it's pretty fun, watching all the games, and i never really got sick of it. this weekend, i think i'll be tuning in to CBS for their tourney coverage.
my fingers are all sticky from contact with ice cream. they smell good, though. like chocolate chip cookies. that must be from the rocky road i got.
so yesterday, i tried brushing my tongue with a toothbrush. it almost made me gag. maybe i was going too far back? hm. and fyi, no, i do not regularly brush my tongue. but maybe i should start.
ok, that's it for today. gonna go run some tests. ciao!
ho hum. it's lunchtime, and i'm waiting for one of my coworkers to get out of a conference call so we can grab some food. i'm cravings HC dumpling right now, but i'm not sure if we can take such a long lunch break.
so last night's stevie wonder AI episode was sort of boring. i thought the worst performances belonged to kellie pickler and kevin covais. the latter has absolutely no stage presence. but i know the two are well-liked among the fans, so they might stay in the competition because of that.
i was very pleased to see stanford win yesterday. i know it's the NIT (not the NCAA's), but still, *any* postseason is good enough for me because i love watching my kids play. and i think the trio of tim morris, lawrence hill, and anthony goods (who all happen to be black on a predominantly white team) has a bright future ahead. i just can't wait for the lopez twins to come to stanford and start dominating the paint. that'll be awesome!
how important is it to clean your tongue? i've never done it before, but i can imagine that there are a lot of nasty germs there. i'm asking because i saw this tv commercial for a tooth brush with a tongue cleaner on the back side. it's a novel idea, simple and elegant. bravo! (i think it's from oral b.)
/after lunch/
well, it turns out the guy we were waiting for couldn't do lunch, so C and i just headed out on our own to A&J in cupertino village. the beef tendon noodle soup is tasty! although, it's very messy; i kept on splashing it all over the table and over myself. luckily i'm wearing a brown sweatshirt today, so the stains don't show.
afterwards, we went to fantasia, where i got the lychee green pearl milk tea. i was surprised because there were real chunks of lychee in the drink! a very welcome surprise, although my mouth sort of feels dry for the drink; that's odd, isn't it?
sometimes i have dreams about basketball. once in a while, i'll dream that i can dunk. other times, i'll dream that i walked on to the team, and even though i'm mostly a bench warmer, the coach will put me in for some games. and then, i'll get anxious and nervous because i suck at basketball.
i took a nice thick shit today. it felt longer than it actually was, which is the opposite of what usually happens. i love the toilets we have at work. they flush very powerfully, and no matter what size of turd it is, of what orientation to the hole it is, it manages 99% of the time to suck the shit down into the pipes. if only i had these kinds of toilets at home, then i wouldn't have to deal with the clogging issues that i've had.
sometimes i wonder if it's easier (concerning sex) to be gay. you don't have to worry about getting your partner pregnant. that in itself seems like a very nifty bonus. and for a guy-guy relationship, i'll bet that the fellatio is really good. after all, if you own a penis, then you must know how to suck it well. stuff like that.
i've never gotten good head. i'm still looking for that mindbending blowjob. most of the time, i either get bored of it, or i start worrying that the girl is getting tired. but damn, if the head were good, then i should just sit back and enjoy it, right?
ok. time to write some tests. ciao!
so i was flipping around channels on tv last night, and i stopped on one of the _sex and the city_ episodes on WGN. you know the show; it's all about relationships and stuff.
so i was watching the episode, and i noticed that it wasn't resonating with me. i realized that i've been out of a relationship for so long that the issues seems foreign to me. and then, i got bummed out. man, has it been that long? that long that i've forgotten what it's like to be in a relationship? hm.
so tonight is a busy television watching night for me. i've got the stanford/virginia NIT game at 6:30, and then AI at 8, followed by scrubs at 9. i won't be able to watch everything, so i'm taping scrubs and ping-ponging between AI and the game. it'm excited!
plus, i'm hungry, so i'm going to grab a whopper with cheese after work. nothing like an 800-calorie burger to fill out a day with no lunch. oh, and fyi, i sucked during basketball today. i couldn't his a jumper, shot all kinds of airballs, and the only point i scored was on a layup during a fast break.
