hey there party people. it's friday, and the last working day of 2005! woo-hoo!
for lunch, three of us gathered at the cheap korean place on el camino and bowers. i noticed this rather cute girl at another table, and i thought, "man, i could live with that face forever." or something to that effect. and then, i got depressed because my thought means that i'm shallow. i mean, just because this girl had a nice face, i could see myself with her indefinitely??!! ick. yup. i am shallow hal.
sure, personality means a lot, but looks seem to come first for me. at least, what i'm saying that i can dismiss going out with a girl simply if she doesn't look good to me. isn't that pretty shallow? sigh. but i can't change who i am, so it looks like i'll be stuck being this way for a long long time, at least until i become desperate and will go out with anything that breathes. i'm not there yet, though.
anyways, i don't have any plans for the holidays. it looks like i will be spending xmas break alone for the most part, and that bums me out, a lot, in fact. however, tonight i will be having dinner with the newly engaged geoff and nelson at mayuri (indian food). i haven't seen geoff in many months, and it will be nice to catch up with him.
i guess since this may very well be the last post of the year, i should do some soul searching and reflect upon the quickly-ending 2005. but then again, i don't really have anything insightful to say. nothing good really happened to me this year. i am no better right now than i was a year ago, and that sort of depresses me. life is simply stagnant. and to top it all off, i'm THIRTY now. yikes!
but let's see here... milestones from the year include A (a girl i went out with a few times) going back to her ex and effectively ending things with us, my crush on cwg, seeing erasure and depeche mode, my trip down to LA for nicole's wedding. anything else i've forgotten? oh yeah, i went out with M once, but now she's MIA. i guess i should give her a call some time.
see? not much has happened.
anyways, the good news is that i went through 2005 without a panic attack (well, i *did* have one, but i got through it ok). last year, at this time, i was bombarded by attacks, and it really sucked balls. good thing that i've got my xanax now.
man. 2005 really flew by quickly, didn't it?
i took two dumps today. the first one was so big that it went into the toilet's flushhole and still came out above the water level. if i had that one at home, then i would have surely clogged up the toilet. yes, getting through the break without a monster dump like that will be something that i hope will happen.
so yeah, have a great holiday season, and i'll see you again soon!