erasers are amazing. they *erase*! they take all of your thought and your actions, and undo them. pretty remarkable, if you ask me.
i forget who it was, but one painter made a piece of art by simply buying another guy's work and erasing it. how about that!
i wonder if there are jobs out there where they go, "if you're not having any bit of fun doing what you're doing, then we'll assign you another task." that would be awesome. but maybe i'm dreaming. yeah, most likely, i'm dreaming.
anyways, i'm curious how my sleeping pattern will change (if at all) after this week at work. alan says after a week, i'll get adjusted and stuff. hm. will this affect my ability to sleep into the pm on weekends? the suspense!
i think i should start eating normally again. weak nourishment plus loads of stress equals a breakdown waiting to happen.
is anybody getting interesting spam out there? the two most common types of spam i get are 1) penis/sexual performance drugs and 2) online pharmacy offers. and occasionally, the nigeria scam. but where are the porn spam ads? i want to see!
i know, i know. i shouldn't be asking for more spam.
i like it when eric sends me unprompted picture messages. from the looks of his latest one, he's shaved his head! it looks good dude!
honestly, aside from work and sleep, i haven't been doing much lately. i don't think i've ever been this busy before, and i have to tell you, IT FUCKING SUCKS. no time to think about girls, even! now *that's* saying something!
i will tell you this, though... i now appreciate my free time much more. it's funny how we take things for granted.
as far as gross factor goes, shit beats urine hands down. i mean, i've smelled my own piss before, and it's not that bad. but in _jackass: the movie_, ehren makes a yellow snowcone (i.e. a snowcone soaked with his own urine), and he tries to eat it. he winds up puking all over the place.
hm. is a yellow snowcone that gross? would i puke if i ate it? i guess i'll just have to see someday.
so the receive side of my monster block #1 is coded. but that's not really saying much, because that's the far easier side of the block. i'm sitting here, trying to thinking of how to architect transmit side, and my mind is just racing, panicking. man!
so when it rains, it pours. the CTO asked everyone today to get to work this week between 8:30 and 9am. what the hell? doesn't he know that i need my beauty/sanity sleep? ridiculous!
anyways, i think my pc muscles are getting weak. when i take a leak standing up (i.e. at a urinal), i always wind up dribbling some stuff out onto my boxers. no matter how much i shake or squeeze or hop up and down, there's *invariably* something left! what a problem!
which is why i thought of the yellow snowcone today.
maybe i should do kegel exercises. *clenches*
my first boss (back at TL) once said that it's good to hire new college grads because "they don't know what's impossible." i.e. they can do stuff that more experienced people can't. i know this is a slight stretch, but it rings true for me.
the problem with me these days is that i've done enough design to know what's hard and what's easy. and when i run into something that's hard, i start getting afraid. it's sort of like what happened with me and skiing... the fear just consumed me to the point of paralysis.
and that's where i am with this coding. i'm working on the hardest block i've been assigned here at GF, and it's killing me. i just sit at my cube and stare at my monitor.
the last time this happened, i was at V, and i was so afraid of coding that i forced myself on a wednesday to pull an all-nighter. the weekend before, i went out and bought a $300 yellow and black north face sleeping bag. and i took it with me to work on that fateful wednesday, coded until 4am, and crashed.
i sure hope i don't have to do that again.