so i'm IM'ing eric right now, and we're talking about how much work it is to maintain friendships. like, going out and calling them, meeting up with them, especially if these people aren't prone to be initiators themselves in social contact.
so i'm thinking... maybe this is a big reason why people form couples. because that gives you *one* person to hang out with... by default. and that puts a big dent in the loneliness/boredom we can feel.
hm?
it's easier to revise than to create. at least, with code, that's how it is. i'm in the preliminary stages of testing, and though i've found some bugs, it's not as stress-inducing as trying to come up with the code itself, as i have been doing these last few weeks.
last night, i totally pigged out. it hurt. i only had a cup o' noodles for lunch, so by the time i got my massage, it was 7:30, and i was starving. so i went to this mr. chau's wannabe (mr. chau's is a bay area establishment that serves really cheap, nasty, greasy chinese food) and got several pounds of food. man, it was good. but i felt like i was about to explode afterwards.
it reminds me of _seven_, when that first victim (gluttony) was forced to eat until he died. is that possible? how could you not keep throwing up? at least i would.
i would make a damn good bulimic. anorexia, i'm not so good at because i love to eat too much. depriving myself of food (which i have been doing sometimes lately) is just not fun... those hunger pangs that inevitably come are maddening. i mean, hunger equals eating food! how can you not obey such a primal urge?
ok. gotta close my browser and restart. i'm running low on virtual memory, so my computer says.
"spoon position"
as far as cuddling goes, spooning is good. not great, but good. i think the knock on spooning is that you can't kiss since you're not face to face. but it does feel good, to be nestled head to toe with the one you love.
and the bonus to spooning is, if the guy is behind, and he's hard, then the girl can just pop him right in! although, i have to say, that spooning as a sex position is just difficult... there's too much friction with the sheets.
i can't, however, fall asleep while spooning. ever. i need my space in bed while i'm sleeping, and spooning requires that my right arm (since i always sleep on the right side of the bed) be underneath the girl's neck. and that's not very comfortable.
it's a shame, though, that i can't fall asleep spooning the girl and being *inside* her. that seems poignantly close for some reason, like the two of you are truly "connected" while you sleep.
hm. i am afraid that john stevens might get voted off tonight. the other person that did pretty badly was camile. fyi, last night's theme was "elton john songs," and what i realized is that his songs can be pretty hard to sing. the two songs that just didn't sound right to me were "goodbye yellow brick road" and "don't let the sun go down on me." *ponder*
so yeah, i got my massage yesterday. it felt fucking good. i wonder if i'm touch-starved. but anyways, i didn't even feel the urge to tic during the 30 minutes, which is an amazing testament to how relaxed i was. but dammit, once i got up, *tic*. so annoying. and painful too!
recently, i had a girl take me to the bathroom while i was on the phone with her. very cool and ballsy on her part. i heard the peeing/splashing sound coming through, and i was reminded that i haven't witnessed a girl pee in front of me in a very long time.
which brings me to the question... do you guys pee in the shower? that's the place where i learned the remarkable fact that women can start and stop their pee streams on demand. who knew!
i weighed 183.8 this morning. wow!
this morning i had a dream that i was just hanging out with my friends in a hotel. and you know me, i love hanging out. which explains why i had such a hard time leaving that dream this morning and getting out of bed.
just got out of a two hour lunch meeting. i hate lunch meetings. my only long fun break of the workday is taking lunch, but one of my coworkers scheduled a meeting that went from noon to 2pm. and what did we have to eat? tasteless, boring subway sandwiches. blick. (yes, i know i shouldn't complain about free food.)