sleepy, i am.
no great television on tonight, so i think i'm going to crawl into bed early. *huzzah* during my whole jaunt through italy and spain, i missed my bed dearly. *pout* the thing is, in the seven hotels i stayed in, the sheets/blankets were really really thin, and sometimes, with the AC on full blast (remember, i like it cold), it was really uncomfortable to be freezing in bed throughout the night.
but no longer! i get my two layers of blankets once again. and what's more, i have a cool (temperature-wise) pillow to hug! despite the insomnia i've been having, sleep has been totally *blissful*.
i am worried about my dropping weight. like i said earlier, i'm about 160 now (remember that i was over 200 last christmas). today, after my small lunch at the company cafeteria, i got up and actually got myself a small box of fruit! that's saying something, because i never eat fruit and vegetables.
i don't want to be stick-thin again. like alan says, i used to look emaciated, undernourished, and sick.
i am dying to hang out with my friends again. being gone from them for over two weeks was sort of a real bummer for me. not having familiar faces around me, the usual conversations, etc. it was sort of bleak, socially speaking. the problem is, ting's dad is coming to down, so alan and ting will be accompanying him to touristy spots in the city and yosemite this weekend. so i need to look for some other people to hang out with. give me a call!
i'm not sure why i am so sleepy, though. i mean, despite waking up at 2am, i got a total of about 11+ hours of sleep last night. but i guess my internal clock is telling me that it's 1am europe time, and thus, the bed calls to me right now.
i noticed today that i may be slightly depressed. i touched on this earlier yesterday, but there's just nothing much going on in my life. no exciting job, no girlfriend, no exciting hobbies, no good television, nothing that makes me anxious to wake up and start my day. hm. *shrug* maybe it's just a phase, but in the meantime, it sort of blows chunks.
i can't believe it's september already. where did this year ago?
man, i feel like shit today. the only thing that's on my mind is the next time i'll get to curl in my own bed and go to sleep.
now, i don't know if it's because i'm terribly jet-lagged, or whether it's because the vacation made me really lazy and not wanting to work. either way, it makes my days suck. but the good thing is that at least i have an excuse to go home early.
i'm excited for the new television season. it's september! last night, i caught the premiere of _scrubs_, and i have to say, it's probably my favorite show right now. and at least elliot's hair doesn't look as jacked up as last season.
it was sooooo good to see my roommates again last night. (i know i got back on monday, but by the time they got home, i was in bed already.) we went to chili's for dinner, and i got the southwestern eggrolls despite already having had some food at jack in the box before. i'm trying to eat more, because my weight is in the lower 160's, and i think that's too low for me.
i saw my psych this morning. he was alarmed that i had dropped so much weight (about 40 pounds since last christmas), but he was happy to hear that my tics seem to be better. i'm not as anxious over having my next tic, and they hurt less, and the overall news is that they're bothering me less. BUT. i still tic, though, and i still have storms of tics from time to time.
but anyways, i want to sleep. the past two nights in the states, i've fallen asleep around 10pm, and i wake up at 2am and have a bit of insomnia. that's not good news.
i gave alan his souvenir yesterday; it was the only thing that i bought while i was in europe besides food and drinks and train tickets. and souvenir was a bronze miniature of a wolf with eight breasts feeding two kids. i think the original is in the roman ruins somewhere (we couldn't find it), and i heard from someone that they represent the founders of rome. *shrug* it's a unique thing, that's for sure, i.e. a wolf breastfeeding two babies.
that's one thing, though... i'm not in the habit of buying souvenirs of places i visit. one of the other guys spent a couple of hundred dollars on trinkets and such! hm. i wonder if i'll regret not having anything tangible of my own to remind me of my european vacation.
anyways, i promise i'll post some (just a few) pictures of italy and spain when i get the chance. ok? :)
*yawn* i've got a meeting in 6 minutes. i might write more later.