i had the hardest trouble sleeping last night. first of all, when i got into bed around 8:30, it was still hot; my bedroom is on the second floor, so the temperature is a little higher there than downstairs. and then, the sounds of sportscenter just didn't lull me to sleep. instead, i just lay there with my eyes closed, ticcing sporadically, and i just stayed awake, all the way until midnight.
i wonder what's causing my insomnia. i know a part of it is the fact that i'm going to bed way too early, but still, i'm usually able to fall asleep anywhere, anytime. it's part of my narcoleptic nature. :)
so yesterday, i got curious and surfed adult friend finder. in a nutshell, this is a site where you post personals ads for sex. pretty neat, huh? i mean, you've basically got a site where all these horny people just want to fuck.
i've wondered if i have what it takes to have sex indiscriminately. probably not. first, i'm way picky, and if i'm not attracted to the person, i probably wouldn't be able to get it up during sex. and second, more importantly, even if i could find someone satisfactory, i'd just end up getting attached and wanting a relationship.
i guess i'm not the type of person who wants to "sow his oats," huh? well, it's not a matter of wanting, but it's the fact that i'm not able to do it. which is weird, because i know there's a multitude of people out there who have totally active sex lives without being in relationships. i guess i'm not that type of person, and it sort of bugs me, because well, i'm not getting any!
anyways, it was sort of fascinating perusing through the profiles of all these horny women. it was like stepping into a different world, a world where people look for sex first and relationships second, if at all. it was akin to being in vegas, that strange alternate reality where women just approach you wanting to take their clothes off for you.
man. a world of sex out there for the taking, and i'm just sitting back letting it pass me by. (although, the chance for disease is one non-negligible factor in my doing so.)
by the way, i skipped basketball today. instead, i went to su's mongolian bbq, as i was craving the stuff. hm. i really need to start playing again, because it's my only form of exercise.
one more day left in the workweek! wheee...
please be lenient on me if i write something that i've already written before. i know that it's sort of lame, but i just can't possibly remember everything that i put down on this blog. so be nice, ok? :)
i started the day feeling pretty bummed out about life. nothing has happened so far, and the year is one day away from being half over. man. time really flies, and i feel like i'm not living up to my expectations. i mean, for god's sake, i go to bed at 8pm!
my day sort of perked up when i talked to my trusty wingman w here at work about getting set up with a friend of his. but now, the high's over, and i'm back to feeling a little low.
in my quest to be social during the week, i'm having dinner tonight with the newlywed mr. adam tonight at taqueria los charros. i don't know if i'm up for devouring a monster wet burrito just yet, but we'll see how my appetite is when we get there. it'll get good to see him and do something tonight besides watch seinfeld and friends reruns on tv.
around 5am this morning, i had a sexual dream. i don't remember much, but i do remember the situation that happened in my head that jolted me awake. basically, this girl was about to give me head, she had her hand around my shaft. and what's weird is that my mom was there, admonishing me in a nagging manner. it woke me up, and i was sporting this major boner. man, if only i could have stayed asleep and gotten that blowjob.
oh. and yesterday, i was inspecting my forehead. i felt a bump in the middle, and upon further inspection, it was a blackhead! so you know how excited i am about doing various "surgical" procedures on my face. yup, i squeezed. and then squeezed again. and what came out of my forehead was this sesame seed-shaped thing with a dark tip. amazing! cool! now if only i had more of these; i am so fascinated by the various things we excrete from our bodies.
so yesterday was the nba draft. it wasn't anything special, except that it bumped sportscenter behind an hour. but there were various underclassmen that weren't taken in the draft. man, they are FUCKED. they can't go back to college, so what are they supposed to do? slog it through some sub-standard basketball league for a year and try again? poor people. broken dreams.
ok, that's it for today. this entry came out much more easily than the others. :)
man, what a frustrating day at work. basically, i got assigned this monster task of re-coding some c-models. originally, it was assigned to somebody else, but that person just threw it over the fence to me. motherfucker.
sorry for not blogging yesterday. i was feeling a little shitty (probably remnants from my illness over the weekend), so i went home at 2pm and just slept to the sounds of espn.
i've been having trouble sleeping lately. i'm in bed by 8pm usually, but i don't fall asleep until past midnight. that's FOUR HOURS of tossing and turning in my bed. hm. maybe i'll have my psych prescribe me some sleeping pills or something.
i've been in a sad mood lately. i think it all started when i went to jay's birthday party on saturday. i realized that of the dozen or so people there, i was the only single person in the entire house. and that just made me feel really down about my life. i mean, all of these people have somebody to share their lives with, and what do i have? a relationship with my tv? bah. :(
anyways, not much going on. i feel oddly compelled to finish this bag of pretzels on my desk, but they've worn out their welcome. the first bite (the crunch and the saltiness) is good, but after a while, i just start to get thirsty, and they no longer taste good anymore. but what to do? do i just throw the bag away? nope. i just force myself to finish it. what a martyr i am!
i've had a weird relationship with food i don't like. as a child, if i told my parents i didn't like to eat something, my dad would force me to eat more of it, as some sort of weird punishment. and this is why he used to buy slices of swiss cheese and force-feed them to me, even though i hated it. heh. because of that, sometimes i dare myself to eat something, even though i know it's nasty. weird, huh?
sigh. television is so boring in the summer. i know there are some new reality shows, but honestly, that stuff is getting boring. i want to stuff with high-quality writing! give me a good drama, a sitcom, anything that isn't about real-life people getting eliminated from some sort of contest.
i need to expand my circle of friends. to my sadness, peter has gone. (he's off to bethesda for two years to do medical research.) and next summer, jay will head off to alabama for his one-year facial plastics fellowship.
