very exciting! so today, i finally got off my ass and called up ben to meet up for lunch. we've been meaning to meet up for MONTHS, so it was good to see him finally. he came dressed up as a vampire, completely with fake fangs, eyeliner, and lipstick.
we had lunch at top cafe in milpitas, and it was great to finally catch up and take a long (1.5 hours) lunch. he has the coolest toyota matrix that i have ever seen, not that i've seen all that many of them.
also, this weekend, i also followed through with making plans to see jennie. it's also been months since i've wanted to see her, so it'll be cool to catch up with her as well. this is the earliest in a while that i've made plans for the weekend with somebody. oh, and not to mention making plans to have dinner with mike on wednesday night.
so, i've decided that i need to hang out with more girls. taken or not, hanging out with women has a different feel than hanging out with guys. not that i don't love my guy friends, but i need a change of scenery sometimes, you know? now, the only problem is finding female friends to hang out with...
also, this week is alan/ting's housewarming party. so that's even more social activity. *giddy* i can't wait for the weekend to come!
yeah, i admit that i've been in a post-J funk, and i just need to get myself out there for social activity. this past weekend was fine, but i do realize that being by myself bothers me more these days. i guess i'm getting desperate for attention.
oh, and today, with the help of my coworker A, i was able to get the systemC model up and running. what's weird is that all it took was a "make clean" followed by a new "make." odd, how sometimes all you need to get results is to delete everything and rebuilding again. *grin*
i need to go to safeway tonight and buy some candy. i don't expect any visitors (we didn't have any last year), but i don't want to disappoint some kid who decides to ring my doorbell. i hope safeway isn't too packed with last-minute candy buyers.
anyways, things are looking up. i still miss J, but that's something that i need to deal with and get over. yup.
hm. it seems like i only hang out with guys during the weekend. that must change, but the problem is, where do i find girls to hang out with?
anyways, friday night, i didn't do anything, so i went to bed early.
saturday, i had brunch with nelson at the original pancake house in cupertino. i was looking forward to the sausage patties, and they were nice and salty. i also had two scrambled eggs and three buttermilk pancakes. afterwards, we took a short walk in the sunnyvale baylands (i don't know the real name), and watched two episodes of ali g. pretty funny stuff.
i went home and watched a heartbreaker of a game, stanford vs. UCLA. i mean, we were up 24-3 with 8 minutes left, and we *still* lost the game! shit, man, that is a mean motherfucker of a letdown. i was so bummed out that i spent the rest of the night sulking and went to sleep early again.
sunday morning, i met up with alan (sans ting) at posh bagel and had lunch there. afterwards, it was _wallace and gromit_ with barden and dishi at shoreline. it was a cute movie, but i didn't find it as endearing as before, when i liked W&G a lot more. after the movie, barden and i got crepes at e-tea on castro before i headed home to watch _nfl prime time_. go cowboys!
i had dinner with paul at premier pizza in the rivermark. the pizza was ok, but not enough to make me want to go back there. the bonus was that paul had a coupon for a free pizza, so the meal cost us nothing.
and that was it. yeah, a bunch of guys. i mean, i love them all, but where are the girls?!
hey people. it's friday!! i'm happy. and full, apparently; i got my mongolian bbq fix for lunch today, and i'm quite sleepy from it.
i am struggling a bit to find stuff to do this weekend. so far, there's a tentative plan to watch the new _wallace and gromit_ movie on sunday, but that's it. *RAAR*
last night, i had a dream about k1. it was something like us becoming friends again, but i don't have any more details. i've been having some pretty vivid dreams lately, but i can never seem to remember them once i wake up and stay conscious for a while.
studies show that when you fall asleep, you have retrograde amnesia for about 5 minutes. i think this is the reason why i can never remember turning the tv off when i fall asleep. i mean, the tv (tuned to espn) is always on when i'm in bed, but i don't have any recollection of rolling over, finding the remote, and powering off the television. weird, huh?
even though i don't like baseball, i'm going to miss it in a weird way. i'll miss listening to the games as i take naps on lazy saturday afternoons. i'll miss seeing nice 6-4-3 double plays on _sportscenter_. at least the NBA is starting soon.
my buddy W here at work is going to israel again next month. *sigh* work will be lonely during that stretch. already, some of my best work friends have left, and W will be the only one left that i regularly talk to. it's sort of depressing when lunch time comes, and you have no one to eat with.
does anyone here watch _alias_? if so, can you tell me what prophet 5 is? there are so many catchy codenames for stuff on the show (like SD-6, the covenant, etc.) that i lose track of what is what. i still can't believe that they're sending sydney on missions even though she's pregnant. and i have to say, balthazar getty isn't as cute as when he was a kid. (remember _lord of the flies_? _young guns 2_?)
it bugs me that in shootouts, the bad guys die instantly from bullet wounds, and the good guys don't, leaving them to die slowly and dramatically. what's up with that? like in _alias_, when vaughn for mowed down by a *machine gun*, they were still able to take him to the hospital and stuff before he finally expired.
so a few of my friends like fishing. personally, i don't see what the attraction is. i mean, you fix up your bait, cast it out, and just wait. doesn't seem very exciting, does it? i suppose if you're with your buddies, and you just shoot the shit as you're waiting, that might be cool, but the activity itself seems to be a little lacking in stimulation. imho.
ok, time for a cigarette break. have a STUPENDOUS weekend folks!
today was a good basketball day for me. i made quite a few jumpers, many of them to win the game. i give props to my wingman W for getting the ball to me when i was open. too bad that i probably won't be able to keep this kind of shooting up. but either way, it was good exercise, and for the first time in a while, i was happy with my performance.
i'm writing some systemC code, and even though it's compiling, it's not running. it's very frustrating, damn frustrating, i say! hopefully i can get some help with this and make it work.
hold on. gotta take a dump.
ok, i feel better now. it was a satisfying dump (the ones where you have to really push to get it out).
so i wonder what fox is going to do now that the world series is over. i hope they don't show a new episode of _the OC_ without telling me. oh, and yes, let me congratulate the chicago white sox for a brilliant sweep of the houston astros. i was rooting for the astros (you know, me and the fact that i'm from texas), but they just couldn't get it going. it must be embarrassing to get swept, although all the games were pretty close.
so the weather here has been getting chillier. i've started to wear long-sleeved t-shirts to work. and last night was the first night this season that i used all three layers of my blankets, the top layer being a thick cloth sleeping bag. it definitely felt nice and fuzzy to be warmed up like that.