my boss is really starting to irritate me. usually, we're on good terms, but apparently, the higher-ups don't think i'm doing much. and that translates into him pushing me to do more and more, and when i'm actually working on something, he's asking me how long it takes and why i'm not doing something else while i'm waiting for the synthesis results to come in. *RAAR*
so i'm supposed to do a class page for my 10th year reunion. it's a page that's supposed to tell people what i've been doing for the past 5 years. the problem is, i've got nothing to report. house? no. children? no. woman? no. job? same old shit, just at different places. my life is PATHETIC! *pukes*
so i finished doing my taxes today. i checked, and the e-filing went through without a problem. i wound up paying $112 for my federal taxes and over $300 for my state taxes. i don't want to wind up paying (and possibly having a fine) next year, so yesterday i changed my W-4 settings, from 2 to 1. i know that will mean a smaller paycheck, but i like having a refund during tax season. it's like a little bonus.
so i called my parents over the weekend, and my mom told me about my brother having girlfriend issues. man! when did my brother grow up and have girlfriends? time sure does fly. i wonder when he's going to lose his virginity. he's a very devout christian, so it wouldn't surprise me if he waits until he gets married before he has sex.
how early are kids having sex these days? i remember talking to a friend in junior high (9th grade, biology class), and he proudly told me that he had sex the previous weekend. i don't remember saying anything in response, though. but yeah, are kids having sex during junior high? what about elementary school?
i remember popping boners at an early age. i didn't feel horny per se, but i guess my body was just reacting to some stimulus. i discovered wanking at the age of 13, although i forget what prompted me to start playing with myself. i remember lying there one night, and then the next thing i knew, i had blown my wad. i don't remember if it felt good or not, but ever since then, i have regularly pleasured myself.
man, i'm hungry. it's 5pm. i have one more synthesis run to check, and then i'm off. take it easy!
hey people. it's a cold monday, and i'm feeling restless. i think it's time for a vacation, or at least a break from working. too bad the next holiday for us is memorial day.
i've been having memory troubles lately. i was watching the oscars a few weekends ago, and i couldn't remember meryl streep's name. and then, i couldn't remember mateen cleaves's name (he was a basketball player at michigan state a few years back). what is happening to me? i'm getting senile!
so there's this new girl in the office. she's a smoker, so i've bumped into her a few times outside during my cigarette breaks. she's out here for a year, originally from taiwan. i'm not interested in her, but just now, one of my coworkers mentioned her to me, as if i should ask her out or something. *shrug*
i got new cereal the other day. i've been eating apple jacks, but i think i'm sick of them now. so i went back to an old staple of mine, crispix. it's got less sugar for sure, but i still like the taste. there's something refreshing about the combo of corn/rice in the cereal.
man, my boss has been bugging me. he's sort of a nervous, neurotic guy, which i don't really mind. the only time it gets annoying is when he feels pressure from his bosses, and in turn, he applies pressure to us underlings. i mean, he's been asking me what i did today, when i can move onto another task that he wants done quickly, etc. it's not a good feeling to have a supervisor breathing down my neck. back off already!
i had a $2 sandwich at work. originally, like last week, i was excited about it. after all, i love tuna salad and chicken salad sandwiches. but today, when i bit into my lunch creation, i just wasn't satisfied. hm. maybe the love has worn off, and i'll be wanting some real (hot) food.
man, my lovely puma jacket (the burnt orange/beige one) is getting all these red dots. i drink red gatorade at work, but i don't know when or how, but little droplets of the drink spill onto my jacket. *RAAR* i am such a fucking slob. i wish i could figure out how i'm spilling, though. it's a mysery to me. *ponder*
so march madness is set to go! i'm rooting for UCLA. hell, i'm rooting for all pac-10 teams (all four of them). other than that, without stanford in the mix, this year's tournament is going to be boring for me. i just don't really care about most of the other teams. it seems like everybody's picking uconn to win, and that's boring because they already won it two years ago.