i'm not so sure when i became so dependent on my friends for social stimulation. when i was a kid, i was an only-child for my first ten years of existence, and i occupied myself just fine. but, it seems, sometime during college, i realized that i needed other people around me to be happy. i lost my independence. and it's only gotten worse ever since.
anyways, that is all i have to say today. have a good day!
so is turns out that my stuffy head was a sign of an impending illness. more on that later.
so friday night, a group of us met for dinner at tomatina and then for _batman begins_. honestly, i didn't like it very much. i thought it was slow and not very compelling. oh well. oh, and the fights were too confusing to watch; the camera kept cutting to a new angle every split second, so there was no continuity.
i went home and couldn't fall asleep until about 3am. and then, worst of all, i kept dreaming about not being able to sleep, so the whole night was just totally unrestful.
i woke up saturday sick. man. i had a runny/stuffy nose, and my brain just felt it was buzzing and spinning around. i lay down for the entire afternoon, and at night, i went to jay's birthday celebration at his house. it was nice to see everybody, but i just couldn't hack feeling like shit, so i left after two hours and just went to bed.
sunday, i felt much better. i called up jay and alan, and we had tentative plans of meeting up at valley fair, but they fell through. i wound up sitting on the futon couch the entire afternoon watching television. first was _tombstone_, a good movie, although i already own the dvd. why is that i would watch it on tv with commercials, but i would never pop it in the dvd player and watch it on its own? odd.
then, i watched _you've got mail_ on tv, and after that, baseball, yankees vs. mets.
and for the first time in a while, i felt lonely. my thoughts drifted toward jay and alan, and how they were doing mundane things such as errands, but how happy they were doing it because they had somebody to share their lives with. and then, my thoughts turned toward to myself, and how i don't have a person to be with. it was a pretty big downer.
anyways, i finally got to see real live people that night, when i met up with jay and margaret for some vietnamese food at pho quyen. dinner was short and brief, but i am glad that i actually got out on sunday.
sigh. i think i'm sad these days. but anyway, that was my weekend.
hey people. i don't know what it is, but i don't feel very well today. i've got a little buzz of a headache, and overall, i'm just feeling very lethargic and sluggish.
i want to congratulate the san antonio spurs for winning the championships last night. tim duncan was a monster, and his effort was truly remarkable. watching the people celebrate, i was sort of reminded of how it felt when my ac dec (academic decathlon) team won nationals back when i was a junior in high school. the glory, the joy, the triumph of knowing that you're on top of the world... it took me back. :)
i'm munching on some rold gold pretzels. it's remarkable how they can make your throat very dry, which reminds me of that seinfeld episode where everyone happens to utter, "these pretzels are making me thirsty!" indeed.
i'm itching to get out of here so i can watch _batman begins_. i have high expectations for this movie, especially since it got reviewed so well. i hope it doesn't disappoint! at the very least, i can watch an old flame of mine (katie holmes) on the silver screen.
i would like to be a celebrity someday. you know, walk anywhere and get recognized. i think that would be cool. no, really. i wouldn't bitch and complain about the paparazzi intruding into my life; i'd just take it in stride as one of the things i have to give up in order to be famous. and besides, my life is pretty public as it is with this blog, and i'm not whining about it, am i?
i think i need some advil or something. after i post this, i'm going to check the medicine cabinet at the office and see if they have any.
i'm so glad the weekend's finally here. this has been a really really slow week, and it was tough to get through it. i don't have that many plans aside from tonight; tomorrow night i have jay's birthday party to go to. sigh. i miss the nba already.
it's getting harder and harder to buy presents for my friends. by now, all the good ideas have been taken, and it's almost impossible to find a really cool, thoughtful gift. hrmph. that's the main reason why i took christmas off this past winter and decided not to get anybody gifts. pretty crummy of me, huh?
ok. it's time to send this one off. take care, and have a great weekend folks!
for some reason, even though i just have a bowl of cereal for dinner, i'm not dropping any weight. and while i sip on my SIXTH vitasoy, i am starting to wonder whether this soy drink (130 calories per serving) is going to be my nemesis. i mean, that's a lot of calories! hm.
days are going by so slowly, i feel like exploding. i mean, i want the weekend to come really badly, and even though it's just over 24 hours away, i am very impatient, and it makes me grouchy. oh well.
i had some good dae ji bul kogi today for lunch at this korean restaurant near bowers/el camino. and the good news was, it's like $5.99! that's hella cheap for korean food. yum. spicy pork!
there are quite a few new faces here in the office. it's summer time, which means summer interns and new college grad hires. yep, it's an infusion of young blood into the company.
i remember when i was a new college grad, working at my first job. i was really into it, even though i hadn't learned how to compartmentalize my work with my out-of-office life. i would think about stuff so much that work would enter my dreams, my subconsciousness. i got a lot of headaches at the end of the day. but anyways, i just worked like a madman, never knowing when or how to stop.
i'm seeing _batman begins_ tomorrow night with the bowling gang. i'm sort of psyched, but i think my expectations are way too high after hearing all of the glowing reviews. hm. i hate it with lofty standards aren't met. but anyways, i'm looking forward to hanging out with the peeps tomorrow night; i haven't seen them in a while.
ick. i'm burping up this daikon soup i had at the korean bbq place. it doesn't taste that good coming up.