so tomorrow's friday, and i don't have any plans for the weekend. i wanted to hang out with mike but he's off to a wedding yet again. rats. anyways, we'll see who's around; i better start making some calls before everyone else's schedule gets filled up.
has anyone in the south bay tried yo yo sushi? there's one at mercado (i think) and one at the rivermark. the name is sorta stupid, but i'm always up for some sushi. *smacks his lips* which reminds me, i want to hit miyake sometime. i know the quality of miyake's stuff isn't that good, but at least it's semi-cheap.
lately, i've been having a lot of tea era's roasted barley pearl milk tea. the guy there knows me now, and whenever i go in, he asks me if i want the usual. i like the feeling of not having to spell out exactly what i want. i should, however, get one of those "buy 9 get 1 free" cards, but i never do.
ever since J left, i've been keenly away of my solitude. i was doing fine before, but nowadays, especially at night, i am very aware of the fact that i have no one to talk to. it's not a good feeling. whatever happened to the independent dardy? *ponder*
ok, time to read comics on the web! bye!
thank god for IM. i admit that i am in a lonely spell right now, and it really helps that i have friends to chat with during the day. it relieves a lot of the negative self-pity and stuff like that. right now, i'm chatting with amy, an old friend from my dallas years. she tells me i should move to DC because there are a lot of girls out there. sigh. i wish i could...
anyways, a weird thing happened during _sportscenter_ last night. i guess they were expecting the world series game 3 to end sometime during the 8:30 broadcast, but the game went on to like 14 innings or so. so the show didn't have enough filler to pad out a full hour, so what did they do? they just recycled the stores. it was like deja vu. very lame, and very annoying to hear a story that you just heard half an hour ago on the SAME show. oh well. i fell asleep before the game ended. poor astros. they're gonna get swept.
i feel better today. i did some work, coded a bit, and then had my IM chats. i'm meeting adam for some ramen tonight, and i'm looking forward to hanging out with him. that's the thing: i need some social stimulation during weekdays, because i can't always count on my friends being free on weekends.
hold on, i got to piss.
hm. the piss was slightly yellow. i like having clear piss because that's a sign that i'm well-hydrated. it makes me proud of myself. :) weekends are the worst because i rarely drink anything throughout the course of the day, except for my daily bottle of gatorade at home.
i don't get why the world series is so one-sided. i mean, last year, boston swept st. louis, and this year, chicago is about to sweep houston. is the AL really that much better than the NL?
my boss just stopped by. i got a raise! 3.5%! hm. sounds a little low, maybe it doesn't even keep up with inflation, but a raise is a raise. hm. now i'm thinking. is 3.5% low? *ponder* i'm always worried that i'm not getting paid enough.
ok, i just got dumped with some work. i'll catch you guys tomorrow!
still feeling a bit low today. i guess it's just natural when you're on vacation and have a constantly present social outlet, and then you go back to the regular asocial grind. just feels a bit weird, that's all.
i played basketball today. we played several 3-on-3 games, and i forgot how tiring man defense is. we start out playing zone, and they were housing us, so we switched to man. lots of chasing around and stuff! in the end, i wimped out after a few games and decided to quit, forcing everyone else to quit as well.
anyways, world series tonight. i hope the astros win at least one game; it's so embarrassing to get swept. here's to roy oswalt pitching a good game. yeah, i know, i'm not really into baseball (unless i use it to take a nap), but it's the world series, so my interest is slightly piqued.
my mom is in bad shape. i had no idea how bad it was until my dad told me that she can only talk when she's in bed, i.e. getting up makes her exert so much energy that she can't carry a conversation. i'm really worried about it, and knowing that she's going through (and i can't help her) just makes me very sad. poor mom. :(
on a brighter note, did i tell you that i'm going to the depeche mode concert? i ordered their cd from amazon, and it arrived a few days ago. i need to start listening to it to get familiar with their new stuff, as i suspect they'll be playing a lot of songs from the new album. i hope they play a lot of their classics, though. it should be fun.
you know what i'm getting sick of? poker on television. i think the subject is burnt out and overexposed, but they keep showing it on the tv! at first, it was pretty interesting, and i thought it was cool how they made poker mainstream, but now, there's just too much of it.
has anyone seen the new _wallace and gromit_ movie? is it good? i used to be a big fan of their stuff, but i haven't gotten a chance to see the movie yet. it looks cute (esp. gromit, i love the animation of his eyebrows)! since the characters are made out of clay, i shudder to think how long it took them to make this movie. it just be a painstaking effort!
what about _domino_? i saw that it got a large number of horrible reviews, but i really like keira knightley. of course, in this movie, she is a bounty hunter, so you gotta wonder how believable that is. i was supposed to see this movie a few weeks ago with T, but he bailed on me at the last minute.
anyways, movies are good escapes. seeing how bleak my life is, it's good to escape now and then. :/
i feel sort of bummed out today. it's always sad to see a good friend go, especially when you've spent so much time with her. even though J and i only recently got back in touch after an eight-year hiatus, she feels like a good friend. and it hurts to have to say goodbye.
anyways, another monday at the office. i have some serious coding to do, and i'm not quite sure how to do it. anyways, we'll see how long it takes to figure it out. i just don't feel like working, though. i'd rather just go home and take a nap.
so this weekend, i had planned on some stuff that i didn't get to do with J. stuff like going to stacks and in 'n out burger, hiking to the stanford dish; we just didn't have enough time to do all the things. it's too bad, though... that stuff would have been fun, and she doesn't get to do stuff like that in houston.
i had a nasty, stringy dump this morning. i'm not sure what i ate that gave it that "fibrous softness." hm. it was definitely a big dump, though; i only gave one big heave, but it turned out to yield a lot of "matter."
