howdy folks. i'm tired, but i haven't done anything yet.
so i took my car in for a shop. it's been over six months since i had my last oil change, but in mileage, it's only been 3750 miles. stupid me, i volunteered to drive today (to have lunch at the cheap korean place), and i forgot that i didn't have my car for the day. *duh*
so i tested out the benadryl last week. i took two 25mg tablets, and waited. i didn't get sleepy, so now i'm wondering if i didn't take enough. i don't like taking medicine to help me sleep, because i'm afraid i'll get dependent on it. hrm. but sometimes (like during panic attacks), i just need something that'll knock me out. perhaps i should get some nyquil?
i'm going to try to watch _kitchen confidential_ again tonight. it's at 8:30 on fox. i tried watching last week's episode, but my friend J called me during the show. i can't concentrated on both a phone conversation AND television at the same time, so i just tuned the show out. it looks interesting, and i like the lead actor, who used to be will on _alias_.
so i'm going to see depeche mode in concert! i'll have to remind myself to buy their album when it comes out later this month. i saw them during their "songs of faith and devotion" tour way back in 1993, and i still have the t-shirt that i bought. i hope the new stuff is good. i am just a little surprised that tickets were over $50 a pop. !!
it must be nice to be a music star. unlike hollywood actors and actresses, you're not forced to go to the gym and get fit (at least guys don't have to be). instead, you just lounge around, writing songs, and then you go out and perform once in a while. sounds like a relatively easy life to me.
so i've been coming to the realization that having a good conversation takes practice, and clearly, i am not getting enough of it. i often find myself with people (or a person), and i have nothing interesting to say. you know, how people can make humorous comments and what not. i just don't have that skill anymore. hrm. i need to find more situations where i can just talk.
i'm kind of worried about J's impending visit to see me. we have two full days, and i don't know what we should do. one day, i'll take her to SF, but the other day, i have no clue what to do with her. i don't want to make another driving trip out to somewhere, but i'm afraid she'll get bored if we just do something local. hrm. any comments or suggestions? maybe a hike and a movie?
the jeans i bought yesterday are 34/32. they fit me just right (the waist), but that means that i can't get fat again. the three pairs of mavi's i own are all loose because they're 36-sized waists. maybe i should have bought the large size and wear a tight belt like i do now.
ok. it's time to do some work. laters!
let's see... friday night, i don't recall doing anything.
saturday, i got some matcha green tea blast at jamba juice and took a nap. for dinner, alan, ting and i drove up (i was doing the driving) to san mateo to pick up jan, and we headed to the city for dinner and a movie.
dinner was at aziza (palindrome!), this moroccan place. the food was expensive, but pretty good. for the first time, i enjoyed cous cous. usually, i hate that stuff, but this one was sweet with cranberries. i also had a lamb shank.
after dinner, we drove from aziza (in the richmond district) to jan's place to pick up some movie vouchers (which we later found out we could not use). and then we headed to the metreon. like i said, i was driving, so i was very nervous since i had completely lost my bearings. jan knew the city like the back of her hand, though, so she did quite an impressive job navigating.
we were going to watch _the constant gardener_, but it wasn't playing at the metreon. so we settled on _serenity_, which we later found out was on the IMAX. that theater is huge!
now here's the thing. i got hit with a panic attack *during* the movie. it really sucked. there were points where i started shivering, and during other stretches i almost threw up. after over two hours of feeling like that, the movie was finally over, but i still was stressing over the fact that i had to drive jan from soma back to cole valley. man, next time, i'm going to ask alan to drive. he has GPS.
we got back very late; i wound up going to bed at 1:30am. the first thing i did when i got home was pop my 2mg of xanax to help me calm down. luckily, i was so tired that i fell asleep pretty quickly.
sunday, i drove to alan's place, and we went to valley fair to do some shopping. i was still groggy from not having much sleep. i bought a pair of jeans at the gap. originally, i was going to get some BR jeans, but they were expensive ($80 or so), and they had a button fly. i didn't want to deal with having to button and unbutton every time i had to take a piss or a dump, so i pass on the BR jeans. the gap ones were around $50 with tax.
after that, i went home and tried to watch the cowboys/raiders game, but dallas los, and i wound up falling asleep. but then, it was off to pick up dj and meet up with taiko folk at gombei. it was a good gathering, but i seem to have missed out a lot of the conversation by sitting in the corner spot on a six-person table. the only thing i remember is imperforate anuses. ick.
and that was it. the weekend was good, aside from the panic attack. but that's a big "aside." man, it really sucked to be stuck in that theater while it was going on. oh well. i got through it