i am not well. yes, tics.
i wonder if the 4mg of haldol i'm now on is causing this low rumbling in my brain. i feel like i'm on a plane or something, with this constant noise in my ears. *RAAR*
poor alan. he lost out on his bid for this townhouse, and on top of that, he's buried by work. he was all stressed out yesterday. *comfort*
it looks like i won't have a meal today. i skipped lunch (as usual) after basketball, and i'm headed up to the city right after work. hm. this can't be good for me, skipping not only one, but two meals. i had a snickers bar, though, and hopefully that will keep my stomach from going crazy with hunger.
so my tics have morphed from a right-directional neck twist to a left-ways neck crunch towards my shoulder. and that's bad news. why? because i wind up crunching my nerves, and they're really burning right now. and the more a tic hurts, the more often i'm inclined to do it. tourette's is a masochist disorder, i know. *RAAR*
does anybody have problems with mavi jeans tearing prematurely? i mean, all three of my mavi pairs have torn in the butt pocket where my wallet goes. i think they use shoddy denim or thin denim or something. i've spent a lot of money on these jeans, and now i have spend MORE money to repair them! arrgh!
so it turns out that my ex-boss and ex-favorite-coworker at my old company are leaving to start their own business together. man. that seems like a fun thing to do, but also very stressful. i.e. getting funding, setting up shop, hiring good people. it's a lot of work!
i can't believe september is over after today. the year is 75% over! and what bugs me about that the most is that i feel like i've done NOTHING in 2004. ok, i went to europe, but aside from those two+ weeks, what have i done? have i accomplished anything worth being proud of? nope. nada. zilch. *hangs head*
my birthday falls exactly on thanksgiving this year. i wonder who i'll celebrate with on that day, as i think everyone will be with their families or something.
you know what scares me? girls with tongue studs. why? because if they're giving you a blowjob, what if they jam the stud into your meatus (hole)? wouldn't that totally HURT??!! ick, i cringe at the thought of that happening.
does an artificially widened meatus heal? does it close back up? what if it's a one-way irreversible process, and your peehole just gets bigger and bigger? what if the entire penishead is ripped in half? does it stay like that? oh, the questions!
ok. time for a smoke. toodles!