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game 7 tonight. !! if i weren't saddled down with my vitasoy calories, i'd order a pizza and eat the whole thing while watching the game. i used to do that every month during the WWF pay-per-views. i'd order a pizza and finish it while watching the wrestling acrobatics on an illegal cable descrambler. those were the days. i can't believe that i used to be so into the WWF, though. nowadays it seems kind of stupid.
ok. i'm going home in an hour. go spurs!
today's one of those days where i don't feel like writing. sigh. it's wednesday, which should be a happy thing, but then again, i've two more full days of work. *blech*
i think i realized my life is pathetic while IM'ing a friend. i realized that his life was far more interesting than mine, and there is nothing special about this existence that's called dardy's life. man. what can i do to get out of this rut?
i bought a box of honeycombs yesterday. it was a big, big, box! while munching on them for dinner, i remembered how i really like this cereal. it's sweet but not too sweet, and the texture/shape of the individual nuggets was very pleasing. i was debating between honeycombs and captain crunch, btw.
so there will be a game 7 after all. and watching the spurs play lacklusterly, i think that detroit has a good chance of being the first team to win games 6 and 7 on the road. they just wanted it more, it seemed. and the good news about that is that i have one more night of interesting television to watch. hooray for that.
i'm hungry. which is weird because i had a big lunch. i went with will to return a dvd at the bluckbuster in san jose japantown, and i introduced him to gombei. i got a big plate of food, and i finished most of it, save a few pieces of chicken teriyaki. gombei rules. but i am looking forward to my big bowl of honeycombs.
i am slightly disturbed that girls i used to fancy no longer look good to me after i've gotten over them. what this means to me is that i cannot be objective about a girl's looks. objectivity states that a girl is either attractive or unattractive by empirical measurements; it is an inherent property that a girl possesses. and if i can't make that judgment, then i can't ever be sure of how good a girl will look to me in the future. and that bugs me. a great deal so.
i miss the smell of cloves. maybe i'll buy a pack of these next time i cross paths with a tobacco shop.
what are some good weekday night activities? my workweek is embarrassingly devoid of any activity. i should get out more than just the weekends. but what to do?
ok, that's enough for today. i'm going home soon.
so yesterday, i was pouring my usual bowl of cereal for dinner (i've been eating life lately, but i will switch cereals after i finish the box), and right before i poured the milk, a SPIDER crawled out from under the cereal heap!
ICK.
so i poured the cereal out of my bowl and refilled. but is this any better? i mean, the spider must have gotten into the box, and roamed around, secreting whatever it is that spiders secrete all over everything. but i still ate that bowl. and now i'm worried. what if the spider laid eggs, and they hatch in my body, and i get baby spiders roaming around my stomach and bloodstrem and under my skin? DOUBLE ICK.
i'm scared. i think i'll toss the cereal tonight and buy a new box of something else while i'm at safeway.
anyways, i think the spurs are going to win the NBA championship tonight. and that means that the summer of no interesting television will begin tomorrow. sigh.
speaking of the season, happy 1st day of summer everyone! today is the longest day of the year. it makes me a little depressed, because it's all downhill from here. i've been relishing the fact that days are long and the sun goes down later and later, but now that the mechanism has been reversed, i'm sort of sad. downhill.
i really haven't taken advantage of these late-dusk days. it's not like i'm out frolicking. i haven't frolicked in like forever. especially now that i'm in bed by 8pm every night.
i like the way sneezes feel. i like the buildup of tension and monstrous release. yes, i equate sneezes to a form of nasal orgasm. it's a shame that i don't sneeze that often.
so congratulations for my friends jeremy and kate for the birth of they baby girl! i got a call from him a few minutes ago; i appreciate the fact that he's calling everyone personally.
i am so glad that i'm not going to give birth to anybody (except maybe those spiders, *knock on wood*). it looks PAINFUL. i mean, my ass hurts during big dumps, and none of those logs even begin to compare in girth to a baby head. man!
i'm looking forward to buying new cereal today. what are your favorite kinds of cereal? maybe i should get honeycombs or something, you know, a sweet brand. my last three boxes of cereal have been quaker wheat squares, crispix, and life, all in all, pretty healthy stuff.
ok. i'm off.
hey there people. well, today was very boring. and, more importantly, it's vitasoy-less. sigh. my company needs to do a better job about stocking it. people need their vitasoy!
so i'm down from 8mg of haldol to 4mg a day. i don't see any real difference just yet. there *might* be a slight increase in tics, but it's not that obvious just yet.
the lunch venue was my choice today. we went to this thai buffet at a restaurant called aroy-dee, near san tomas and saratoga. it's decent food, but what i really like there is their thai desserts. fried banana, coconut jell-o, and this tapioca/black bean/coconut juice soupy thing. good shit. and sometimes, they even have jun pad poo, my favorite thai dish.
so i was disappointed to find out lynn chen (the actress who played vivian in _saving face_) is already married. damn, that means there's no chance for me to get in on the action. :) ha! honestly, though, i think she's hella attractive. she's got sort of a hapa-ish look, and we all know that most hapas are damn fine looking. *slurp*
once again, around 5am, the birds started chirping outside, waking me up. shit, the sun isn't even out at that time, what the fuck do the birds need to chirp for? sigh.
back in texas, birds use to nest in our chimney, and occasionally they would get unruly and scream down the chimney into our fireplace. so what did my dad and i do? we shot them down with a bb gun, of course. haha. once time, we shot down this seagull in the wing, and it crash landed in our back yard. so we bought some birdseed and nursed it back to health, and it flew away. for a while, it would come back looking for food, but eventually it stopped visiting.
for christmas, alan and ting got me this page-a-day zen calendar. i finally brought it to work with me, and i've been reading the quotes every day. today, it is a zen saying: "after the ecstasy, the laundry." hm. ok, i have to admit that i have no fucking clue what that means. zen is just a mystery to me, i guess.
weekdays are getting to be very boring for me. i go to work, i putz around, i come back, and i wind up going to bed at 8pm. how lame is that? i mean, if there were good tv on, i'd watch, but the season is over, and nothing on tv is worth watching aside from the NBA playoffs, which are about to be over. sigh. what to do? i can't imagine what i used to do that made me go to sleep at 2am.
