man, my holiday break so far has been quite pathetic. anyways, i'm just writing this entry for my own bookkeeping.
friday night, i had dinner with geoff, nelson, and paul at mayuri. afterwards, we hung out a fry's a bit checking out their sales. my tics were getting bad.
saturday, i had lunch with nelson at pasta pomodoro.
sunday, i woke up to watch the heat/lakers game followed by two more football games. it was an all-television day.
monday, i tagged along with jay and margaret. first, we had lunch at lee's sandwiches, and then we braved the crowds at valley fair, where i bought a pair of mavi jeans and a baby/carolina blue puma jacket. then, we hit the sports basement to get margaret's snowboard all set up. we had dinner at pasta pomodoro (once again for me, i got the mafaldine) before i went home.
tuesday, i had a late lunch with geoff at pho to chao.
today, i got a haircut. it was well overdue, and i had a full inch taken off the top. then i got a good garlic charro burrito at bueno bueno.
and all the other times, i was most likely taking a nap or watching tv. pretty sad, i have to say, but everyone else seems to be working during the week. sigh.
hey there party people. it's friday, and the last working day of 2005! woo-hoo!
for lunch, three of us gathered at the cheap korean place on el camino and bowers. i noticed this rather cute girl at another table, and i thought, "man, i could live with that face forever." or something to that effect. and then, i got depressed because my thought means that i'm shallow. i mean, just because this girl had a nice face, i could see myself with her indefinitely??!! ick. yup. i am shallow hal.
sure, personality means a lot, but looks seem to come first for me. at least, what i'm saying that i can dismiss going out with a girl simply if she doesn't look good to me. isn't that pretty shallow? sigh. but i can't change who i am, so it looks like i'll be stuck being this way for a long long time, at least until i become desperate and will go out with anything that breathes. i'm not there yet, though.
anyways, i don't have any plans for the holidays. it looks like i will be spending xmas break alone for the most part, and that bums me out, a lot, in fact. however, tonight i will be having dinner with the newly engaged geoff and nelson at mayuri (indian food). i haven't seen geoff in many months, and it will be nice to catch up with him.
i guess since this may very well be the last post of the year, i should do some soul searching and reflect upon the quickly-ending 2005. but then again, i don't really have anything insightful to say. nothing good really happened to me this year. i am no better right now than i was a year ago, and that sort of depresses me. life is simply stagnant. and to top it all off, i'm THIRTY now. yikes!
but let's see here... milestones from the year include A (a girl i went out with a few times) going back to her ex and effectively ending things with us, my crush on cwg, seeing erasure and depeche mode, my trip down to LA for nicole's wedding. anything else i've forgotten? oh yeah, i went out with M once, but now she's MIA. i guess i should give her a call some time.
see? not much has happened.
anyways, the good news is that i went through 2005 without a panic attack (well, i *did* have one, but i got through it ok). last year, at this time, i was bombarded by attacks, and it really sucked balls. good thing that i've got my xanax now.
man. 2005 really flew by quickly, didn't it?
i took two dumps today. the first one was so big that it went into the toilet's flushhole and still came out above the water level. if i had that one at home, then i would have surely clogged up the toilet. yes, getting through the break without a monster dump like that will be something that i hope will happen.
so yeah, have a great holiday season, and i'll see you again soon!
howdy folks!
i had bad chinese food for lunch. one of my coworkers, N, likes to go to this place that he calls "stinky chinese." now if it really stunk, then why would he want to go there? anyways, the place's real name is tong soon, on el camino in sunnyvale somewhere. i got the kung pao chicken, and it wasn't spicy at all. hrmph.
so christmas season is upon us. i can tell because none of the major tv networks are airing new episodes of their top shows (namely _alias_ and _the OC_ for me). that means boring television at night, and a snorefest for me.
i need to sleep in a bed for a few nights to determine if it's the futon or the cold weather that's making my back hurt at night. i mean, i've been sleeping on this futon for about 8 years, so it would seem doubtful that all of a sudden it's hurting my back. and i'm not about to blow a grand on a new bed if i don't have to. maybe i'm just getting old and rickety. hrm.
i am not really looking forward to winter break. i get next week off. the good thing is that it means i don't have to work for 10 days, but the bad news is that i won't have somebody to hang out with. sure, i'll meet up with some friends here and there, but most of the time, i'll be by myself, i think. i can only watch so much college football before going crazy!
i gotta remind myself to sell some of my junk stocks tomorrow. i've made a small amount of money with my company's ESPP, so i need to offset the gains with some losses. and trust me, there are LOT of losses that i incurred in the stock market back in the day. i'm still bleeding red from the majority of my holdings. sigh. if i had kept it all in cash, i'd have enough for a down payment on a house already. *RAAR*
so you might wonder if i have any new year's resolutions. the answer is no, i never believed in them. i think a few years back i made a resolution to smoke less (not give up entirely, just to decrease my overall consumption), but that never worked. i honestly don't know if there's anything that i want to change about my life. of course, my life ain't grand or anything, so you'd think that i'd have some wishes for myself. hm. maybe i should be more social. get in better shape. something.
