situation no win
rush for the change of atmosphere
i can`t go on so i give in
gotta get myself right outta here
what a blue day. sorry folks, but i don't have much positivity to impart on you guys.
this weekend should be fun, though (that is, if i'm in any shape to partake in the fun). shoji, emi and gwen are staying at my place for the big collegiate taiko invitational at stanford. if you're free sunday afternoon, go check out the concert at 2:30!
*sigh*
the best thing about so low is... it's hard to get any lower. how's THAT for positivity? bwekekeke.
it's all relative, man. all. relative.
*tic*
so tonight is the last episode of _AI_. this is the first time i've followed the show, and i have to say, despite the semi-early departure of john stevens, i enjoyed the ride.
and yeah, diana degarmo still freaks me out.
the rest is just for my notekeeping.
1. soul - leah
2. country - matt
3. motown - amy
4. elton john - camille
5. soundtracks - jpl
6. barry manilow - jennifer
7. gloria estefan - john stevens
8. big band - george
9. disco - la toya
10. 3 choices - jasmine
this is *my* tourette's. i own it. and lately, it has been owning *me* instead. but i have to remember, this is my affliction, and i have to do the best in keeping it in check.
so with that said, i have gotten the ball rolling on seeking some time off and maybe changing jobs. it's not totally *rolling* yet, but at least i gave it a nudge today.
i know it's sort of a no-brainer, but health really *is* the most important thing we can have. without it, we are fucking useless heaps of scrap. and i gotta do what's best for me. me and my health.
i am so unhappy right now. tics abound like mad fucking crazy, my neck and shoulders throb with pain, and today, the CTO strolls into my cube and tells me of his latest and greatest (i.e. crazy) idea for this switch fabric interface, which just means... lots of work and redesign for me.
i need an exit.
i need an exit.
so last night, my old boss jo calls me up and asks me if i want to go back and work for him on a new (and cool) project.
so my dream plan is... to take it, along with whatever salary boost i get (i haven't gotten a raise in 3 years, i am bound to make more at this new position), and in between jobs, take 2 weeks off to recuperate and do nothing.
sounds like an exit strategy? i think so.
but damn, life is eating away at me, and i need a fucking break. i don't remember the last time i smiled, and that's making me so sad.