anyways, that's all there is to talk about today. see you people tomorrow!
so friday night, i met up with dishi and barden at sushi tomi. it seems that wheenver i hang out with taiko alum, we eat japanese food. i am not complaining (since i love japanese food), but it is just an interesting trend.
afterwards, we hit shoreline and saw _saving face_, this chinese-american movie that lots of people seem to be talking about. i thought lynn chen (the girl who plays vivian) was really hot, especially since i got to see her boobs in this hot lesbian scene with her and the main character. overall, i thought it was a decent movie, i'd give it a B.
saturday, i met up with alan and ting at rivermark for a quick lunch. they had a lot of new house stuff to do, so we kept lunch brief. while they got sandwiches, i went over to baja fresh to try out their chicken flautas. i'm a sucker for new dishes, and an even bigger sucker for deep-fried food. so i ordered TWO plates of flautas, which got kind of boring after awhile.
i spent the rest of the day napping to the giants/tigers baseball game, and went to bed at 8. yeah, i know, sort of a waste.
i got up on sunday at noon (that's SIXTEEN hours in bed) and got ready for adam and rae's wedding. i met up with yuji at the community center where the wedding was held, and we walked a block to the J&J hawaiian restaurant. the food was cheap and good, and i'd like to go back there again.
so. the wedding. the attention to detail, i have to say, was very impressive. there was an exhibit in the community center of the bride and groom's family, and there were various pictures of the couple scattered about the place. it made me envious of the fact that adam takes his camera everywhere he goes... and the history he's built up with rae is perfectly documented. great job.
and wedding ceremony itself was good, and the bride was beautiful as one would expect. the movie-themed music was a great touch, and the rae walked down the aisle to the love theme from _attack of the clones_. bravo!
while looking for our table for dinner (we were at table alien, and the other tables were all movie characters), we found an amazing surprise: each of us (well, most of us) got a mini picture frame with a picture of us! given that there were about 275 people attending, that was no small feat! once again, adam's dedication to annotating his vast photo collection paid off, and i was very surprised to see that he used a picture of me that was taken four years ago. very nice touch indeed.
the food was so-so, and the dinner conversation was also so-so. i dunno. i don't have much to say these days, even though i was sandwiched between two friends, yuji and mike. poor mike, though. he was the "official" weedding photographer of the day, and he definitely worked for it. by the way, there was an armada of canon digital SLR's at the wedding. there should be no excuse for not getting any good shot of the day.
all in all, it was a good wedding. oh! and the wedding cake was a chocolate cake jabba the hut on top of a strawberry cake base. very cool indeed.
so, great job to adam and rae for putting up a grand celebration of their marriage. i certainly enjoyed myself.
our table disbanded a little early, and i got to go home and watch the last 10 minutes of the AMAZING spurs/pistons game. robert horry was a BEAST. big shot bob!
so that was my weekend. c'est tout.
so! how is everybody doing? glad it's friday? me too. :)
here is a search phrase that made me laugh today:
"mom & dad get enemas while having sex"
wow. sometimes these phrases make me think. they make me think about how whacko someone has to be to search for this. MAN! enemas during sex? that's just too much stimulation, methinks. i mean, you've got this big tube up your ass (i've seen how they do enemas by watching _jackass_), and your genitals are in disneyland too. that's way too many nerve endings getting exercised.
i keep on burping up the mongolian bbq i had for lunch. and you know what? the burps taste *good*. i put in a lot of garlic and chili sauce in my culinary creation, and it keeps coming back up. *yum*
i think su's mongolian bbq is great if you like things spicy. without the additions, though, it can imagine that it would be a little bland. my buddy w from work had been hearing about it all this time, and he finally went for the first time today. it seems he likes other places better, but i just think he didn't put enough spice in his bowl.
so i've got a few plans this weekend, even though my saturday is wide open. i'm seeing _saving face_ tonight with barden and dishi, and sunday is adam's wedding. you should check out his wedding site and the cool splash page mock movie posters! they're really well done, and just keep hitting "refresh" to see all six of them. very creative! i envy people with artistic vision.
i miss hr girl. i haven't seen her in about a year, so it's about time i drove up to the city to see her. maybe next weekend. she's hot! too bad she's taken.
ok, so the chicken bake debate is getting outta hand. you've got people that think they're absolute shit (in the negative way), and there are people that think they're THE absolute shit. i am now very very curious to try them out. maybe next week.
i think my blood circulation is bad. my fingertips are really cold. what can i do to increase circulation? do jumping jacks or something?
ok, i've run out of things to say. have a great weekend, folks! and think about who you can set me up with! :)
i have a headache today. i used to carry advil with me wherever i went, but i lost that cute little pill container. sigh.
i am, however, getting a massage at 5:30. i am highly looking forward to it.
i was in the bathroom taking a leak, and i could hear sounds coming from the stall next to the urinal. apparently, the guy was straining really hard trying to get his "matter" out. i felt bad for him. he probably needs to eat more fiber.
anyways, it's thursday. that means tomorrow is friday (yippee!), and there's a basketball game to watch tonight. these days, since the tv season is over, there's not much to watch on the tube. so i am just happy when there's something reasonably interesting to watch. go spurs! (i don't actually like the spurs, but i really don't care for detroit except for richard hamilton.)
so there seems to be a love/hate thing with the chicken bake at costco. so i will just have to try it out and see if i like it. it doesn't look bad, so to all you people who hate them, why is it? does it taste like ass?