J mentioned that since i live alone, i must get spells of loneliness. she suggested getting a dog. yeah, i think a dog would be great to have, but i'm just too lazy to take care of it. and i especially cringe at the idea of picking up its shit. ick.
man, i feel blue today. i feel like listening to erasure's "blues away" song. oh well. i'm resilient. i'll get over this soon enough. i just wonder when the next time i'll see J will be. i hope that meeting isn't another 8 years later.
i don't like _alias_ anymore. yet, i continue to watch it. i taped last thursday's episode, and i'm going to watch it tonight. i'm dreading it. strange, isn't it, to keep watching a show even though i don't enjoy it? it's all out of loyalty, and i'm stubborn like that. i mean, they killed off a major character, and sydney's pregnant and probably won't be doing much, so why watch? hm. it's a question i ask myself often.
note to self: there's more underneath the surface of why i'm bummed out. i just don't feel like publicizing it because my blog is so easy to find. so much for having a confessional journal, eh? :/
ok, that's enough blah for today. i'll talk to you guys tomorrow.
well, J has come and left, and i sort of miss her already.
she flew in on thursday night. immediately, on the drive back and at home, we caught up on the latest drama in her life. she also had an incredulous reaction when i told her i sleep naked.
friday, we went up to the SOMA to check out the metreon and the MOMA. i realized that i'm not really a museum person; i just look at the work of art, say "that's cool" and move on. maybe if i had taken an art history class, i would have more appreciation of what i'm seeing.
after that, we hit san francisco shopping center for a little bit, and drove back home to take naps. for dinner, we met up with alan and ting at red robin, where i tried the royal red robin burger. interesting to have a fried egg in the middle of the burger.
after dinner, we went home, where we tried two shots of whiskey: one of johnnie walker gold, and one of jameson. i really like jameson because it's smoother. J got red and buzzed, but not tired enough to go to sleep, but we called it a night anyway.
saturday, we tried to go to stacks, but the long wait forced us to eat at una mas instead. we walked all around stanford campus, including a trip up to the observation deck of the hoover tower. we hit the bookstore for her to buy some stanford gear, and the rodin sculpture garden as well.
it was homecoming weekend, so there were lots of alum around. we went to the stanford/ASU game, and left at halftime, when stanford was leading 31-7. (they later won by a score of 45-35.)
we got home in time to catch the world series game. J lives in houston, so she was rooting for the astros, who unfortunately lost the game 5-3. oh well.
sunday, we got up early to drive up to the city again. J was adamant about seeing the golden gate bridge, so i obliged and took her there. unfortunately, the fog had rolled in, so the view was pretty bad. still, though, we took some pictures and left for the peninsula.
we had lunch at amarin, and i dropped her off at the airport afterwards. it was great seeing her, and i sort of miss her, even though nothing romantic happened.
i spent the afternoon taking a nap and watching football. shit, dallas lost to the seahawks (stupid bledsoe interception set up a game-winning field goal for the opponents), and all of the other NFC east teams won, so dallas went from first place to last in one day of football. sigh.
i had dinner with barden at maruichi (ryowa was too full), and dishi came up to mountain to hang out over a post-dinner pearl milk tea. we talked until about 9, and it was refreshing to just sit and chat.
and that was it. it was a good weekend, despite all the driving. i wonder when i'm going to see J again. she's one cool cat.
i think i overdid it at the ice cream social today. i had something like 6 scoops of ice cream; they had good flavors like pralines/caramel and roasted almond. now, i feel bloated and fat. ick.
so yup, i'm picking up J at the airport in about 3 hours. i gotta go back home, set the VCR to record _alias_, gel up my hair, and do some final cleaning and stuff. i'm looking forward to a good 3-day weekend.
for lunch today, W and i took T out for a farewell lunch. tomorrow is his last day as a full-time employee, and he's going to do half-time for a week or two, so it won't be the last i see of him. i'm going to miss him, though; he's been my smoking buddy for a while now. *sniff sniff*
we went to lion plaza in san jose (near 101 and tully). there's a vietnamese food court there, and we all got this crab pho thing. it was decent, and then we got these beef bao's (bun) with a hard-boiled egg inside. very interesting, at least i like the beef part of it.
so congratulations to the houston astros on their very first world series berth! i watched the final two innings, and it was pretty exciting. i've never seen so much champagne being wasted before, it was almost obscene. but anyways, it looks like it'll be a good world series, even if the two participants don't include either the red sox or the yankees.
i like sneezing. i like the way it feels when all the pressure builds up and finally releases it self in a loud, almost violent bang. it's sort of like an orgasm for my nose. and you know how much i like orgasms, hehe. :)
speaking of orgasms, do any of you out there practice tantric sex? what's that all about? i've read somewhere that men can separate out with orgasm part from the ejaculation part, so they are basically coming for a long time. i'm not sure how it works, though; as i near orgasm, i can hold it off for a few seconds, but eventually the contractions kick in.
i bought some stock today. i purchased some akamai (AKAM) after a recommendation by motley fool. this isn't the first time i've bought AKAM, though; many years ago, i purchased some shares at $80, and now it's around $17. yes, ouch, ouch indeed.
i need to do better (much better) about taking care of my finances. i still have a couple thousand dollars sitting in my roth IRA in cash, and that's the worst thing i can do. does anybody have any good stock pics that i can research?
anyways, there isn't much happening today (so far). the plan is to pick up J at the airport, and depending on if she's hungry or not, take her to in 'n out and/or krispy kreme. i don't think they have those in houston. we'll see.
so yeah, have a happy thursday, and i'll catch you later!
nothing much going on today. i had mongolian bbq again, though. i always crave it every week, but like many such cravings, afterwards, i felt a little sick. maybe i'm eating too much.
i scheduled a massage today at 6pm. lucky me! my left shoulder and neck have been pretty sore and tight from all the tics, so i look forward to those being ironed out. i can't wait!
so, i was channel surfing last night, and i saw nick lazzarini (the winner of _so you think you can dance_) in an interview. he said something about melody (another contestant on the show) moving in with him!? are they a couple now? can anyone confirm that?
anyways, J is coming tomorrow night. i haven't completely planned out what to do. i guess we'll play it by ear, although i do have a few things lined up. i'm excited to see her. plus, i'll get a 3-day weekend on top of that! *huzzah*
i'm back to being regular. by the 2nd cigarette of the day, i've taken a dump. today's was a thick log that i thought would get stopped up in the toilet, but after i flushed, it went down with no problems. yay for that!
i've been sleeping pretty well these nights. i haven't had a panic attack in a few weeks (*knock on wood*), and that clutching sensation in my chest hasn't appeared, either. so i think my meds are doing well i that respect. alas, they don't cure me of my tics, so i think i still have a ways to go on finding the right medication for me.
so, i have a riddle/puzzle for you guys. what do these words have in common?
affected
deserted
defecated
cataracts
devastated
e-mail me if you want to know the answer. it should be pretty obvious once you get it, though. by the way, this puzzle is the result of me being obsessive/compulsive, i.e. i found out about these words while performing one of the rituals/games that i play with myself.
