i had this weird dream last night about alex. basically, i ran into her family's motorbike (yes, her whole family fit into the small vehicle) with my car, and the next thing i knew, i was talking to her and stroking her feet. very very odd. but nice in some really bizarre way.
anyways, this week has been really long so far. it's only fucking tuesday?!
i'm feeling aimless about this whole job thing. i wish i knew what i was meant to do.... you know, networking or video. video or networking. that would make things easier on me. right now, i like both companies, and it's just been really tough on my decision making skills. *RAAR*
the bottom line is, i am feeling lazy, and i just don't want to work. hopefully that changes soon, and i get my ambition back. just to let you know, i was *really* ambitious when i first started out after college. i worked my ass off, established myself, etc. but now? i just like to coast. and that's not good for my career. i need to change that.
and i don't like disappointing people. sigh. i don't know how i came to be so easily guilt-tripped. when did i grow a conscience? sheesh.
i just want to be comfortable. and happy.
i'm wondering if i'll be so bored tonight that i'll wind up watching _outback jack_ again. now that the hottest girl (laura) is gone, there's not much reason to watch the show.
yeah, that worries me. lately, i've become a couch potato. i mean, it might be understandable during the weekdays, when i just come home and want to veg out, but even on weekends, i just have no motivation to do anything except lounge on the futon with the tv on. and that is a terrible existence!
hm. gotta change that. must... get... out... more.