basketball was downright grueling today. we lost all four games we played, and i just got so tired afterwards. granted, it's only my second basketball outing in perhaps a month, so my body may not be in shape just yet. either way, it was good exercise, and i'm glad i did it. if only i could make it a regular thing.
re: biking the golden gate. yeah, it was a tiring bike ride. my legs just aren't physically fit, and i got so tired and mad that i threw my bike on the ground. later, during a slight uphill climb on the road, this dude with NO LEGS was laughing at me. that's right, a paraplegic was laughing at *me*. and to wound my ego even further, i was passed by an old man who was jogging. *RAAR*
and that, my friends, is why i shun all bikes. i used to love biking around stanford campus, zipping around on my hybrid diamond back. but now, it's an activity that i absolutely loathe. *pukes*
i'm not as chipper today as i was yesterday. it's weird how my mood can fluctuate. i mean, it's all about neurotransmitters, right? like, if i took antidepressants, then i'd be medicated but happy. so what is our true happiness if we can change it by taking a pill? *ponder*
anyways, i have half an hour left at the office today before i get my massage. *drools* have a nice day people!
we walked from our company to costco today to have lunch. (well, the long story is that we were supposed to meet up with some old colleagues at sweet tomatoes, but they never showed up.) i had a slice of pepperoni pizza and a hot dog (though i ordered a polish sausage instead), and boy, was i full. i'm even burping up a combo of hot dog/pepperoni right now. they taste weird together. :)
anyways, it was a cheap lunch. costco rocks. next time, i'll have to try their chicken bakes. i've always been tempted, but i need to know if it's good before i actually order one.
out of the blue, cwg IM'ed me. it was a pleasant surprise. i can't say that i'm lusting after her any more, but still, it was a nice reminder of somebody who i used to have a crush on. (haha, obsession is more like it, huh?)
ah, all the girls who i've liked. what memories. it's sort of neat to see all of them at once in my yahoo mail. i have separate folders for every girl who i've liked (well, most of them anyway), and going down the list of names brings me back to when i liked them.
how do they induce a baby birth? do they give them the equivalent of a laxative for the vagina? i have a friend who was due three days ago, but it's not coming out yet. they will try to induce if the baby's not out by next monday. so was just wondering what "induce" meant.
for some inexplicable reason, i am kind of happy today. not sure why. but i like it.
oh, speaking of happy and medication and what not, my psych and i decided to try tapering off the haldol to zero and seeing what happens. i mean, the haldol doesn't seem to be affecting me (i.e. reducing my tic frequency), so why be on drugs if you don't need them? especially when haldol can have some pretty nasty side effects (like tardive dyskinesia *shiver*).
so yeah, i'm going to do this "haldol free" experiment in the next few weeks. i hope i don't go nuts and start ticcing more than i do now. shit, if that happens, i might break my neck! :/
so no takers on people who can set me up with a cool chica? *RAAR* i *said* please, didn't i? :) I'LL BE YOUR FRIEND!
*grumble*
man, i really stunk it up during basketball today. it was the first time i had played in many weeks, and i just couldn't my shots to drop. they all hit rim, but they just weren't going down. i think i finished the session 1 for 7 or so, that one basket being a floater that i shot-putted from the baseline about 4 feet away. *sigh*
i had an indian-style beef curry today. except that i've never seen beef curry before until today. it's almost always chicken or lamb, but never beef. why is that? is the cow considered sacred in india? but anyways, the cooks in our company cafeteria are korean, so i doubt that they care at all about whether cows are off limits as far as providing meat for meals.
so i'm thinking, i should ask you readers out there whether you can set me up with a single girl you know. :) you people *must* know of someone eligible, right? bring them on! please? pretty please? hehe.
so tonight is game 3 of the nba finals. i am hoping detroit wakes up and figures out how to score against that vaunted san antonio defense. overall, i am rooting for san antonio, but i don't want them to sweep detroit because i want to see more basketball. i mean, after the finals are over, there's no more sports to watch for me. (i still don't like baseball except during the world series.)
so the bowling gang is going to bike from pier 39, across the golden gate bridge, and into sausalito. that brings back memories for me, and they're not-so-good memories. i did that trip a few years ago, except that we on to tiburon after hitting sausalito. my legs were just tired, and i got so upset that at one point, i picked up my bike and threw it on the ground in anger. and ever since then, i've sworn off biking.
i really need to schedule a physical. it's been around 4-5 years since i've gotten one. i think my body is in bad shape, mostly from smoking and eating like shit. and i'm worried about my cholesterol. ok, gotta remind myself to call pamf (palo alto medical foundation) and schedule an appointment. i'm just sort of afraid because i know they're going to stick needles in me to draw blood (those are some THICK-ASS needles!) and stick a finger in my ass. ick.
and lastly, in regards to the 7 or so comments i got from yesterday's post, i really appreciate the concern some of you guys have. i really do. and i think i do need to be smarter as to what kind of material i post up here. i must admit that sex, porn, and scatology are fun topics, but i need to be more conscientious about scaring people off.
ok. that is all for today. toodles!
so like i said, i matched with one girl at speed dating. she was reasonably attractive, and we seemed to get alone. so i wrote her an e-mail today, and i gave her some basic facts about myself: my age, ethnicity, job description, etc.
and she wrote me back saying that i was too young for her.
