well, i do complain a lot. a change in my code that i was whining about all morning wound up taking about 10 minutes... total. that includes changing the code itself, changing the testbench, and running module-level verification. ho hum.
but i *did* get a new assignment, i.e. ripping up my current design to accomodate new features. THAT will be hard, no doubt, and i just wonder... if i'm leaving the company, then how do i tell them in light of this position? shit.
so i started up haldol (the medication) last night. i got the old side effects back... a feeling of restlessness (akathesia) which made it hard to sleep, and photosensitivity, which made me wake up the moment it got just a *teensy* bit light outside. man. rough times are coming as i adjust to this drug.
i also farted a lot in bed last night. and they all felt like sharts to me. scary! i kept on sticking my hand between my asshole and my sheets, for fear or something liquid coming out. but it didn't. still, it was no good to live in fear last night.
sigh. meds interfering with my sleep is a bad thing. in these days of stress and tics, sleep is the only thing i've got going for me!
anyways, i'm looking forward to the weekend.
last night, i got hit with some pangs of ill-feeling. the whole "no house, no girl, not even a job that i like" aspect of my life, topped with this whole tourette's meltdown... it just all got to me. i distinctly remember sitting on the futon, thinking, "damn, and there isn't even good television on to help me escape reality!" :(
anybody seeing _harry potter_ this weekend? tell me if hermione is cute! of the three books that i read (the first three), i liked this one the best, so... i hope the movie's good. i'll try to catch it sometime in the coming weeks.