hm. i'm supposed to go up to burlingame for mallory's birthday dinner (straits cafe), but i'm not feeling up for it. maybe i'll bail, although i will be sacrificing some friend karma there.
these days, i just look forward to sleep. on a side note, though, i had a dream about k2 last night, which is odd because i never dream about her.
poor parker posey. i like her. (after all, she *is* on my list of nubiles.) i dig her. she's cute. but she got stuck with an impossible role in _blade trinity_ as one of the main bad guys (i.e. a vampire). i wonder why ms. independent film woman agreed to do such a bad role in this mainstrain movie.
so it turns out i had panic attack number 10 yesterday afteroon. but it wasn't too bad because i took my medication early, and that managed to stave off the intolerable restlessness that usually comes with the attacks. instead, i just chewed up my medication (which tasted like shit), went home, and fell asleep. *claps* yay for effective meds!
it seems that my panic attacks are brought about by the slighest rise in my stress level. which doesn't bode well for me, because i foresee a lot of stress in the coming months at work. so we'll see what happens. *crossed fingers*
clockwatching already. like i said, these days, the only thing i look forward to (besides a few tv shows) is sleep. few other things make me happy. and i wonder when i'm going to get out of this rut.
i had the driest (is that how you spell it? it looks weird) chicken sandwich today at the company cafeteria. it was SO dry that i had to grab a drink to wash it down. and if you know me, you'll know that i rarely ever have a drink with my meal, that's how dry it was! *pukes*
my stock options at my company are already underwater. blech.
anyways, i still haven't figured out what i'm doing for the two week vacation i have coming up. i talked earlier about going to taiwan, but i don't think i'm up for doing that; travelling is just too tiring, and like i said, i won't even have my passport with me. i'm thinking about visiting LA to see multiple people (my brother, my cousins, emi and shoji, dave and carolyn, alex), but i don't know if they'll be free or not.
i don't like LA. it's an urban sprawl, complete with bad traffic at any time of the day, nasty smog that makes my throat itch, etc.
i think i'm going to instigate a "no presents" pact with my roommate and other close friends this year. i dunno, i'm just not in the mood to buy people things that they never wanted in the first place. plus, i'm too lazy to figure out what they *really* want in the first place. gosh, i really don't have the christmas spirit in me, huh?
yup. i'm just a scrooge. bah humbug!