!!
well, that's a bummer, huh? you meet someone that you like, and age gets in the way. sigh. so instead of being excited at having a prospect, i have nothing again. *RAAR*
that's just life, i guess.
nothing much going on today. there was an architectural bug in one of my blocks at work, but hopefully it won't be a showstopper when the chip comes back. :( i hate having bugs.
anyways, i have a question for you guys. is it customary for somebody to tell his ex's that he's engaged? i never thought so, but apparently, it seems like one of my friends was a little hurt by finding out through another channel.
sigh. monday. i'm a little tired and cranky today. i think it's the result of getting negged by speed dating girl, but man, i am just not in a good mood right now. funny how life makes you go up and down like that. but i just feel like going home and curling up in bed.
it's hot out today. luckily, it's supposed to cool down in the next few days. heat is my PMS, i've said over and over again, and i hate those nights when it's like 80 degrees in my room, and i just toss and turn for a few hours before it finally cools down enough for me to fall asleep.
i didn't take a dump the entire weekend. i guess regularity has escaped me again. i'm going to try to induce a dump after i post this entry.
what causes chest pains? last night, i had some. it was very uncomfortable, and i was hoping that it was just heartburn from the taco bell i ate. i hope it's not anything more serious than that. i really need to get a physical, but i'm just afraid that the doctor's going to stick his fingers up my ass.
ok, this is less than inspired writing. gonna putz around and then go home and sulk.
so i rather enjoyed this weekend, despite my tics acting up again. :/
friday night was uneventful; i tried calling alan for dinner, but it turns out he was already on a plane headed for vegas. so i had my bowl of cereal for dinner and went to sleep early.
saturday, dishi, barden and i headed up to the city to meet up with gina. taiko alum reunion! we had lunch at crepevine in the sunset, and then went to the metreon to watch _mr. and mrs. smith_. it was an enjoyable movie, but it didn't blow me away or anything. so this is the movie where brad and angelina hooked up, huh? i can't say that the chemistry was great or anything.
i went home around 6 and promptly ordered a medium pizza from domino's: half sausage and half jalepeno. and guess what? i ate the WHOLE THING (minus the crust). i was impressed with myself, because my stomach has shrunk among all this weight loss stuff. yet it was still able to stuff the whole thing down my throat.
sunday, i met up with a group of friends at joy luck place in cupertino village for some dim sum. it was great seeing them again (carolyn and dave, jack and amy and baby anthony, and jose), and afterwards carolyn treated us to pearl milk tea at qcup. i got the thai tea, and it was pretty good, despite it scary nuclear orange color, which matched my t-shirt.
i went home and took a nap, and then watched the spurs/pistons game on ABC. i met up with alan (poor alan, who was so tired-looking) at taco bell for a quick dinner and went home.
so all in all, a pretty eventful weekend. i was happy. :)
so i just typed this entry up, and accidentally clicked on a link. *RAAR*
anyways. yeah, i went speed dating last night up in the city. it was sort of a fiasco for me. why? because i drank too much. i drank because i needed to combat my tics with alcohol. so i had four grey goose & tonics. i didn't get a buzz or anything, but just got all space-y.
and the thing about all that alcohol was that it totally dehydrated me, so i couldn't talk. i mean, i couldn't enunciate clearly because my dry lips were sticking to my teeth! ugh. :/
and being all spaced out by the alcohol, i made terrible conversations with a few girls. like, i asked one girl the same question twice (embarrassing!) and just ran into a wall with another girl. luckily, they weren't girls i was interested in in the first place, so i just waived it on by.
i did, however, match with one girl. she was the last girl i talked to, so maybe i was fresh on her mind? maybe. we'll see how it goes with her.
the best part of the night was driving up and down with rainbow. i have never really "talked" to her, despite knowing her for more than a decade. i think both of us are looking for knock-you-off-your-feet passion, and we're not able to find it. and then, we're left to wonder if that's just impossible to obtain now, and we should settle down with a relationship that's safe and secure.
oh, and one more thing about speed dating. i've been to three of these now, and i met a girl who attended all three as well! it was sort of awkward, because both of us knew that it didn't work out the other two times, so what else is there to say?
anyways, so i think this will be the last speed dating i attend. it's a novel concept, and i do think that this is a valid way to meet people, but it's just too much chatter and smalltalk for my tastes. but now, i must find a new way to meet people.
anyways, it's friday! woo-hoo! tomorrow a group of us taiko alum are headed up to the city to meet up with alum gina. and sunday, i have dim sum with dave & carolyn and other assorted people. fun fun!
so have a good weekend folks! i'm off!
hey folks. i'm gonna make this post short because i feel like crap right now. i don't know what it is, but my head is buzzing, and i think i have a slight headache. i HATE headaches! they just fuck me up.
yes, today is speed dating day. i'm decked out in a pair of khaki's, my brown kenneth cole shoes, and a navy blue club monaco pinstripe buttondown. i think i wore this same ensemble during my first speed dating event.
the good news is that vitasoy is restocked! yup, i've been drinking this stuff non-stop today. it's sooooo good.
i'm bummed because i'm going to miss the nba finals game 1 tonight. but then again, it's game 1, and it's probably the least important of all the games, so i'm ok with it. i just hope i get back home in time for the last sportscenter, so i can fall asleep easily.
and before i actually go speed dating, i need some alcohol in my system. preferably a good buzz. my tics aren't cooperating with me, so i'm gonna need some drunks to loosen me up. hopefully i'll get there early enough to down a few whiskeys or vodka tonics.
i just went to an acquaintance's blog, and he had a picture of this guy with his brain exposed and rotting away. apparently, his head got infected, and bred maggots, and they at away his hair, his skull, and parts of his brain. GROSS. i feel sick just thinking about it. must think happy thoughts, and picture happy images...
that's about it for me today. i'm sorry i can't write much, but i'm just not in the mood. i'll give you guys a full update tomorrow, i promise! :)
shit. i was drinking my dr pepper, and i ticced, and the liquid went down the wrong pipe. *cough* *cough*
lately, i've been itchy. i've been scratching my arms like there's no tomorrow, and my uneven bitten fingernails have caused some scratches. hm. i wonder what's wrong with my skin; i've got these little red dots on my arms.
