first of all, i want to thank each of you who wished me a happy birthday, be it through e-mail, a blog comment, or a phone call. :) thanks! you made me feel good.
work is not going well for me. i'm stuck in a panic phase where i have code modifications to do, but i don't know how to do them. :( yes, it sucks, being sort of lost and stuff, but i hope to tackle the problem soon.
lately, i haven't posted anything gross or sexually related, have i? what happened to the raunchy dardy of old? i think he's disappeared! ha!
yup, no interesting google search phrases, except previously covered subjects as "dad caught me wanking" or "tekoki," stuff like that. and i've already written as much as i can about my sexual escapades, so i guess i've plumb run out of material.
sleep naked is fun, though. clothes are such a drag when you're in bed... it helps me that i have a nice 10+ year old blanket as my primary contact layer, and it just feels sooo *good* to snuggle up against it... ah, i'm dreaming about it right now as i type this.
but sleep itself is not as good as it once was for me. my 6mg of haldol has made me sort of like a vampire, i.e. sensitive to the sun. the moment it gets light, i wake up and can't go back to sleep. so what do i do? do i get up and go to work? never! i just doze and snooze until it's finally a "reasonable" hour to head into the office.
i got my bloodwork done today. the needle they used to draw my blood (FIVE VIALS WORTH!) wasn't nearly as thick as the one they used a few years ago, and it was only a pricking sensation when they plugged it in to my left vein.
and fortunately for me, they handled everything themselves after drawing the blood. otherwise, i would have had to wait for them to centrifuge the blood serum, pack it up, freeze it for two hours, and then drive to the nearest DHL shipping place. nice!
i am sad to say that i didn't meet up with anyone else while i was in dallas. i had a few high school friends and one bay area friend that i was supposed to contact, but i never got around to it. i guess i felt guilty for not spending more time with my family during my short stay, and secondly, i didn't have a car to use so i would have had to have them pick me up.
as i stated earlier, though, i was at least glad to hang out with A for a bit. it was a bit surreal, though, hanging out with a bay area acquaintance in dallas.
oh, and i got to eat some food that i had missed. stuff like fried okra, real tex-mex (at pappasito's). it was really good, not to mention a home-cooked meal by my mom. i love her cooking, because hell, it's my mom who made it!
anyways, not much to report from this chilly monday.
by the way, i had another panic attack breakdown while i was at home. i happened saturday night. but luckily, i got to sneak out of the house for two cigarettes, and after that, the xanax i took made me able to sleep well. i'm happy that i finally have a drug that can combat my panic attacks. go xanax!
it sucks to be so medicated so young, i'll tell you that.
ok. i'm out. toodles!
sigh. thanksgiving was way too short. despite the bittersweet feelings i had with respect to my family, it was so nice to get away and stay with them. i have to admit that there were times when i was terribly bored at home, but just being around my mom and dad gave me a feeling of peace.
on saturday, i met up with A. we strolled around the galleria, shopped a bit at club monaco (though i didn't buy anything), grabbed pearl milk tea and drove by the elementary school that we both attended. it was a nice time.
sunday morning, i got up at the ripe time of 3:30am pacific time to go to the airport to catch my 8:00 flight. the flight was almost four hours, but it went by very quickly... i guess i must have fallen asleep on the plane or something, which is a miracle because i usually never am able to do that.
after i got home at around 11:00am, i just lay on the couch and then in my bed. no one was around, and i had nothing to do. so i just listened to some football games while lying down.
6:00 was my birthday dinner at hunan homes, attended by me, three couples and a baby. it was a quaint and pleasant dinner (peking duck!), and all too short for hanging out with good friends. for my birthday, i got two dvd's, a down comforter, and a jamba juice card.
all in all, it was a great break, though like i said, way too short. and now i'm back at work, a place i hate to be. sigh.