twenty-five seconds of silence

food and weight

wow. i'm still burping up the garlicky jun pad poo i had for lunch. and now, as 6 o'clock rolls near, the question is: what to eat for dinner?

i'm back up to 191.0 as of this morning (naked weight, with only glasses to help me see the scale's numbers). depressing to think that sometime last week, i was 187.6. *RAAR*

but don't worry... i'm not going to be anorexic or bulimic any time soon!

i never understood anorexia. being hungry is just so... uncomfortable! like, today, because i got up earlier than usual, by 10:30am or so i was famished. and the hunger was just really really fucking painful!

now, bulimia, i can understand. i joke that i used to be bulimic, but it had more to do with stress (i.e. puking was a stress reliever) than a weight or body image thing. but yeah, i can understand how people can gorge on food and then feel guilty and having to purge it. at least they're eating, you know? NOT eating at all is what i can't get.

i crave pizza.

bereft of words

so hm. i somehow got assigned this feature addition in our new chip by default. which means i'll have to muck with someone else's code, someone who's already left the company. *pukes heavily*

*RAAR*

anyways, not much going on today. i'm sort of treading lightly over the apparently-high stress level, hoping that i don't explode (or implode) in any way. i'm a fragile being, you know?

i got a copy of iLife '04 from a friend, which i hope i will be able to install on my iMac. i am in bad need of an update to iPhoto 4, because even though i only have 2000+ photos on my computer, the application is painfully slow. like PAINFULLY. this new app supposedly handles tens of thousands of photos with ease, so it'll be good to have.

i've been craving mongolian bbq ever since that last visit there two weeks ago. there's something about super-hot (both in temperature and in spiciness) food that keeps me wanting more. and it's greasy too! and no beef! *yum*

so if william hung releases a cd (he is apparently in negotiations for a record deal), would you buy it? i sure as hell wouldn't.

mike asked me last week if i would like to have william's type of fame, i.e. the kind where everybody's basically laughing at you. i said sure, because hell, it's more interesting than being an engineer, which he is and i am as well. and it's not like he did anything bad (like murder someone, hence an INfamous nature), and some people actually find him adorable in a stereotyped asian geek sort of way!

ok, i am running out of things to say. will try again later.

alias and marriages

_alias_ last night saddened me. not to mention that it was a shit episode, where nothing happened, and they repeated the same 20 minutes over again, albeit from a different person's perspective.

but what saddened me was vaughn's sham marriage. basically, vaughn is back to being in love with sydney, and his wife is fucking sark. but the two of them still act like they love each other, which is just a complete farce.

i mean, yes, this example is an extreme case (i.e. the wife, lauren, is actually a double agent working for the evil covenant), but still, loveless marriages just make me feel a bit ill. *sigh*

monday randoms

well, will you look at that! rice bowl journals finally quoted me! hah! i thought i had some quotable material a long time ago... but perhaps it wasn't g-rated for the general masses. :)

anyways, thanks for the exposure!

i just woke up from my food coma. lots of starches in my jun pad poo, i guess. two other coworkers took my lead and ordered it as well, and they liked it. *phew* i will not be blamed for ordering a bad dish!

i woke up pretty early (by my standards): 8:50am. i had to take my car in for its 56,250 mile inspection. the next one is (the 60,000 mile tuneup) is going to be a doozy. at least the dealership will give me a rental car for the day.

so from the cam pic, you can see that i am wearing my orange sweater today. it's brighter than the picture shows, and i'm not sure it was the right choice, seeing as the weather today is rather warm. i think i'm going to go back to wearing t-shirts from now on out.

wow, the winter passed us by in a heartbeat. i never even got a chance to wear my fabulous winter jackets! (i'm talking about my black mid-length dkny coat and my long olive overcoat.) oh well. maybe next year.

so i never learned the correct massage parlor etiquette for asking for rub & tugs. i mean, if you walk into a place, how do you know they give "happy endings?" how do you bring it up and ask that you'd like one, provided it wasn't too expensive? anybody have experience in this?

cuatro

	so my personal connection to the band funk u is the fact that i know one of their singers/dancers, rainbow. i've known her since 1994, so that makes it ten years! anyways, the other dancer used to be a cheerleader for the seattle supersonics, but rainbow danced better, imho. anyways, watching her bounce around on stage in 2-3 inch heeled boots just made me tired.
	there were lots of ducks at shoreline park. and lots of people, too... the parking lot was jam packed with cars, and we were lucky to find an empty spot. what i noticed, though, was that among the dozens of ducks, there was only one male. could it be that these quacking species exhibit some sort of HAREM society? *ponder*
	i didn't think it was windy enough yesterday to fly a kite, but apparently it was. i had a g.i.joe kite when i was a kid, but i was never able to get it off the ground. and before my parents let me have that one, i tried making my own by tying string to a plastic bag, you know, the ones you get at a supermarket to put your zucchinis in. that didn't work, either. poor me.
	i love the look of corrugated steel. (at least, i *think* that's the term.) the alternating thin diamonds just make me happy. anyways, i found this slab of steel on the floor at a local safeway. i was waiting for a friend of mine to finish reading this _glamour_ article about "20 things about sex a woman should know about a guy." how edifying and interesting at the same time!

chilling out

so let's see... friday night, i took peter along with me to my friend's birthday party. it was at some jazz club near fillmore & geary. and the band funk u was playing, and i think peter really enjoyed that. plus, he tried jameson whiskey for the first time and dug that as well.

saturday, a group of 7 of us watched stanford lose to washington, thus ruining our perfect regular season in ourlast game. *RAAR* i was so depressed that i went home afterwards and slept for 3 hours in the living room. :(

alan and ting came back that night, and we had a boy's trip to mcdonald's to grab some food. and i think that was it for the night. mind you, i woke up at 1:30pm, so that meant that i didn't do much that day.

sunday was equally lazy. it was beautiful outside (no clouds, around 75 degrees), so we hung out at shoreline park. while my roommates read, i placed calls to emi, my mom, and jeremy. and then we did some errands, had dinner with peter at hanamaru, and watched _alias_.

so the aim was all about de-stressing. tics are still there, but slightly better. maybe i need more weekends like this, but without the basketball stress. i had another anxiety dream about stanford bball last night. ick.