my hits are way up these days. but that doesn't necessarily mean i have more readers, as at least 50% of my hits are due to people doing google image searches for "perfect ass." i'm proud to say that the picture i posted a few years ago comes up as one of the top ones that google presents. man, it's a beautiful ass, and i long for the day when i can get a similar one to chew on. :)
ok, it's time to read the comics. have a great day everyone!
i am in a good mood today. not sure why, but maybe it has to do with me finishing a part of the coding that i had to do. *huzzah* and drinking dr pepper always makes me happy.
so i skipped basketball and went to the prolific oven today for lunch with coworkers T and S. since T is leaving, i'm trying to spend more time with him as his days left dwindle. he was originally planning on leaving on friday, but he might come back afterwards in a part-time mode for a few weeks. he is my smoking buddy, and i'm gonna miss him a lot when he finally does go back to taiwan.
i am falling asleep decently these days. i think it's the seroquel that i'm taking; those clutching sensations in my chest have subsided (*knocks on wood*), and my insomnia seems to have gone away. yay!
man, what a heartbreak for the houston astros last night. they were one *strike* away from going to the world series, but man, albert pujols is a beast, knocking a 3-run homer to give the cardinals the lead. and since there's never been a world series game played in texas, i am rooting for the astros; hopefully can win one of the next two games to clinch it.
so the last time i had a mini-vacation with a female friend of mine, it was new york in 2001. the first night, she asked me if i had any expectations of something happening between us. i said "sort of," and she shot me down and said that she didn't want to get in a relationship with me. however, she ended it with, "but we should mess around anyway." !! you had no idea how excited (and confused, too) that made me feel.
i took two healthy-sized dumps today. this is after not having a bowel movement in THREE days. i really wonder why it is that i can't take dumps during the weekends. i mean, i still EAT and all, so how come none of that results in having to lay down a dookenstein? *ponder*
one of my coworkers has two left thumbs. yup, where his thumb should be, he has two appendages and two fingernails. it's kind of freaky looking. i wonder if he can feel each one like an individual finger. *shivers*
anyways, i've got a meeting in 2 minutes. sorry for keeping this short, but i'll talk to you guys later!
i have to reiterate, i HATE taking care of legacy code. it's confusing, it's difficult, and ultimately very aggravating. i think it's a sign that i'm not a good engineer, because, according to an ex-coworker of mine, a good engineer is very adept at understanding somebody else's work and changing it. oh well. *shrug*
so this is a short workweek for me. J is flying in on thursday, so i'm taking friday off. *huzzah* i'm definitely looking forward to this weekend, although i do wonder if the 24/7 exposure to J will cause some awkward silent moments. i mean, how long does it take to catch up? not 3 days, i don't think; there's gotta be points when we don't have anything to say to each other.
so yup, my smoking buddy T is definitely leaving this friday. i'm gonna miss is badly; we've grown to be decent friends, and while i am selfishly upset that he resigned, i know that he has to do what he has to do, you know? the worst thing is, i don't think i'm going to ever see him again after he leaves, since he's moving back to taiwan. *RAAR*
ever since the yankees and red sox lost in the ALDS's, i've completely lost interest in baseball. i mean, i'll watch it for like 2 minutes or so, just to check up on the scores, but i just don't really *care* about the teams. oh well. let baseball season pass me by... i'll perk up when the NBA starts up. fun fun! go mavericks!
so it looks like i'm going down to SLO (san luis obispo) to celebrate thanksgiving this year with emi and her family. i've been to maybe 3-4 thanksgivings at their place, and it's always a quaint time. i'm just not looking forward to the drive; it's about 200 miles exactly from my place to hers, so that means around a 3-hour drive one way. yuck.
one of the most prominent memories of my times at their place is when we were playing trivial pursuit. i think my team and i were mulling over the question, and it was pretty silent otherwise in their house. and suddenly, my stomach compresses, and i let out this HUGE FART that could not have been mistaken for anything else. i think my face went red, i was so embarrased. :)
when is daylight savings? is it this weekend?
i remember this seinfeld episode where george's parents were saying that people should always serve cake at dinner parties. i have never head of that, nor have i ever been offered cake at such an event. is this some sort of tradition that i don't know about, or is it an antiquated expectation? *ponder*
they served hash browns (the ones like mcdonald's serves) at lunch today. i thought that was odd.
anyways, that's it for today. i'm gonna look for T now. there's only a finite number of smoking breaks left for us to share. :(
i had a fairly good weekend. friday night, a few coworkers and i hit the faultline for appetizers and beer. i dunno, though; engineering humor is a bit below me sometimes, although i was slightly amused.
saturday, i grabbed some taco bell for lunch and met up with mallory for a movie. we watched _a history of violence_, which was just ok, though. the movie is fairly graphic in its violence, but i was more interested in the nudity that was advertised. but, alas, all i got to see was viggo mortenson's buttcrack and the wife's full frontal nudity, which lasted for about one second. i was sorely disappointed, but at least i got to see female pubes.
i stopped by stanford shopping center afterwards to pick up my watch, so i feel complete again. i was supposed to have dinner with some of the bowling gang, but three of them bailed out, which resulted in just me and nelson going to amarin thai on castro. i was a bit disappointed in their red duck curry, as there wasn't much duck in the dish. afterwards, we hit tea era for some roasted barley milk tea, as nelson talked about all the ways to make basketball a more enjoyable game. heh, he's funny.
sunday, i met up more bowling gang people for dim sum at dynasty in vallco. the food was a bit pricey ($16 for each of us), but it was good. i hadn't had dim sum in a while, so it was refreshing.
i went home, checked the scores (dallas beat nyg in overtime!!!), and took a nap. i met up with jay and margaret, who had just flown in from ohio from margaret's sister's wedding. we went to this hole in the wall korean place on el camino (i don't know the name of the restaurant) for some ox tail soup.
and that was it. all in all, a good weekend. too bad it's monday now. :(
i feel naked without my watch. i dropped it off at gleim jewelers (it used to be johnson & co.) at stanford shopping center, and i can pick it up at 5pm tomorrow. but still, even though i'm surrounded by the time (my car, my PC monitor, my cell phone), i miss just glancing down at my wrist to tell what time it is. my right arm feels light, too.
did i ever tell you about my watch? it's a tag heuer formula 1 with a bright yellow face. i love it. it's not so much the tag heuer status, but the fact that it's yellow. *bliss* i hope this watch lasts me a long time; my last tag died when the crystal cracked.
