feeling better today. i guess you gotta take it as it comes, huh?
i finished coding the final piece of the new blocks, so that's a source of the feelings of goodness. but, of course, integrating them and changing the existing code is a whole other beast, but i'm not going to think about that for now.
(by the way, when i typed the word "beast" above, i actually put down "breast." ha! you know where my mind is, right? :)
i think the key to mental health in work is compartmentalizing. you have to be able to separate the work thinking from the non-work life. my problem of late have been thinking about work while i'm home, sleeping, etc. it has invaded my private thoughts, and that brings about a lot of unnecessary stress.
the thing is, though, that i'm still plagued with the inability to sleep when it's light. i wake up at 6:30 every morning, and from then on until i get out of bed, i just lie there, thinking about random stuff (which includes work), and it's really really frustrating. *RAAR* i think it's the high dosage of haldol that did this to me, although it only started in this past week or so. i wonder what changed. *shrug*
aside from my roommates and peter, i haven't been seeing any of my other friends. i think that has got to change. i need to get out more, so if i haven't seen you and you wanna get together, give me a call!
this time next week, i'll get heading home early and packing up for my thanksgiving break in dallas. woo-hoo! i can't wait to see my family. i know i don't say that very often, but my nuclear family has gotten more and more precious as time goes by. i guess i appreciate them more, and i realize that the times we are all together are limited. *sniff*
anybody seen the new _bridget jones_ movie? i really liked the first one, even though many guys brand it as a "chick flick." so what if it is? hehee. i for one appreciate a good romantic comedy, and i like colin firth.
i worry about too much stuff. lately, what's on my mind has been a smattering of things: work work work (of course), alan eventual moving out (he's found a house already), backing up my hard drive on my iMac, etc. there's a lot more that i can list as well.
anxiety is a terrible thing. and i am the king of anxiousness.
oddly enough, though ever since my nervous breakdown of this past saturday, i haven't had much anxiety over my tics. they just come and go, and i don't have my patented fretting over when the next one will come. it's kind of nice to be like this, although, of course, i'd rather just do away with my tics once and for all.
tourette's sucks.
anyways, that's it for today. toodles!