two nights ago, i had a dream that i was a lesbian. that's right, a lesbian. and i was about to have sex with the cohens (the parents in _the OC_). i remember taking off kirsten's (actress kelly rowan) top, and she had soft breasts. and then i woke up. damn, i wanted to see what was going to happen!
i bet sandy (actor peter gallagher) is really hairy. if his eyebrows have any bearing on how much chest hair he's got, then he must be sporting a bear rug. ick.
if you go to google groups and do a search for me, you'll find this one dude who wrote an internet news post about meeting up with me for some guy-guy action. now, i don't know anyone who would want to defame me like that, but apparently this guy had it in for me. i don't know how many people i know have read that post, but just to make sure, i am not gay!
so as i said in yesterday's post, my friend jeffrey (the church buddy) tracked me down and e-mailed me. so i called him up last night. damn, it was good to hear his voice; we hadn't talked in years! he still sounded the same, and it was nice hearing a long lost familiar voice.
i tried to take a dump today. all that came out were like 3 small rock-sized pellets. i wonder what's wrong with my GI system. i don't feel like i need to dump, but i can just imagine the logjam that is behind my bowels. help!
i had another mini panic attack last night. i seriously don't know why i keep getting them; i can't name anything that's causing stress on my system. luckily, i was able to head it off with 0.75mg of xanax. i saw my psych today, and he told me that i can get dependent on a drug like xanax, so that worries me. maybe i'll alternate between that stuff and benadryl.
in other psych news, my doctor is putting me on a new drug. so that makes four drugs that i am on: haldol, cogentin, xanax, and this new one. sigh. i'm young! i shouldn't be this medicated for my age. double sigh. i hate knowing that i'm a pill-popping psychiatric headcase. *RAAR*
i'm getting sick of my special k with vanilla and almonds. i should have bought something else when i was at safeway. but now i have to finish this entire box before i get my next box of cereal. any suggestions as to what to get? i want a cereal that's healthy (relatively) and tasty.
since the start of this year, i have gained like 12 pounds. shit. i think it's because i stopped exercising, i.e. tues/thurs basketball. it certainly can't be my diet of food, because i eat like 1 meal a day. maybe it's all the soda and vitasoy i drink at the office; they're just empty calories that i'm taking in.
speaking of which, i am thirsty. gonna go get me some gatorade. bye!