i had a minor crisis today. during lunch, i noticed that my wallet was missing. i was totally stressed out. i finally found it in my own car; it seems that while i was at the mcdonald's drive through getting breakfast, i pulled my wallet out to get some cash and never put it back in my back pocket. *phew* losing your wallet (or keys) is probably one of the most painful things to have to go through.
it was raining hard a while back today. i hate the fucking rain. during lunch, i forgot to get my sweatshirt, so i was walking/running around in the downpour, getting very wet. gack.
did you know that i can puke on demand? lately, i've been feeling nauseated in the mornings, and i manage to puke up the water that i drink with my medication. pretty gross, huh? hehe.
ok, that's enough for today. bye!
i am a sucker for well-shaped eyebrows. i know lots of people just let them grow hog-wild, but correctly tweezed, they can frame the eyes just perfectly. and that makes me weak in the knees. one of the reasons why k4 was so attractive to me was her awesome brows. *slurp*
i also have a fetish for a sexy pair of glasses on a woman. just like the eyebrows, a good pair of specs frames the eyes as well. i guess what i'm saying is that a girl's eyes are one of the first things i look for as far as physical attraction goes, and anything that helps the eyes look better is great.
i had a monster quesadilla at la bamba for lunch. i don't order their standard burritos because it's too much food, so i get their quesadillas. today, i ordered mine with extra cheese, and boy howdy, did i get what i asked for. every bite was filled with luscious melty greasy cheese, and at the end of the meal, i felt a bit sick. i'm not sure i'll ask for extra cheese ever again. although, i do admit, i love cheese.
have you ever ordered a 2x4 at in 'n out? that's two meat patties and four slices of cheese. it's also a cheese overload item, and although it sounds quite sickening, it is actually pretty tasty as well.
for the second xmas in a row, i've declared a "no gifts" policy. yes, i know it feels good to give and receive gifts, but it's just too damn hard to think of what to get my friends. we're all 30 now, and at that point in life, we pretty much have everything that we want. and it's really really hard to figure out what to buy. yes, i know i am not in the xmas spirit, and it's more of a result from me being lazy and cheap, but hey.
ok, smoking break. brb.
ok, i'm back. i bumped into my boss on the way out. he sort of stresses me out these days, because he's always repeatedly asking if i'm done with my work. i have a lot of stuff to do, so i can never give him good news, and that makes me feel guilty, like i'm not working hard enough or something. oh well.
it's raining again. ick. i hate the rain.
i want a massage again. i don't tic when i'm getting one, so it's a good half hour of escapage from my tourette's. the good news is that my massage person is opening up a branch new my office, so i don't have to drive all the way deep into palo alto anymore in the near future. awesome!
last night, i dreamt of a teenage friend of mine. i don't remember her name, but i do remember that she was tall and quite attractive. we weren't great friends or anything, but i do remember that she, too, had nice eyebrows. man, i am such a sucker for the shallow things, huh? just call me shallow hal reincarnated.
hey people! i'm bored. and i'm very dissatisfied with my performance on the basketball court today. i shot the ball twice, and miss both times. and that's it. man, i am such a liability for my team. :( *sobs*
i had dinner with alan last night at taco bell. i wasn't very hungry, so i just ordered two items for $3.33. afterwards, we chatted for a while. it was nice, just us two, talking away. i treasure these times when i can just talk to a good friend.
so the maintenance guy apparently came over yesterday while i was at work, and he unclogged my toilet. *phew* that means i don't have to go upstairs to my room to take a piss/shit. i am, however, sort of embarrassed. he must have known that the reason the toilet ewas clogged was because of a huge turd stuck in the pipes. and who knows... maybe i'll take another monster dump someday soon and require his services again. especially since i'm going to be home all of next week; that means no more dumps at the office, where the toilet flushes are much more powerful.
i was talking to my coworker W. he likes to criticize me in small prods and pokes. he mentioned how my old geocities writing was much more insightful. which i think is true; i had a lot more to say back then. and these days, i think my medication prevents me from coming up with good topics to write about.
man, this year really flew by. i'm looking at my calendar, and it's hard to believe that in 11 days, 2005 will be over. i'm still not doing much with my life, and i look forward to the new year to try again to achieve something big. *huzzah*
jenny wrote a little blurb on secret sex recently. exciting stuff! have you guys ever had sex while somebody else was sleeping in your room? i've only done so once, and it was pretty cool. i think the taboo-ness of it just adds to the experience, and every sensation is heightened because you're paying so much attention to the act (as far as not waking up the others). neat-o!
i got a random hard-on today after basketball. i was sitting at my desk, and the next thing i knew, i got a raging boner in my shorts. it was a good thing i didn't have to go to a meeting or walk around or something. it would have been quite a woody show. how embarrassing!
anyways, i gotta go. need to talk to a coworker about something. bye!
so this morning, i was picking my nose, and i noticed two long nose hairs. so what did i do? i picked them out with my BARE HANDS. it hurt! at least the pain was short and swift, but the stings almost drew tears in my eyes. i have some thick nose hairs. maybe i should get a trimmer.
and i might have to eat my own words and buy john stevens's new album. i was surfing around, and i noticed that he and a bunch of other _american idiol_ finalists had albums out. i loved john stevens in season 3, and i have mentioned before that i'd buy an album if he made one.