anyways, there really isn't much going on today. for lunch, five of us went to sushi tei, this old hangout we used to go to a lot back in the old teralogic days. the food (lunch) is still cheap, and it's not that bad, except for the skin they left on the chicken teriyaki. business was very slow, though, and i can't recommend them for dinners, though, because the prices skyrocket at night.
i keep burping up the gyoza i had for lunch. it's not so good. i do, however, enjoy burping up chinese pork/leek dumplings. those are pungent! one time, we went to queen house, and that's what i had for dinner. afterwards, i kept on burping it up, and ting could smell them a couple feet away. sorry! :)
lately, my tics have made me taken an extra smoke after my "final" smoke of the day. see, my routine at night is that i check e-mail, i go for a final smoke, check the locks, and then go up to bed for my shower. well, for the past two days, i haven't felt comfortable in bed after everything is done, and i've been needing an extra cigarette to calm down. hm.
so the tv season is over. i can tell because there's nothing interesting on the television these days. last night, i finally sat down and watched the _alias_ season finale, and man, what a cheap ass cliffhanger ending! so vaughn is not vaughn, and they get hit by a truck. that's IT? arrgh. i don't like it.
uh oh. my computer's freaking out. once in a while, the fan starts spinning faster and louder, until the case is about to explode. then it calms down. does anybody know what the problem is?
i don't know why this is, but at night, when i'm sleeping, my neck tenses up to the point where my neck straining tic really hurts. i mean, it really HURTS to the point where i can't fall back asleep again. sigh. i'm too young to be in chronic pain.
i'm back on the cereal diet. i'm not fat or anything, but i'm 165 now, up from 160. and so far, the diet hasn't been working. i've been on it for over a week now. hm. maybe it's the fact that i always follow my bowl of cereal with an ice cream sandwich. :)
ok, take care people! and why don't some of you delurk? please? :)
hey there folks. man, this week is going by slowly. i guess i was spoiled by having two 4-day workweeks in a row.
last night, i dreamt that i was fingering my friend's vadge. needless to say, i woke up with a huge boner. i didn't do anything about it, though; morning masturbation/sex was just never my thing. i think my body's too groggy to respond to any amorous motion.
i think i'm going to leave early today and get a haircut. yup, it's that time of the month again.
oh, and birds started chirping loudly at 4:56am. shit. they were disturbing my sleep! why do birds chip anyway? is it a mating call? are they talking to each other? hrmph.
so if you go to google and do an image search of "perfect ass" (no quotes), site's image will show up first. yes! i conquered the mountain! *flex*
*yawn* i'm tired. and alarmed. last night, despite the great indoor temperature conducive to sleeping, i just couldn't fall asleep. i kept on ticcing, and that is very disturbing. usually lying down is the only conscious time i have (aside from massages) where i'm not ticcing. but now, it doesn't work anymore. *RAAR*
just to let you know, i've been taking dumps on a semi-regular basis now. and they're pretty big dumps, too, which i don't get because i've been eating less for a few weeks now. hm.
i love apple fritters. the only problem, though, is that sometimes they're so loaded with sugar that i get headaches. pretty bad, huh? but man, deep-fried frosted dough with small chunks of soft apples... *smacks his lips*
you know what's weird? sometimes i take a nap, and when i wake up, my tongue's all dry and scale-y. why is that? it doesn't happen every time, so i can't figure out what i'm doing that dries out my tongue.
shit. i just scraped off piece of my thumb off a rivet in my jeans. *ouch* and now it's bleeding. ick.
i'm a pretty big wimp when it comes to physical pain. ironically, i have tourette's, which causes a lot of pain. no wonder i find it hard to copy with my disorder. *shrug*
ok, i'm done for the day. gonna jet soon and get my haircut.
damn. i haven't had vitasoy for a few weeks now. i'm going through withdrawal! the company's stock is empty, and what's worse, costco (which supplies my company) is also out. grrr. i need my soy goodness NOW!
anyways, not much going on this blasted monday. i hate mondays, and i was looking forward to skipping it because of the phone technician. i called yesterday to set up an appointment, and they couldn't give me a 4-hour window. instead, my window was 8am to 7pm. what the fuck? they just expect me to wait at home forever?
anyways, i was pissed for a while, but then i just accepted it and took it as an opportunity not to go into the office. but instead, the guy came at 11am, diagnosed the problem (a short in the phone cord connecting to my iMac's modem), and left within 15 minutes. the charge? $55. !!
so did i tell you i signed up for speed dating? what tipped me over the edge was seeing my friend rainbow featured as one of the participants. so that way, there will be at least one friendly face there to keep me company. the bummer, though, is that it's on a thursday, and it's all the way up in the city. sigh. it might just be a night without sportscenter.
i'm sort of worried about speed dating, though, because of my tics. they're acting up again, and they (especially the bodyflex) can be pretty alarming to someone who doesn't know that i have tourette's. sigh. the last time i went speed dating, i hit the bar and downed two stiff vodka and tonics, which gave me a nice empty-stomach buzz. the problem with that, though, is that i started having vodka goggles. !!
game 7 is tonight. i'm gonna watch it. i will be rooting for the heat, although if dwyane wade is too hurt to play (strained rib muscle), the heat will stand no chance of beating the pistons.
the weather of late has been perfect. sunny but not too hot during the day, and nice and brisk at night. i love it. i'm not looking forward to the blazing days of summer, when the temperature at my place goes above 80 and makes my sleep uncomfortable. *RAAR*
i have been abnormally horny a few mornings during the past week or so. i've woken up a couple of times with some major throbbing wood. hm. i wonder what's going on.
ok, i've run out of things to say. goodbye!