i am slowly feeling the need to get tivo. i've got tv shows during the week that start at 8pm (mainly AI), and that cuts into the window of time that i can have dinners with friends. i hate being a slave to the tv schedule!
sometimes i wonder if i could marry a girl who's a stripper. or harder yet, a porn star. i don't know if it would bother me knowing that all these other men are groping and having sex with my wife. i know what they do is just business, but i can't mentally disconnect those sexual acts with meaning or emotions.
ok, that's it for today. have a good one!
so let's see.... friday, jimmy, sabrina and i met up at the south winchester krung thai for dinner. paul was supposed to come too, but he bailed at the last minute. we got red duck curry, rama tofu, and my favorite, jun pad poo (without green onions, and very spicy). it was fucking good!
saturday, i woke up around 1pm, and went into the office to do my taxes. it looks like i'll be owing money this year, which isn't that bad, because it meant that i earned more money this year. i blame it on my untaxed ING savings account interest, and maybe my ESPP earnings, which were untaxed as well.
after that, i went home and watched some college basketball.
and later that day, ben at ming's. i know ming's isn't all that great, nor is it affordable, but i just didn't want to deal with the long waits that occur at places like koi palace or joy luck place. i guess we could have gone to milpitas, but that involved more driving.
catching up with ben was cool. he recently got a digital slr camera, and he was taking pictures of me smoking and of the food on our table. man, i wish i had a passion for taking pictures. i lost it after a few years.
after ben left, i watched some more college basketball and the bracketology special. sigh. it still hasn't sunk in the stanford didn't make it into the tournament. i have grown used to us being a decent team. oh well. NIT, here we come!
for dinner, i met up with alan and ting at maruichi. i got the kuro (black) ramen, and it wasn't bad. i thought it was a bit bitter, though. and the gyoza and california rolls i got (i got a combo dinner) were pretty good, too.
so that was it for my weekend. next weekend, i'm gonna try to watch a movie. i want to see _v for vendetta_. go go natalie portman!
hello people. i haven't done much today, except attend two meetings. it's really frustrating sometimes working. the architects say one thing, and after you've done your task according to their specs, they change the spec and say, "oh, we needed this." they NEVER apologize for not telling you earlier. it fucking sucks.
lunch today was provided by buca di beppo. i had spaghetti with meatballs (the meatballs were so-so), some garlic bread (not garlicky enough), and the veal parmigiana (barely any meat). hence, i don't think beppo's very good.
man, i was surprised that ayla and gedeon got voted off on last night's AI. especially gedeon. i wasn't a fan of his before, but he's sort of grown on me. and his rendition of "when a man loves a woman" was pretty good, i have to say. oh well. and i felt heartbroken for ayla, who started crying right after she realized that her journey on the show had ended. sigh.
i think the top 12 are pretty strong this year. i like almost all of the singers, so each week, i'm going to be pretty sad to see them go, one by one.
i've been craving cigarettes a lot more lately. last night, after watching AI and the OC (i watch naked after getting out of the shower), i actually put my clothes back on to go outside for a smoke. usually, during weekdays, i have about 8-9 cigarettes, but yesterday, i had 11. i need to cut down.
back to AI, i think bucky covington has one of the oddest names. "bucky" is like a southern hick's name, and "covington" brings images of british royalty or something like that. another interesting name is chamberlain oguchi, a player on oregon's basketball team.
for the past two or three days, my dumps have not come naturally. i actually have to go there without feeling like shitting, and force myself by squeezing really hard. and i'm a lazy pusher, so i don't push very hard for very long. good thing i'm not a woman; giving birth would take me FOREVER.
can a woman control whether she's pushing out of her vagina vs. her asshole? i hope so. otherwise, she might take a shit when she's in labor. that would be pretty gross.
i've weaned myself off to reading the comics every day. for a few months, i would go to msnbc and yahoo every day to read 20 or so comic strips. but, i never enjoyed it. i don't know if my sense of humor has disappeared, but there just aren't any really funny comic strips anymore. or maybe, i'm reading the wrong ones. does someone have any recommendations?