every day at work, right after i check my sitemeter stats and e-mail, i read my requisite 30+ blogs. normally, not much is happening, but today, i realized that geoff got engaged! holy crickers! congratulations! i am definitely happy for him.
anyways, i'm still sad over my brother's leaving. it's not unlike when J left back in october. i guess i get attached over the people who visit (i.e. people i care about), and i miss him. after all, he *is* my brother. i love him.
sigh. what a sad monday. i just want to go home and curl up in bed. i'm having dinner with alan tonight, so that should ease the pain a little bit. although, he's mentioned that he and ting have a strong desire to move out of the bay area. if alan left, i'd be depressed as hell.
my cowboys suffered a horrible loss yesterday to the redskins, 35-7. (more reason to get bummed out.) so right now, they're barely in the wild card hunt, and they need a lot of help to get into the playoffs. *RAAR* and it doesn't bode well that they play carolina next week, one of the league's best teams.
even while my brother was visiting, i managed to find moments of solitude so i could smoke. i wonder if he knows. i mean, i must reek of cigarettes when i finish, but he didn't say anything throughout the whole weekend. also, i ordered a beer at tony roma's, and i think my bro is against alcohol. oh well. i'm not trying to set a bad example, but i just felt like having a beer, and also, i need to smoke.
part of me refuses to believe that i'm 30 now. i can't believe that this is the decade where i will get married, settle down, and have kids. i am sooooo not ready for kids. the idea of letting my life to be ruled to a little tyke is such a foreign concept. yet, i will do it within the next 10 years. holy shit!
i took a big foot-long dump today. not sure why it was so big, since i didn't eat that much yesterday.
ok, and with that, i shall leave you. have a good day!
hey people. my brother left an hour ago, and i'm sad. :(
anyways, friday night, a group of us got together at saint john's to have burgers. after that, we went to tap ex in mountain view for some balls. my earl grey pearl milk tea exploded all over me.
saturday morning around 11 or so, my brother arrived after his drive up from LA. we went to stacks for lunch; we waited an hour and ate in like 26 minutes. sort of a waste of time if you ask me, but i do love stacks's food. (i got the south of the border, he the banana macadamia coconut pancakes.)
after that, we headed home for naps. he had only gotten three hours of sleep on friday night, so he definitely needed some shut-eye.
then, we met up with alan and ting at tony roma's for ribs. every one got ribs except me; i'm not particularly fond of them, and i wasn't hungry anyway, so i just got the fish and chips.
after dinner, we headed over to alan's house for some poker. i won a few hands, and it felt good. lots of people were getting straight's, go figure.
sunday, we had a quick lunch at mcdonald's before watching the 3-hour _king kong_. i didn't like it. the first hour was so boring that i fell asleep. the rest of the movie was ok, but and even though the action and the sets were amazing, i just wasn't enthralled enough to recommend the movie.
we went home, watched _nfl prime time_ (my poor cowboys lost to the redskins), and then grabbed some noodles at ryowa. and after that, we just watched tv: poker, the duke men's basketball game, and the sunday night football game.
and now he's gone. i feel sort of empty inside. he's family, he's my brother, and i love him despite us having such a wide age gap. i am forever grateful that he bit the bullet and decided to take on the gruellling drive, because i don't think i would ever drive down there myself.
i hope that we're better friends now. it used to be that i felt more like an uncle to him than a brother, but now i hope that our bond is stronger. i gave him a hug right before we got in our cars. *sniff*
ah, family.
shit. so my brother's coming in for the weekend, and guess what? it's going to be RAINING for the entire time. the last time this happened, my entire family was here, and it rained as well. we couldn't do anything outdoors, so my dad got fed up and drove my family back down to LA prematurely. sigh. why can't the weather work in favor of *my* schedule? come on, cooperate with me a little bit here!
i had a two-hour lunch today, where the non-eating time consisted of napping at the table. the other three were busy talking about the logistics of opening a cell phone store, and i simply wasn't interested in the conversation. so i just closed my eyes and slept. i know that was probably rude, but what they were talking about was so boring. sigh. btw, we ate at the thai buffet. hooray for coconut milk-based desserts and fried bananas!
i am clad in paul frank these days. being cold, the nipply weather has forced me to don my beloved paul frank monkey head sweatshirt. no doubt that mike would give me a load of shit for wearing a "girl's" fashion item. but hey, i admit it's a bit cute and feminine, but i still like it. at least the sweatshirt is brown, not pink or baby blue or something. monchichi!
stress. i'm sort of stressed out about my brother's visit. i want to show him a good time, but i am afraid that with the rain, a lot of stuff is out of the question. *RAAR* what ARE we going to do?
an anonymous comment poster gave me good feedback about sex and lube. but my question is... during sex, doesn't the girl excrete more juices to keep things smooth? i mean, if the sex is good and titillating, she should get even moister, right? *ponder*
but to draw from my own experience, i guess the guy's right. some girls don't get wetter from sex, and i've been asked before to stop because the girl felt some chafing. :( she was also a girl who had never had an orgasm before. which made me feel really bad because i couldn't get her off. sex without orgasm just seems like such a waste.
anyways, not much to report today. i had that long lunch, fought through my food coma, and did a little coding. i'm done (without verification, though) with one of my assigned blocks, and i feel pretty good about that.
