so, i received a BRAND NEW 30GB iPod in the mail last night, but didn't have much time to play with it as i was "occupied" with the blog issue.
after plugging it in, it copied 83 songs before it crashed. so then, i bypassed the dock itself and plugged it directly into the USB cable. then, it copied over about 360 songs before locking up.
so then, i unplug the other firewire port (the iSight), reformat the iPod, and REBOOT the computer. and i copy over 200 songs at a time.
that finally worked.
is this not WEIRD to anybody? it's a brand fucking new iPod! so i'm thinking... maybe it's the computer? *RAAR*
in the _enter the matrix_ videogame, you can slow down time (i.e. "bullet time") by using a limited amount of a power that's called "focus."
man, i sure wish i had some of that stuff. my ability to focus is almost binary, i.e. sometimes i can focus like a madman, but most times i can't apply myself seriously at all. and that really sucks when you have work to do.
the times i notice this the most is after lunch/basketball. i come back to my desk, and my mind is literally racing around, and my body is doing the equivalent (i.e. being all fidgety and anxious). and usually the end result is me doing nothing but sitting in my cube with my head on the desk. it's pretty pathetic, actually.
usually, by 3 or 4pm, i'm back to a reasonable semblance of my normal self, and that's when i get the bulk of my work done. and sometimes, i am blazing along like an x-men with some amazing mutant power of focus.
i attribute both states to my tourette's. my mind is always on overdrive, but most of the time, it's just hopping all over the place, not being able to settle down in any constructive way. but other times, it happens to lock onto something, and i can wind up applying myself to a certain task unflinchingly.
what a weird affliction!
so apparently, a third of my hits are from search engines. that's a lot of pervs out there! hehe.
i feel like blurting out "TEKOKI BUKKAKE JAPANESE CAMELTOE!" why is that the japanese have such cute names for sexual acts?
actually, i saw this video a few months ago of some tekoki action. what i don't get it... if a girl gives a guy a handjob, and he's circumcised, doesn't it sort of chafe? (not to mention, a circumcised guy masturbating?) i mean, usually the girl uses her saliva to lube things up naturally, but still.. after a while, doesn't the friction start to feel uncomfortable?
*smile* god bless uncircumcision. leave us foreskin-endowed males alone! be natural!
one thing that grossed me out, though, was a girl doing a little bukkake drink tapped from her ass. that just does NOT seem appetizing in any way. talk about a dirty sanchez milk mustache! i am still convinced that people need to get enemas before engaging the anus in any sexual play.
ick. scatology freaks me out.
i consider myself a big historian of sorts... if i don't document my life, then i inevitably forget what i have been doing, and thus my memory becomes a black hole; for example, junior high and early high school at such dark spots in my brain. what i did i do then? how did i feel? i have no recollection.
so that's why losing one and a half years of this blog is such a big deal to me; i've seen other people lose their blogs, and they didn't seem like they minded that much; but me, i'm pretty damn bummed out. the last time i felt so devastated was when i lost all of my college e-mails.
ok. no more of that. happy thoughts!
there's a new _OC_ tonight! and most importantly, anna stern (samaire armstrong) and her short spunky hair and her cool earrings are back! she is one fo the few people who can wear pink berets and get away with it, hehe.
speaking of anna (and seth's) style, i still haven't worn my cashmere/silk navy argyle sweater yet. i think it would look good with a white buttondown underneath it (with the collar peeking out of the v-neck), but the problem is: i don't wear white buttondowns. i mean, i *own* some, but i never wear them. it's like... too pristine for me.
yep. too pristine. dardy ain't pristine, that's for sure!
i did see this white ben sherman that was really cool a few weeks ago. but at $79 a pop, coupled with my anti-spending-money resolution, i balked at buying it. but damn, it was a nice shirt...
it's hard to resist acquiring beauty! that's how i see it. acquiring beauty.
