have you ever strained yourself so hard trying to take a dump that you wind up throwing up? hehe.
so i got the schedule for the next 3 months, and it looks like i'll be hella busy. sigh. it's time to buckle down and do some serious work!
i absolutely dread hearing my alarm go off in the mornings. the problem is, i have this automatic reflex whereby i press the snooze button once it happens. and i'm usually just barely conscious when this happens, so i wind up snoozing like 6 or 7 times. which means i get up much later than i'm supposed to.
i guess i could try putting the alarm further away, but that just means i'd crawl out of bed, press snoozed, and crawl back and fall asleep again.
i'm bummed about my life again. i realized it last night when i took my final cigarette of the day, and i just thought, "damn, i really have nothing interesting going on in my life right now." and i sulked and went up to bed.
ho hum.
you know what i've been missing lately? the experience of taking off someone else's clothes. there's something exciting about that, like it's an intimate act of disrobing someone, in anticipation of some good old-fashioned sex after the clothes are removed. especially that one-handed unsnapping of a bra. shiver me timbers! breasts... UNLEASHED!
so... i'm still really bummed out that i won't be getting a nice 9-day vacation this winter break. i'll most likely be working the monday-wednesday in between christmas and new year's. sigh.
so when you guys play sports for fun, do you get competitive? like, does losing bother you? for me, i usually don't give a shit if i win or lose. of course winning feels good, but i'm more concerned if i got a good workout or not. i wonder if should change my attitude, though, and play *harder*. play to win, you know.
like today, my team lost all four games in basketball, and i could sense some frustration in some of my teammates. i was sort of immune to the feeling, though, given my happy-go-lucky sports attitude. but then again, i think i was highly responsible for the losing streak, since i can't play defense worth a shit in basketball.
and as usual, i skipped lunch today. it's 5pm, and i'm not feeling the slightest bit hungry. i wonder what's wrong with my system.
ok, off to do some register specs. toodles!