i'm feeling happier today (a rare event), mainly because of a good lunch break with some coworkers (sans the usual griping) and an IM from jo-ann. for those of you who don't know, jo-ann was the girl i was head-over-heels in love with in 2000 and part of 2001. she's rad. and hella cute as well. (she's taken now, but that's ok with me. yeah, i finally got over it. :)
but yeah, the tics are still bothering me. i saw my psych today, and we're upping me to 4mg of haldol and 2mg of benztropine. we'll see what that does, but i'm sort of determined to keeping upping the haldol until something happens, either i go crazy (the drug is a powerful antipsychotic) or the tics get better.
in the meantime, i want to thank mr. ken for doing some research on alternative holistic (vitamin and mineral) treatments for TS online. i may go this route is i decide that my current two methods of treatment (meds and chiro neurology) aren't working. i will never stop searching for a way to get better. i will never give up! *RAAR*
but anyways, it's the middle of the week, and i'm feeling better. what more can i ask for?
the big news from jo-ann is that she's back in the states. which is GREAT news, because that means i don't have to fly all the way to singapore to see her (which i've never done). of course, she *is* all the way clear across the country in NYC, but somehow, her being in the states gives me comfort.
i never really got why (for a man) shooting your spooge all over a girl's face is such a turn-on. i mean, it's one thing is she's blowing you and you spunk inside her mouth, but what's the point of shooting your load on her face? is it the degrading factor that is a turn-on? *ponder* personally, i'd much rather come inside her; it's more realistic, anyway, and i think it feels much better than wanking off for a facial. and hence my personal fetish for internal comeshot porn.
i think alan's going to bid on a townhouse today. good luck dude! *sigh* but on the flipside, i'll be so sad to see him go. the last time we moved away from each other, i think i was depressed, or at least that's why my mom's theory is.
ok, i just got an IM from amy. gotta go!