ok, that's it for me today. have a STUPENDOUS weekend, folks!
hey people. i'm exhausted. we had a two-hour meeting from 2 to 4pm that could have been done with a 30-minute powerpoint presentation. engineers can harp on the smallest things.
anyways, today was ice cream day (we didn't have one last month), and i was excited after the meeting was over to go down and get some. alas, they didn't have cookies and cream, and a lot of flavors were out, so i wound up with some nasty mocha almond shit and two scoops of this weird banana/strawberry stuff. ick.
so my toilet it *still* clogged up. i don't know what it is, because after three weeks or so, my huge dump should have dissolved by now. i think i'm going to have to raise my hand for help on this one and get my landlady to hire a plumber. sigh.
how many couples require the use of lube when they have sex? i've never used lube before, but then again, i'm a big fan of muffdiving, and after that is done, the girl's vadge is usually nicely slick and moist with her juices and my saliva. *claps* hooray for foreplay!
espn had this funny segment last night about how quarterbacks compulsively lick their fingers. they claim that this is for them to get a better grip on the football, but it doesn't explain why qb's lick their fingers after they throw an interception or while they're on the sidelines. anyways, i was very amused by the whole story.
ho hum. today was sort of a waste of a day. i can't wait to go home. i might be having dinner dj tonight, so that's something to look forward to. (then again, i am feeling lazy, and all i really want to do right now is to hop into bed and go to sleep.)
happy birthday to eric! like me, he's 30 now, so we're just two single old geezers. at least he's having fun in his life.
anyways, i'm out of things to say for today. sorry for such a short post!
i'm burping up this tuna sandwich that i had for lunch at the prolific oven. it's not bad; i like tuna, you know, so i'm not really bothered by it. i'm just not used to burping tuna, so maybe i'm gassy or something.
i don't have much to say today; i did a little bit of work, and i'm sort of done with the goals that i've set for today. so the rest is smooth sailing. i do, however, have a meeting from 5-6pm. who the hell schedules meetings so late in the day? *RAAR*
i haven't had a massage in well over a month and a half. maybe i'll schedule one for tomorrow. jay and margaret go to this spa, and they swear by their massages, so maybe i'll check that out. but in the meantime, i'll be going to my usual acupuncture lady for massages. i LOVE massages! *slurp*
i've been having interesting dreams lately, although i can never remember them when i wake up. this morning's session involved coding an iterative (as opposed to recursive) version of the towers of hanoi. sort of geeky, huh?
for whatever reason, the gatorade in the break room is half english and half spanish. odd. i'm drinking thise flavor called "tropical intenso," which, according to the label, has sabores naturales (natural flavors). i wonder where you get spanish gatorade. *ponder*
unlike me, my brother is a very devout christian. which makes me wonder: has he discovered mastubation yet? hm. my first wanking session was when i was in my early teens. i don't recall what possessed me to start frigging away at my schlong, though. it seems like a random thing to do when you haven't learned what wanking is all about. but once you discover it, man, is it ever addicting! :) yup, fun times.
ok. i just called and scheduled a massage. i can't fucking wait!
it seems that my body has stabilized in terms of maintaining my weight. no matter how much or how little i eat, i'm always in that 175ish range. which isn't bad, although it is 15 pounds heavier that my lowest weight. as long as i don't look fat; i still can't believe that two years ago, i was 202 pounds. !!
so what are you guys doing for new year's? my group has had an awful track record of amazingly boring new year's celebrations, and it seems like this year will be no different. chances are, this year i'll be well asleep by the time midnight chimes in.
anyways, that's it for me today. off to a smoking break!
so my brother's most likely coming up here to visit. thank goodness he likes to make road trips, because there's no way that i would drive drive to LA from here. it's funny, because his roommate (who might be coming along) is fixated on having bubba gump's clam chowder in a bread bowl. seems like a weird thing to make into a road trip goal, huh? (but then again, when i went to japan, my two goals were to see a square watermelon and a tarepanda.)
i was useless during basketball today. i scored like one point. i need to have some more energy when i play, running around trying to get open instead of just standing there. sigh. i suck.
i didn't eat lunch today since it was a basketball day, and i didn't have breakfast either. so all i've eaten today is a snickers bar. for whatever reason, i'm craving burger king. so i think i'll stop by there today after work and order a whopper junior w/cheese and some onion rings. we'll see. either that, or i'm going to call up dj to have dinner; he's done with law school finals.
i wish my schedule would be more like it was back in school. i miss having designated breaks throughout the year, and especially summer vacation. i mean, i get holidays here and there, but i just miss having several weeks of doing nothing, you know?
do you guys like the smell of cigars? on his trips to haiti, my friend peter got me two real, authentic cuban cigars. but i haven't smoked them yet. i think they have an expiration date or something; don't they get dry or something? anyways, what's cool is that they each come inside a silver tube. you know how i love silver objects. they look like a giant tampon applicators, heehee.
any good movies out? i've heard great things about _syriana_, but i think it's too serious for me. i think my favorite movie this year is _the 40 year old virgin_.
