these days, i'm often puzzled by the fact that i am blogging less and less. where are all those kooky thoughts? where did they go? i mean, back during the geocities journal days, i would plunk down at least 7K characters a day, and in one sitting! *swoon*
maybe it's the medication? maybe my life has just been one dull, drab existence? maybe it's both? hm.
to update you, i'm on both abilify and haldol right now. both are antipsychotic drugs, and what that means (i think) is that it slows down my brain. the theory goes that if i'm less mentally hyperactive, then i'll tic less. at least, that's how it's *supposed* to work, even though i'm just as ticcy as before, i think.
anyways, maybe i'm burning on on blogging. i mean, i think i've touched on every sexual situation, every personal anecdote, etc. that i've been meaning to address. and i'm simply not generating enough new memories to sustain my average of 5 posts a day. so thus, you have my new and boring blog. *argh*
maybe i should order some new porn. i swear, the stuff i have is getting old.
speaking of porn, interest in the monthly _penthouse_ that we have been getting seems to be waning. the original recipient of the magazine doesn't even want it anymore. i guess i can see why; static pictures of women splaying open their labia can only go so far, right? and the sex scenes with a man and a woman just don't have the *oomph* without the motion. *shrug*
oh, and i still don't know about masa's. i was hoping that going a week on haldol might decrease my tics, but it hasn't been happening fast enough. so don't bug me about it! hehe.
living with tourette's is hard. sorry, it's an obvious statement, but still, i had to say it. it's a real bitch sometimes. now feel sorry for me! :)
i'm feeling blue. not sure why.
maybe it's that time of the month; i need to get a haircut then.
i SO don't want to do any work now. or ever. but, i got bombed with some recoding that needs to be done, and in my case, redone before i leave. shit. i hate time pressure!
so, does anything think that the lakers can pull this championship out? how many more miracle shots (i.e. kobe's 3-pointer) do they have left? especially with the next three games away in detroit!
also, does anyone have espn HD? how does it look? and does it come with cable and/or satellite? sorry, i don't know how it works. but i would imagine sportscenter would be MARVELOUS to watch! you'd be able to see linda cohn's zits! haha.
my massage last night was sooooo nice. afterwards, i just breathed in and out with my face down on the massage table, and it felt like all the pressure i've been feeling in my neck and shoulders just melted away. i could have fallen asleep there. that's some good shit!
a few nights ago, i felt a weird sensation in my stomach while i was sleeping. the first was like a churning in my stomach, and the second was like a flush that put pressure on my bowels afterwards. it's neat to behold gastrointestinal processes in real life! i think it's all the cereal (i.e. milk and my semi-lactose intolerance) that i've been eating that's doing this to me.
for lunch today, we went to this roadside bbq pit on oakland road in san jose. it's situated right in an industrial zone, so it was a bit sketchy. i got this pork sandwich that was pretty nasty, but the other guys seemed to be happy with their ribs and stuff. man, the dives we go to!
but i remind you, i'm feeling blue. i need some cheering up. this morning, i couldn't get out of bed; i had promised myself i'd do some real coding today, and the stress just made me all jittery and stuff when i woke up today. i swear, i inherited my nervousness and anxiety from my mom.