i don't have many plans for the weekend. i IM'ed mike, and we're setting up a small dinner gathering at amarin thai on castro street in MV. and afterwards, we can get our beloved roasted barley PMT! *cheer* i can't wait. i haven't had thai food in a while now. too bad they don't have jun pad poo, so i'll probably order the red duck curry. duck! yum!
sunday, i'll probably get up early (i.e. 10am) and watch the cowboys/giants game. after that, i'm not so sure what i'm going to do. maybe i'll call up mallory or something; i haven't seen her in a few weeks. but anyways, i anticipate a pretty chill weekend.
so another one of my work buddies is leaving the company. man, is this a mass exodus or what. anyways, i'm going to miss this dude particularly because he's my smoking buddy. without him, it's going to be solitary smoking breaks from here on out. *sniff*
so i watched 15 minutes of _that 70's show_ last night. i don't really like this show, but the reason why i kept watching was because brittany daniel had a role in the episode. despite her 70's-out hair, and despite the fact that she's blonde (i usually don't like blondes), i like her enough to put her on my nubiles list. for those of you who watched _dawson's creek_, she was the mysterious girl named eve who appeared in one of the seasons, but her storyline was killed after a few episodes. she was HAWT!
i am always amazed at actors/actresses who can yo-yo their weight just like that. like charlize theron, who gained all that weight in _monster_ (which i haven't seen yet) and then shed it all in time for the oscars. how do they do that? i can see how it might be easy to gain weight, but losing it... that must take a lot of work (i.e. self-control and working out). and that is why i could never make it as an actor, although the money would be enticing.
lately, seinfeld has been bothering me. i have to say that i loved the series, but now that i've seen every episode more than once, it's getting old. the character of george costanza pisses me off, too; sometimes i curse him out loud while i'm watching, just like i do with _friends_ character monica gellar. i HATE monica!
ok. it's time for another cigarette break. have a great weekend folks!
i sort of wimped out during basketball. during the first 3-on-3 game, my left knee was starting to hurt, so i played only one other game before calling it quits. by then, though, the knee had stopped hurting, but i just plain pansied out. oh well. i think it might be a good idea to stay off my knee, though, you know, just in case.
i don't remember if i said this, but my work buddy W introduced me to honey dijon kettle chips. i brought a brand new bag of it to work today, and i ate the entire thing by the time it was 2pm. that's *750* calories of fat-laden potato chips! arrrgh. i didn't have lunch though.
what is happening to the stock market? it's been going down for a while now. some of my investments (including my ESPP here at work), are still above water, but not by much. what's causing the tankjob? *ponder*
it's amazing how much i use my watch. now that the batteries died, i still keep finding myself looking at it to see what time it is. i know i have a cell phone that can function as a watch, but it's just too much of a pain to have to pull it out of my pockets, when all i really need to do is just look at my wrist. i think i'm going to leave work early and drive all the way to stanford shopping center to drop it off at the jewelers.
ting grilled me last night about J's impending visit. i guess it *is* sort of telling that i offered to pay for her plane ticket. hm. what expectations does that bring to the table? i just shrugged off most of her questions, because honestly, i don't know what's going to happen. for now, i just consider an old lost good friend that i finally got in touch with.
sometimes i find it amazing that my brother is in college. when i think of him, i still picture the little 8-10 year old tyke bouncing around. but now, he's only a few years away from being a real grownup with grownup issues! man, how times change.
i love my brother. even though i never talk to him, and i feel more like his uncle than anything, i love the dude. i've never said this to him, though. i guess you could say that our family isn't very affectionate. i sort of wish things were a bit different, because i really do love and miss my family. hopefully we can all get together this christmas break in dallas, pending my poor mom's health.
it sort of annoys me when a bunch of people get together for dinner, and some people order non-water drinks (meaning it costs more money), yet they don't pay extra when we split the bill up. that's a big pet peeve of mine, mostly because i rarely order anything that's not water, so i get hit with paying more than i should. *RAAR*
i crave red duck curry. hm. i wonder if the potato chips are wearing off, and i'm getting hungry now. in any case, i'm out. laters!
greetings and salutations! how are you guys doing out there? someone e-mail me!
it's hump day! *huzzah* despite not quite understanding what i have to do at work, my mood has been a little chipper now that the middle of the week is almost over. i'm headed to alan's house tonight for dinner; he's grilling up some tasty kal-bi, but of course, the best thing about this is that i get to see him and ting. ting's dad is also here, and he's a good guy as well.
i have a conflict of schedule on sunday. i usually sleep until noon, but then again, there's the cowboys/giants NFL game on tv, starting at 10am. hm, we'll see if i can drag my ass out of bed to catch the game. it's gonna be BIG! GO COWBOYS!
so lately, when i try to sleep, i get these little clutches of panic in my chest. they're different from panic attacks, which is more of a brain freaking out; this is sort of a chest panic, like i feel like i just *have* to toss myself to get rid of the feeling. they're rather annoying, and i think it's because of the changes in medication. hopefully, (crossed fingers) after i get adjusted to the seroquel, they'll go away. hopefully.
so i must have been hungry last night. i can always tell i'm hungry if i start craving taco bell. usually, i'm pretty negative on the bell, but if i'm in a starving state, their food starts sounding good to me. so last night, i got a spicy chicken burrito, a baja chicken gordita, and two meximelts. i was stuffed afterwards, and it only cost me $5.91! that's pretty cheap.
i've been analyzing why i get so quiet in some social situations and why i am comfortable in others. i think it has something (at least a bit) to do with the size of the group. i'm usually happy if the group is no larger than 4 people, but when it gets bigger than that, i start to feel uneasy. it's weird, i know.
but, the last few times i've been quiet, i've sat at the corner end of the table. maybe next time i'll try to sit in the middle, so i can have more access so the conversation(s).
it's weird, though, that i can be very social or a complete wallflower depending on the situation. you'd think that i would have a "basic" persona, i.e. i would act according to my baseline personality, not the situation. yup, definitely weird.
i definitely need to exercise more. and that, coupled with eating less (like yesterday, i played basketball, skipped lunch, and had taco bell) will make me lose weight. i lost 3 pounds yesterday! *flex*
i am craving a vacation. that, and the gemelli at pasta pomodoro. too bad, though, because they switched from the gemelli to a rigatoni, and rigatoni just doesn't taste as good. my theory is that it doesn't have a way to suck up the sauce compared to gemelli pasta.