i haven't seen a movie yet in 2006. anybody want to go with me to catch a flick? i'm up for anything.
you know what bothers me? porn videos where the women give men blowjobs after anal sex. isn't that insanely unsanitary? can any say, "E COLI POISONING??!!" and plus, it can't possibly taste good. ok, maybe if the women got an enema or something before getting anal sex, that *might* be ok, but man, i would *not* want to be that girl. ick.
ok, i shall leave with you that imagery. have a STUPENDOUS weekend, folks!
hey there buds. man, basketball was a waste for me. i couldn't make any jumpers. clank, clank, clank. all those bricks!
and what's worse, stanford lost today to arizona in the pac-10 tournament. i had the gamecast on, and we just turned the ball (20) over way too much. sigh. the end to a shitty season. i'm going to miss hernandez, haryasz, and grunfeld. maybe even jason haas, who seems like he's better than our future point guard, mitch johnson.
i did some good coding today. and at 4, there was an all hands meeting. i got free treats! a twix bar and a bag of cool ranch doritos chips. i didn't have lunch today, so these will tie me over until dinnertime. i think i'm going to hit subway: spicy italian sandwich, here i come!
so i was watching _dr. 90210_ last night. it was the same episode as the labiaplasty i mentioned earlier, but before that girl, there was this guy who wanted a TESTICLE IMPLANT. hm. apparently, he lost one ball due to some infection or something, and to make himself feel better, he wanted a fake second testicle. kind of weird, don't you think? i mean, looking at his scrotum, would you be able to tell he only had one ball? but anyways, he said that the surgery would give him more confidence. i guess...
i got my bonus check yesterday! yup, a few G's worth of money for free! hehe. i've never gotten a bonus before, so this was pretty exciting. i guess in some ways, working for a big company has its advantages: bonuses, ESPP, stock options that are actually worth something.
oops. i just spilled some gatorade on my shirt. it's red. oops. luckily it's not a nice shirt.
so happy 31st birthday to adam!
my 10th year reunion is coming up. we are supposed to fill out these pages with updates on our lives, and i'm hesitant to do that. why? because there's nothing worth writing about! i've changed companies a few times, but aside from that, what else can i say? it's not like i'm married or even dating someone. usually that's the biggest news that could come out from someone. sigh.
so _the OC_ starts up again. i'm not really looking forward to it. it seems like ryan has a new love interest, and he's going to get into some fights. poor guy.
i wonder what it's like to be punched in the face. it sounds painful. luckily, i've never been in a real fight before, not even a shoving match. i'm such a wuss that i would probably never shove back.
one time, though, i accidentally hit a beer bottle of a guy who was drinking, so the glass banged up his teeth. we were standing outside waiting to get into a club in the city. and the guy looked like he was going to sock me. i have to admit, i got a little scared. but i just ignored him and walked on. *shiver*
anyways, it's almost time to go home. i'm looking forward to my sub.
for lunch today, i went with two of the new college grads to this place on kifer, right down the street from where we work. it was called thanh's, and the only reason why we knew about it was because they flyered our parking lot last week. the restaurant's location is horrible; they're deep within a campus of unoccupied office buildings. i don't think they'll do very well. oh, and the food was only so-so.
i'm craving some shao long bao. maybe i'll hit up HC or shanghai classic this weekend. i want to splurge and get myself an entire order of the stuff for myself. and no sharing! bwahahaha
does anyone else out there think that american idol's katharine mcphee is really pretty? she's got a lovely face, and she also looks like she' tall, which is a big plus for me. *slurp* i dig her.
i've been scratching myself a lot. and my nails (after biting them) can get sharp and jagged, so i've left a whole bunch of scratch marks, from behind my ear to my upper arms. it looks like i was attacked by a bunch of cats!
i think i'm going to come in this weekend and do my taxes. this is the latest in the year that i've done them; usually, i file in early february. i hope i get a refund; i have some stock gains (from my ESPP) that i might not have offset enough.
