you guys better be proud of me, that's all i can say.
why?
because i talked to her.
!!
yup, you read it correctly. i talked to her. i noticed today that her usual coworkers (who work with her in a cramped conference room) weren't there, so i figured that she would be alone in her room. so after my 2:30 meeting was over, i decided to go downstairs and just fucking do it.
unfortunately, the moment my elevator opened, i noticed her go into the women's restroom. so i went outside and had a smoke.
and then i had another cigarette. you know, to calm my nerves.
when i went back up to her floor, i walked by the conference room and said, "so, where's your usual posse?" and that started the conversation, which lasted a few minutes.
:)
so now, i have a name to associate with the face, and i also extended an invitation for her and her coworkers to sit with me and W at lunch, which is a key event because that gives me another venue for chatting.
so, what's the next step, guys? #1, i presume, is finding out whether she's seeing someone, as a positive on that question makes this all for naught. that would be devastating, ne?
anyways, i'm glad that i finally grew some balls and just did it. although, it took some time because the major factor (that i had to wait for) was getting her alone so i could talk to her without being in front of everybody else.
as far as other things go, my tics are steadily degrading. my massage last night, while it felt good during, didn't alleviate any of the pain i'm feeling in the left side of my neck. and my constant crunching-to-the-left tic is getting to be big OUCHES. i see my psych tomorrow, though i'm not sure what he can do to help me.
tomorrow is going to suck, as far as work productivity goes. i have my psych appointment in the morning, and at 2:30pm i have to drive all the way back to palo alto to see my dermatologist. at least i'll have some medicine for the nasty eczema that's been creeping up on my neck and face. YUCK.
ok, that's it for today. i know a 3-4 minute conversation with the girl isn't much, but i'm still proud of myself for doing it. *huzzah*