hello all. i am having a horrible time with my tics. they are almost constant, unless i prop up my arm on my head to relieve the tension in my neck. :( so i'm sad today.
i'm sad that if i'm not permanently medicated, i can't function with my tourette's. sigh. i was going to take a week to see how i would be, but this is really unbearable, and i think i'm going to go back on my drugs pretty soon. *RAAR*
well, now at least i know. before, i wasn't sure if the haldol was doing anything for me, so that's why i decided to get off of it. it was a little experiment. and even though i still tic on 8mg of haldol a day, at least it's not as frequent. and, as an added bonus, smoking has been shown to help accentuate the effects of haldol, so my cigarette breaks will be more peaceful. these days, cigarettes do nothing for my tics, and i'm lucky i haven't burned myself. !!
i'm having ramen with the yujster tonight. it should be fun catching up with him. we usually meet up for ramen on tuesdays (don't know why, but it just happens that way), but today's an exception. and besides, it's only one day off. :)
so i'm finally done with my huge box of honeycombs cereal. next up, special k with red berries. i usually try to peace my cereal eating such that i finish the box and the half gallon of milk at the same time. yesterday, i was able to achieve that, except that i had way more milk than cereal. i drank all the milk anyway, and i wound up farting all night in bed due to my milk overdose. luckily, it was just gas, and not the runs.
my knees are getting better. they're only slightly red now, instead of the crimson glow that they had the day they got burnt. so i'm going to switch back to wearing pants tomorrow to work and look more presentable. i am still puzzled, however, as to why other similarly-exposed parts of my body didn't get burnt. (my nose is peeling, though.)
i must remind myself not to get sprouts in my ramen tonight. i hate bean sprouts.
back to the ticcing topic. even though i am ticcing a hell of a lot more, my brain feels "freer" without the medication. there's no cloud over my mind, and i feel like things are clearer and more vibrant. shit. i hate to give up my sharp mental state, but damn, i just can't function with all these tics. i guess there's a give-and-take to this whole disorder. whatever. life sucks.