i think the reason why i like being at home so much is because it's peaceful.
i'm big on peace.
and i haven't felt it in a while.
two years ago this month, i went through a crazy panic attack. i was jittery all night, and when i tried to go to sleep, i felt electric; i literally flopped around in my bed like a fish, screaming, too!
and after about an hour of feeling like i was going to explode, i suddenly felt a clearing, sort of like running frantically through a dark jaggedy forest and suddenly coming across a peaceful lush, green meadow with the sun blazing overhead. it was a beautiful thing to behold.
and that's what i'm missing right now. i feel no peace. and dammit, i want some!
yeah, i'm still here. just been busy with shit. i got admonished for coming into work so late, so i guess i'm going to have to start getting here before 10am. which is NO EASY TASK!
i feel bad for my boss. he must get a lot of shit for not managing me well, you know, "dardy the rogue employee."
anyways, i had a good lunch at thai basil in sunnyvale, and after that, i got hit with multiple assignments at work. i guess the stress ain't over yet! i'll be hitting the coding full blast starting next week.
aside from that, nothing much going on. i'm sort of anxious to start my whole "grand weekend of nothingness," but i'm also worried that it's not going to help my stress level any, and i'll be just as ticcy after it's all over.
ok. sorry, though, for the lack of blogging. shit, i haven't even had time to check my daily blog reading list!