i've been thinking a lot about old-tyme torture/execution methods lately. i don't know why i've been so morbid; currently, i'm fascinated with the whole drawing and quartering thing, you know, where they tie each of your limbs to a horse and have the animals run in opposite directions, resulting in your appendages being torn off and bleeding a horrible limbless death.
*shiver*
and don't even get me started on the iron maiden. yikes!
today is slightly better than yesterday. man, i have GOT to decrease the frequency and intensity of these nervous breakdowns! i've had two in two weeks!
so i voted yesterday, as you know. i feel bad for kerry. why? because he lost! he came sooo close to winning the election, and now we have to deal with dubya for four more years? ick. i wonder what state the country will be in after he finally leaves the office.
and what's worse, the election coverage on nbc wiped out last night's episode of _scrubs_! *RAAR*
i've got a shitload of work to do. sigh.
so back to dreaming about work. i tried to pre-empt those thoughts coming into my head while i was sleeping by focusing on sex. you know, my favorite positions, my favorite images from the videos i've got, etc. it only worked for a little bit until i got bored of visualizing sexual maneuvers and started thinking about work again.
i think the haldol is making me sensitive to light. i wake up at the very crack of dawn, and it seems like i can't fall asleep after that. at least, i'm not getting *good* sleep around 6am or so. that's a long time to be getting bad sleep!
i can't wait for thanksgiving break back in dallas. it'll give me a chance to get away from the office for four whole days. and better yet, i'll have my birthday dinner the night i get back! (my birthday falls on thanksgiving day, in case you wanted to know. :)
so! what's going on with you guys? i've heard so little of you darling readers. won't you leave me a comment or two? all i've been lately is comment spam, so any contact with you people is welcome stuff. :)
itching to go home and lie down. as usual. the futon has become my best friend next to my bed (which is a futon as well). yes, yes, i know, i should graduate to a real bed, but i am very attached to my current sleeping platform. it's firm, it's blue, and it supports me just fine.
there are a lot of things that i'm worrying about right now. first and foremost is my job. i'm not sure how to do some of the things i've been asked to (i.e. modify someone else's messy code), and second on my mind is the prospect of alan and ting moving out. what will i do? live alone? and move AGAIN? ick.
anyways... so it looks like i didn't win the $100K from the voteornot.org campaign. bummer. i was looking forward to pocketing the cash and buying a house. hehe.
ok, that's enough for today. toodles!
sorry for not writing yesterday. i had a mini nervous breakdown at work. yet again, i know. they always seem to happen on tuesdays, and this just isn't good for me.
i basically came back from basketball and headed off to a two-hour meeting whereby the stress level (or perceived stress level) got too high for me to handle. my tics were going crazy, my head felt all fuzzy and staticky, and i just had to go home.
so i left before 5pm, voted (and got my sticker!) and headed home. sigh.
i can tell that work is starting to get to me. i am starting to dream about it, and that's very bad news. i had previously developed a remarkable skill of compartmentalizing my work life with regards to my freedom, but this is starting to break down as the amount of work i have to do piles up. drat.
anyways, just wanted to give you a heads up. i may write more later. stay tuned!