so what do you guys do with your savings? keep it in the bank? invest in the stock market? right now, i've got half my savings in an ING orange savings account, making somewhere from 3% to 4%, i think. i don't know what else to do; i don't want to lose all my hard earned money again in the stock market, like i did when i first got out of college. that really hurt.
my anxiety dreams continue. last night, i had another often-dreamt dream. i was in college, and i realized i wasn't able to graduate on time because i was missing some units required. it was really rough! i remember waking up, telling myself, "it's only a dream," only to fall back into it again. yuck!
i think i have greasy eyelashes or something. every so often, i have to wipe my lenses clean. they get this filmy substance in on the inside, and the only thing that possibly contacts the lenses are my eyelashes. it's sort of gross, and annoying that i have to clean my lenses repeatedly. just imagine if i were a girl, and i used mascara. !! oh, hm. do girls with glasses wear mascara?
ho hum. it's a slow day. i have some coding to do, but there was some corruption in the database, so i can't check out my files to edit them. *RAAR* i was all prepared for a grueling afternoon of coding, too. hrmph.
do people use always use lube during anal sex? i don't know about your asshole, but mine is pretty tight. at least, i think it is. i haven't stuck a finger up there in ages. but anyways, anal sex looks pretty painful, although they say that half a girl's nerve endings are in the anus (the other half being in the clitoris).
ok, off for a smoke. take it easy, folks!
howdy folks!
last night, i was flipping through channels, and i saw this _dr. 90210_ show on E. basically, this woman was seeking some surgeries. one of them was a liposuction (snore), but what intrigued me was the fact that she also wanted a labiaplasty. yup, apparently, after having a few kids, her inner libia had gotten stretched out, and it hurt during sex.
i wonder how many women have this problem. painful sex is a terrible crime; it should NEVER hurt. and i felt bad for this girl. once, i hit my gf's cervix during sex, and she yelped out in pain. i felt so bad for her. i guess either my schlong was too long (ha!), or the position that we were in (i think i was coming in from behind) was conducive to some deep penetration.
i like this sandwich deal downstairs. i played basketball day (i made one running floater and maybe two jumpshots), and i was thinking about skipping lunch as usual, but instead, i went to the company cafeteria and got a chicken salad sandwich with generous helpings of avocado salad. i added on some tomatoes and red onions, and voila! a delicious sandwich. it got a little messy, though, and i spilled some of the chicken/avocado salad on my keyboard.
so tonight's it's _american idol_, followed by _scrubs_. good tv! i hope katharine and kellie do well; i'm hoping for kinnik and melissa to get booted off on thursday. as for the guys, i dig most of them, so i'll be sad to see anyone of them get voted out.
to ann, who asked me about dish choices at queen house: i haven't tried any of their a la carte entrees. i usually get dumplings, the ground simmered pork over rice, or the house special over rice. that's all that i'm familiar with; they're taiwanese staples, and i wouldn't be surprised if their other dishes sucked. oh, and i think their beef noodle soup is good, too; i've only gotten it once or twice.
man, it seems all my basketball teams are losing. last night, i was watching part of the women's pac-10 conference championship (UCLA vs. stanford), and we lost! *hrmph* we were up most of the game, too, but in the end, we turned the ball over too much, and they kept on making shots. sigh. at least i know for sure that the stanford women are going on to the NCAA tournament.
so here's a nifty little game for you guys. (i got this link from dishi's blog.) it's 20 questions! it's pretty good at guessing what i have in mind; i got "thumb tack" in less then 20 questions, but it floundered at "shoe lace." still, it's pretty cool, and i'm sort of amazed at how many objects (nouns) they must have in their database. if you think about it, and you consider that every question weeds out half of the remaining objects (roughly speaking), then 20 questions gives you access to just over a million separate entities. neat!
check out this blog entry about a prank that cal students pulled on a visiting basketball team's player. it's pretty fucking awesome. i stand and applaud the cal students' efforts.
in response to some anonymous commenter on this blog, yes, in fact, i do pee sitting down. but i have to clarify. i pee sitting down in *clean* places, i.e. my homes and my friend's places. if i'm in a restaurant or some other public place, then i pee standing up. and if there's a urinal, off course i'll use it.