man, i am materialistic. :/
did you know that i couldn't buy clothes of my own until i hit college? that's why i went crazy... once i had my own money, i bought some of the weirdest shit imaginable... yellow outfits, rainbow shorts, lots of primary colors. i guess i hadn't honed my fashion sense at all (didn't get a chance to), so i just went berserk with my spending.
every once in a while in my cube, i lean back, pull my shirt, and rub each nipple with each hand.
it's like a weird auto-erotic stretching action.
what am i doing with my nipples? i'm feeling for nipple hairs that i need to pluck our when i get home! hehe.
do you guys get a lot of nipple hair? i have a fair amount, although you can't really see them because i'm really good and prompt about plucking them. but i just think that it's weird that the areola region sprouts follicles. and i can't seem to remember if my ex's had the same problem i do.
anyways, another thing i'm noticing about unwanted hairs is that my pubic hair region is sort of... spreading. like, i'm developing stray hairs here and there, and there are getting to be more and more outliers, even some that are approaching my bellybutton! wow!
last night, i was so stressed out over stuff that i let go of certain things that i had planned to do:
1) i let myself smoke more than usual
2) i let myself refrain from reading that last _time_ article
3) i let myself not listen to this new cd that i bought (it sucks)
little things like that alleviate my stress. of course, you could ask, "why bother with all these self-restraint issues anyway?"
well, that's just how i am. i guess living with tourette's, i have to restrain myself every single moment i'm awake. otherwise, i'd be ticcing the entire time, and i'd probably wind up tearing a muscle or breaking my collarbone or something. having TS/OCD equates to having a lot of "weird" urges that i have to supress all the fucking time.
i don't know if you can understand what i'm talking about or how i live, but i just wanted to touch on the subject. yep, my life is all about restraint. and forcing myself to do things that i don't always want to.
so yeah, part of this blog's history is gone. but like i said, my hits are down, and that's what bugs me the most. and THAT in itself disturbs me; how come i care so much about my hits? they are just numbers, right?
and on to other things that don't matter: fortune cookie fortunes! we went to a mongolian bbq place today for lunch, and i got this fortune that said something like, "soon you will acquire something that you have wanted."
and after reading that sentence, i got a blip of happiness in my system. but the thing is, it's just a fucking fortune cookie! i could have easily gotten some other random mundane generic comment about my future. so *blech* i think i am caring about insignificant things.
anyways, i just got an e-mail from the speedyweb guys, and they can't find any backup data for my archives. i'm going to follow up one more time, but if they still can't do anything, then that's it. my archives are lost. :(
so enough of complaining about my blog's sob story. i just gotta remember to back up my shit. which makes me wonder... what's the best way to back up my iMac at home? i'm mostly concerned about my music (12GB) and my photos (2GB) . (and maybe my porn (1.5GB), hehe) anyone have some tips on this? i.e. purchase a bunch of DVD-R's, or get a firewire hard disk?
i have this beatles song running in my head. and only lyrics that i know are "ooh aah ooh." helpful, huh?
oh, and in my desperation to blog last night, i set up a xanga account. i haven't posted any entries, though. and choccobo and track15 were both taken as usernames, so i chose:
SUPERFELCH!
hahahahaah. yup. as in, a powerful suckiing-force felching maneuver. beautiful, huh?
so now at least i can leave comments on my friends' xanga accounts, hehe.
well, the good news is that speedyweb offers backup restoration. the bad news is that their BACKUP server crashed, so they can't get everything back.
but the thing is, i'm not going to ask for a backup of the entire database; i don't want to fuck with merging a new database with an existing one and dealing with movabletype version number differences (i upgraded from 2.11 to 2.661), blah blah blah.
instead, i'm just going to ask for them to put the archive HTML files back. that way, the google searches will still work, and if you *really* want to look through the old stuff, you can do so manually by digging through my directories.
but man! my hits are REALLY low! (like half the usual amount!) now i have a better feel of how many true readers i have, instead of the true readers PLUS the internet pervs out there doing google searches.
man. reality.
i was so stressed out last night that i developed a cold sore. man, i *am* sensitive to stress, huh? :/
on a brighter note, movabletype runs really FAST now! hehe.