my watch battery died at exactly 8:26:21 last night. which is a pain in the ass, because i take my watch to the johnson & co. jewelers in stanford shopping center. (i have a tag heuer, so i look for tag licensed stores.) i'm still wearing my watch, though, and every once in a while, i look at it out of habit. luckily, i have my cell phone, so i still know what time it is.
ok, i'm off! have a great hump day folks!
phew! i'm tired today. i played basketball: 4 games, and i scored one measly point on a jumper. oh well, at least i got some good exercise. i was ready to go home after 3 games, but i pushed myself to play a 4th one.
anyways, not much going on. yesterday was a good sports watching day. i was flipping between the chargers/steelers game and game 5 of the angels/yankees. pretty exciting stuff! both were close, and they went down to the wire. it was very touching to see the anaheim angels celebrating winning the ALDS series. winning is such a good feeling, especially when the yankees wind up being the losers. *smirk*
i haven't eaten today yet. maybe i'll grab a snickers bar later. and yes, i know it's bad to skip meals, but after exercising, i'm rarely ever hungry. maybe i'll grab some taco bell for dinner; i anticipate getting hungry later on in the day.
i'm excited to see J next thursday. i think we're going to head up to the city on friday (to avoid all the crowds), and then go on a hike and hit a movie on saturday.
the thing is, though, i'm worried that J and i will run out of things to say. we're practically going to be joined at the hip for over 2 days, and that's a long time to catch up and be with someone. but we'll see... J and i have a good rapport (it seems), and i'm definitely looking forward to the visit.
man, i am worried about this code changes that i have to do. it's in a language that i don't quite understand (it's related to C++), but i have no confidence that i'll be able to grasp it in the time allotted to me. the user's guide for this language is like 200 pages long! *swoon*
legacy code just sucks. it really does. i've never had to deal with it until now, because in my past three jobs, i worked at startups, so all the code that was written was written from scratch. but now, i have to take over some else's stuff. sigh. argh. !!
FIE ON LEGACY CODE! *RAAR*
i mentioned to dishi the other day that in the future, there will be a big old mess on the internet. why? because people will die, and there will be all these accounts owned by dead people. it'll be like space debris! i mean, what are you going to do, list your account usernames and passwords in your will? *ponder*
ok, i'm officially hungry now. gonna go grab some stuff at the vending machine. later!
so, my work friend W got me addicted to these honey dijon kettle chips. he was talking about cheap places to get them, and lo and behold! i found them at safeway for $1.66 a bag (or 3 for $5). yum. this will no doubt add to my weight, which is around 175 now. as a reference, i was 160 at the end of my europe trip last year, so i'm kind of alarmed at my weight gain.
work is going to be tough for the next few weeks. i'm doing some c-modeling, and that involves looking at the existing code. i HATE modifying code that's already been written; it's tough to deciper, and i just generally get lost and confused.
so my cowboys laid a beat down on the eagles this weekend! yup, 33-10. i was very happy with the result, even if stupid fox 2 didn't air the game like they advertised.
i didn't get good sleep last night, hence my sluggishness today. i think it's the new med (seroquel) i'm taking, but i can't lie still (in bed) for more than a minute before feeling this clutching sensation in my chest. it's really annoying, and it prevents me from getting good sleep. the benefit, though, is that it seems to have cured my panic attacks at night. *knocks on wood*
for lunch today, my coworker T and i went to top cafe somewhere in cupertino (i think; de anza and clarendon). it's this cantonese place, and i got this beef stew over fried noodles. it was pretty except, i don't like the crunchy part of HK-style noodles. there wasn't enough sauce to soften up the noodles, so i left quit a bit of it un-eaten. and i still got food coma.
i wonder what it is about weekends that makes me unable to take a dump. as usual, i didn't shit for the past two days, and i laid down a monstrous dump an hour ago. a lot of stuff was backed up, i suppose. i was afraid that i was going to clog up the toilet, i had so much "matter" to excrete. fyi, it consisted of one very long piece and a lot of decent-sized pellets.
today is definitely one of those days where i don't feel like being in the office. i mean, i feel that way a lot, but man, with the bad sleep i got and it being monday, i'm feeling just a little depressed. i want to go home, eat my bowl of cereal, and watch some monday night football before i retire.
so is getting a flu shot a good idea? the reason why i ask is because i've never gotten one, and the only other person i know (alan) who's gotten them has fallen ill after every shot. and add that to my phobia of needles, and you can see why i'm hesitant to get them. i don't even remember the last time i had the flu, so maybe my immunity is good? *shrug* anyway, my company is giving them for free in november, and i'm wondering if i should get one.
i think i take physical health for granted. i get sick maybe once a year if that, and i don't fully appreciate what it's like not to catch a nasty bug. mental health, on the other hand, is very prominent in my mind, as every day has the possibility of being a bad day (i.e. with my tourette's and my panic attacks).
anyways, that's it for today. it's 4pm, and i want to go home.
so i didn't do a whole lot this weekend. as usual, nothing went on during the day, and the only interesting things happened at night. that's ok, though, because i like taking my afternoon naps.
friday night, 11 of us celebrated john's birthday with some BBQ at andy's (san tomas and el camino). my food (hot links and pulled pork) wasn't very good, though. and despite my resolution never to drink and drive again, i broke down and ordered myself a johnnie walker black on the rocks before we sat down to eat.
saturday, i went to safeway to buy some stuff (gatorade, kettle chips, etc.), and i stopped by jack in the box to get some food. i hadn't eaten there in several months, so it was sort of refreshing to taste their spicy chicken sandwich again. and afterwards, of course, i took a nap.
for dinner, i met up with jimmy and jen at spice islands in downtown mountain view. the roti there is really good! i decided that i am much better in small groups instead of large groups like we had on friday night. i don't know why, but i'm just more social that way. after dinner, we got pearl tea drinks at tea era and tapioca express.
sunday, i woke up ready to watch the cowboys/eagles game on fox, but for whatever reason, they didn't air the football game! i was kind of pissed off, especially dallas beat philly badly, 33-10. but anyways, i saw the highlights on espn's _nfl prime time_, and i rejoiced.
i did do something active this weekend, if only for an hour or so. i played tennis with dishi. man, my backhand really sucks. i think my brain has slowed down, so i don't react as quickly to the ball behind hit by the other guy, so i wind up "fouling out" a lot of balls. sigh.
after tennis, i drove us to arby's. *bliss* i love arby's.
i wanted to hit the sack right after dinner, but i had to stay up because i had to go to the airport at 10pm to pick up jay and margaret, who were flying in from their vacation in cancun. it was good seeing them again, and jay told me stories of his fishing expeditions and his crocodile sighting. the only downside was that i got home really late and couldn't fall asleep until around 1:30am.
damn. i've got kelly clarkson's "behind these hazel eyes" chorus running on repeat in my brain. it hurts! do you think they wrote this song specifically for kelly clarkson? does she have hazel eyes? she she didn't? "behind these green eyes" just doesn't have the same catchiness as the original lyrics.
