July 08, 2004

thursday afternoon

some fucking bastard egged my car! doesn't that totally fuck up the paint?!

and in addition to that, just had a bloody dump. i sharted in my pants when i was outside, and when i went to the bathroom to check, blood started squirting out of my ass. ick. AND i soiled my boxers. grody stuff, dude.

my boss left for china today for two weeks. so this was the last time i see him before i leave the company. *sobs* he's a good guy, and leaving the company was sort of like letting him down. even up until yesterday, he was trying to convince me to stay.

i like wearing shorts at work. it's so much cooler (temperature-wise) than wearing jeans. and besides, i need to give my jeans a break; my mavi's (which i pretty much wear exclusively) have been wearing out due to heavy use; i've had to take them to the tailors to get the ass rips patched up.

speaking of ass ripping, are there women who enjoy anal sex more than the regular kind?

hehe. i was going to ask what anal sex feels like, but it turns out, i'm a man, and *i* can experience it for myself, eh? :) not sure if i'll ever get the chance to do it, though, and i'm not even sure if i *want* to find out. it's sort of like doing heroin; the curiosity's there, the (very remote) chance is there, but i'm not sure if i would go through with it.

i've lost a lot of weight. over 30 pounds! it really hit me last night when i was in teh shower, and i could learn back, look straight down, and see my pubic tufts. yes, i had a stomach *that* big when i was over 200 pounds. but now? my pubes are in plain sight! *huzzah*

i miss boobs.

Posted by dardi! at 02:45 PM | Comments (11)

poor mom

man, i am just feeling really down right now. i got a call from one of my mom's best friends this morning, and she told me that my mom wasn't doing too well. that i know, but the severity of the situation (i.e. her friend calling me for an emergency chat) really took me for a loop.

sigh. i feel for my mom. she's going through a bout of serious depression right now, and having been there myself, i know how hard it is to see any silver lining in life. i wish i could help her, but...

on top of that, my brother's leaving for college, my dad's finding a job in china most likely... what is my mom to do? she's going through a serious empty nest syndrome, and worst of all, my dad's not around for her. ARRGH.

i hate seeing my mom suffer. :(

Posted by dardi! at 10:54 AM | Comments (12)