when my brother comes to visit, i wonder if i'll speak mandarin or english to him. if he comes alone, it'll probably be mandarin. but if his roommate comes along too, then it might be english, which would be weird, because i've always spoken mandarin to my brother. hm.
i just farted. heehee. sometimes i get scared to fart because the gas actually feels like a real, solid dump. and not to mention that one time a few years ago where i farted and wound up shitting all over my pants. how embarrassing! maybe i should wear diapers or something.
i think i'm getting used to too much sleep. i can tell because when i wake up, i feel nauseated. and sometimes i puke out the water that i take my medication with. jay calls them "airyax"; it's just a made up term to describe wanting to puke in the mornings. quite a sight, though, watching me puke water. did you know that i can throw up on demand?
howdy folks. i'm sleepy.
today's cafeteria lunch was *really* bad. there was nothing tasty, something i naturally remind myself every time i burp, which is often. they had this fish paste nugget that was cold. COLD! ick. not to mention some eggplant mush that was also cold. these days, i think that the $5 that we pay for a meal ticket is too much money. it's not worth even $3, imho.
it's always a bummer when a girl that you fancy turns out to be going out with someone else. i was sort of excited to meet up with this one chica, but then i friendster'ed her and found out that she's in a relationship. boo fucking hoo! *sigh*
so when are the winter olympics? i used to love watching ice skating, but nowadays, i'm just too nervous to watch. you know when, they try those triple twist jumps and stuff; i'm too afraid that they're going to mess up and fall down. i like watching other skating, though. i like speed skating, and the short track is pretty cool to watch. go apolo anton ohno!
i hate how obsessive compulsive i am. the other night, i was already naked and under the covers, flipping between _clueless_ and _LOTR: the two towers_. i was trying to remember legolas's actor's name (yes, i know it should be easy, right?), but for whatever reason, i couldn't come up with it. so after a few minutes of pure frustration, i got up, ran naked downstairs, and IMDB'd his ass. man, why can't i just let it go? (i also had a similar fit with brittany murphy in _clueless_, but i was able to come up with her name on my own after a while. dude, she's changed a lot!)
i popped a random boner this morning in my cubicle. i think i'm horny. and good thing i didn't need to get up or anything... it was raging!
i have kelly clarkson's "behind these hazel eyes" on repeat in my brain. it's starting to get annoying. and, excuse my ignorance, but what color is hazel? is it a big coincidence that kelly has hazel eyes? what if she had blue or brown eyes? the song just wouldn't sound right.
sometimes i sit in my char in my cubicle for too long, and my scrotum attaches itself to my thighs or chode. then, i have to reach down and peel it off my body. it's a weird feeing. and sometimes it sort of hurts or itches, and i wind up scratching my ballsac for a while.
what is the point of teabagging? *ponder*
and with that question, i shall wrap up this entry. :)
hey people!
let' see... friday night i had mexican food with adam and rae. we went to los charros, where adam devoured a super wet burrito AND a taco plate. amazing. i had a small quesadilla, wasn't too hungry.
saturday noon, i called up nelson, and we had breakfast with paul and leeya (who were back from their vietnam trip) at original pancake house in cupertino. i checked our paul and leeya's new house in sunnyvale. pretty nice, dude. i wonder when i'll ever be able to afford a new house.
i went back home, and i took a really long nap. i called up jay and margaret, and we went to uncle frank's, which is this bbq place behind francesca's (a bar) in mountain view. the bristket was really good, and the ribs were decent, too. the portion was huge, and with it came a hefty price tag.
sunday, i had a late lunch with alan and ting at pluto's. i don't get what's so good about that place... i got a sausage sandwich on this nasty bread, and a bowl of soup that was just so-so.
later on that night, we went to see _the chronicles of narnia_. i had read the book before (way back when), and i didn't like it, the book nor the movie. it just doesn't compare to _the lord of the rings_ as far as epics go. narnia is more for kids, and even then, _the prydain chronicles_ by lloyd alexander is a better series. oh well. there was some eye candy in the movie (especially the final battle), but i can't recommend the movie.
and that was it. i didn't do a whole lot except sleep and eat, but then again, what else do i do on weekends anyway?
ugh. i just took a painful dump; my asshole s burning with pain. maybe it was the spicy pho i had last night with alan and ting. but anyways, just a few minutes ago, i had a pretty bad stomachache, which was cleared up by taking a rather large shit.
anyways, i'm writing early because i have a meeting from 2 to 3:30, and i need to finish up some work today. i don't want to have this blog entry hanging over my head, so i'm writing now to get it out of the way.
i'm very drowsy right now due to food coma. i hadn't had mongolian bbq in weeks, so i rounded up a group of three (including myself) to make the trek down to su's. and once again, i'm feeling sick afterwards. i never seem to learn that i actually don't like the food anymore. but i soon forget about that, and it sounds good to me again. man, how stupid human beings are!
like i said, sleep, is very good these days. in fact, i look forward to sleep every minute that i'm awake. isn't that sad? you'd think that i'd have something else to happily anticipate, but no, it's just sleep. plain and simple. i've been getting to work an hour earlier the latter half of this week, and it's taking a toll on me. i need that extra hour!
does anyone know what linus and lucy's (from peanuts) last name is? it's van pelt! sort of funky for what is supposed to be an all-american family. anyways, i was watching the christmas charlie brown special, and lucy identified her last name. odd. van pelt.
