well, i played basketball for the first time in months. i scored one measly point, got pretty winded after only two games, and left early. oh well. i miss exercise, though, so i think i'll start playing again, at least once a week.
so last night was pretty weird. i wasn't panicking, but i couldn't fall asleep. sportscenter wasn't irking me like it does when i'm in an attack, so in the end, i still wound up taking xanax to help me get some shuteye.
i just ate two twix bars. i don't know why i keep getting it, because it's a little too sweet for me. all that chocolate and caramel! ick. i should go back to eating potato chips or doritos or something.
so J is coming out to visit! yup. i just bought her plane tickets this morning. she'll be out here october 20th to 23rd. i'm excited, and i am anxious to see her again. it's weird, because we hadn't talked in like 8 years, but when i found her again, i just got this really strong urge to see her. *shrug* i guess some friends, you just naturally gravitate to. she's one of them.
i think i'm going to get a haircut today. after basketball, i took a good look at myself in my car's rearview mirror, and man, i looked horrible with the fro-y hair! it's time to stop that... and plus, i'm way overdue for a haircut. i usually get them once a month, but this time, it's been like 6 weeks.
i miss my smoking buddy T here at work. i thought he was going to be in taiwan for only two weeks, but it turns out he's on a *three* week vacation. man, it must be nice to get away from work for that long. but yeah, i miss him, as all of my cigarette breaks have been by myself.
i also miss my family. i know i don't talk about them much, but the honest truth is that i love them. a few years ago, i wouldn't have admitted that fact, but for whatever reason, i want to be close to my family. i think it's the fact that i don't see them very often, and my mom and dad are getting old. and i am all too well aware that they won't be here forever, so i want to get in as much quality time as possible. *sniff*
i feel really bad for my poor mom. she is still suffering a lot, it seems. she can't overexert herself, even on simple things like cooking or taking walks. she sounds so weak when i call her, and i just wish that the doctors she's seeing could diagnose something real and tangible. but instead, they're all baffled by my mom, while she continues to suffer. *RAAR*
but anyways, the plan is to see them during christmas break. the problem is, she might not be well enough to travel, so i would have to fly to taiwan to see them instead of going back to dallas. sigh. i know i shouldn't gripe about it, but the plane flight to taiwan is a killer bitch.
ok. sorry to end on such a downer, but that's it for me today. have a great day, my darling pups.