TGIF! motherfucker, it's about time friday rolled around! this week (like any other week) was not very unjoyable. aside from dinner tonight with the bowling gang, i don't have any plans made. i hope i don't end up boring myself to tears this weekend. but either way, it's gotta be better than being here in the office.
one thing i don't get about _alias_ is how everyone can talk to each other, even if they're on a mission in strange lands. can't the enemies spot the earpieces that the agents are wearing? you'd think that would be an obvious sign of being an agent, huh?
so my psych usually prints out my prescriptions on the computer. however, when he was preparing my prescription for xanax, he had to hand-write everything. apparently, xanax is registered as an "abusable" drug, so he has to make the prescription more fake-proof. go figure. i just hope i don't start getting hooked on the stuff!
remember my gummy peach ring obsession? i haven't had them in many months now. it's not that i don't like them, but some of the bags of peach rings in the vending machine taste like ass. i don't know what they did to them, but they sort of taste like something that would make me puke. poison!
a recent blip of memory: how my knees would get rubbed raw from having sex on the ground in a dormitory. hehe. i know we could have just done it in bed, but sometimes the moment just seem right when you're on the carpet.
i can't believe the football season is already 25% over. i don't feel like i've been savoring the season, and before i know it, it's going to be completely over. i think this sunday i'm going to watch some more games, even if they don't feature my beloved cowboys.
what is up with having bloody boogers? i just picked out a little strand of the stuff, and it had two bubbles of blood on them! what is going on here? am i having micro-nosebleeds?
the latest novelty that i don't think will catch on: ringback tones. what's the point? is listening to the normal ringing sounds that much of a pain? and how long does that last for, 20-30 seconds at most? hrmph.
anyways, it's almost 4pm. that means i'm leaving in a short while. yippee! have a great weekend, people!
well, i'm happy for nick for winning _so you think you can dance_. he's from neighboring sunnyvale!
the surprise of the night was seeing lauren sanchez (the host) dance. despite a scary-ass face, she actually has a nice body, complete with eye-popping cleavage. nice!
usually at work, i drink so many liquids that my pee becomes clear. i think that's a good thing. the problem is, by drinking so much (and none of it is water), my calorie intake is pretty high. i mean, one small box of vitasy is a whopping 130 calories! and coupled with getting no exercise, no wonder i've gained 12 pounds this year. *sigh* i'm getting fat again!
i've got zits on my ass. arrgh. i've tried popping them, but they don't seem to be poppable.
how many guys out there like button fly jeans as opposed to zippered ones? like i said before, i spied this cool pair of jeans at BR this past sunday, but i couldn't get pass the fact that they were button fly. especially during the weekdays, when i take a lot of leaks, i didn't want to deal with having to unbutton and button my jeans back up. too my effort, you know?
i tried my coworker W's honey dijon kettle chips today. they're quite tasty! i gotta find out where i can get a bag of my own. hm. do they carry them in safeway? or do i have to go to trader joe's or something?
well, because fox is carrying the MLB playoffs, there's no _OC_ tonight. i guess i'll just watch _alias_ instead. i'm not quite where the show is going, now that they've killed off an important character and sydney is pregnant. i guess i'm curious where the plot takes us; it's not like sydney is in shape to go out on missions or anything.
sometimes i wonder where/how i'm going to meet my next girl. i heard that one of my friends' sister met her husband at the supermarket; he was a cashier, and she was checking her stuff out. pretty cool, eh?
so i'm a walking pharmacy now. currently, i'm being medicated by haldol, cogentin, xanax, and seroquel, all at the same time. it's a miracle that none of these drugs interact with each other, making me a medicated mess. and the real bummer of it all is that i am still a ticcing machine. sigh.
anyways, not much to report today. have fun out there!
two nights ago, i had a dream that i was a lesbian. that's right, a lesbian. and i was about to have sex with the cohens (the parents in _the OC_). i remember taking off kirsten's (actress kelly rowan) top, and she had soft breasts. and then i woke up. damn, i wanted to see what was going to happen!
i bet sandy (actor peter gallagher) is really hairy. if his eyebrows have any bearing on how much chest hair he's got, then he must be sporting a bear rug. ick.
if you go to google groups and do a search for me, you'll find this one dude who wrote an internet news post about meeting up with me for some guy-guy action. now, i don't know anyone who would want to defame me like that, but apparently this guy had it in for me. i don't know how many people i know have read that post, but just to make sure, i am not gay!
so as i said in yesterday's post, my friend jeffrey (the church buddy) tracked me down and e-mailed me. so i called him up last night. damn, it was good to hear his voice; we hadn't talked in years! he still sounded the same, and it was nice hearing a long lost familiar voice.
i tried to take a dump today. all that came out were like 3 small rock-sized pellets. i wonder what's wrong with my GI system. i don't feel like i need to dump, but i can just imagine the logjam that is behind my bowels. help!
i had another mini panic attack last night. i seriously don't know why i keep getting them; i can't name anything that's causing stress on my system. luckily, i was able to head it off with 0.75mg of xanax. i saw my psych today, and he told me that i can get dependent on a drug like xanax, so that worries me. maybe i'll alternate between that stuff and benadryl.
in other psych news, my doctor is putting me on a new drug. so that makes four drugs that i am on: haldol, cogentin, xanax, and this new one. sigh. i'm young! i shouldn't be this medicated for my age. double sigh. i hate knowing that i'm a pill-popping psychiatric headcase. *RAAR*
i'm getting sick of my special k with vanilla and almonds. i should have bought something else when i was at safeway. but now i have to finish this entire box before i get my next box of cereal. any suggestions as to what to get? i want a cereal that's healthy (relatively) and tasty.
since the start of this year, i have gained like 12 pounds. shit. i think it's because i stopped exercising, i.e. tues/thurs basketball. it certainly can't be my diet of food, because i eat like 1 meal a day. maybe it's all the soda and vitasoy i drink at the office; they're just empty calories that i'm taking in.
speaking of which, i am thirsty. gonna go get me some gatorade. bye!
