sleep isn't so good for me lately. which means, i'm sleeping very soundly, going all the way from when i first fall asleep to about 5am. what gives? i *like* waking up at 3am, rolling over, checking the clock, and reminding myself how much more sleep i can get! sheeeiit.
i'm frustrated. i've got this big piece of earwax in my left ear. i can tell because when i'm lying in bed and tossing and turning, i can hear/feel it rumbling around in my ear canal. gross! and i have a feeling that stuffing my pink down there only cakes it in even more.
tic update for myself: i'm still pretty bad, especially at meals. it seems that somehow, sitting there and not being able to stretch out into my awkward positions makes me tic more. and it still fucking hurts. ugh. but, the good news is, it's not ruling me like it did in the previous three months.
they should have communal (i.e. dorm-like) living situations for people my age. it'd be cool to live with a bunch of people again, guaranteeing social access and stuff. these days, i feel so separated from the rest of society (and no, work doesn't count as "social activity") that it gets rather boring/lonely out here. hm.
i only watched an hour of tv last night: _outback jack_. yeah, it was pretty lame, but there was one really attractive girl (laura). she was a brunette (yeah! brunettes rock!), and had a *really* pretty face.
but then, when she got booted off, she said something like, "now i can go back to being my fabulous self." FABULOUS? hm. not so attractive anymore... heheh. vanity has a way of making someone uglier.
dinner with yuji was good, though short. i like hanging out with him, although our conversations seemed more eventful when we both were single. he recommended that i enjoy summer by growing to like baseball, but hm... i'm just not interested in that sport.
so this radio silence i'm getting from her is starting to grate. yes, chester and eric, i should consider it "d'ed tr" already, but i'm stupid and stubborn; i have to hear it from her in order to get the required closure, assuming (and rightly so) things are headed south. otherwise, i keep hanging on. and by a *very* thin thread mind you!
*yawn*
cindy said it best today when she was like, "i'm wondering what kind of girl lets a guy pay that much for dinner and doesn't have any interest him." i'm like, "EXACTLY!" it baffles my mind how she works. if i were her, i'd feel hella guilty. hella!
i did, however, find a cute girl on friendster yesterday. i looked through my gallery for the first time in months. i wrote her a brief note, so we'll see if she responds.
i like the way girls smell. it makes me want to nuzzle them.
anyways, maybe i should go speed dating again. i'm simply not meeting any new people. *RAAR*
btw, during my last smoking break, pulled out some of my hair and burned it with the tip of my cigarette. it smelled really foul. makes me wonder what kind of nasty odors came about when that girl was burning her pubes with a cigarette. tuna + stench = all kinds of nasty!