man, i am sleepy today. i got my mongolian bbq fix today, and even though i don't put any oil or anything greasy into my bowl, it's always a heavy meal.
so my cowboys won yesterday! yippee. the big showdown (that's televised) will be two weeks from now, when dallas comes in town to play the 49ers. i'm sure nelson and i will do a lot of trash talking, as he is as much as fan of san francisco as i am of my beloved cowboys. bring it on!
last night, i got another panic attack. fuck, these episodes are coming once every other day, it seems. i mean, i seem ok, but once i'm lying in bed, i keep tossing and turning, and i feel like my heart is racing, and i can't relax. those nights, i'm taking 2mg of xanax to calm me down. shit, i hope i don't grow to be dependent on the drug.
sigh, it's monday. the 4-day workweek last week was very nice, and i just wish every week was like that.
the weather's been getting a lot cooler here, so much so that at night, my two layers of blankets aren't enough. i like it. cold nights make snuggling that much better.
i got comment spam again. every wednesday or so, i close the comment sections for all of the previous week's blog posts. but this time, they got to me early, and i was sort of pissed off. comment spam sucks!
i think i've forgotten how to make conversation and small talk. last night, at jay and margaret's place, i was very quiet, even though i was among my best friends. everyone was watching coco, the the cute puppt, and people would say this and that. me? i found nothing to say, and it was a disturbing trend. it's like i can't make lighthearted conversation anymore. hm. yes, disturbing.
i'm starting to watch more HDTV at my friends' places. i'm getting HDTV envy. the picture is just so clear and detailed! and now i'm tempted to replace my tv with an HD monitor. i've always been sort of an early adopter, and television plays such a big role in my life that you'd think i would have gotten on the HD bandwagon by now.
i've noticed that a lot of guys at the company drop their pants all the way to their ankles when they take a dump. is that normal? on the other hand, i drop my pants just far enough that i don't take a shit on my clothes. i would imagine it to be rather breezy if my pants went to my ankles. maybe i'll try that the next time i have to dump.
ok, i've got a meeting. later folks!
so friday night, no one was around, so i just had my bowl of cereal and went to sleep.
saturday, i met up with alan to watch _the transporter 2_. before then, i had a $3.50 hot dot at the AMC mercado. since i was hungry, it was the best hot dog i've had in a while, even though it was brown and had fake burn marks on it. the movie itself wasn't very good, though.
i took a nap, and for dinner, i met up with nelson at chili's. i let him order the country fried steak (he didn't want to order it if i did, too) and i got a bacon burger. hm. i remember the burgers used to be better there than it was that night. oh well. chili's was hopping! we waited half an hour to get our two-person booth.
sunday, i went over to nelson's place to watch the 49ers' opening game. nelson got this chicken/garlic pizza from sierra sam's (?), and it was pretty good. i had five slices of it, two of which were eat near the end of the game. i guess i got my second wind in pizza eating. anyways, the 49ers won, and it was a pretty good game for them. who knew they could beat the rams!
i went home around 5:00, and tried to take a nap. but then, alan called. we met up for dinner, and then we headed off to cold stone for some ice cream and then back to jay and margaret's house for their "showing off coco" gathering. coco (short for coconut) is their new puppy. soooooo cute.
and that was it. a decent weekend, but damn, a third day would have really done some good. sigh. i hate mondays at work. :(