so last night, on _the OC_, summer mentioned that she got a 2300 on her SAT's. huh? is the maximum score no longer 1600? is there a third component to the test that i don't know about? hm. anyways, i like summer (rachel bilson). she has nice dark eyes.
on the other hand, marisa (rachel bilson) need to stop letting guys get too close to her. first, there was oliver, and now there's johnny. she's just too nice of a person, it makes me sick. anyways, i just wonder where the show will be once the kids are off to college next year. is there a next season planned?
so it's friday (yippee!), but i have nothing planned for the weekend. nada. zilch. i'm happy that i'll get so sleep in, but the afternoons are usually very painfully boring. i gotta call around and see what people are up to. lately, it's all about the meals being social, but the times between lunch and dinner are socially barren. *frown*
i gotta remind myself to sell off some of my loser stocks. i have a nice (few G's) stock income this year, so i gotta balance it out by getting rider some of my stock pick disasters. sigh. i know i should work harder to invest intelligently, but i just don't have the stomach for buying stocks anymore. i'm too scared that they'll crash and burn like they did in mid-2000.
ok, anyways, i'm going to try to take a quick power nap before the meeting. i gotta get some work done after that. ok, bye!
yup, that's what i am. i just slave away sometimes in front of a computer and write code. then again, if i were writing new code, i'd be much happier. instead, i'm sloshing around with designs that are like *SEVEN* years old. ick. so much legacy shit to maintain. and of course, it goes without saying that after seven years, none of the original designers are around to field questions, so that just sucks even more.
basketball turnout was pretty bad today. we started with four people, so we played 2-on-2 for a bit. i've never liked 2-on-2 because it involves man defense, which means that i have to chase a guy around the entire floor the whole time. needless to say, i was huffing and puffing (smoker's lungs?) after the first game.
my dump this morning was longer than 12 inches. of course, i hadn't taken one in a few days, so it goes without saying that there would be a lot of "matter" to excrete.
one of my coworkers collects cans and bottles. in fact, he must have over 100 empty containers in his cube, which line the floor and his desk. he says that he gets money for recycling the stuff, but honestly, how much can you make recycling cans and bottles? is it even worth the effort? *shrug*
i've been loving sleep lately. even though i turn on the heater, it's still quite chilly in my room, about 60ish. after i take my shower and hop under my covers (naked), i start shivering, but soon my meager body warmth makes it more tolerable. and then, i'm enveloped in this snuggly, comfy blanket burrito. it feels really good.
so i hear that this is _alias_'s last season. which is good, because the show sucks now. i mean, after sydney has a baby, do you really think that she'd continue to go on dangerous missions? the only good thing about this season is rachel, the new girl. i think she's sort of hot, especially when she wears glasses. i LOVE women with glasses! *fetish*
i have a favorite clip of porn on my computer. it involves a girl on top, and she's pumping up and down, and the guy comes inside her. and as she continues to move, bits of spooge spill out. it's damn titillating!
i think it's amazing that HIV hasn't totally destroyed the porn industry. i mean, i know that the people get tested fairly often, but all it takes is one mistake to seriously fuck up a whole gaggle of actors and actresses. !!
*yawn*
ok, i better get back to coding. bye!
hey there, people.
i fell asleep during part of my meeting this morning. i think it was the seroquel making me drowsy. tomorrow, i think i'm going to forego the morning pill and see what happens, to see if it's really the medication that's making me super-sleepy when i get to work.
i've been doing some work this afternoon. it's not difficult work, but still, i don't like it at all. i'm modifying an old block i did back in *1998* or so. i can't remember how i did everything, so it's almost like modifying some stranger's stuff, which i HATE. sigh. from here on out, at this company, i doubt i'll get to do a new design, which is my forte. *RAAR*
my fingers are cold.
when i was younger (like 20 or so), i was super-skinny, to the point where i looked emaciated. i attributed it to an astronomical metabolism. and at night, my body would give off incredible amounts of heat. that's why k2 used to love cudding with me in bed, as she was averse to cold weather. she would warm up her cold feet on my body, which would in turn make me yelp out. heh.
these days, though, my body barely radiates anything. and sometimes, my belly even feels slightly cool to the touch, like a corpse. ick. sigh, the things you go through when you get old.
i like onion rings.
i haven't been to burger king in years. i used to love it when they carried the bacon extreme whopper. and sometimes i'd order stuff with extra mayo, and on the receipt, it would say "hevi mayo." yeah, heart attack city!
baare.org is now sponsoring a silent dating event. i'm not going to go, but it does sound interesting. have any of you out there done silent dating before? how is it? i would figure it would be frustrating because you couldn't get your thoughts out fast enough. *shrug* and plus, my handwriting sucks these days. i used to have pretty good handwriting, but in the advent of online bill paying (i.e. not writing checks by hand), i rarely use a pen or pencil to write stuff anymore. now if it involves typing (online chat dating), then i'm there. i type fast. :)
i still don't know why i get backaches at night. ouch!
ok, well, i don't have much else to say, so i'm gonna sign off here. bye!
