wow, i feel like shit today. yes, it's the tics.
so i'm going on SIX mg of haldol a day after seeing my psych. and i also saw my chironeuro today, and he assigned me this weird-ass pose that i have to do 45 times a day to "stimulate the cerebellum." hm. this is getting hokier and hokier as time passes!
i'm the most fucked up (as in needing medical attention) 28 year old i know. most people who see psychiatrists and chiropractors are much older, as their bodies wear down and require more attention and treatment. fuck, i'm not even 30 yet!
my head feels too heavy to hold up.
i'm going to miss heather graham on _scrubs_. she left the show last night, and i've heard rumors that she might be back to do some more episodes. i like her melancholy look; i think it's her eyes and how they're shaped.
anyways, not much going on today. tomorrow, if my body and brain permit, i'll be starting coding on my blocks at work. sigh. coding's gotten tiresome, and i'm sort of stressing out over it. i've never had to modify someone else's code before, and i'm not looking forward to it. in fact, i think it'll get downright ugly. *RAAR*
you know what's sorely missing from my life these days? inspiration. inspiration to do stuff, to be active, to enjoy life. i just can't seem to find any of that stuff lately. which is why i sleep so much on the weekends. i mean, the reason why i stay in bed is partially because i don't have anything to look forward to, and that's just fucking depressing, isn't it?
ok. i'm bumming myself out. and seeing as i have nothing to offer today, i'm going to cut this short. to you people out there: have a nice day!