i'm knee-deep in debugging, although i don't understand a lot of the code that i'm taking over. i found a nasty bug in my code, though. ouchie!
i pissed on my shoes today. my pee stream started off a full 90 degrees to the left, which means that it missed the urinal entirely and splashed onto my shoes. ick.
i got an e-mail today from jeff, a long lost friend from my high school senior year church days. yeah, i went to church for a year, but that was mainly to accompany my mom, who was converted. then, after meeting the kids there, i fell in love with one of the girls there, and she became the reason why i went to church. pretty wrong, huh?
in my family, my dad and i aren't religious, but my brother and mother are devout. it's a weird rift, and it can get pretty uncomfortable, especially when i call up my mom to chat and the whole thing turns out to be her preaching the gospel to me. !! yeah, it can get pretty uncomfortable. my mom keeps wanting me to go to church and find a nice prissy church girl to be my wife.
is there any good tv on tuesdays? i tried watching _arrested development_ the other week, and it was just too weird for me. after that show is _kitchen confidential_, which i caught in full last night. i dunno. i don't really care about any of the characters, and the fact that xander from _buffy_ is on the show just weirds me out. that guy will *always* be xander!
my right pinky nail is getting long. i am so tempted to start mowing it down with my teeth, but i'm refraining for as long as possible. i need long pinky nails to scrape the earwax out of my ears.
last night was the first night of good sleep without medication. last week, i think i used either xanax or benadryl each of the nights to help me fall asleep. but aside from a horrible saturday, i haven't had panic attacks for the last two days. maybe i'll get one tonight? *knocks on wood* either way, i feel like i'm well-armed with my meds.
i haven't taken a dump in like 3 days. i wonder what knocked me off the wagon of regular-ness. i'm not constipated or anything; there's no pressure in my bowels. i've been constipated before, and man, it is very uncomfortable. it's like i'm carrying all these extra "matter" with me, and i can't get rid of it. it's a very awkward situation to be in.
howdy folks. i'm tired, but i haven't done anything yet.
so i took my car in for a shop. it's been over six months since i had my last oil change, but in mileage, it's only been 3750 miles. stupid me, i volunteered to drive today (to have lunch at the cheap korean place), and i forgot that i didn't have my car for the day. *duh*
so i tested out the benadryl last week. i took two 25mg tablets, and waited. i didn't get sleepy, so now i'm wondering if i didn't take enough. i don't like taking medicine to help me sleep, because i'm afraid i'll get dependent on it. hrm. but sometimes (like during panic attacks), i just need something that'll knock me out. perhaps i should get some nyquil?
i'm going to try to watch _kitchen confidential_ again tonight. it's at 8:30 on fox. i tried watching last week's episode, but my friend J called me during the show. i can't concentrated on both a phone conversation AND television at the same time, so i just tuned the show out. it looks interesting, and i like the lead actor, who used to be will on _alias_.
so i'm going to see depeche mode in concert! i'll have to remind myself to buy their album when it comes out later this month. i saw them during their "songs of faith and devotion" tour way back in 1993, and i still have the t-shirt that i bought. i hope the new stuff is good. i am just a little surprised that tickets were over $50 a pop. !!
it must be nice to be a music star. unlike hollywood actors and actresses, you're not forced to go to the gym and get fit (at least guys don't have to be). instead, you just lounge around, writing songs, and then you go out and perform once in a while. sounds like a relatively easy life to me.
so i've been coming to the realization that having a good conversation takes practice, and clearly, i am not getting enough of it. i often find myself with people (or a person), and i have nothing interesting to say. you know, how people can make humorous comments and what not. i just don't have that skill anymore. hrm. i need to find more situations where i can just talk.
i'm kind of worried about J's impending visit to see me. we have two full days, and i don't know what we should do. one day, i'll take her to SF, but the other day, i have no clue what to do with her. i don't want to make another driving trip out to somewhere, but i'm afraid she'll get bored if we just do something local. hrm. any comments or suggestions? maybe a hike and a movie?
the jeans i bought yesterday are 34/32. they fit me just right (the waist), but that means that i can't get fat again. the three pairs of mavi's i own are all loose because they're 36-sized waists. maybe i should have bought the large size and wear a tight belt like i do now.
ok. it's time to do some work. laters!
let's see... friday night, i don't recall doing anything.
saturday, i got some matcha green tea blast at jamba juice and took a nap. for dinner, alan, ting and i drove up (i was doing the driving) to san mateo to pick up jan, and we headed to the city for dinner and a movie.
dinner was at aziza (palindrome!), this moroccan place. the food was expensive, but pretty good. for the first time, i enjoyed cous cous. usually, i hate that stuff, but this one was sweet with cranberries. i also had a lamb shank.
after dinner, we drove from aziza (in the richmond district) to jan's place to pick up some movie vouchers (which we later found out we could not use). and then we headed to the metreon. like i said, i was driving, so i was very nervous since i had completely lost my bearings. jan knew the city like the back of her hand, though, so she did quite an impressive job navigating.
we were going to watch _the constant gardener_, but it wasn't playing at the metreon. so we settled on _serenity_, which we later found out was on the IMAX. that theater is huge!
now here's the thing. i got hit with a panic attack *during* the movie. it really sucked. there were points where i started shivering, and during other stretches i almost threw up. after over two hours of feeling like that, the movie was finally over, but i still was stressing over the fact that i had to drive jan from soma back to cole valley. man, next time, i'm going to ask alan to drive. he has GPS.
we got back very late; i wound up going to bed at 1:30am. the first thing i did when i got home was pop my 2mg of xanax to help me calm down. luckily, i was so tired that i fell asleep pretty quickly.
sunday, i drove to alan's place, and we went to valley fair to do some shopping. i was still groggy from not having much sleep. i bought a pair of jeans at the gap. originally, i was going to get some BR jeans, but they were expensive ($80 or so), and they had a button fly. i didn't want to deal with having to button and unbutton every time i had to take a piss or a dump, so i pass on the BR jeans. the gap ones were around $50 with tax.
after that, i went home and tried to watch the cowboys/raiders game, but dallas los, and i wound up falling asleep. but then, it was off to pick up dj and meet up with taiko folk at gombei. it was a good gathering, but i seem to have missed out a lot of the conversation by sitting in the corner spot on a six-person table. the only thing i remember is imperforate anuses. ick.
and that was it. the weekend was good, aside from the panic attack. but that's a big "aside." man, it really sucked to be stuck in that theater while it was going on. oh well. i got through it