so the only highlights of the weekend for me were the three dinners i had. hrmph. i need to find activity partners for the daytime. sigh.
anyway, friday night, jimmy and i met up at hanamaru for some sushi boat goodness. for the first time, the japanese restaurant was totally packed! there was even a line out the door. !!
saturday, i woke up at 1pm and just putzed around. i had my usual jamba juice (banana berry with vita boost) and a big mac for lunch. i watched tv all day, including miami's sorry ass performance against detroit in the eastern conference finals.
for dinner, i had indian food at sneha with jay and margaret. it was good to see them. i was ticcing pretty badly, and this dude at the table behind me approached me to warn me of hurting my neck. he was pretty worried, and once i told him i had tourette's, he immediately stopped talking and apologized. *shrug* i was touched that he was concerned about me, but i think he didn't know what to say once i told him about my TS.
sunday was yet another boring day. i went out the bought some groceries (ice cream sandwiches, milk, cereal, gatorade, and an apple fritter) at safeway, and got some lunch. i fell asleep (as i normally do on weekends) on my futon while watching a baseball game.
for dinner, i met up with paul and leeya at korea house for some good bbq'ed meats. i got the dae-ji bul kogi, which was spicy pork. yum. they forced us to get three dishes (or else they were going to charge for rice and the small plates), so paul ordered this pancake thing that i found to be tasteless.
and that was it. pretty boring, huh? thank goodness for meals to bring people together. :)
sorry i didn't post yesterday; i was in the office for a short period of time, and didn't get a nice half-hour window to write. we went out to su's mongolian bbq, got back late, and then headed off to a company-sponsored movie (episode III) outing at 2:45. we got out past 5pm, and i just went home.
it seems my super bodyflex tic is getting to be a big bother. it seems to defy all the rules of my tics. for example, i don't usually tic when i'm lying down, but i get the bodyflex regardless of me lying down. *RAAR* it's a terrible nuisance, and a very uncomfortable tic. *sigh*
i really need to see a doctor to get my earwax removed. i think it's affecting my hearing. i love how refreshing it is to have sharp ears after my ear gets cleaned out.
so it's summertime, and we've got some new faces at the office (mostly new college grads or summer interns). i've been seeing this one young guy who is new to the company, and i've spotted him eating lunch alone a couple times. it makes me sad to see people having a meal all by themselves, so i reached out to him today and introduced myself. :) i guess i have this paternal instinct for taking care of lonely people.
there's this other guy that's new, too, and i asked him if he wanted to live with me, as i am sort of looking for a roommate. he considered it for a while, but in the end, he decided to get a one-bedroom for himself. the main concern: the fact that i don't have AC at my place. i didn't lie to him, and i told him that i does get a little hot upstairs in the bedroom during the summer. oh well. onwards.
i'm still recruiting people to go speed dating with. i don't like going by myself. and one thing that worries me is that (like last time) i'll bump into someone i met at previous speed dating rounds. that's sooooo awkward! hehe. it happened to me twice the last time, and both times, we just pretended like we didn't know each other. *embarrassed*
even though i've been having cereal for dinner, i haven't been losing any weight. i'm hovering right at 165, which is actually a good weight for me. but i'm worried that if i go back to eating two full meals, i'll start ballooning up. !!
so, _star wars_ wasn't as good the second time around, that's my opinion. but, i don't think i was paying very much attention the first time, because there were scenes that i completely forgot about. i think the episode could have been better if they had explained more thoroughly how anakin turned toward the dark side; his turn in the movie was really sudden and unbelievable.
*cheer* it's friday! due to having monday off, it feels like a thursday, but i am sooo happy to know that my weekend is upon me. take care, folks! i'll see you on monday.
wow, today was really boring. my boss is out of town for a few weeks, and all i have to do is some documentation. i was so bored that i went through my friendster gallery of 962 profiles. didn't find anyone intriguing, so that was a fucking waste of time.
i'm wearing my stone roses t-shirt today. i forget who bought it for me, but i like it. they were a great band; too bad they broke up.
the thought of the day is: i'm sad for all the people who died trying to see which mushrooms were edible or not. i mean, some mushrooms are downright lethal, right? and in the beginning of time, we didn't know which ones were good and which ones were bad. and that means lives lost by simply eating mushrooms. sigh.
another thought which depresses me is that mankind will definitely die out. why? because the sun, in a million years or something, will grow and grow into a red/yellow giant star, and it will just fry the earth into a burnt crisp. so that means no matter how hard we try to conserve energy consumption and all those environmental issues, it will be for naught because we're all gonna die. :(
i don't what it is with these days. but i feel sort of lonely more often than i used to. maybe i should solicit all you bay area readers out there to hook me up with girls? hm? if you know a great girl who you think would be a good match, let me know! please? i'll be your friend forever! :)
there's a speed dating event next thursday at 7pm in the city. it sucks that it's so far away and on a worknight, but i am tempted to go. we'll see if i get in the impulsive mood and sign up.
it sucks that my three favorite girls are all out on the east coast. and what's worse, they don't seem to be responding to my e-mails.
by the way, i haven't talked about cwg in a long time. basically what happened was that every week i'd IM her about hanging out, but she always had an excuse to bail. so in the end, i just took the hint and dropped her. i mean, i'll only be persistent for a while, and after that, fuggedaboudit. *shrug*
i've got two more wedding events this summer. i hope to meet some hot girls there, but somehow, i'm getting the feeling that it's just not going to happen. *RAAR*
ok, time to go home! yup, dinner is a bowl of quaker oat squares, nonfat milk, and an ice cream sandwich. yup, i'm trying to lose weight. and yes, i know that the ice cream sandwich is probably a bad idea, but they're just so gooooood.
bye!