my dad trained me to pee sitting down. i used to pee standing up in all occasions, but at home, i would make a mess of place. my pee would splash all over, which in turn made me dad force me to sit down. i don't mind it. i don't think it's girly, but it's just a cleaner way to go about it. pee can splash a lot!
somewhere during this early morning, my blog got 300,000 hits. i am humbled that so many of you read my blog. of course, well over half of my hits these days are from those doing google image searches of the "perfect ass," but still, 300K is nothing to sneeze at. so thanks! i've enjoyed writing, so i hope you guys have enjoyed reading me.
i took a huge dump this afternoon. and it was THICK, too. i'm lucky i didn't draw blood again. i couldn't tell exactly how long the shit was, because it went right into the hole. but from what i could estimate, it must have been over a foot long. yikes!
i've been happy with my lunches here at Z. before, you had to pay $5 for a meal ticket to some nasty repetitive food, but now, they have this sandwich bar where you pay $2 to make your own sandwich. and since they have chicken salad and tuna salad, i've been happy. i love both very much, and plus, the bread they offer is BIG and pretty fresh. $2 for lunch is cheap!
anyways, today has been boring. i'm been having some anxiety dreams lately. a few nights ago, i dreamt that i ran into a korean gang, and they were taunting me and my friends. i had a gun, and i remember gripping it tightly, wondering if i should point it at the korean gang to get them to shut up.
tell me if this is a legitimate pet peeve. i get annoyed when people misspell words or have bad grammar in their e-mails and blogs. to me, it is a sign of carelessness, and more, it's a sign of ignorance. i asked mallory if this pet peeve was justified, and she said no. according to her, people just write quickly, and they don't bother to fix their mistakes, so it isn't a sign that their english is bad. what do you think? the only time i let myself type without caution is when i am drunk. drunk posts are awesome. :)
i am a slob. i've been wearing my beautiful baby blue puma jacket these days, and i've already noticed some stains on it. i don't recall food or liquid dripping from my lips, but it seems that it's happened. and multiple times. sigh. perhaps i should stop wearing light-colored clothing items. they just get dirty so easily, or rather, they show stains more readily than dark colored clothing.
during the weekly monday morning today, i was picking my nose. i noticed that i was catching a nose hair, so i just reached into my nostril and ripped it out. it was LONG! and yes, it hurt. i am sort of a masochist sometimes when it comes to plucking hairs from my body. yes, it hurts, but it also feels very satisfying.
ok, that's it for me today. sigh. it's only monday. *RAAR*
friday night, i organized a little get-together for 5 of my coworkers and ex-coworkers. we originally met up at the faultline at 6, but it was so crowded there that we moved to giovanni's. which was good, because i hadn't had their pizza in a while. yum!
saturday, i woke up at 1pm to watch UCLA clobber my stanford cardinal. man, we sucked, but i'll cheer for UCLA (as well as all pac-10 school) in the tournament. but for us, it looks like we're headed to the NIT.
i took a little nap, and then, for dinner (i had bowl of cereal for lunch, so i was STARVING), i met up with nelson at pizza chicago, and we split a large "the fridge" pizza. it was a lot of food, and we both felt stuffed afterwards. after that, we went back to nelson's place to watch two episodes of _news radio_, one nelson's favorite tv shows. i thought it was only so-so, but i do like maura tierney. she's got this warmth factor about her. i'd do her. :)
sunday, i woke up at 1pm again, and had a bowl of cereal (apple jacks) for lunch. i watched my mavericks lose to phoenix, which really sucked because we were up 13 in the 3rd quarter and blew the lead. oh well. so now, my mavericks lost to both the spurs and the suns, raising doubts about how they'll perform in the west playoffs.
i met up with mallory at 4 at queen house, and i had the simmer ground pork over rice (zoe tzao fan). it was good, and only $5! it was nice catching up with mallory, although she was sort of zoned out from partying the previous night.
