i had dinner with alan last night. i always feel bad these days about hanging out with friends because i'm not myself. my tics make me very anxious and quiet, and my friends are only getting half of me, if that. sigh.
i saw my psych today. i got three prescriptions. two of them were the usual (haldol and benztropine), although the haldol has now been upped from 4mg to 6mg a day. he also prescribed me a muscle relaxant to combat my aching neck. i hope this shit works and doesn't just put me to sleep.
i saw cwg today. she looked good in her grey/pink argyle sweater. i LOVE argyle! i used to collect argyle socks from the gap and banana republic, and now i have over half a dozen pairs. but anyways, we did the usual eye contact + smile + wave thing, and that made my day because i haven't seen her in a while.
i think girls look good in pink. *bliss* guys, i'm not so sure. it takes a special man to be able to pull off pink, and i haven't seen too many of those around. heh.
like mallory, alan said i need a shakeup. i do. but i just don't have the courage or energy to find something that provides such an inspiration in my life. mallory suggested that i move to china. alan says i should get a hobby. either way, i'm not so inclined to do either.
i did, however do something out of the ordinary today. i purchased something from amazon.com. yup. last year, i think i bought one thing off of their website, and the previous year, i made THIRTY-EIGHT such purchases. so what did i get? the new erasure album and the final season of _sex and the city_. yes, i know that the latter is sort of a lame purchase because i haven't even gotten through seasons 3-5 yet, but they were on sale, so i said why the hell not.
it's warm today! in some places in the bay area, they're projecting a high of 80. imagine that. 80 in winter still! anyways, the wonder weather outside just makes me want to go home and take a nap.
has anybody had this experience? you sleep without the covers on, and the next thing you know, you've got the runs? it happens to me without fail; some nights i'll accidentally kick off the covers in bed, and BAM! i get diarrhea. it sucks.
i wonder if kids are getting exposed to sex more and more because of the internet. i mean, porn sites are everywhere and easily accessible, spam e-mails contain sexual images, and even a google image search can turn up naked people doing all sorts of nasty deeds. man, i feel bad for parents right now if they want to keep their kids away from porn.
anyways, my life is in a rut right now. a tourette's induced rut of hell. man, i have got to get this sorted out. hopefully the haldol works, but i'm not too optimistic about it.