i had the hardest trouble sleeping last night. first of all, when i got into bed around 8:30, it was still hot; my bedroom is on the second floor, so the temperature is a little higher there than downstairs. and then, the sounds of sportscenter just didn't lull me to sleep. instead, i just lay there with my eyes closed, ticcing sporadically, and i just stayed awake, all the way until midnight.
i wonder what's causing my insomnia. i know a part of it is the fact that i'm going to bed way too early, but still, i'm usually able to fall asleep anywhere, anytime. it's part of my narcoleptic nature. :)
so yesterday, i got curious and surfed adult friend finder. in a nutshell, this is a site where you post personals ads for sex. pretty neat, huh? i mean, you've basically got a site where all these horny people just want to fuck.
i've wondered if i have what it takes to have sex indiscriminately. probably not. first, i'm way picky, and if i'm not attracted to the person, i probably wouldn't be able to get it up during sex. and second, more importantly, even if i could find someone satisfactory, i'd just end up getting attached and wanting a relationship.
i guess i'm not the type of person who wants to "sow his oats," huh? well, it's not a matter of wanting, but it's the fact that i'm not able to do it. which is weird, because i know there's a multitude of people out there who have totally active sex lives without being in relationships. i guess i'm not that type of person, and it sort of bugs me, because well, i'm not getting any!
anyways, it was sort of fascinating perusing through the profiles of all these horny women. it was like stepping into a different world, a world where people look for sex first and relationships second, if at all. it was akin to being in vegas, that strange alternate reality where women just approach you wanting to take their clothes off for you.
man. a world of sex out there for the taking, and i'm just sitting back letting it pass me by. (although, the chance for disease is one non-negligible factor in my doing so.)
by the way, i skipped basketball today. instead, i went to su's mongolian bbq, as i was craving the stuff. hm. i really need to start playing again, because it's my only form of exercise.
one more day left in the workweek! wheee...