after that, i headed over to alan and ting's place to see rylie, their 8-week-old border terrier puppy. cute, very cute. rylie was very hyper when i first got there, and she was fun to play with. then, jay came over, and rylie just passed out from overexerting herself.
the four of us had dinner at yo-yo sushi in the rivermark. the food was decent (i got the spicy tuna, california, and unagi), but a bit expensive. and i still prefer spicy tuna the way miyake makes it.
and that was it. i went home, watched some of the oscar's postshow coverage, and fell asleep to sportscenter.
so man. i heard this song on the radio the other day. it's catchy, with this girl singing out letters that spelled out words. but then, i figured out the words she was spelling: "MO MOR MORNING WOOD." WHAT? who sings this song? and is it really about getting a boner when you wake up? what boldness!
speaking of waking up with a hard on, i had a big chub this morning when i got out of bed. i wasn't dreaming about sex or anything, but when i woke up, i was in a highly tumescent state. i usually go straight from bed to the toilet for my morning piss, but i couldn't do it today; i had to do the mundane task of taking my meds before my schlong got flaccid enough for me to push down into the toilet. crazy!
so it's friday, and i'm happy. a group of us current and ex-coworkers are getting together at the faultline for some beer and appetizers. should be fun, although the faultline crowd is sort of depressing. it's mostly comprised of male engineers, with some ugly women scattered about.
it's really hard to work on a friday, but i managed to have some good productivity this afternoon; i added a bug fix in my blog. well, it wasn't *my* bug, but rather an oversight by the architecture folks. i rarely have bugs. i am the coding whiz. *flex* :)
so no real plans this weekend. the only thing i know for sure is that i'll be watching the stanford/UCLA men's basketball game tomorrow. that's it. maybe i'll drop by alan and ting; they'll have gotten rylie, the border terrier puppy. i went online and found some pictures of border terriers, and i have to say, they don't look that cute. they're scruffy. but i bet rylie will be cute. all puppies are. ALL OF THEM.
so i was sad to see david radford to last night on _american idol_. i blame the fact that there's a large contingency of young people watching the show that doesn't appreciate crooners. i mean, i thought he did a good job singing that frank sinatra song, but america just couldn't connect, which resulted in him having the lowest number of votes among the 10 remaining guys. *spits* adieu, david radford!
and YES! brenna got voted off. i hate her with a passion, and she was the girl that pulled in the lowest number of votes. *cackles* and i didn't care much for heather cox, either. but next week, it'll get more intense for me. i like a lot of the remaining folks. and does anything think kinnik sky has the scariest face ever? she looks like the joker with those huge lips!
i just got my bonus letter today from my boss. it's a decent sum of money, i guess. i'm just glad to be getting any extra money. it'll go a good ways in funding my house.
i'm craving shao long bao right now. they're not cheap, though, like $1 each. but one of these days, i'm going to get two orders and eat them all myself. ALL FOR ME! BWAHAHAHH
ok, that's it for me this week. have a great weekend, folks!
*phew* i worked so hard today that time passed by in a hurry. sorry to be updating so late, but i was in a serious work zone.
i'm meeting up with yuji at maruichi tonight for an early lunch. i'm not really hungry, because i just went to mcdonald's for alan about 4 hours ago. i had their spicy chicken sandwich and a 6-piece mcnuggets. the spicy chicken sandwich is ok; the chicken is a little dry but spicier than jack in the box's and wendy's versions. i don't like the bun, though... it's superdry, and even the mayonnaise can't conquer that.
so tonight's _AI_'s results show. i was gonna vote for taylor hicks, but i was too lazy to get out of bed to get to the cell phone, as it was sitting in its cradle being recharged. i hope brenna gethers goes. she is a fucking UBERbitch. *RAAR* no humility at all! *pukes*
no dump today. i wonder why. i had a superfart, though. it's one of those that you feel building up (percolating) in your anus, and as you let it out, you're afraid that you're going to take a shit in your pants instead of just letting out gas. it was a HUGE fart bubble! took bad i was outdoors and couldn't smell it. i have this fixation with smelling my own flatulence.
