sometimes i ask myself that question. because sometimes i think i know what i want, but in reality, i really don't. and how do i know? because once i get finally get it, my desire for the object falls off a cliff. having negates wanting, to put it succinctly.
last night's episode of _scrubs_ reminded me of this question. basically, j.d. breaks down and pours his heart out to elliot (a girl), and tells her that he loves her, and that causes elliot to break up with her boyfriend and go back to j.d. but once he had her (as the next episode suggests), he doesn't want her anymore.
and that's a bitch, ain't it?
i've been in that situation before, i.e. pining after a lost girl, thinking that i want her so badly, only to realize, "meh... not really." like, i notice that sometimes there is a falloff of affection after having sex. it's like, your unsatisfied unsatiated libido makes you think you really want the girl, but once you blow your wad, reality sets in, and it's a reality devoid of any true poignant emotion.
and that's why i think it's important to flood the pipes often. because it keeps you honest. :)
so i asked the organizers of the speed dating event about one of the hostesses, and...
1) i was told she was indeed single
2) i was not told how to get a hold of her
3) i was told to concentrate on my two matches instead of the hostess
*RAAR*!!!
i mean, what's the problem here?? the organizers should be cognizant that their MISSION here is to hook up ALL available single people, not just the ones that signed up for speed dating! plus, i'm good at multitasking, and i can handle one more girl in my pipeline. grrrr... that chaps my hide.
and i realized why i think she's so cute... she reminds me of charlene from the HK pop duo twins! (yes, i do note that earlier, i said that gillian of twins was cuter, but still, they're both rather smiteworthy.)
and yes. i got two matches out of this recent round. not sure i totally remember everything about them, but i will try to follow up, at least through e-mail for now.