man, it's only tuesday. not much going on today (which seems to be the usual these days), except that my team actually won one (out of like 5) game today. my teams mostly suck, probably due to me and my lack of coordination in playing defense and grabbing loose balls. i just don't have the reflexes!
so now i'm supposed to wear the red eyeglasses for 2.5 hours a day (in two 1 hour 15 minute sessions). damn, that's like my entire night after i get home from work! lately, i start to feel frustrated and agitated near the end of my red sessions, probably due to the color and the fact that the acetate itches my face. and i am highly reluctant to wear them at work, either, for fear of having to explain them to everybody and their mother.
but hot damn! last night's cowboys/redskins game was great. of course, the cowboys won, otherwise i wouldn't have been in a good mood. had the redskins had better clock management and managed to salvage a final timeout for a field goal, they would have pushed the game into overtime. *phew* the halfback option play was brilliant!
still, though, i'm not sure if the cowboys will make the playoffs. the eagles will most certainly win the division, and i doubt the cowboys could get a good enough record to make it in as a wildcard. but we'll see. i still have hope!
so i see my psych tomorrow. not sure what new drug he's going to put me on, but i'm thinking about asking him to keep me on haldol and up the dosage. i'm already on 3mg, which was enough to drive me nuts the last time i was on haldol, so that tells me that my body is resistant to the drug. so maybe i need more? *ponder*
but lately, my tourette's has been ruling me. it's nearly impossible to work, and that's really bad news because i have a shitload of work to do. sigh.
so alan is going to bid on a house tomorrow. if he gets it, then i don't know what i'm going to do when he moves out. i'll most likely stay at my current place a little while longer, but i can't afford to pay the rent by myself for long. hm. what to do...
i had a semi-panic session about the state of my life the other day. i feel "behind" all of my good friends, who are all married/committed, own houses (or are about to), and generally in a good state of mental health. me? i've got none of that stuff, (especially that mental health bit), and it's sort of freaking me out. what's wrong with me?
yeah, i'm not in a such a good place right now. and i'm sort of fretting about how i can make things better. that europe trip showed me that being away from work cause some improvement in my TS, but then again, i can't NOT work, can i? i need money!
on a brighter note, i got this google phrase of the day:
"easy sexual positions for short chubby people"
ha! i can see how two big people's bellies can collide and prevent coitus. my recommendation would be to lay her on her back on a table, and for him to enter standing up. either that, or doggy style. just my two cents.
ok, i've got to get back to work.