man, talk about being useless. i was in a conference call from some of the employees from the toronto site, and during the entire hour, i said nothing. not one thing. yuck. i hate having nothing to contribute; why be there then?
since i skip lunch on basketball days like today, i did something different: i went to mcdonald's for breakfast. hash brown, sausage and egg biscuit, and sausage and egg mcmuffin. i love sausage patties; i said that yesterday, didn't i? anyways, yeah, sausage rules.
have any of you out there eaten jimmy dean sausage? it comes in a roll, and you slice pieces of it off and fry them up. i know it's heart attack city, but it's sooo fucking good.
so yesterday's monday night football was a pretty pathetic outing for the eagles. they got lambasted 42-0! it was the biggest shut out in MNF history. even though they're a hated rival of my cowboys, i actually felt pity for them. no TO, no mcnabb, lots of injuries, and they couldn't do anything offensively except throw interceptions that were run back for touchdowns. man. pathetic.
what causes ass zits?
anyways, i don't have much to say today. i had an idea for a good topic to write about, but since i'm going senile, i can't remember it for the life of me.
lots of early december birthdays. jo-ann's was three days ago, and today is both mallory and nicole's birthdays, and tomorrow is k1's. old friends, even if some of them never write back to say a simple thank you.
my toilet is STILL clogged. shit, it's been almost two and a half weeks! i bet my uber-turd is still somewhere in the pipes. maybe i'll bust out my plumbing snake tonight and try to push it through. but it's just super-annoying to have to go upstairs to take a leak, and even that toilet has got some issues. (the latch doesn't stay shut, and it keeps leaking water into the bowl.)
so, last night i watched _kitchen confidential_. it's an entertaining show, although they don't teach you much about food. it's more like showing how they run a restaurant, a wider grander scheme of things.
i am craving pizza right now. i guess i should be hungry because i only had breakfast, albeit a large one. when i'm hungry, every sounds good, even places like taco bell and carl's jr. normally, i have no appetite for those two places, but when i'm hungry, they start to sounds good. *smacks his lips*
ok, i'm off to a meeting now. bye!
it hurts to sit down. a few nights ago, i was running my fingers on my ass just for kicks, and i discovered 3-4 ASS ZITS on my right cheek. i popped one of them, and the resulting loose scab is making my right ass hurt when it comes into contact with my chair. ouchie!
i had two dreams last night. one was where i was romantically involved with the super-cute alex, and in the other one, i was about to have sex with portia de rossi. yes, i know portia is lesbian. anyways, during the second dream, i woke up to a raging boner. hm. maybe lack of sex is the impetus for these sexual dreams?
man, this morning seroquel is kicking my ass. within an hour of taking it, i have this unbelievably strong drive towards falling asleep. i swear i was comatose during lunch; i didn't speak a single word the whole time, even though i was with 3 coworkers. i feel better now, but still a bit groggy.
i can't believe the football season (regular season) is 75% over. these past 3 months have whizzed by, and i feel like i should watch more games before i regret it. unfortunately, the dallas cowboys's games aren't televised here in the bay area, so i'm not really that interested in watching two other teams go at it. and yeah, boo on the cowboys for losing to the giants yesterday. i was bummed out.
congrats to my friend stef for getting engaged! she IM'ed me the other night to tell me the good news. and then she e-mailed me a picture of her engagement ring. holy shit! talk about bling bling. it had three large stones, and the entire ring was encrusted with small diamonds. dude, i wonder how much that cost. they both work in finance/stock trading (i think), and i'm envious of how much income they will be able to pull down. super DINK (double income no kids)!
what is an indirect way of asking a girl if she has a boyfriend? i recently got in touch with this girl who i've never officially met, but if i recall correctly, she's pretty attractive and cool. back then, she was with somebody, but it's been like 6 years now, and i don't know what her status is.
how long does a bar of soap last for you guys? i use dove bars, and i bust open a box of the stuff once every two weeks. is that about right? dove is pretty soft, and after one shower, a pretty non-negligible amount gets used up.
you know how there are foods which make a man's spunk taste better? what about women? is there a certain diet or food which makes vadge juices taste good? i've never really minded the taste when i go down on a girl, but there were definitely certain girls that tasted better than others.
after an entire week, my downstairs toilet is still clogged. i am getting worried. maybe it's time to bust out the plumbing snake and figure out how to use it. it get annoying that every time i have to take a piss, i have to go upstairs. *shrug*
so let's see... friday night, i drove up 101 north through hellacious traffic (from mountain view all the way to foster city) to have dinner with mallory. her friend jo and her parents were there, too. we feasted on dumplings galore; i love eating dumplings! i must have had over 20 of them, i was so stuffed.
i left early because all four of them were sick with a cold, and i didn't want to be infected,
saturday was pretty boring during the day. i slept in until noon, and then i tried the new jack in the box sausage breakfast jack. it was good; i like sausage patties a lot... yum, the saltiness of it all.
i took a nap to some random college football game. and then, it was off to my week-belated birthday dinner. i kept the group small this time (i am somehow petrified of mixing friends), and we went to this japanese restaurant in fremont (?) called oedo. the food was decent, but i took a peek at the bill, and it was fairly expensive.
