so last night, i got addicted to _tommy lee goes to college_. i'm not sure why i found it so engrossing, but i did. i cheered for him when he made it into the drum corps, and i laughed when he was expecting the hot tutor to come and instead got someone who was completely the opposite. i'm gonna start tuning in: tuesdays at 9pm.
today, i went with a coworker to mongolian bbq. i bumped into some guys i knew at gfn (my last job before this one), and while walking to the car, i bumped into paul, one of my old coworkers at TL and an old roommate of mine. it was a big surprise seeing paul, because i haven't talked to him in years. anyway, lunch turned out to be a reunion event for me.
so i hear that an acquaintance (not really friends) of mine is getting married this weekend. and what is sad is that this friend is not really happy with her fiance (it's a theory, and it seems to be true). they've already postponed the wedding once already, but this time, it seems like it's a go. but anyways, it's a sad situation. i hope i never "settle" for a girl just because it's convenient or safe. *horror*
but that's the thing though. at a certain point, i suppose that most people will choose to settle rather than find what they call "true love." if you're desperate enough, you cling to any warm body you can find, and the thought of being alone starts to get really scary.
there was that one _ally mcbeal_ (man, i miss that show) episode where this fat dude who was with another rotund woman, but he wanted ally, i.e. someone "who makes his heart bounce." and the episode revolved around the notion of "the one" vs. "the only."
sometimes life doesn't allow us to find "the one." so instead, we end up choosing "the only," which equates to settling. but i don't think it's so bad; because in the end, just having somebody there makes life tolerable, and that's good enough for a lot of people. like i've said before, love is a luxury which doesn't find everybody.
personally, i haven't reached the stage where i'm willing to settle. however, i do recognize the fact that my lofty demands on love are a big reason why i've been single for so long. and i have to admit that sometimes i feel pressure to just pick somebody and run with it. we'll see what happens to me in the future; i have hope still. :)