that's my eating schedule on mondays through thursdays. it's because on tues/thurs, i skip lunch after basketball. *shrug* after exerting myself like that, i'm just not hungry.
but damn. i just realized that last night, my "dinner" consisted of a large bowl of cereal. and just that. so now, i'm super-hungry. like SUPER.
work is sort of winding down for me this week. i've done all of my assigned tasks, and i just hope nothing major comes up before i leave on my trip. easy breezy!
i hope i'll be able to find some internet cafe's and the like while i'm in europe. not blogging (or at least cleaning my inbox of spam) for two and a half weeks would make me go bonkers, methinks. :)
anyways. i have a lot of little things i have to remember to do before i leave. stuff like:
1) refill my lighter and check on the flint
2) update my cell phone numbers on my excel spreadsheet (just in case it gets stolen)
3) clean out my wallet
4) get money and traveller's checks
5) get a haircut
6) buy a toothbrush case
7) get my smog check and mail in my dmv renewal
i'm sure more shit will come up, and all those little things stress me out. *RAAR*
i take after my mom in that respect. she's going through hell with her depression and empty nest syndrome and menopause, etc., and i really feel for her. i think she's a little bit of a hypochondriac, and after she takes medications, she thinks she's got all of the side effects attacking her. :( i wish i could help her, and in a way, i see my own nervous nature coming from her.
is it hard to change one's nature? does it take, for example, a traumatic or supremely enlightening experience to modify a person's natural tendencies? i wonder about that sometimes, because i certainly have some things about myself i'd like to alter.
anyways, i was asked by my buddy if i am aware of the perception i give off on this blog. (i think this was more relevant when i talked about sex and ex's all the time.) but my answer was no. i think i'm too stupid/ignorant of the air i give off... because when i blog, i just write what's on my mind. a small fraction of it might be censored, but most of it just comes out as is. *shrug* it's hurt me a few times, but i think i'm just a *tad* smarter about it now.
so before i start this membist shit i have to do (fyi, bist = built in self test), which will be hella tedious, i'm gonna write a bit.
man, last night brought back memories. i went on 3mg of haldol, and i got the usual overdose symptoms... akathesia (a dreadful feeling of restlessness, sort of like wearing a bodysuit lined inside with scratchy velet), and the usual lurches and random muscle spasms right before falling asleep. plus sensitivity to light, which meant that i woke up at 8am and couldn't fall asleep again.
needless to say, it wasn't a pleasant night. and the worst thing is, i'm going through this shit, and i'm *still* ticcing just as much as before! *RAAR* what's the point then? *shrug*
but! this is the last thursday before i leave for europe. i'm counting down the days, and upping my haldol dosage just so i have a chance at being sane before i jet off. if i won't be able to get better, then i dunno... that plane ride is going to be one hell of a trip, and i don't mean that in a good way. :/
anyways, tomorrow is friday, and that means i'll get one last weekend soon to rest up.
i got called in for a smog check on my car. are they open on weekends? i guess i'll have to call around and see if i can get it done before i leave. sigh.
i went and visited my old company because i needed to pick up my airline tickets from the finance girl. it was nice seeing the ex-coworkers again. every time i leave a company, going back seems like going back to an old home. *bliss*
anyways... i've got some work to do. be back later!