afterwards, we drove to jack and amy's place and played poker. yup, this was my second time playing. i actually won two hands, one with an ace-high straight and one with an adce-high flush. those felt good. but i still suck; i can't read people i can't tell what other people have by their betting patterns, etc.
anyways, i got back at midnight, past _sportscenter_, so it took me a while to fall asleep.
sunday, i met up with mike and rita at spice islands. i hadn't seen rita in years, so it was good catching up with her. i am starting to dig the food at spice islands, especially their noodle dishes. yum. and of course, afterwards, mike and i got our roasted barley pearl milk teas.
i headed over to nelson's place to watch the 49ers/cardinals game, but i wound up falling asleep. this daytime seroquel is kicking my ass. sorry nelson! it's not me, it's the meds!
i left right after the game ended, headed home to watch _nfl prime time_, the best nfl highlight show. then it was off to jack's house (again) for dinner. amy cooked some curry, vegetables (broccoli and shrimp), some preserved veggie omelet things, and daikon soup. it was all very tasty, and it reminded me of having dinner back home, you know, home-cooked chinese food.
and that was it! all in all, an enjoyable weekend, despite getting a slow start on saturday.
howdy folks! be cheery, it's friday!
i haven't taken a dump in 48 hours. i'm sort of worried, because i'm usually pretty regular about this stuff. i've been eating, so i should be generating some dumpage. hm.
i'm supposed to be headed off to mallory's for dinner. her parents are in town, and her mom makes good chinese food. *smacks his lips*
last night, i had beer and bar food with some ex-coworkers. it was nice seeing them again, although one of them is probably on an airplane to taiwan as i type this. he's my smoking buddy T, and i will be sad that he is gone.
tomorrow is my belated birthday dinner. it was postponed for a week because everybody had plans for thanksgiving weekend already. we're going to this sushi place in milpitas or something. :) it'll be good.
so is this the last season of _the OC_? everybody's going to college next year, so what are they going to do? it looks like marisa and ryan are applying to berkeley (boo, hiss), while seth and summer look to apply to schools on the east coast. so i wonder what's going to happen next year. i hope the show doesn't go downhill during the college years like _dawson's creek_ did.
this seroquel med is kicking my ass. after lunch, i just couldn't stay awake. like i said, some doctors use seroquel as a sleep aid, and it is certainly making me drowsy. i don't know if i can keep on taking this med and be productive at work.
i have a question for you guys. i sleep on my right side, but in the morning, my right ear hurts because it gets crushed under the weight of my head for so long. does this happen to any of you? it's sort of annoying, because i can't sleep on my back or on my left side, so i just have to grind it out with the ear pain.
but i must say, even though i get ear pain and backaches, i've been sleeping *very* well these days. plus, i've been having interesting dreams, too, to boot.
so the furnace at my place is finally fixed, after three days of bugging my landlady. i think i'll keep the thermostat at 65 when i'm home, and 55 when i'm away. i hope that the heater use doesn't cause my pg&e bill to blow up. but yeah, even though i'm a cold-weather person, there's only so much i can tolerate before even i start complaining that it's too cold at my place.
and here's another old question that i've asked before but have never received any replies: during lesbian sex, when do the two women involved stop having sex? when they both have their orgasms? for heterosexual sex, the romping usually ends after the guy blows his wad. but what about sex between two women? *ponder*
ok, i'll let you guys ruminate a little on that one. i'm out! have a great weekend folks!
hello people. i'm drowsy. at my psych's request, i started taking seroquel twice a day: once in the morning and once at night. this is a good sleep aid, but the problem is that it makes me sleepy during the day. hm. i did, however, drag myself out to the basketball courts and play some games. sadly, my team lost each time. i think i'm a hindrance on offense because i don't move much.
i took a phantom dump before going out to play basketball. it was a long one, but when i looked in the toilet, there was no sign of it! *ponder* but when i flushed, it looked like i clogged up the toilet once again. man, what is with me and monstrous shits?
so it was good catching up with yuji last night at ryowa. he's pretty much retired from blogging, which is a shame because i like reading his entries. oh well. everybody's got to quit some time.
i wonder when i will quit blogging. i have no reason to quit now, but i can't imagine myself keeping this up indefiniteliy. i mean, am i going to blog when i'm 40 and have a wife and kids? will i keep talking about taking dumps and sex?
anyways, i'm headed to the faultline today for beer with some of my coworkers and ex-coworkers. sadly, they're more ex's than current colleagues, which i find sad. a lot of my favorite office mates have left the company, leaving me with no smoking buddy or people to chat with. at least i have W; if he goes, then i don't know what i'll do with myself. *sobs*
i'm modifying some other people's code. and "some other people" includes myself. yup, i've been assigned to change a design i wrote about 6-7 years ago. even though it's well written (if i do say so myself), it's still hard because i've forgotten what my train of thought was back when i originally created it. sigh. it looks like the rest of my career here at Z will involve modifying old stuff. it ain't fun, let me tell you that.
anyways, the OC is on tonight! i'm taping it because i don't think i'll get back from the faultline in time, but it's good to have interesting tv to look forward to. i just don't watch enough real shows these days because i go to bed so early. it's all about sportscenter and espn of late.
ok, i'm cutting this entry short today. i have a meeting to prep for. bye!