how many of you out there are night-time showerers? i am one, and i love hopping into bed (naked, of course) right after a refreshing and relaxing shower. however, during lunch today, alan mentioned (in not so many words) that sometimes i smell. hm. is it possible to get a B.O. stench simply from sleeping? where does that come from? are my blankets giving me an odor? *ponder*
so alan and ting are getting a border terrier puppy tomorrow. they've already done a lot of reading and preparing for the arrival. man. having a pet takes a lot of responsibility, more than i'm willing to give. i mean, i like dogs, and i like the idea of having a canine companion, but i'm just not willing to take time out of my day to clean after them, walk them, take them to the vet, etc. i guess you could call me selfish. and i don't EVEN want to think about having kids just yet!
my ex-coworker T is in the states right now. he quit my company Z last year to move back to taiwan, and i miss him. he's my smoking buddy! although, we just got a new employee who i noticed also smokes, so maybe i'll approach him one of these days and ask him to be my new smoking buddy. anyways, T, and a bunch of other ex-coworkers are getting together tomorrow at the faultline to catch up. should be fun.
sometimes i get the urge to move to china or taiwan. that way, i could have more success with finding a woman, that's my thinking. ideally, though, i want to be with a girl who's asian american, so i'd have to hang out the ex-pat community.
but then again, i don't think i'm the brash pack-up-and-move type. i could be so sad to leave all my friends here. and in a new city (or a new country no less!) i'd probably get lost and not know where to make friends. it's similar to why i don't travel alone... i'd just get bored and lonely.
anyways, i got to wrap this up. gonna meet yuji for some black ramen! take care, folks, and have a STUPENDOUS day!
i'm really frustrated with work right now. i wrote this block many years ago, and now i'm supporting it. and it seems that the protocol has changed a lot, so much so that it's getting hard to find workarounds. earlier, it was just about shuffling around bits in different places, but now the current problem is way more complicated than that. i'm not sure if i can even figure out how to do it. hence the frustration.
after watching last night's _american idol_, i have to put my foot down. *stomp* brenna gethers has GOT TO GO. she has such an ego and attitude that makes her completely unlikeable. what a bitch. *fumes* i did vote, though. i called in once for katharine mcphee, and again for kellie pickler. and what do you know, they're like roommates and best friends!
and does anyone else think that kinnik sky is scary looking? i think it's her lips; her mouth is way too big for her face. yeah. scary.
since i take shits every weekday, i have to clean my asshole well. i get a lot of soap in my asscrack, but the problem is, sometimes i forget to rinse it out. so, after i get out of the shower, i've got suds in my ass. and when i wipe it with my fingers and smell it, it's like a weird mix of fresh soap sprinkled with nasty wet shit particles. ick. i've got to remember to rinse my sphincter!
i wrote a little C program today. it's been years since i've written anything in C, so i had to look up man pages and stuff for functions in strcat or fopen. i used to be pretty good at writing in C, but it's been too long.
the other day, my boss (who's very on edge all the time) told me that he wants the "old dardy" back. now, the old dardy would have worked late, worked weekends, and been a general wrecking ball of good engineering force, but i stopped being like that. after a few nervous breakdowns back in the late 90's at my first job, i realized that i can't work like a madman. i've learned to take it easy. perhaps too easy. oh well. at least i have my sanity.
oh. so i tried shanghai classic today with three other coworkers. the steamed juicy dumplings were pretty good. it was meatier than HC, but had less juice. and yeah, i had the "da do miao" vegetables, and while they were good, they cost $10. $10 for a simple vegetable dish? that's too pricey. one of my coworkers ordered two large dessert dishes, so that pushed the price of lunch up to $15 a person. a little to much for my taste. although one of these days, i'm going to get two orders of shao long bao and eat it all myself. no sharing!
and yes, like my commenter said, there's a (cute) girl in the corner making the dumplings nonstop. i didn't think she was that cute, though. she looked rather plain to me, and yes, she did have pigtails. and she had a chef's hat on, which looked sort of stupid.
ok, that's all i have for today. take it easy out there.