hello folks. i don't feel like writing today, but we'll see.
my workweek and my weekends are complete opposites as far as hydration goes. at the office, i have about 6 vitasoy's and 2 dr pepper's, so i'm constantly taking a piss. what's good is that as the day gets later, my urine becomes clear. that's a good sign, right?
but weekends, i hardly drink anything except for maybe one bottle of gatorade. so i'm constantly dehydrated. lucky for me, the weekend is only two days long, so after that i'm back to drinking a lot.
speaking of drinking, it's been a long time since i've been drunk. the last time, i think, was during one of our house parties. and i haven't thrown a party in years. i'm at the point now that i don't remember what it's like to have a good buzz; i've had alcohol since then, but no matter how much i drink these days, i can't get a buzz. for example, at nicole's wedding back in may, i had SIX johnnie walker black's! and nope, i didn't feel a thing.
last night was the first in a while where i fell asleep peacefully without my trouble. i guess the temperature in my room was a bit cooler than normal. and i remember having a dream about baby chicks, but i forget what that was all about. although, i do recall explosions as well.
i need something to fixate on. like an obsession. i find that my days are very even keel, and there's nothing interesting going on, either in my life or in my head. my last fixation was cwg, but she's long gone, and i don't even find myself attracted to her anymore.
i had only six cigarettes yesterday. it's a local minimum, as i've been averaging 8-9 in the recent past. i seriously need to start thinking about quitting by the time i'm 30. i love smoking, but it's going to kill me if i keep doing it. sigh. why does it have to be so unhealthy?
i lost two of my porn videocassettes. i went to my stash the other day to watch them for old time's sake, but they weren't there! *RAAR* i fumbled around my entire closet, opening boxes (and breaking a sweat doing so), but they were nowhere to be found. sigh.
my favorite sexual positions are ones in which the two people involved are facing each other. non-facing-each-other positions (like doggy style, for instance) are just too impersonal. i think seeing the face of your partner during sex is a great and necessary thing, since it taps more into the emotional realm of sex than just the physical act. otherwise, you might as well be humping a canteloupe or a bowl of ramen (both of which are things that i have heard of).
and with that imagery, i shall sign off on this blog entry. toodles!